Forever summer (Summer # 4) (17 page)

Oh, great, even Adam the unreliable had managed to get an engagement card. I really was a massive flake.

“Sure,” I said, taking the envelope.

Adam nodded, before turning the corner and into the great unknown.

***

The wishing well was the elaborate centrepiece to the photo table. A table aligned with a giant canvas of photos constructed of Tess and Toby, ranging from birth, school, the awkward adolescent stage all the way through to being together. Toby’s journey started on the left and Tess’s began on the right, coming together in a series of photos until they met in the middle. It was really lovely. There were a stack of photos of Toby with his mates, camping, fishing, water skiing, the Onslow Boys in all their glory, and there were dozens of photos of me, Tess and Adam, on camp, at the movies, at the lake, at a party. We were so young and every image brought back an old memory until my eyes drifted to the middle, where there was a group photo from our New Year’s road trip to Point Shank. There we were, all posing for the camera, all the girls sitting on a log, with all the boys standing behind. Stan behind Bel doing the rabbit ears. Sean behind Amy with her in a loving headlock. Toby with his hands on Tess’s shoulders, Chris with Ringer in a wrestle behind a very worried-looking Tammy, and then me sitting on the end, on Adam’s lap, my arms linked around his neck, my mouth frozen in an elated open-mouth pose. I remember it because the camera was on a timer, the poses so spur of the moment. I remember Adam grabbing me and pulling me onto his lap, his bony fingers delving into my rib cage deliberately making me squirm and laugh so come the time the photo clicked I had the most ridiculous look on my face, one that he was copying with mock horror. I laughed, shaking my head: such a smart arse.

“It turned out great, didn’t it?”

I turned to see Amy standing next to me, admiring the wall of photos. She looked amazingly calm and serene considering she helped pull off the surprise party of the century. Amy was not known for her cool, calm, collected manner. I had had enough dealings with Adam’s younger cousin working at the Onslow Hotel to know how she operated. But ever since her and Sean became an item, Amy seemed to mature overnight.

“It’s fantastic, did you do all this?” I asked, looking back at the photo wall in awe.

“Meh, I had a bit of help; oh, okay, a lot of help, actually.” She smiled.

“Well, it’s amazing!”

“Thanks. Oooh, what do we have here?”

Amy’s attention snapped to the envelope I was holding. “Oh, Adam’s card, he wanted me to put it in the wishing well for him.”

“Oh, cool, let me see.”

Amy snatched it from my hands. “I love seeing what boys write in cards, they are either complete cavemen or really mushy.”

“Umm, and probably kind of private, I’m guessing,” I said, feeling rather uncomfortable.

“My theory is, if the envelope is sealed, then private; if tucked in, fair game. Oooh, nice one, Adam, two hundred bucks, not a tight arse.”

So much for recent thoughts on her maturity, I thought, as I watched Amy opening the card with her midnight-blue painted nails.

“Ugh, boring, though. To Toby and Tess, wishing you all the happiness on this day and always, lots of love Adam and Ellie.”

I froze. For a long, confused moment.

Without even thinking I snatched the card from Amy’s hands; was she joking? After all, she was Sean Murphy’s girlfriend, I wouldn’t put it past her. But as my eyes ticked over the card, there it was, loud and clear in Adam’s printed, boyish handwriting.

‘Adam and Ellie’

I could feel the tears well in my eyes, as I read it over and over again.

“Ellie, you okay?”

I nodded, sniffing and smiling, taking the card and money and shoving it back into the envelope. “I’m fine,” I said, licking the envelope and sealing it properly before placing it into the wishing well.

“You sure?” Amy looked at me as if she wasn’t quite buying it.

I looked up at the board, of the group photo, zoning in on Adam and me.

“I’m perfect.”

Chapter Twenty

Meh, catch the bus? I don’t think so; you see, I had connections, I knew people. And the trip back travelling in the back of Tess’s parents’ car with Tess and Toby was far less traumatic than what the trip back would have been with a drunken horde of people.

