From Here to Eternity (3 page)

it was like getting a wound stripe. They said that in Nicaragua they used to give out Purple Hearts. But officially it hurt your Service Record, and it automatically lost you your rating. On your papers it put a stigma on you. When he put in to get back in the Bugle Corps, he found that while he was away they had suddenly gone overstrength. He went back on straight duty for the rest of his enlistment. Already the other people were beginning to come into it. It seemed that any man could drive a car, but the only man who never had a wreck was the guy who drove not only for himself but for the other driver too. When his time was up they tried to re-enlist him for the same outfit, there at Myer. He wanted that hundred and fifty dollar bonus, but he wanted to get as far away from there as he could go. That was why he picked Hawaii. He went up once, to see his society girl before he left. He had heard guys say they would kill any woman who gave them the clap; or they would go out and give it to every woman they could lay; or they would beat her up until she wished she had of died. But having the clap did not make him bitter against all women or anything like that. It was a chance you took with every woman, white, black or yellow. What disillusioned him, what he did not understand, was that this of the clap should have cost him his bugle when he still could play it just as well as ever, and also that a society girl had given it to him. And what made him mad was that she did not tell him first and leave it up to him to choose, then it would not have been her fault. He found out, that last time he went to see her, after he had convinced her he was not going to beat her up, that she had not known she'had it. After she saw he wouldnt hit her, she cried and she was very sorry. It was a society boy she had known since she was a kid. She was disillusioned, too. And she was having a hell of a time getting herself cured, and on the sly, so her parents would not know. And she was truly very sorry. When he arrived in Schofield Barracks he was still very bitter about the bugle. It was this that made him go back to fighting, here in the Pineapple Army where fighting was even more prolific than it was at Myer. That was his error, but it did not seem so then. The bitterness about the bugle, added to all the other bitternesses, gave him something. Also he had put on more weight and filled out more until he was a welterweight. He won the Company Smoker championship of the 27th and for that he got a corporalcy. Then he went on, when the Division season opened, to make Schofield Class I and become the runner-up in the welterweight division. For that, and because they expected him to win it the next year, he got a sergeantcy. Also, the bitternesses in some subtle way seemed to make him more likeable to every one, although he never did quite figure that one out. Everything would probably have gone on like that indefinitely, since he had convinced himself that bugling was nothing, had it not been for that deathbed promise to his mother and for Dixie Wells. And actually it happened after the season was over. Perhaps it was his temperament, but he seemed to have a very close working alliance with irony. Dixie Wells was a middleweight who loved boxing and lived for boxing. He had enlisted because business was not so good for fighters during the Depression, and because he wanted time to mature his style and season it without being overmatched in some ham and egger, and without having to live on the beans a ham and egger has to eat while he is trying to work up to the big time. He planned to come out of the Army and go right into the upper brackets. A lot of people on the Outside had their eye on him and he was already having fights downtown in Honolulu at the Civic Auditorium. Dixie liked to work with Prewitt because of the other's speed and Prewitt learned a lot from Dixie. They worked together often. Dixie was a heavy middle, but then Prewitt was a heavy welter. They are very professional about those things in the Army; they keep every pound that they can squeeze; they always figure a man for ten pounds more than what he weighs in at when they match him; they dry him out and then after he has weighed in they feed him steak and lots of water. It was Dixie who asked him to work this time, because he had a fight coming up downtown. Also, it was Dixie who wanted to use the six ounce gloves, and they never wore headgear anyway. Things like that happen more often than any one suspects. Prew knew that, and there was no reason why he should feel guilty. He had known a wizard lightweight at Myer who also had a future. Until he went into a civilian gym half-tight one night and wanted to put them on. They used