Fatal (Portland Street Kings Book 2) (4 page)

2010 

Mackson
 

“Can I tell you something?” I say to Lana, staring up at the ceiling while lying on her bed, not sure how to look at her when I say this. Feelings, moments like this, I don’t handle them very well, not when I know they're coming anyway. 

“Of course,” she answers in a lazy voice, her head resting on my shoulder. My arm is wrapped around her waist holding her tight while her arm stretches across my bare chest and her naked body is pressed up against mine.
Heaven.
 

“I saw something when I was a kid, in a magazine that I found in a dumpster where we were looking for food. The cover and back were ripped off, so I’m not sure what magazine it was or what the story was about, I couldn’t read then, but the couple looked at each other as if they would die for the other. The man was in an Army uniform and the woman in a pretty dress. They both showed off their tattoos, the woman had a key on the back of her neck and the man a lock on the top of his arm. 

“That sounds beautiful,” Lana murmurs. 

“I want that one day,” I admit quietly. 

Her head shifts on my shoulder to look up at me, “Well, since you and your brothers aren’t hurting for money and you’re twenty-one, Mack, there’s nothing stopping you from getting a tattoo.” 

A short chuckle escapes my mouth quickly. 

Lana raises her upper body until we’re looking into each other’s eyes. “What?” 

“I’m getting tattoos, Dove. I got plans for a whole sleeve on my left arm, but what I meant was I want that kind of relationship with a woman, one where we make a life-long commitment to each other. And I’m not talking about a bullshit marriage with a piece of paper that can easily be torn up and deleted as if it never happened. I mean ink, something engraved in us forever, that we will be buried with.” 

We stare at each other for a moment and I see a lot happening behind Lana’s beautiful eyes. My hope is that she’ll tell me to go to Hell for talking about a
‘supposed’
woman while I’m lying in her bed and she’s naked next to me. I want her to tell me that she’ll bitch-slap any other female who tries to take me from her. 

But I’m probably not being fair to her. I know my Dove doesn’t compete, or fight for what she wants. Right now anyway, but I’ll change that. 

Her father has messed her up too much. The asshole can’t distinguish between the wife who took off and his daughter who lost her mother when she was eleven. Ever since I’ve been around, Jae Scavello has told his daughter what a disappointment she is because she looks considerably like her mother. That she too will let down those who love her because of her selfishness. The man needs fucking glasses because Lana bends over backward for her father and brother—they snap their fingers and she’s there for them. 

My brothers and I have watched this happen since we met the Scavellos. Not so much in the last few years, as Rex has gotten older and started pulling his father into line when he gets out of hand with Lana. Although the nasty words hang in the air and the backhanded remarks still happen daily. 

I’m not sure what a father is supposed to be like, but seeing how Jae treats Lana, I don’t think I’m missing out on much. 

Lana lies back down, placing her head back on my shoulder, her arm across my chest. “You will have that one day Mack, you’re a good man.” Her voice is distant, but I hear the sincerity in it, that finding a good woman and being happy is truly what Lana wants for me. 

I rub at an ache in my chest. I’m partly to blame for her not realizing she’s the one I want in my future. We’ve kept our close relationship a secret for too long, years in fact. Initially, it started with flirting, secret hand holding and stolen kisses, and next sex, first fucking and then something deeper, something so natural that I didn’t even realize it was happening. It snuck up on me one day when instead of ripping Lana’s clothes off I wanted to go slow, I wanted to cherish every moment and inch of her body. 

I’d fallen in love with my Dove and I’d been too much of a coward to ask her if she felt the same, until today. 

I turn on my side, lower my eyes and lift Lana’s chin until her stare meets mine. I search her features for sadness or rebellion. I’d love her to fight for us, but my Dove has been beaten down too many times. And it’s my job to make her realize I’m not going anywhere, that who she is is exactly what I want. She’s enough. 

“You’re that woman, Lana.” 

Her eyes widen and her lips part. 

I can’t even smile at her reaction because it shows how far we have to go until she learns how worthy she really is.

“I want that tattoo with you. I want everyone to know we’re together and have been for a while. I want to get you out of here and far away from your shitty father. Obviously, not straight away, we’ll plan it out, take it slow at first. I’ll need to talk to Rex and let him know my intentions are good. But soon, Dove, I want you living with me, somewhere with people who are going to treat you good and with respect.” 

