FSF, January-February 2010 (14 page)

When the ship was once more sunken into silence, Spar made his way to Sprit's side. He found her mute, with long golden runnels of sap encrusting her cheeks as if she had spent the day weeping. She brightened at the sound of his voice, and turned as far as she could to send him a smile.

"I heard you singing today,” he said.

"I'm glad,” she said. “They threatened awful things if I didn't stop, but I haven't felt the mood come over me in many years. A spell so rare I couldn't bear to waste it. It never occurred to me that they might hate my songs."

"They are hateful things,” said Spar. “And hate-filled. Miserable in their little lives. I wish...."

But it was such a strange thought that he stopped before he could finish it.

"Wish what, Spar?"

How odd it felt to say it: “I wish I could take you away from here. Even though it is selfish, almost a wish of the flesh ones—because it would mean taking you from your grove."

"I believe I divine your sentiment,” she said, “and I thank you for it. But you are right. Even if I were free to leave, I would be too torn. Who would care for the planks, were I to abandon them?"

"Would they even be aware of your absence?” Spar asked, hesitantly.

"I have no way of knowing. I must assume so, and comport myself accordingly. But I would go with you if I could. I have never met anything like you, Spar. I hate to think of the day we pull into port, and you go on where I can never follow."

"I as well,” said Spar. “I wish I could remain out here all day long, without a care to what the soft ones think. I don't fear for myself, you understand, but you...what might they do to you?"

"Let's not think of such things. We have the whole night before us. Will you hold my hand as you did last night? Did you feel how strange it was? As if we were growing together?"

"I thought only I felt that,” Spar whispered, and took her wooden hand with his hand of stone.

That night she sang a lullaby of the grove and a slumbering peace descended on the ship. The boards ceased creaking, their passage through the sea so steady that it almost seemed they were not moving. Forward, ever forward they flew, which meant morning rushed up to meet them and Spar was almost caught out in the open. As the crew stirred, groggy and cursing, he made his way by little flits of movement between the last shady crannies of night, finally back down into the hold. But today he had a plan, something to look forward to. His feelings for Sprit had made him bold.

Forsaking his previous position, he set himself where he could keep an eye on the odds and ends beneath the tarpaulin. If the throat-clearing visitor returned, he was perfectly poised to observe whatever occurred. Without such distraction to keep himself amused, the thought of another long day apart from Sprit would have been unbearable. As it was, he held himself in a private humor, and the waiting was delicious rather than otherwise.

The pattern played out as predicted. Late in the day there came a squeal of the hatch, followed by cautious footsteps. Before the hatch dropped, Spar caught sight of the visitor's face in a slanting beam of light from above. It was a young human, pock-faced, gangly, with bubbling breath and popping eyes. The boy went swiftly to the draped pile of cargo, folded it back, and began rummaging among the items. Spar leaned forward, ever so slightly, hoping to determine precisely which inanimate object had made the boy its slave. He clearly heard a hollow ponk as the wooden bowl was shifted.

At that moment, the fellow froze in an attitude of listening. Spar was quite sure he had made no detectable sound or movement; no pulse or respiration could betray him. A room with a gargoyle in it is exactly as quiet as an empty room. Yet the boy slowly craned his head around and stared straight into Spar's dark corner. His eyes popped even farther from their sockets, his skewed teeth glinted in a wet grimace, and he gulped loudly. Spar had tucked himself in with his hands on his knees, wings folded together, in hopes of looking like something that might have been inconspicuously stuck back here for several voyages. But still...the boy seemed preternaturally suspicious, senses heightened by guilt or shame, as if caught in the midst of some illicit activity and expecting apprehension.

The moment stretched out into gargoyle minutes: unchanging. Then, slowly, the boy put out a hand and pulled the tarp back over the cargo. Spar held still, braced for the boy's inspection, but it never came. He backed softly toward the steps, then ascended in a rush. The hatch banged shut.

Spar waited for repercussions, voices raised in outcry, feet pounding overhead...but nothing befell except the evening bell. He supposed the boy too embarrassed or ashamed to speak of his presence below deck. Humans were prisoners of strange inhibitions, visible in their complexion, which Spar could only describe superficially and despair of understanding.