new gloves, and the man who tied them on forgot to cut the metal tips off the laces. Gloves often come untied. This was like the old kid game of crack the whip, a wrist flick drove the metal into the wizard lightweight's eye like an arrow into a target. The fluid of his eye ran down over his cheek and he had to buy a glass one, and as a wizard lightweight he was through. Things like that just happen, every now and then. Prew was set, flat on his feet when he caught Dixie wide with this no more than ordinarily solid cross. Dixie just happened to be standing solid too. Maybe he had heard something. From the way he fell, dead weight, a falling ingot or a sack of meal dropped from the haymow that shudders the barn and bursts its own seams, Prew knew. Dixie lit square on his face and did not roll over. Fighters do not light on their faces any more than judo men. Prew jerked back his hand and stared at it, like a kid who touched the stove. Then he went downstairs to get the Doc. Dixie Wells was in a coma for a week but he finally came out of it. The only thing was that he was blind. The doctor at the Station Hospital said something about concussion and a fracture, a pressure on or injury to a nerve. Prew went up to see him twice but after the second time he could not go back. The second time they got to talking about fighting and Dixie cried. It was seeing the tears coming out of those eyes that could not see that made him stay away. Dixie did not hate him, nor was he bitter, he was just unhappy. As soon as he was able, he told Prew that last time, they would ship him back to the States, to an old soldier's home, or to one of Hines's VA hospitals which was even worse. Prew had seen a lot of those things happen. If you hang around any profession long enough you will learn about the things the brethren never talk about to the public. But just seeing them had been like it is with getting wounded, this man's handless arms have no relation to yourself, it happens to the other guy, but never you. He felt a great deal like an amnesia case must feel, upon waking in some foreign land where he had never been and hears the language that he cannot understand, having only a vague, dream-haunted picture of how he ever got there. How came you here? he asks himself, among these strange outlandish people? but is afraid to listen to the answer himself gives him back. My god! he wondered. Are you a misfit? What happened to you does not bother any of these others. Why should you be so different? But fighting had never been his calling, bugling was his calling. For what reason then was he here, posing as a fighter? It would probably, after Dixie Wells, have been the same whether or not he had been haunted by his promise to his mother. But the old, ingenuous, Baptist-like promise was the clincher. Because the uninitiated boy had taken it, not like a Baptist, but literally. One way, he thought, the whole thing of ring fighting was hurting somebody else, deliberately, and particularly when it was not necessary. Two men who have nothing against each other get in a ring and try to hurt each other, to provide vicarious fear for people with less guts than themselves. And to cover it up they called it sport and gambled on it. He had never looked at it that way before, and if there was any single thing he could not endure it was to be a dupe. Since the boxing season was already over he could have, waited until next December before he told them his decision. He could have kept his mouth shut and rested on his hard-earned laurels, until the time came round again to prove his right to them. But he was not honest enough to do a thing like that. He was not honest enough to dupe them, when he himself refused to be their dupe. He had not the makings of that honest man to whom success comes naturally. At first when he told them why he was quitting they would not believe him. Then, later when they saw that it was true, they decided he had only been in the sport for what he could get out of it and did not love it like they did, and with righteous indignation had him busted. Then, still later, when he did not come around, they really did not understand it. They began to build him up then, they began to heckle him, they called him in and talked to him man to man, told him how good he was, explained what hope we have in you and are you going to let us down, enumerated what he owed the regiment, showed him how he ought to be ashamed. It was then they really began not to let him alone. And it was then he transferred. He transferred to this other regiment because it had the best Bugle Corps in the Lower Post. He did not have any trouble. As soon as they heard him play they got him transferred quick. They had really, truly, wanted a good bugler there.

