Authors: Belinda Bauer
Tags: #Fiction, #General, #Mystery & Detective, #Crime, #Detective and Mystery Stories, #Exmoor (England)
They faced each other a little awkwardly in the narrow hallway.
‘Thanks for coming,’ he said. ‘Sorry we can’t – you know – go somewhere.’
‘No problem,’ said Em.
From the lounge they heard an overblown squeal of tyres and a crash.
‘Bull
shit
!’ yelled Shane, while Davey laughed and called him a twat.
‘Shall we go upstairs?’ said Steven, then realized how that sounded. ‘I don’t mean like that, I just mean … ’cos of
them
, you know …’
‘Sure,’ said Em, and reached out to touch his hand.
Reassured, he put his head round the front-room door. ‘We’ll be upstairs. Don’t touch the stove, OK?’
‘Fuck off,’ said Davey quietly. Steven let it go.
Em had never seen his bedroom and suddenly he was aware of how small it was; how messy – and that it smelled of Lynx and dirty socks. He opened a window and sat on the bed, but Em wandered around the room, inspecting it. For the first time in his life he wished he’d tidied up. Em tilted her head to the shelf and ran her eyes over all the books he’d ever read. Steven let his eyes drift along the spines in time with hers. He should
definitely
have tidied
those
up. There were still Famous Five books up there. And
The Cucumber Pony
– a picture book about a green talking horse, for God’s sake! She was going to think he was so gay.
But her eyes moved on without comment. ‘Who’s that boy?’ she said when she noticed the photo.
‘My Uncle Billy.’
‘Why d’you have a picture of him?’
‘He’s dead,’ he told her, and hoped that would be enough.
‘Yeah? How’d he die?’
Steven hesitated momentarily while an entire conversation – an entire
future
– played out in his head; a future where Em viewed him as a curiosity instead of a boyfriend.
‘He was run over.’ He hated lying to her.
‘How awful,’ she said.
‘It was before I was born.’ He shrugged.
She turned away from the shelves and smiled at him and he was glad he’d lied instead of spoiling things.
He watched her examine his room like an exotic animal exploring a new cage. He resisted the temptation to justify his mess or to get up and hide stuff, and the longer the inspection went on, the more he realized that she wasn’t judging him, just interested. Now and then she’d say something: ‘I have one those. Did yours work? Nor mine; I don’t know anyone whose did.’ Or: ‘Oh look, your Liverpool shirt has your name on the back! Cool! Oh, it’s torn here, what a shame.’ And: ‘I can’t believe you collect these things. You geek.’
Steven relaxed into being teased and soon he was enjoying her circuit as much as she obviously was.
As she ran out of room, she slowly approached the bed, and Steven stopped laughing and became acutely aware of his own body – and hers. Finally, she sat down a couple of feet away from him, then shifted along until their hips were touching.
They kissed again, as if not a second had passed between their last kiss and this one, two days later. As if Jonas Holly was a bad dream and Nan’s birthday had yet to dawn.
This kiss was different in a whole ’nother way. They weren’t in Ronnie’s garage or outside a pair of iron gates; they were in his
bed
room and on his
bed
. That thought alone was exciting enough for him to kiss Em harder and to put his hand on her bare thigh.
Then it all got muddled in Steven’s head. He touched Em; she touched him; she opened her mouth and there was a roaring in his ears; he slid his hand under the bottom of her little vest and touched the hot, smooth skin of her waist, and felt a bit faint.
She broke the kiss.
‘Sorry,’ he said. ‘I’m sorry.’
‘I’m not,’ she said seriously.
Em slid her feet from her pretty shell-covered shoes and carefully lifted her legs on to Steven’s bed. She took his hand.
‘Can we lie down?’
