Find A Way Or Make One (21 page)

Maxim Gorky,
The Lower Depths

Wyatt

As I bust into the hospital, I start frantically searching for the Surgery waiting area. I don’t know what to expect; at first I thought Kye might be hurt, but I quickly realized that I would be the last person she would have them call. I am sure that if something had happened to her,
T
would be there; the little snot nosed punk. The fact that she wouldn’t leave me for him was a bitter pill and I still hadn’t found a way to swallow it yet.

As I am following the signs to the Surgery waiting area,
I think I see the back of Sable but I quickly dismiss that notion. As I continue heading to the waiting area,
another thought stops me cold.
Kye is close to the guys from the team, and if one of them is hurt, she will certainly be there; probably with lover boy too. Can I handle seeing them together?

As I walk into the waiting area, I look around but I don’t see Kye. I quickly notice Cale sitting with his head in his hands and make my way over to him. “Hey man, what’s up? I see all the guys and they look fine, so what are we doing at a hospital if no one is hurt?”

A soft, controlled voice comes from behind me. “Oh someone is hurt, you fucking waste of skin, and since there is no female in here I am guessing even a dumbass like you can figure out who it is.”

That causes me to have to sit down before I fall down. Kye, she is hurt and I didn’t know it. I look up at the boy that I have hated for the past three days. The pain and turmoil he is feeling is written all over his face and at that moment I know that he truly loves Kye and I can only assume that Kye loves him too. That hurts, but the pain is quickly swept to the back of my mind by the fact that we are in a hospital because Kye is hurt. “What happened? Did she get hurt in a training exercise?”

T, I think his name is actually Tiarnan, laughed; it wasn’t a happy sound. “No, she didn’t get hurt in a training
exercise; she got hurt saving my ass from the man, if you can call him that, who
donated half of my DNA. Because of you, and the whore you have working for you, he knew that Kye, the boys, and I were here.
Since he has been obsessed with her for over eleven years, you can imagine that he thought this was an excellent opportunity to get her back by using me as bait.”

I am quickly trying to piece together the story he just told me and the story that Christien had told me, and the whole picture didn’t look pretty. In fact it was making me sick to my stomach. “You’re Zandoville’s son? So what is this game that you are playing? Proving that you are a better man than him because you can get her to give it up to you while he had to forcefully take it? God you are one sick bastard!”

If the other guys hadn’t started inching toward us, I would have been down on the ground filling in the role of
this guy’s punching bag. Fortunate for me, they were close by and Ken and Chip
were able to stop him from lunging at me; but by the look of disgust in their eyes I could tell it wouldn’t take much for them to let him go.

Out of the corner of my eye I see a fist flying towards me. As I sit sprawled on the ground, Cale comes to stand over me like some demonic avenging angel. “Look, let me tell you, you are seriously fucked up if you could ever think that Kye would do something like that. W
hy? And you best get this straight in
your head,
or it won’t be just Tiarnan going after you. We
all
will.”

I slowly stand to my feet. “Well shit,
you can tell he the father of one of Kye’s children by just looking at them. At that to the fact that I told Kye we could work things out if she would just stay away from him and she wouldn’t do that, what the hell am I supposed to think?”

That is when Tiarnan finally broke free from the Ken and Chip and took me back down to the ground. Once I had finally gotten him off of me, all by myself I might add, I look at Tiarnan and feel a jealously the likes of which I have never experienced consumes me. “Why are you so mad Tiarnan? She loves you enough to walk away from me to keep you in her life”

It is at that moment Sunny decides to step in and offer his two cents. “Did you ask her to give up Seamus and Cian too?” I can tell this is an important question, so I take a few minutes to formulate my response.

“Because they are a part of Kye, and I would never take her away from her sons.”

At that Sunny nods. “Asking her to stay away from T here is like asking her to abandon them. Legally she is their mother, all of them. Tiarnan included.”

“What? She didn’t give birth to him. That would have made her nine or ten when she gave birth.”

“No dipshit, she didn’t give birth to him, or any of them for that matter. She adopted them all.” As Sunny finishes his statement, Cale tells me how Kye had become a mother.

As I am processing this all, I am subconsciously rack my brain for some means of escape from this nightmare.
I am grasping at straws, but as soon as I remember something Tiarnan said I jump on it
. “You said the whore that I have working for me. Do you mean Sable?”

Tiarnan slowly breaks from the hold the guys have on him.
“Yeah, Sable is one of
my father’s favorite whores. It could be because
they are both sadistic enough to understand the other, but mainly it is because she will let him whore her out to force men into working with him.”

“I thought I saw Sable when I came in the hospital. Would she hurt Kye?”

Tiarnan freezes. “Yeah, she has something that Sable wants, namely Zandoville; or at least his interest. Now that he is gone there is no telling what she will do to Kye.”

We all look at each other and bust out for the recovery room.
But even as we go, I know that I have probably killed any feeling that Kye could have possibly had for me.

30

“
Seeing someone else with the one thing you want makes you more bitter than you could ever imagine.”

Sable

Sable

The only thing that is keeping me from being blessedly numb is
the sickness in my stomach that permeates into the depths of my soul. How could I have been so stupid? I had thought that he had loved me; really loved me, but it had only been a lie. He never loved me, hell I don’t think he knows that meaning of the word. But he had become obsessed with
her
.

While I was out there doing everything he asked; whoring myself to further whatever agenda he might have at that particular time, he had been using me while desiring her with an almost fiendish obsession.

When I had walked in to the compound to see him have her hanging chained in a standing position under the chandelier I hadn’t even batted an eye. I had seen him use this type of torture and intimidation before.
Hell, sometimes I had even been involved in it; loving the power that exuded from him as he had an opponent in a weaker position.