CHAPTER 3

AT EIGHT O'CLOCK that same morning, when Prewitt was still packing, First Sergeant Milton Anthony Warden came out from the Orderly Room of G Company. The Orderly Room opened onto a well-waxed corridor that ran from the porch inside the quad to the Dayroom that was on the outside street. Warden stopped in the corridor doorway and leaned against the jamb, smoking, his hands jammed deep in his pockets, watching the Company lining up for drill with rifles and web belts in the dustless early morning. He stood a moment in the sun rays slanting in on him from the east, and feeling the coolness that was already seeping away from what would be a hot day again. The spring rainy season would be breaking soon now, but until it did it would be hot and parched in February, just as it was hot and parched in December, and then when the rainy season broke it would be very damp, and chill in the night, and the saddlesoap would be out and fighting desperately against the mould on all the leather. He had just finished the Sickbook and the Morning Report, and sent them out and now he was smoking a cigaret in laziness, watching the Company go out because he was glad he did not go out, before he went into the Supply Room to work hard again, this time at work that was not his. He threw the cigaret in the flat iron pot painted red and black, the Regimental colors, and watched the tail end of the Company move out the truck entrance and out of sight, then stepped down onto the slick concrete of the porch and walked along it to the Supply Room's open door. Milton Anthony Warden was thirty-four years old. In the eight months he had been topkicker of G Company he had wrapped that outfit around his waist like a money belt and buttoned his shirt over it. At intervals he liked to remind himself of this proud fact. He was a veritable demon for work; he liked to remind himself of that, too. He had also pulled this slovenly organization out of the pitfalls of lax administration. In fact, when he thought about it, and he often did, he had never met a man who was as amazingly adept at anything he put his hand to as was Milton Anthony Warden. "The monk in his cell," he taunted, entering the open one of the double doors. After the brilliant sunlight he had to pause and let his eyes adjust to the windowless Supply Room where two electric bulbs like burning tears dangling from the ends of chains increased the gloom. Ceiling-high cupboards, shelves and stacks of crates closed in heavily on the homemade desk where First-Fourth Leva, wry and bloodless as if the perpetual gloom of his castle had been transfused into his. veins, sat, his thin nose greasy in a pool of light from the desk lamp, laboriously typing with two fingers. "With a suit of sackcloth and a tub of ashes," said Warden, whom a fond mother had named for St. Anthony, "you could get yourself canonized tomorrow, Niccolo." "Go to hell," said Leva, not looking up or stopping. "Has that new transfer showed up yet?" "Saint Niccolo of Wahiawa," Warden plagued him. "Dont you ever get tired of this life? I bet you got leather mould all over your balls." "Has he showed? or not?" Leva said. "I got his papers ready." "Not yet," Warden leaned his elbows on the counter, "and for my dough I hope he never does." "Why not?" Leva asked, innocently. "I hear he's a damn good soldier." "He's a hardhead," Warden said, amiably. "I know him. A goddam hardhead. Have you been over to Wahiawa to Big Sue's lately? Her girls will fix that mould up for you. They got good saddlesoap, homemade." "How can I?" Leva said. "On what you people pay me? I hear that this Prewitt is quite a fighter," he teased, "that he will be a fine addition to Dynamite's menagerie." "That he will be another worthless mouth for me to feed," Warden said. "Did you hear that too? Why not? I'm used to it. Its too bad he had to wait till February, till the ending of the boxing season. Now he'll have to wait till next December for his sergeantcy." "You poor, poor, unhappy man," Leva said, "that everybody takes advantage of." He leaned back and waved his hand at the piles of equipment stacked everywhere and that he had been working on for three days now. "I'm glad I got a nice soft easy well-paid job." "A goddam hardhead," Warden lamented, grinning, "a worthless Kentuckian, but who will be a corporal in six weeks, but who will still be a worthless goddam hardhead." "But a good bugler though," Leva said. "I've heard him. A damn good bugler. The best bugler on the Post," he said, grinning. Warden banged his fist down on the counter. "Then he should of stayed in the Bugle Corps," he shouted, "instead of fouling up my outfit." He flung back the folding countertop, kicked open the plywood door and went inside the counter, threading through the piles of shirts and pants and leggins on the floor. Leva ducked his head back down to his typewriter and began to poke it, snuffling softly through his long thin nose. "Have you got this goddam clothing