Lana’s shock is gone and is replaced with glassy eyes and a slight frown. “You want that tattoo with me?” 

This time, I smile. “Yes, Lana. I want you to get the key to my lock. I want that and so much more with you.” 

Lana stares off into the distance, biting her bottom lip. The doubts racing through her mind, they may only be in her head, but they’re as loud as screams to me. 

Lana likes to think she shuts down, that she throws up a wall and no one can see past it, but really she’s the most innocent person I’ve ever met. Sadness, pain, rejection, I’ve seen each emotion on her beautiful brokenhearted face. She would call herself weak and it’s definitely how she acts, never talking back or voicing her pain, but to go through all of that silently. That’s real strength and I hope she realizes that one day.

“I’m not sure, Mack. Maybe we should keep it a secret a bit longer, make sure you really do want this with me. I don’t know if I’m even built for a relationship… for more.” Lana stares into my eyes and I see longing there. She wants this. However, she’s scared it may not go the way she wants it to. That she’ll get hurt.

I roll Lana to her back and pin her down with my heavy body. “I see you, Dove,” I say with a kiss to the corner of her mouth. “I see the woman who would rather play a game of pool with the guys than watch girly singing television shows. The girl who cooks, cleans and would do anything for her family. I see the Lana, who laughs at her brother’s lame jokes because no one else does. I know you feed the stray cats even though your dad keeps telling you to stop. Lana, you care deeply about everyone, even those who don’t deserve it. That’s who you are, who I want in my life… forever. I don’t care what your father says or who your momma was because all I see is Lana.”

She relaxes underneath me and nods. Her frown lines twisting into a beautiful smile. “I want more too, Mack. I have for a long while now. I just wasn’t sure if you wanted me the same way.”

“No more doubts, Lana. This is happening.”

Lana gives me a genuine smile, one which finally reaches her eyes. I don’t smile because I can’t hold myself back any longer. I take her mouth and devour it. Tasting the same sweetness and feeling the identical warmth that spreads through my body every time I kiss her.

When we pull apart, breathless, Lana holds me tighter, with a strength I didn’t realize she possessed, then my girl whispers, “Thank you for seeing me.” 

***

“Tomorrow,” Mack repeats gravelly as he strips off my clothes. 

It’s been five weeks since Mack and I opened up to each other and decided to finally come out as a couple to my family and his. We decided tomorrow would be the day we both talk to Rex and then to my father. 

Mack is going to tell his brothers tonight. He’s not worried about his brothers at all, but I’m worried about my family. Rex might lose it for a bit. Nevertheless, I know he’ll come around, eventually, he loves the Kings. They’re like brothers to him now. 

My dad, on the other hand, I have no idea what his response will be. It could range from thanking Mack for taking me away or telling Mack what a big mistake he’s making. 

“Lana…” my eyes swing to Mack at hearing his voice, “…it’s going to be okay.” 

“I know,” I reply. I believe no matter what my father says, Mack won’t leave me. “I’m just nervous, but more excited. I can’t wait to finally be able to hold your hand in public, show all those skanks at T.K.’s that you’re taken.”
 

Mack grins, fists the back of his shirt and rips it off. “Hold my hand? I can think of better ways to show the dicks who stare at you for way too fucking long that you’re mine.” 

I burst out laughing. “You’re crazy. Nobody stares at me, Mack.” 

Mack shakes his head. “Another reason why I love you, Dove. You have no fucking idea how beautiful you are.” 

I sense my face heating up, so I pull Mack downward before he can see me turn red. “Get down here before I turn into a puddle of goo.” I’m pretty sure I’m too late when he starts laughing and kisses both my cheeks. 

His lips travel down my neck to my naked breasts. I grasp Mack’s hair with my right hand and the bed sheets with my other. I lift and bend my knees as electricity shoots all over my body, signaling what’s to come. 

Abruptly Mackson’s cell phone begins to ring. 

Mack tenses for a moment but doesn’t stop. While the phone continues to ring, Mack curls his tongue around my nipple and sucks gently. I whimper, loving the sensations he sends through my body. 