But that is not what I saw when I had walked in. I had seen
him getting up from his seat after watching here being severely beaten, and walk over to whisper something in her ear. As she shakes her head and tells him to go fuck himself I see the one emotion flash across his face that I never thought I would see; hurt. Whatever she had said had hurt him. I immediately rushed forward to find out what the bitch had said, ready to unleash all kinds of hell on her ass, when I heard Zandoville plead with her to change her mind.

“Please Kye, you are one of the most beautiful women ever, come be with me and let me love you the
way that only I can.” Hearing Zan say
this to a woman that is not me cuts me to the core. I grab the knife on the table and rush at Zan. He doesn’t even know that I am here so I know the surprise he has on his very genuine. He never has time to call out for help before I raise the knife and slit his throat. I then quickly lunge at Kye and am only able cut her side before I hear what I expect is four or five large men that sound like they are on a mission. I quickly leave the compound and make my way off the property. About a mile away from the compound I hear a loud explosion and see the lights from it in my rear view mirror. I pull off on the side of the road in a secluded area and watch. Five minute later, I see a large black SUV quickly pass.
Realizing that hadn’t been one of Zan or his men’s car causes me to follow. Once we reach the hospital, I see six men jump out of the car; one carrying what appears to be a woman. It is then I knew I could make them all suffer for me not having what I wanted. I rushed in to the hospital trying to find her while keeping an extremely low profile.

Yeah, seeing someone else with something I want h
as made me bitter. And I
will
do anything to make them all pay.

31

“
It's so much darker when a light goes out than it would have been if it had never shone
.”

John Steinbeck,
The Winter of Our Discontent

Wyatt

As I am rushing with Cale, Sunny, Ken, the new recruits and Tiarnan, a sense of blind panic feels my soul. Kye has to be safe; she has to be, because I can’t live without her. Even though I try to push it one thought out of my mind, it keeps pushing back, harder and harder. I have for all intents and purposes thrown her away; twice. She is not
with
me anymore.
Suddenly I hear Christien’s words in my mind; I had the girl and her heart but I threw it away.

We finally reach the recovery room and find a young woman, either a nurse or a doctor, sprawled out on the floor; blood pooling underneath her head. Cale stops so suddenly I almost run him over. He is looking at the girl on the floor like he has seen a ghost. He slowly hunches down on the floor and places his fingers on the jugular of the girl; causing her to let out a soft moan. Cale closes his eyes and lets out a harsh breath. Whoever this girl is, she is no stranger to Cale.

Movin
g as one unit, we move away around the corner to where the beds are situated and I cannot believe my eyes; Sable standing over Kye, who is not yet out of sedation, slapping her repeatedly. Sable doesn’t look like Sable anymore; she looks like one of the crazy women you
see on movies that have been loc
ked up in an insane asylum; her hair is sticking out ever, and her eyes have this oblique look like she is lost in the lowest level of hell and can’t get out, and I swear she has a little drool in the corner of her mouth.

The way she looks makes what she says all the more horrific. She keeps repeating and repeating, “You have the only thing I ever want, all I ever wanted was his love. Now you must pay. Now you must pay.”

While Crow, Sunny, Chip, Ken and I just stare, Tiarnan walks slowly in front of us; never lowering his weapon. “Sable what are you doing?
She has done nothing to you, why in the hell are you here?”

Sable starts pulling at her hair, making herself look more and more demented with each passing second. “Yes she did, I can’t get him to love me while he still loves her. If she wasn’t here it would be me. It would be me!”

Immediately my mind jumps
to thinking she is talking about me. I make a move to go and try to talk to her when I see Tiarnan’s fist go up in the sign all Seals know; stop. “Hate to break it to you Bitch, but Zandoville never loved anyone, and he never will. Yes, he is obsessed with Mom, but
he doesn’t love her. He just wants to break her.”

Sable starts shaking her head back and forth erratically. “No! He loved me until this bitch came into his life. He loved me, he loved me!”

I am completely confused for a moment, until I remember how bad Zandoville wanted Kye; and then it all fell into place. Sable isn’t talking about me, she is talking about Zandoville. Evidently she’s more twisted than I could have ever
imagined, because to love that sick fuck you would have to be pretty sick yourself. The fact that I ever let her lips touch me makes me sick.

Tiarnan barks out a harsh laugh. “Hah. He has known her a lot longer than he has known your ass. In fact, you know that little ‘job’ he had you do eight years ago in Europe? That was only break up Mom’s engagement. She was engaged to Christien and
had a chance at being happy. D
ear old Dad couldn’t have that.”

“No, no, no,
no
! He can’t love her, he has to love me. He has to!”

“No, he doesn’t love you, or me, or her. He doesn’t love anyone.
He used you like the whore you are.”

It is only then that she realizes that there are four men; Cale has not rejoined us yet, holding their guns with her in their sights. For a minute, I thought we could apprehend her without any more bloodshed. I was wrong because suddenly she pulls out a knife. “You fucking bitch. You have to die!” She raises her knife and four guns, unload their bullets in her.

***

As the cops finished up asking their questions and the hospital staff finished removing Sable’s body, I tried to comprehend what had happened and what I had learned. Kye was innocent of each and everything I had accused her of;
had been more forgiving than most people would have been.
So many people would have turned their backs on the sons of the man ultimately responsible for her rape, but she took in a baby and a young man of fifteen or sixteen and became their mother. Along with the boy she was already raising as her own. Then she was willing to die, and still might, for one of them. Was she a damn saint? An angel?

Whatever she is, she is a better person than me.
I wasn’t good enough to breathe the same air as her, let
alone be loved her. I had
a chance to love her; not once but twice, and I lost her.
I don’t deserve her; I never did. I had let her down over and over again. Fuck, over the years I had made a habit of it.
This time I had to protect her. Protect her from myself.