issue stuff closed out yet?" Warden raged at him. "What the hell you think I am?" Leva asked, still laughing silently. "A goddam supply clerk, whose job is to get this stuff done instead of gossipping about transfers all the time. You should have had this done two days ago." "Tell it to Supply Sergeant O'Hayer," Leva said, "I'm only the clerk here." Warden stopped his raging as suddenly as he had started it and looking at Leva with a speculative shrewdness scratched his chin and grinned. "Has your illustrious mentor, Mister O'Hayer, been in this morning yet?" "What do you think?" Leva said. He unwound his jerked-leather frame from around the desk and lit a cigaret. "Well," Warden said. "I would be inclined to say no. Just as a guess." "Well," Leva said. "You would be entirely right," Warden grinned at him. "Well, after all, its only eight. You cant expect a man of his station, and with his cares, to get up at eight o'clock with clerks like you." "Its a joke to you," Leva said, peevishly. "You can laugh about it. Its no joke to me." "Maybe he was counting the take," Warden grinned, "from his game in the sheds last night. I bet you wish you had a nice easy life like that." "I wish I had ten percent of the dough he takes in every payday in that shed," Leva said, thinking of the maintenance sheds across the street from the dayroom where every month, when they had moved out the 37 millimeters and the machine gun carts and all the rest of it, most of the money in the Lower Post finally wound up and where, of the four sheds, O'Hayer's always had the biggest take. "I understood," said Warden, "that he give you almost that much to do his work here for him." Leva gave him a withering look and Warden chuckled. "I believe you," Leva said. "Next thing, you'll be askin me for a cut on what he give me, or else have me busted." "Now thats an idea," Warden grinned. 'Thanks. I'd of never thought of that." "It wont be so goddam funny," Leva said grimly, "some day. Some day when I transfer the hell out and leave you with this supplyroom in your lap with nobody to do the work but O'Hayer who dont know a Form 32 from a 33." "You'll never transfer out of this Compny," Warden scoffed. "If you was to go outdoors before sundown you'd be blind as a bat. This supplyroom's in your blood. You couldnt leave it if you had to." "Oh," Leva said. "Is that the way it is? I'm gettin tard of doin the supply sergeant's work while Jim O'Hayer gets the credit and the money because he's Dynamite's number one lightheavy and pays off in Regiment to run that shed. He aint even a good fighter." "He's a good gambler, though," Warden said indifferently. "Thats what counts." "He's a good gambler, all right. The mother sucker. I wonder how much, in addition to Regiment, he gives Dynamite every month." "Why, Niccolo," Warden chortled. "You know such a thing is illegal. It says so in the ARs." "Fuck the ARs," Leva said, his face congested. "I'm telling you, some day he's gonna make me mad. I could transfer out tomorrow and get a supplyroom of my own. I've been inquiring around some lately. M Company lookin for a supply man, Milt." He stopped suddenly, aware he had let loose a secret he had not intended to divulge, aware that Warden had needled him into it. His face a mixture of start and sullenness he swung back to his desk in silence. Warden, catching the fleeting look on Leva's face, making a careful mental note of this new thing he had discovered and must find some way to combat if he wanted to keep his supply-room running, stepped over to the desk and said, "Dont worry, Niccolo. Things wont be this way forever. I got some irons in that fire myself," he hinted broadly. "You ought to have that rating, and you'll get it. You're doin all the work. I aim to see you get it," he said, soothingly. "But you wont," Leva said grudgingly. "Not while Dynamite is the CC. Not as long as O'Hayer is on his boxing squad and pays his rent to Regiment. You're hooked through the bag and you cant get off." "You mean you dont trust me?" Warden said, indignantly. "Dint I tell you I got an angle?" "I aint no ree-croot," Leva said. "I dont trust nobody. I been in this man's army thirteen years." "How you comin with this stuff?" Warden said, pointing to one of several stacks of forms. "You need some help?" "Hell, no," Leva said. "I dont need no help." He thumbed a pile of forms four fingers deep. "I hardly get enough work to keep me busy. Thats why my morale is low. You know: like the Personnel boys say: No work for idle hands hurts the morale." "Gimme half them," Warden said, with mock weariness. "Along with everything else I got to suffer, I got to be supply clerk." He took the forms that Leva handed him and grinned and winked down at the cadaverous Italian. "Two good men like us can get this done today," he said, noting Leva was not swallowing the flattery. "I don't know where the hell I'd be if I didnt have you in this outfit, Niccolo." He didn't believe that about the angle, either, Warden