The ride was very chilled, the radio playing Carole King softly as we travelled in silence; it was so relaxing Toby nodded off. Tess elbowed me to point out the fact. Poor fella, he must be exhausted having helped pull off the biggest kept secret; wait a minute, come to think about it, I was pretty sure that as far as secrets went mine was a pretty well kept one, one that was about to be shared with Tess. Well, perhaps not with her parents in the front seat, but soon, real soon.

“What are you doing tomorrow? Do you want to do brunch before I head back?”

“Brunch? That’s very ambitious of you, I thought you would be sleeping in for sure,” Tess mused.

“Well, I won’t be sporting a chronic hangover so I am very optimistic.”

“Oh, yeah. I didn’t see you drink much, did you have a good night?” Tess winced, as if me not drinking was something to worry about.

“Actually, I had a great night. I see things with a new clarity.”

“Oh, really?”

“Yep! You and Toby are the sweetest, most lovely couple who ever existed.”

“Aww,” Tess pouted.

“Ringer has a heart, Sean is a smart arse, Amy is a snoop, Megsy is a psycho and …”

“Adam?”

“Adam is Adam.” I shrugged; I didn’t want to go there, not until our brunch tomorrow.

“Well, I could have told you all that.” Tess laughed. “Especially that part about me and Toby.”

“What about how incredibly modest you are?”

“Yeah, that too.”

We giggled in the back seat like the days of old, the days when either Tess or my parents would pick us up from a blue light disco and we would gossip all the way home.

It was well after midnight by the time the McGees’ Volvo circled wide and directly in front of the Onslow Hotel steps, the illuminated Carlton Draught sign the only sign of life in all its illuminated, bug-infested wonder.

“How you going to get in?” asked Tess’s mum.

“It’s all right, I’ll go the back way, through the beer garden; it’s always left opened for late-night creepers and, come to think of it, potential murderers.”

“Charming.”

“Thanks for the ride, I’ll see YOU tomorrow,” I said, giving Tess a poignant look before sliding out of the car and trying my best not to slam the door to wake Toby.

“Night,” Tess mouthed through the glass, blowing kisses.

I watched the lights disappear down Coronary Hill before turning to head through the side entrance of the beer garden. Even in the dead of night the beer garden was well lit these days, unlike before where you literally took your life into your own hands when you blindly fumbled your way through the obstacle course in complete darkness. I made my way with ease, taking the back garden staircase up to the second level toward the back door entrance. Considering there were still elements of tonight that worried me, I tried not to dwell on them. Instead, I opened the door and made my way down the darkened hall like I had done many times before. I could always navigate my way to Adam’s room even in the pitch black. I stilled in front of Adam’s room noticing a slither of light escaping underneath the door. I couldn’t hear anything save the beating of my heart in my ears. My hand rested on the handle but I didn’t turn it. For some reason I hesitated, knowing that inside there would only be the two of us, just like we were in the boat, right before he was about to tell me something, something that would change everything, it just had that kind of feeling about it. Now I wished I was drunk, then I could blame my reaction on an altered state instead of what I was likely to come out with.

Oh God, why was this so hard?

I couldn’t avoid him forever; in fact, I thought, squaring my shoulders, regardless of what he had to tell me, it was important for him to know how I felt too. If I was honest about that then I wouldn’t have to be writing soppy ‘what if?’ entries in my diaries for years to come. I had to stop being a coward and lingering at doors; I needed to just put it out there, everything on the table, no more secrecy, even if I was in danger of losing him, straining our friendship. I couldn’t keep going on like this. I had to move on one way or another and the thought of going back to the city tomorrow with all this unresolved and not knowing when I would be back, well, I just didn’t think I could bear it.

Taking in a deep, calming breath, I turned the handle, finding the courage somehow to push it open, only to freeze, stock-still in place as I took in the sight before me.

“Oh, hell, no!”

My blood ran cold, barely believing that there in my bed, passed out, was Megsy Swanston.

“You’ve got to be kidding me.”

When I had insisted Adam sort this out I didn’t mean for him to put her in my bed; well, his bed but still, after the way she had spoken to me I didn’t want her anywhere near me, and especially nowhere near Adam. Speaking of, where the hell was he? I guess I should have been relieved that he wasn’t in the bed too, but it still didn’t stop my blood from boiling.

Never a bad word to say about precious Megsy.

