Authors: Marie Force
“He might,” she said, knowing this was a time for honesty. “Every time I step foot out the door, it can happen. It’s a risk we all take, but I don’t spend even one minute of my day worrying about it.”
“I can’t bear it, Sam,” he said, his voice hoarse with emotion. “I thought I could, but I found out today that I can’t.”
“Do you know,” she said, tilting her hips against his erection, “that my dad and now Freddie are the only cops I know personally who’ve been shot on the job? And I’ve known a lot of cops in my life.”
“Don’t try to tell me it can’t happen to you. Just since we’ve been together, you’ve been nearly blown up, shot at—twice—you scraped the skin off your chin, arms and knees, took an elbow to the face, got your throat squeezed by your ex-husband who wanted you dead and your partner got shot. Have I forgotten anything?”
Running her hands over his ribs, she fought the urge to giggle at the ridiculous inventory. “That about covers it.”
Exasperated, he flopped onto his back. “And that’s only our first month.”
Sam straddled him and bent to kiss him. “At least it’ll never be boring.” She teased him by sliding her slick heat over his erection before taking him deep.
He reached for her hips to stop her from moving. “I’m trying to talk to you, Sam.”
“And I’m listening,” she said as she rode him slowly.
“I can’t when you’re doing that.”
She took his hands and moved them from her hips to her breasts. “What am I doing?”
“Samantha.”
“Were you really going to break up with me?”
“Yes.”
Filled with overwhelming sadness, she stopped moving. “You told me there was nothing that would make you not want to be with me. You said that.” When he didn’t answer, she ran her hands over his chest. “More than once.”
“That’s what I thought, but then, what happened today…”
“Can I ask you something?”
His hands traveled from her breasts to encircle her. “Yeah.”
“Isn’t it better to have this, for how ever long it lasts, than to let fear drive us apart?”
He turned them over and withdrew from her. “That’s not fair. You don’t have to worry every day that I’m going to get shot or blown up or run over.”
“No one’s tried to run me over. Yet.”
“You’re not taking me seriously.”
“You don’t think so? I haven’t been able to take a deep breath since you walked away from me at the hospital. Just when I was finally starting to have some faith in this, in
us
, you went and changed the rules on me.”
“I didn’t take a deep breath myself from the second I heard a cop had been shot in Reese’s house until I saw you in the waiting room.”
“So then we’re even. Can we get back to normal?”
He caressed her face. “I don’t know what I’d do if something happened to you. If I lost you that way.”
“Then don’t lose me. Keep me. Take a chance that maybe it’ll all be fine.”
“I don’t ever again want to feel the way I did today.”
“I can’t promise that you won’t.”
He ran his fingers through her long hair, a gesture so familiar, so totally his, that her heart fluttered in her chest. “I know.”
“So where does that leave us?” she asked.
“I need some time.”
A prickle of fear worked its way down her spine. “To do what?”
“Losing Julian has messed me up, Sam. I don’t want to say or do anything right now that I’ll regret later.”
“Okay,” she said, suddenly finding it hard to swallow.
“I was unprepared for how it would feel to be certain you were injured or worse.”
“Take all the time you need.” As she said the words, she wondered where this new, evolved Sam Holland was coming from. With any other guy she would’ve shown him the door. However,
this
guy, this one was different. “But I do have one condition.”
“What’s that?”
“If you decide to give us a chance, you can’t do this to me again. I can’t be worried every time something goes wrong at work that I’m going to have to come home and fight for us, too. Either we’re going to do this or we’re not.”
“Fair enough.”
“How much time are we talking?”
He reached for her, brought her in close to him, and kissed her forehead. “I don’t know. The only thing I know for sure is that I love you. I found out today just how much.”
Closing her eyes tight against the rush of emotion, she slipped her arm around him and burrowed into his embrace, painfully aware that sometimes love—even this kind of love—wasn’t enough. “I’m sorry you were so scared. If anything like that ever happens again, I’ll call you as soon as I possibly can so you’ll know it’s not me.”
He replied by tightening his hold on her.
She nibbled on his neck. “You want to finish what we started?” she asked, forcing a lighter tone.
“Do you?”
She curled her hand around his arousal. “Mmm.”