thought, any more than you did. You cant snow an old bull like him with promises, you have to put it on the personal basis, you have to work on his friendship, on his pride. "We get this done," he said, "and you'll have a rest for a month or two. You're as bad as the kitchen force, Niccolo. Always threatening to quit because Preem is the mess sergeant. But they never do. A rifle scares them to death." He laid the pile of forms out on the counter, separating them into neat piles he could work from. From the corner he pulled a high stool and sat down at the counter and pulled out his old pen. "I wouldnt blame them none," Leva said, "if they did quit." "Well, they wont. I wish to hell they would. And you wont either, but not for the same reason. You couldnt quit me, Niccolo, and leave me in the lurch. You're as big a fool as I am. "Yeah? You watch me, Milt. You just watch me," but the timbre of his voice had changed; it was no longer serious but taunting. Warden snorted at him. "Lets work. Or I'll make you re-enlist." "In a pig's asshole," Leva said, completing the chant. Oh, Milton, Warden thought, what a son of a bitch you are, what a fine lyin son of a bitch. You'd sell your own mother to Lucky Luciano if it would secure the hatches on this outfit. You'll lie and cajole poor old Niccolo into staying, just to make your supply efficient. You've lied so much now, he told himself, you dont know whats true and what aint. And all because you want to make your company Superior. You mean Holmes's company, he thought. 'Dynamite' Holmes, boxing coach, horseman, and number one brownnoser with our Great White Father Colonel Delbert. Its his company, not yours. Why dont you let him do it? Why dont you let him sacrifice his soul upon the altar of efficiency? Yes, he thought, why dont you? Why dont you get out of it? When are you going to get out of it and save your self-respect? Never, he told himself. Because its been so long now you're afraid to find out if you've still got the self-respect to save. Have you got it? he asked himself. No, Milton, no, I dont think you have. Thats why you dont get out of it. You're hooked through the bag, like Leva said. He turned to the forms before him and went to work with that wild swift energy that is one hundred percent efficient, that makes no errors, and gets the work done so fast and sure that you are not even there, you are some place else and when you come back you see the work is done but you did not do it; the same energy with which Niccolo Leva behind him was working. They were still working an hour later when O'Hayer came in. He stood momentarily in the bright doorway, a wide shouldered shadow adjusting his eyes, and an aura of chill seemed to come in with him that killed the warm gush of energy for work that had been in the others. O'Hayer looked at the paper and equipment scattered around distastefully. "This place looks like hell," he said. "We've got to clean this place up, Leva." He moved to come in through the counter and Warden had to move all his papers and get up so O'Hayer could pass through. He watched the tall dapper Irishman step with the lithe delicacy of a fighter over the piles of equipment and lean down to peer over Leva's shoulder. O'Hayer was wearing one of his hand-tailored uniforms that were made for him in Honolulu and upon which the three stripes of sergeant had been hand-embroidered. Warden put his stuff back on the counter and went back to work. "How you coming, Leva?" O'Hayer said. Leva looked up wryly. "So-so, Sergeant. So-so." "Thats good. We're late, you know." O'Hayer's smile was easy, his dark eyes unchanged before the irony. Leva looked at him a moment and went back to work. O'Hayer took a turn around the small space, looking at the piles of equipment, turning some things over, straightening a pile or two. "These things are going to have to be separated for size," he said. "They already been separated," Warden said, without looking up. "Where were you when the shit hit the fan?" "They have?" O'Hayer said easily. "Well, we'll have to find a place for them. Cant leave them lying here. They'll be getting in everybody's way." "They may get in your way," Warden said, pleasantly. "They dont get in mine." This was a delicate situation, and he felt he had to restrain himself. Every time he talked to Jim O'Hayer it was a delicate situation, he thought. Delicate situations always irritated him. If they insisted on him being a supply sergeant, why didnt they send him to a goddamned school? "I want you to get this stuff up off the floor," O'Hayer said to Leva. "The Old Man wont like it, messy like this. This place is crummy." Leva leaned back from his desk and sighed. "Okay, Sergeant," he said. "You want me to do it now?" "Sometime today," O'Hayer said. He turned back to the room and began to look in all the big square pigeonholes. Warden put his mind back on the work with difficulty, feeling he should have spoken up just now, irritated because he