The ringing stops and then starts again almost instantly. Mack and I sigh at the same time, knowing he has to answer it. Mack has a rule with his brothers, if they call back straight away then they have to pick up the call since it usually means it’s urgent. 

“Christ.” Mack’s voice is thick and rough. 

He lifts his body off mine and reaches to the dresser next to my bed, peers at the screen and then swipes quickly to answer. “Yeah.” Mack hops off the bed. “Whoa. Slow down, Kelso…” Mack pauses listens to his brother and then replies, “Okay, I’m on my way now. Be there in ten.” Mack hangs up and then grabs his shirt off the ground and shoves it over his head. 

“Is everything okay?” 

Mack looks around for his car keys and answers, “Something’s going on, he’s freaked. Slater wants us all home straight away.” 

I jump off my bed and throw on some clean panties and a long T-shirt. “Okay then, so I’ll see you tomorrow?” 

“Yep, tomorrow,” Mack says distractedly putting on one boot and looking around my room for the other one. Quickly I find his brown leather boot covered in grease stains peeking out from under my bed. I grab it and hand it to Mack. He sees it, looks to me, and when usually he’d give me a cheeky grin he smiles awkwardly. 

My chest constricts slightly feeling as if something’s wrong between us, but I push those feelings aside knowing he’s just worried about his family. They aren’t your average brothers and sisters. Having grown up together in a place of nightmares, everything with them is just more; tougher bonds, stronger love, fiercer will to look after each other. 

Mack stands, walks to me and kisses my forehead. Not my lips, like he usually would.
 

No, Lana stop it. He loves you. If there was a problem, he’d tell you.
 

My insecurities get the better of me and I quickly wrap my arms around his middle and squeeze tightly. Heaviness hits my chest, a weight that scares me because I know it’s love. It’s also trust, loyalty, and commitment, that’s what I offer this man and I’m terrified of how hard I’ve fallen.
 

I look up and catch Mack quickly glancing at the window with a furrowed brow. 

“Go. Call me later.”
 

He gives me another strained smile, kisses my hair and then he’s off, climbing through my window, and running down the side of my house to his car which is hidden in an alley a few streets over. 

I chuck on some jeans, head out to the kitchen and check the time, it’s three p.m., plenty of time for me to start dinner and get to my shift at the liquor store at five. 

I decide on steak hamburgers for dinner. So I pull out the meat and set it on the bench to defrost. Then place the bread rolls on a plate to the side for now turning to begin slicing up the salad. An hour passes and I’m checking on the meat patties when I hear the front screen door squeak open. 

I glance up and wait to see who it is; it could be Rex or Dad. They both finish at the garage around the same time. I pray silently to myself that it’s Rex. I could use a quiet afternoon before work, no snide comments from my father of how my cooking needs improving or how our house isn’t ever clean enough. 

It’s Rex who turns the corner and into the kitchen. The moment I see his wisps of blond hair and tattooed arms my body relaxes, but only for a second. His dark blue shirt and arms are covered in blood.
 

He’s been shot.
 

Fear grips my heart.

I race to him and place my hands over his chest and stomach looking for the wound, but I find nothing. Looking at Rex, I see him staring down at me. His eyes are glassy and his skin is pale. 

“What the hell is going on, Rex,” I demand in a shaky voice. 

“He’s dead, Lana. Dad’s dead.” 

I inhale, but my body refuses to exhale, refuses to release or allow any more air into my lungs. My head shakes back and forth. It’s all I can manage, any words or questions are stuck in my throat. 

Abruptly, Rex grasps my forearms with his red-stained hands and I watch as my father’s blood is smeared onto my skin. “He’s dead, Lana,” Rex repeats. His fingers dig into my arms, so deep it begins to sting, but I say nothing. I don’t move. “He’s dead and it was the fucking Kings.” At his booming words, my head swings from my arms to Rex’s face, with a speed that should have hurt my neck. “It was the Kings that killed him. Slater fucking King.” Rex’s tone is so full of hate and rage that I barely recognize his voice. 

My tears finally fall and suddenly my knees can’t hold me up a second longer. My brother and I sink to the floor together. Rex still holding onto me tightly, as if trying to fuse himself to my body as if I’m somehow giving him strength or he’s hoping I can.