First Kiss: The Ghost Bird Series: #10 (The Academy Ghost Bird Series) (49 page)

A warm hand found my arm, and I looked up to see Mr. Blackbourne give me a nod. The others continued to stand in the half-circle. I felt like I was being dismissed so the jury could make a decision.

I let Mr. Blackbourne guide me back to the cabin entrance. We left, closing the door behind us.

“They’re going to kick me out,” I whispered as Mr. Blackbourne led the way through the dark. “I’m sorry... With all the effort you...”

“You’re not being thrown out,” he said. His hand squeezed mine, drawing me down the path. “They’re not that cruel. However, they will be considering this carefully.” He paused. “You were very brave back there. I’m sorry for doing so right then, but they needed to see it for themselves, to hear it from you. I hope you understand.”

He was probably right. Would I have so willingly told them so much if I’d slept? Or would I have hidden my feelings more? I needed to trust the Academy. “Thank you,” I said. “But now what do I do?”

“They’re right. Now isn’t the time to decide. You need to sleep.”

“I can’t go back to my tent,” I said.

He didn’t reply but took my hand again and led me away from the cabin area. I followed, exhausted.

I looked up and was surprised to see not my own campground, or even the boys’, but somewhere I hadn’t been. I looked around, but couldn’t place where we were.

We approached a small tent that glowed faintly—a lamp or flashlight had to be on inside—and Mr. Blackbourne yanked open the zipper before he stepped back. “Get in,” he said.

My heart began to beat wildly again but for different reasons. This had to be his tent. Spring soap was stronger coming from inside, along with some ginger.

I angled myself inside, eager for warmth as well as to hide from anyone who might be nearby. Was he going to talk more in the privacy of the tent before sending me on to sleep with the boys?

The tent was dimly lit, but there was movement on the other side. Dr. Green’s shadowed face appeared in the muted beam of the lamp. He let out a groggy grunt as he sat up on his cot, his hair mussed on one side. He lifted the lamp, adjusting it until the tent was illuminated.

He rubbed at his eyes and then squinted over at us. “What’s going on?”

“Long story,” Mr. Blackbourne said. He urged me toward the second cot, still neatly made. Had Mr. Blackbourne gone to bed at all?

A surge of crazy feelings emerged as I realized he wanted me to sleep in his spot. “What about you?” I asked, my voice barely a squeak.

“Just hop in,” he said, pointing toward the sleeping bag.

I tried to look as calm as possible as I sat on the cot. I kicked off the boots and eased my body between the folds of the sleeping bag. The bag had been turned on to a low setting, but Mr. Blackbourne reached down, turning the knob up.

I glanced over at Dr. Green; his eyes were wide, as he looked from me to Mr. Blackbourne. “I thought we were...”

“Unforeseen circumstances,” Mr. Blackbourne said. “Either come with me now to hear it, or you’ll have to wait until the morning. Either way, she’s not going back to the other group.”

“Well, I have to hear about this.” Dr. Green unzipped his bag. I caught the Led Zeppelin T-shirt, and the dark sleeping pants he wore before he pulled on a long fleece coat and stuffed his feet into boots.

They both moved toward the tent door, but Mr. Blackbourne paused, turning to me and his voice softening. “Will you be okay for a minute by yourself? You can sleep here, can’t you?”

I nodded quickly. I’d sleep anywhere they told me. Just not with the girls. Not now, after...

His face tightened as if he understood. He ducked out of the tent and Dr. Green followed.

I settled in, calming myself and fighting tears. I didn’t want to wet the pillow.

♥♥♥

I was almost asleep when I heard the zipper opening again. My eyes opened, my heart pounding as I remembered where I was.

I was expecting Dr. Green and Mr. Blackbourne to return. My body automatically shifted a little, expectant that Mr. Blackbourne would need a place to sleep, and I was willing to make room.

I spotted Dr. Green walking in, heading for his cot, but behind him was Gabriel.

My heart soared at seeing his beautiful rugged face, a couple of days’ growth on his chin. His hair was mussed, the blond twisted into the brown. He shrugged off of his coat, wearing a bright orange tank shirt and black pajama bottoms.

But where was Mr. Blackbourne?

“Oy,” he said, his voice gruff from sleep. “Trouble. Scoot over, will you?”