The third night was one of quiet confessions. Sprit, knowing Spar hated missing the day's sights, had saved her recollections and spread them out for him—from the morning kekells that had swarmed the ship, crapping on her shoulders until she caught one and wrung its neck, to an afternoon visitation of deepridge finnies. She described how at sunset she had spied a mountain in the distance, shimmering and possibly unreal, a mirage; but also possibly marking the end of their journey. Spar wondered how he might contrive to stow away even longer, remaining with the ship from port to port. And both wondered aloud how they could feel this way—as if they had known each other always, and wished always to remain together. Songwood and quickstone, so unalike but sharing one soul.

She looked back at him as she always must, over her shoulder, out of the corner of her eye. It was frustrating—like seeing the moon always gibbous, never at full.

It was then she said, “The humans speak of love as if it were something only they possess."

"Of course they would,” said Spar. “It is more of that selfishness of theirs. As if the world did not exist before they entered it. But what is more ancient than stone? And which grew first, flesh or wood? If there is love, they must have stolen it from us."

"What do you mean, if there is love? Do you not feel it, Spar? Have you not felt it since the first night?"

He bowed to her slightly, remembering the quickening he'd felt the moment he first saw her dipping toward him out of the dark above the pier.

"It is true,” he said. “This is love, more ancient than flesh. I do love you."

"Oh, Spar, I—"

But she did not finish, for at that moment light flared upon her cheek and Spar's shadow leapt out across her. He turned and saw they had been discovered. A handful of men stood on the deck with lanterns suddenly uncovered.

"I told you!” said the phlegmy voice of the bug-eyed boy. “A gargoyle's aboard! That's why it was gone from the hold."

"Aye, it was up here consorting and all.” The captain spat. “You treacherous bitch. You repay us by betraying us?"

Sadness was in Sprit's eyes, and a fine old anger. “I have done nothing but the work of the ship,” she said evenly. “This is no business of yours. My private life is not your concern."

"You have no private life!” the captain sneered. “You are my creature. And now you've brought evil aboard! This explains our long run of bad luck, don't it? How long have you been harboring this devil?"

"I owe you no explanation,” she said.

The captain clomped forward. “Take the thing, men,” he said. “Overboard with it."

No one moved, nor did Spar, but he found his voice. “I have done no evil, nor mean you any. But it will take more than this number to move me if I do not will it."

"No evil? You've perverted my bowmaid! She had no thought of else until this time. Where now will she steer my ship?"

"Away from all hazards, I'd wager, unless you force her into them. You needn't look to us for evil explanations when plenty hide here among you. Ask your cabin-lad there. Him! Ask him what he gets up to, down in the hold."

The boy began to gasp and stammer and his eyes nearly came unsprung. Spurred by his reaction, Spar stabbed the knife in deeper:

"Yes, you ask him what he's up to with the salad bowl!"

For a moment, so blank were their eyes, he wondered if he had hit far wide of the mark—guessed recklessly with regard to human passions. No one moved. Yet in the next moment, the captain let out a growl: “Never mind him, lads—he's just trying to baffle us!"

The pipsqueak shrieked, and then they were rushing heedless at Spar. All he did was raise his arm to sweep them aside, and three men went down with cracked skulls. Standing his ground came naturally to Spar. But a weakness new to him appeared suddenly in the fray.

"Please,” Sprit cried, “please, he's done nothing but keep me company in the night! He is kind, that is all!"

The captain rose from the deck, rubbing his forehead, the cabin boy laid out cold beside him.

"Leave the goyle, men. I know what to do. We can trust the bitch no longer. I want my shipwrights here, double! And tell ‘em to bring their tools!"

Feet scurried off. By now there was no one left snoring in the depths of the ship. All were on deck, marveling at the scene, laughing, cursing. At the edge of the sea, a pearly orange glow betokened morning. A dozen men moved toward Spar, but they fell back when he spread his wings. Meanwhile, others worked their way out onto the bowsprit, along the prow; and these were men with saws and axes.

"Cut her loose, men! She's brought us nothing but evil anyroad!"

Sprit's lips were fastened tight, fiercely clenched, as they began to saw and chop into the pale wood low along her body, where the lovely lines of her figure smoothed into the stockier lines of the ship. Spar tried swatting at the men but they were just out of reach; they were agile and limber as apes, after all, and this was hardly his natural habitat.