Well, I was done, I had done my good deed by going to the engagement party, I didn’t have to stand around and be kicked out of my own bed by her. I grabbed my bag, not making any effort to be quiet as I shoved all my clothes back into it, picking up my hair brush, deodorant, makeup off the dresser. Meg stirred in her sleep, her face twisting as she rolled over, mumbling, “Turn off the light.” I swear to God, if there had been a glass of water nearby.

I zipped up my bag, shrugging it onto my shoulder, and headed back out the door, making sure to leave the light on as I made my way back down the hall in the same direction, ready to kiss this night and the weekend goodbye.

***

Bless my parents’ predictability: spare key under pot plant saw me sleeping in my childhood room instead of on a park bench. A childhood room that had been quickly converted into a sewing room. I was glad that they were away for the weekend, I really didn’t need the lecture right now in comparing my life to Tess like they always seemed to do. It was quite clear as a case study that, yes, Tess had her life figured out: a sound further education, that led into a great job as a pharmacist, a stable relationship, even well travelled. And here I was, lying in my bed, staring at the ceiling, wiping tears of frustration from my eyes. Tomorrow I would be gone and the way I felt, the burden of the heaviness in my chest had me thinking it couldn’t come soon enough. Despite the rather grim end to my weekend I fell into a deep, dreamless sleep, a welcome refuge from the constant overworking of my mind. I was awakened only by the sound of my mobile buzzing next to my bracelet that I took off every night; the combination of vibrating mobile and rattling jewellery had me moving quickly to put a stop to the sound and discover that the name Tess was lit up across my screen and that brunch had well and truly led into lunch.

Oh crap!

“Hello?” I croaked.

“Where the hell are you?”

My mouth felt like cotton, my voice was still crackly from sleep. “I’m at home.”

“Maitland?”

“Hmm? Oh no, no. Home-home, Mum and Dad’s place.” I yawned.

“Well, thanks for telling me, I have been waiting in the bar for the last forty-five minutes.”

I winced. “Sorry, it was a spur-of-the-moment decision.”

“Okay, save the story for when I get there, see you soon.”

“No, Tess wa—”

But it was too late, the phone went dead.

“Craaap!” I threw the phone onto my mattress, rubbing my eyes. I didn’t have time for brunch, or lunch, or whatever this was. I had already missed the  afternoon bus, and now wouldn’t be able to leave until the six o’clock bus that would have me arriving back in Maitland even later. I was so annoyed with myself.

Ripping the blankets from myself, I navigated my way past the cane baskets full of material, the exercise machine and boxes of old videos. Wow, it really hadn’t taken them long to work out a use for my room. I guess they really didn’t count on me coming back too often. Unlike Tess’s parents who had kept their daughter’s room like a shrine to her childhood, mine had completely eradicated any evidence of me at all. Maybe it was just because they didn’t know I would be dropping in, that’s all, that if I had come home with their knowledge Mum would have surely stocked the fridge with my favourites and put freshly washed linen on my bed. Alas, no; I sighed, opening the fridge to discover a punnet of cherry tomatoes and some ravioli pasta in a container with a bottle of wine on the shelf. Mum would have done the customary cleanout before they went away. Lunch was looking very bleak indeed; the rumbling in my belly told me as much. Since food was obviously not going to be my traditional start to the day I thought I would at least freshen up my rather insipid mood with a nice hot shower, spruce myself up in the hope that I would ditch the attitude somehow by the time Tess arrived. It didn’t work.

***

“Good morning!” Tess chimed as I opened the door. My hair was all wet and flaccid, my face makeup free, a rare sight reserved only for my nearest and dearest; lucky them.

Tess was holding up a tray of coffee and a paper bag with the very familiar symbol of the lake and hills printed on it, the one anyone would recognise anywhere as her parents’ café in Perry.

Tess lowered the cargo down, her smile falling with it.

“I thought you said you wouldn’t be hung over?”

“I’m not, this is just my natural sunshine goodness exuding from my being,” I deadpanned.

“Oh dear, you and Adam had another fight?”

“What makes you say that?” I asked, perhaps a little bit defensively.

Had he said something?

“Well, for one, you’re here instead of there and two, that natural sunshine goodness is more like I want to climb a bell tower.”