He kicked off his trainers and the pair of them lay on their backs on the narrow bed, shoulders, arms, hands, hips touching, staring at the ceiling. He couldn’t believe this was the same bedroom where he’d slept for the past five years. He was lying on his Liverpool cover with a girl he’d kissed. He had wonderful things to say to her, but he could barely breathe, let alone talk, his throat was so tight with desire and nerves. The kiss had been easy, but the thought of getting actual sex wrong made him feel dizzy with horror. He wanted it so badly he was shaking, but he’d rather never have it at all than get it all wrong and have to live with that shame. A shame that Em would know all about. A shame she might share with her friends. With
his
friends. He was so scared his jaw ached with clenching—
‘I’m scared,’ she said in a very small voice. ‘I’ve never done this.’
Steven wanted to cry, he loved her so much.
He turned towards her.
‘I want to,’ she said. ‘I love you. But I’m scared.’
Steven put an arm around her and she turned to face him, so close that he could feel her warm breath on his lips.
‘We don’t have to do anything,’ he told her. ‘I love you too.’
*
Davey was in the woods with Shane.
He’d left the PlayStation revving and crashing all by itself. They were going to catch the kidnapper and there was nothing Steven could do to stop them. Serve him right for making Davey’s feather bird seem so crap that he’d needed the charity of his name on a stupid umbrella.
They hardly spoke; the plan was so simple.
The only discussion was who should be the bait. Right from the start, Shane had suspected it might be him. Even so, when they actually reached the car, he made a token protest as Davey
started
to unravel the reel of garden twine they’d stolen from Mr Randall’s shed.
‘Don’t be such a chicken,’ said Davey sharply. ‘We’re going to be tied together. No one can take you without me knowing.’
‘I’m not a chicken,’ said Shane crossly. ‘I’m just saying we should take turns, that’s all. Why should I
always
be the bait?’
‘Because you’re better at sitting still than I am.’
‘But you’re going to be sitting still in the woods.’
‘Yeah, and you get the cushion, so what are you moaning about?’
‘It’s my cushion anyway. I
should
get it.’
‘It’s not yours, it’s your mum’s.’
‘That still makes it more mine than yours.’
‘Whatever. Stop making excuses and being a chicken.’
While they’d bickered, Davey had tied one end of the twine around Shane’s wrist. ‘Get in the car then.’
‘I’m only doing this if we swap places every hour.’
‘All right.’
‘Promise?’
‘Shitting bloody hell, Shane! How old are you? You sound like a baby! A baby
girl
.’
‘Piss off.’
‘I’m going,’ said Davey, unfazed. ‘Remember, two jerks if you see anyone, three if you’re in danger, and then I’ll come running in and we’ll take the bastard
down
.’
‘How far are you going?’ said Shane nervously as he settled himself on his mother’s cushion.
‘Not far. I’ll be out of sight in case he realizes I’m there, but close enough. OK?’
‘I suppose so,’ said Shane. ‘Two for a stranger, three for danger.’
‘Exactly. Don’t worry. We’re going to be rich
and
we’re going to be heroes. It’s going to be brilliant.’
‘Yeah,’ said Shane doubtfully.
Davey walked away from him into the woods, unravelling the
twine
through his fingers, lifting it around saplings and over branches.
Shane watched him become increasingly hard to see through the undergrowth, waiting for Davey to look at him and give him a last nod of joint enterprise, but he didn’t. Instead his friend just stopped being visible, and soon stopped being audible too. Shane watched his hand jiggle on the steering wheel or jerk about like a puppet’s as Davey continued to move through the woods. He willed it to stop, so that he would know that Davey had settled somewhere not too far away, but it went on for longer than he’d hoped.
Then his hand stilled, and he placed it on the blistered wheel.
He looked around.
The sound of Davey had faded away or stopped – he couldn’t tell which – and the forest seemed unsually quiet.