That I could do. I moved instantly, making myself as tiny as possible, feeling the sturdy bar of the cot at my back. He could have all the room he wanted.

Gabriel tucked his feet in first, sliding into the sleeping bag. He grunted, yanking it up and zipping it closed. “Get over here,” he said. “It’s fucking cold.”

My face pressed into his chest as I clutched his shirt. I wanted to tell him I missed him. I wanted to say all the things I’d thought about since he’d been gone. I wanted to tell him what had happened, even though I suspected Mr. Blackbourne had told him already.

His lean arms went around me and his lips found the top of my head.

He kissed my hair and said, “You’re the worst camping buddy ever, you know that?”

I smiled against his shirt. “Sorry.”

“You’re not sorry.” He kissed my brow. “Are you going to stick by me this time?”

“Yes,” I said, and I meant it. I collected his shirt into my fists, pressing my cheek against his body. I’d be his buddy. I’d stick with North. I wouldn’t make anyone go near the ocean. I’d never question Kota when he tried to tell me something from the heart. I’d even squash all the spiders. I promised myself that for the rest of the trip, whether I was allowed in the Academy or not, I’d stay by Gabriel. I’d be the best camping buddy ever. I was so grateful. All I wanted to do was show them I cared so much.

“Lights out,” Dr. Green said. “No funky stuff over there or Sang will have to join me over here.”

I wouldn’t have minded that, either.

THE LAST DAY OF CAMP

A
s first light shimmered into the tent, I heard Dr. Green dress and leave. I couldn’t force my eyes to open as he did; they burned and felt so swollen, it seemed I would be blind forever.

I almost wanted to be. I wouldn’t have to face anyone then.

I held onto Gabriel the entire night. He snuggled into me, occasionally mumbling, humming some tune in his sleep.

As the morning wore on, I was sure the other campers would be awake, including the girls. I wonder what they would have been told about what happened to me.

I ducked my head against Gabriel’s chest, embarrassed and knowing he probably knew everything. I pressed my cheek against him, listening to his breathing.

He reached up to rub at his nose, sniffing. “Fuck me,” he said. “I don’t want to get up, but I have to take a piss.”

I moaned, not wanting to get up, either, but knowing I should. I wanted to stay in bed all day, for the rest of camp, until it was time to get in the car and leave.

Gabriel turned, pressed his lips against mine and then kissed my nose. “Trouble.”

“No,” I said quietly. I kept my eyes closed and hung on to him. “I don’t want to get up yet.”

Gabriel pressed his mouth to my cheek. He kissed the spot. “I can hold it for a minute, I guess.”

I was so grateful, I trailed a line of kisses from his neck up to his jaw. I found his mouth with closed eyes. I had a fleeting thought about morning breath, but didn’t care, and parted my lips, using my tongue as I kissed him again.

He turned in the bed toward me. He encircled me tighter in his arms, bringing me closer, and kissed back. He opened his mouth, accepting my tongue, tangling his with mine.

My heart sped up as the kiss deepened.

It amazed me how different it was compared to a simple hug the night before with the girls. I didn’t feel sick. I didn’t feel like I needed to recoil from his touch. I wanted it; it felt right. Like it did with all the boys. It gave me hope.

We had to make it work.

I heard a cough and then, “Ahem.”

I gasped as Gabriel backed off. I blinked hard, forcing my eyes open, blinking at Gabriel’s flushed face, too embarrassed to look toward the tent door.

I hadn’t even heard the flap open. If it was Mr. Blackbourne, I’d be totally embarrassed, but at least he was aware and understood, even if it meant I was about to be told it wasn’t appropriate.

As the silence loomed, I finally turned my head and found Kota, standing frozen just inside the tent, holding open the door. He was frowning, looking at Gabriel, and then he looked right at me.

Kota.

My heart stopped, for the hundredth time within the last twenty-four hours. My lungs froze. My face heated to a billion degrees.

There was no way he hadn’t seen us. We were in plain view of the door.

I couldn’t stop staring at his horribly distraught face.

“Kota,” Gabriel said, backing away from me, trying to get the zipper down to let himself out of the sleeping bag. “Geez, man...”