"Stay, Spar!” she called, seeing his agitation. “It hurts me not. Look to yourself!"

"I care only for you!” he said, and the crew laughed for the most part, although a few stared at him, perplexed.

The last deep cuts were made, and her fate decided. Sprit sagged forward with a splintering sound.

"Farewell, my grove! Wood of my wood!” She bent so far that her face almost touched the water. “Farewell, Spar!"

And then, with a cry, she dropped. A long splintered stake was all that remained of the ship's figurehead.

The crew let up a cheer.

"What now, goyle?” said the captain, thrusting an ax toward Spar, but not so close that he might chip the blade.

Spar did not hesitate. The ship forged on no matter what might have been said, and Sprit was being borne away with every passing second. He moved quickly aft, plowing through the men who didn't clear a path fast enough, and finally put himself just above her. She was floating with her face in the water, her arms held close before her, her ragged stump unmoving.

Spar jumped.

His weight carried them both beneath the waves, but by the time she realized what had hit her, Spar was losing his grip. She struggled to face him, flailed for his hands, but it was too late. Their fingers failed to clasp. He was sinking fast, like the stone he was, while her natural buoyancy sent her rocketing back to the surface. She breached the ocean's face and leapt free, then settled back in a foamy surge to stare down helplessly after him. Spar sank into ever darker waters. She floated in light, a tiny shape waving to him...or so he thought. The blackness of the depths was such it must have hidden him before too long. But he could still see her for quite some time. The evil oblate blot of the ship, at the end of a long rippled wake, rushed forward. She drifted along behind it, carried freely by currents he would have to work to follow.

At last he hit bottom, and though he grieved to find himself in a vast plain of sludge and rock, he never allowed his gaze to waver. The day so far above was brightening, and against it he could barely see her pale loveliness adrift. Spar began his forward trudge, moving against the gathered weight of the sea, never taking his eyes away from her. She must have been caught in a strong current, for no matter how fast he traveled, she seemed to be always pulling ahead. Then again, her path was smooth and simple, while his was choked with pipes of gnarled rock, huge mats of tangled algae, toppled temples and sunken cities full of blind alleys and slimy cul-de-sacs. Every obstacle was an occasion for wrath. No matter how quickly he conquered each, he sensed her pulling away. The ship was long gone. Eventually night came, matching the upper world to the one below. The darkness around him felt no different than what filled him. But he never despaired. He marched on.

At some point he discovered he was falling again—a plunge so protracted that in comparison, his initial fall from the ship seemed like that of a pebble tossed into shallows. Some abyss had swallowed him. Down there, where he landed at the deepest reach of darkness, he found thickened pools of light and heat. The blood of the Deepweller oozed from cracks in the ocean's floor, giving him strength and resolve, sending him on his way with greater purpose.

He began to count his steps, assigning a duration to each, and that way tallying the accumulation of hours into days. When he found an obstruction in his path, he climbed it. Sometimes it was nothing, a collapsed pile of stones, a sunken hulk. But then there came a wall he climbed for a week. And when he had surmounted it, the skin of the sea was so close that he broke through within hours and found himself staring up at stars.

A pale strand stretched ahead of him, limitless and gently curving. The ocean current flowed along the shore like a river, breaking against jagged searocks, dragging snarls of tangledrift. He followed the litoral margin through the rest of the night, and as dawn broke he began to feel something close to panic.

Caught in the mats of tide-flung wrack were broken boards of a particular sandy pale color that instantly evoked the wood of his beloved. Spar moved as quickly as he could on the packed gray sand. In the brightening day, he saw torn violet sails among teeth of rock. He saw the splintered prow of a ship that had already been mutilated by the hands of its captain. And there hung the swollen body of the captain himself, impaled on the ragged stake that had once borne Spar's beloved. Plentiful boards floated and bobbed in the waves, but just as numerous were the bloated bodies of men, eaten to the bone by crabs, blown to putrefaction by sandflies and waterfleas. He paid no mind to any of these, but pushed on until against all hope he saw white shoulders bobbing in a tidal pool, half buried in kelp, face down among the anemones. With a cry, Spar turned her over and found her staring up at him, smiling, as if she had expected him all along.