He’d sat in this car a hundred times, but had never felt so vulnerable. They’d talked in abstract terms about ‘fishing’ and ‘bait’, but now he realized that he really did feel as exposed as a worm on a hook. He kept eyeing the trees around him, even though he and Davey had agreed that the bait should not ‘act all suspicious’. He wondered if Davey could see him acting all suspicious, but he couldn’t help himself.
Every second took a week, and every leaf that trembled on the hot breath of summer was a killer in the dim greenish shade. There was a big beech tree behind his left ear – maybe fifteen metres off – wide enough to hide even a fat kidnapper. Shane tried to ignore it, but couldn’t stop twisting his head to look. Once, when he turned suddenly, he caught movement behind the tree. He was sure. Just a shadow but it was there. He
knew
it was. He strained his eyes until they watered, but didn’t see the dark motion again.
Sunlight stabbed through the trees in biblical rays, making the shade even darker, and turning the light into patterns that painted faces on the bark.
He looked at his watch. Fifteen minutes.
Only!
The watch was crap; his father had got it free with ten gallons of petrol. It must be wrong. It must be Davey’s turn by now.
He fiddled with the dashboard controls. The clicks of the indicator and wiper switches sounded too loud – as if they might attract the wrong kind of attention – so he stopped and the thick silence fell about him once more.
Shane started to feel truly scared. He knew his job was to sit there and wait and make the kidnapper come to him. He understood that. But he just
couldn’t
. Not with that shadow moving behind the big beech.
He sucked in his breath as he heard a rustle in the woods. A
proper
rustle this time – the big sound of somebody moving towards him. Or away from him. It was hard to tell. It was off in the direction of where Davey—
Shane let the breath go and laughed out loud with relief.
Shi–it!
It
was
Davey. Come to be the bait. He
knew
his watch must be wrong. He laughed out loud.
‘Hey Davey! You sound like a hippo!’
Davey stopped.
‘C’mon, you tosser. Your turn!’ Shane gave two sharp jerks on the twine and felt Davey at the other end.
A twig cracked behind the beech and Shane scrambled out of the car. Fuck this for a game of soldiers, as he’d once heard his father say. His shift was
over
and it was Davey’s turn to be the bait. See how
he
liked sitting there waiting to be snatched by a perv.
Shane hurried through the ferns and fallen logs towards Davey, winding up the twine as he went, casting nervous looks back at the big beech, grateful to be leaving it behind in the clearing. The Mazda disappeared behind him.
‘Davey, you
tosser
!’ How far had he bloody gone? There was no way he would have made it back to the car in time if Shane
had
been jumped by the kidnapper. No fucking way! He’d have been all on his own. The thought made Shane so angry that as
he
reeled in the twine he knew he was going to beat the shit out of Davey when he saw him. Bollocks to the reward. He was sick of always being the one doing the dirty work.
‘Davey!’
No answer.
‘It’s not
funny
, you dickhead!’
Shane stopped dead and frowned. He’d run out of twine. His fingers followed it to the point where it had been wrapped several times around the branch of a silver birch sapling, before trailing down to the remainder of the reel, which lay at the foot of the tree. Shane picked it up.
Underneath it was a square yellow note.
*
Steven was watching Em’s heart beat like a butterfly trapped under the pale skin of her left breast when Shane burst through the bedroom door.
They couldn’t understand him at first. He was so hysterical and breathless and they were so flustered and cross. Even as Shane babbled and tugged at the length of green twine knotted around his wrist, Steven was aware of Em putting her feet back into her turquoise sandals, her perfect breasts hidden once more under her top. Under her top where his hands had just been …
But once they
did
understand what he was saying, Steven didn’t think he’d ever moved so fast. He was running before he’d finished stamping his feet back into his still-laced trainers. Em’s hand was in his so she could keep up, but he could have towed her trailer up the hill and not been slowed. Every time Shane flagged, Steven shoved him between the shoulder blades or pushed the back of his head.
‘Run!’ he yelled. ‘Keep running!’
At Rose Cottage, Em stopped dead and their hands tore apart.