Kota lowered his gaze to the ground. “Sang, they’re waiting for you at the cabins. They want to talk to you. You should go there now.” He paused, still looking at the floor, then he turned and walked away.

I remained in bed, frozen and afraid to move. Fresh tears filled my eyes, but they didn’t fall. “Gabriel,” I croaked out, my voice barely working.

Gabriel had stood up, but dropped to his knees, rocking back on his heels as he rubbing his face with his hands. “Fuck...Jesus...Anyone but him...”

I got up, pushing myself to the end of the cot, my head spinning at sitting up so quickly. “We have to go after him,” I said.

“
I
have to go after him,” Gabriel said. He reached for my hand, holding it. “I have to find him and tell him.”

“I have to,” I said. “It should be me.”

“No,” he said, shaking his head. “Liam said it was better if us guys told him ourselves. Now that he’s seen you and me, he needs to know. But I have to get the others to go with me so we can tell him as a group. You have to go talk to a council at the cabins.”

I shook my head, sure that I should go, too. “I could... I need to talk to him.”

“No, it should be me,” Gabriel said, shifting to kneel at my feet, looking up at me. He reached up, cupping my cheek while his other hand squeezed mine. “Sweetheart, this was my fault. We knew we should have told him as a team but no one wanted to do it. We were all uncomfortable and didn’t want to tell him yet. But there’s no way around it now. I have to go get the other guys and we have to force Kota to sit down and hear us out.”

My throat tightened as more tears came. I couldn’t get rid of the picture of Kota and those green eyes of his boring into me with questions and hurt feelings.

I was so close and had lost him. I should have told him before something like this happened. His finding out shouldn’t have happened like this.

Gabriel cupped my cheeks, holding me steady so I had no choice but to look in his eyes. “Trust me, Sang,” he pleaded. “Trust
us
. We’ll make it right. We’re too strong together to break up now.”

I wanted to believe. I’d finally kissed Kota and he’d seemed so happy before. He must think I was the worst, after all this time and effort, and here I was kissing Gabriel when I’d been kissing Kota the night before.

How horrible I was.

“Sang,” he said, his voice wavering, his eyes desperate. “You promised to stay with me. Remember? Remember when we were in your dad’s closet together? You promised.”

I nodded.

“Stay with me now,” he said. “Only I need you to go face the council, and I need you to tell them that you have to stay with us. No matter what.”

“They’ll have to talk to all of you eventually,” I said. “Won’t they?”

Gabriel bit his lip. “Which means we have to tell Kota, and we have to tell him right now. But I can’t do it if you’re going after him. I need to get the guys.” He pulled out his cell phone and looked at it.

“Okay,” I said and then reached for his phone. “Can you set up a message?” I asked. “One that goes to all of them but Kota?”

He grunted, pushed buttons on his phone to make it happen, and then passed his phone to me.

I sent out a single message:

This is Sang. Please meet Gabriel at your tent. Bring Kota. You need to tell him everything.

I read the message, and then frowned, and added one more after that.

Please stay together. I need you.

I teared up and sent the message along. Mr. Blackbourne had said they would never fail if I asked them for something. I needed them now.

Gabriel shook his head and frowned. “Sang,” he said, reaching for me.

I handed the phone to him and then pushed him toward the door. “I’ll be fine. Find Kota.”

He nodded, stuffed his feet into boots and walked out in his pajamas, pausing only to zip up the tent door before he broke into a run.

I had to trust him that he knew what he was doing. That they all did.

♥♥♥

Sometime during the night, someone must have brought a set of clothes for me, because a fresh pair of pants and a pink sweater was set aside. I did a fast run to the bathroom and came back. I dressed quickly and used Dr. Green’s hair brush. If I had to face an Academy council, I didn’t want to look like a crazed lunatic.

Even though that’s how I felt on the inside.

I breathed in slowly before opening the tent flap and felt a weird sort of calm. I realized I was suddenly devoid of emotion. I’d been through so much in the last twenty-four hours, that my emotions were drained completely.

I’d become the zombie.

As I emerged, it took me a minute to orient myself. They had placed their tent not far from the cabins. I wondered why they hadn’t chosen to stay in the cabins with all the others. I wondered if it was so they could talk privately about me and the awkward position I’d put them in.