His lips found hers for a soft, sensual kiss that was all about gentle seduction. The usual fire simmered just below the surface as he worked his way from her lips to her neck.
Sam buried her fingers in his hair and closed her eyes, floating on a cloud of sensation despite the nagging worry that this could be their last time. If he walked
away. No. He wouldn’t. Hadn’t he just said how much he loved her?
He cupped her breasts and tended to each nipple, his tongue darting in teasing circles.
Sam arched her back seeking him, wanting him desperately. “Nick.”
“What, baby?” he whispered against her breast.
“Now.”
He moved up to capture her mouth in a deep, carnal kiss and entered her in one smooth thrust.
Steeped in sensation, Sam rode the wave, knowing deep in her soul that no one else would ever make her feel this way. She wrapped her arms around him, holding him close and slowing the pace to make it last as long as possible.
Their eyes met in the inky darkness.
“I love you,” she whispered. “Only you. Always.”
“Samantha.”
She could tell by the tight set of his jaw that he was close. Her body tingled and surged, trying to meet him at the top.
Breaking free of her embrace, he gave it to her hard and fast, the way she liked it best, but nothing he did could melt the cold knot of fear that remained in her belly.
“Sam,”
he said, begging her to join him.
For the first time since they’d been together, she closed her eyes and faked an explosive finish.
She’d faked it! Did she think he wouldn’t be able to tell the difference? After all the times they’d made love, did she think he wouldn’t know? Curled up to him, she snored softly while he lay awake churning.
The insomnia that plagued him during times of stress had kicked into high gear lately, and he had almost no hope of going back to sleep that night. He would’ve gotten up, gone downstairs and attempted to review the files Christina had sent home with him if he didn’t so love having Sam sleeping all over him. Plus, he didn’t want to disturb her when she had so little time to sleep.
He hated that she’d felt the need to fake it with him. He knew she’d had trouble in that regard with her ex-husband, but never once with him. Of course it was because he’d scared her with their conversation, and he hated that his worries had that effect on her. But he couldn’t help the way he felt. If he let his mind wander back to the sheer terror, the absolute certainty that she’d been shot…No, he couldn’t go there again. He’d already relived it a thousand times.
He stewed for what seemed like hours. A week ago he would’ve been unable to imagine a scenario whereby he would walk away from her. And now he had good reason to wonder if he had the stomach to be the significant other of a homicide detective. Turning on his side, he brought her in closer to him and breathed in the scent he’d come to crave. His tired eyes burned shut, but he had no expectation that sleep would come.
However, it must have because he startled awake in the gray predawn and reached for Sam. He encountered cold sheets where hot woman should’ve been and realized she was long gone. Wide awake, he knew it was pointless to try to go back to sleep so he got up to get ready for work. In the shower, he thought of John and Julian and relived the horrible fear that followed Freddie’s shooting. Nick’s nerves and emotions were raw and close to the surface, an unsettling state for a man used to being in control at all times.
As he was drinking a cup of coffee in the kitchen, he noticed a pile of mail on the counter that Sam must’ve brought in. Nick flipped through the stack of mostly junk before finding a registered mail envelope Sam had signed for bearing the name of an insurance company. He opened it and sucked in a sharp deep breath when it registered that he was looking at a check for two million dollars. Made out to him. John’s life insurance payout. After staring at the check for several long minutes, he tossed it on the counter with the rest of the mail and reached for his suit coat, not wanting to think about the money just now. He had enough on his mind.
Sam rushed down the ramp from her father’s house, attempting to juggle her cell phone, half a bagel and the bottle of diet cola tucked under her arm. “So we’re no closer than we were last night?” she asked Gonzo.
“We’re scouring this city. Every square inch.” His voice was full of frustration. “No sign of the bastard anywhere.”
“I’ve got that meeting at eight, and then I’ll be out there with you.”
“You don’t need me at the meeting do you? I’d rather stay out here. I’m working a couple of angles on Sinclair, too.”
She slid into the car without dropping the bagel and secured her soda in the cup holder. “No, don’t bother coming in. I’ll call to see where you need me when I’m leaving HQ.”
“Any word on Cruz?”
“I called the hospital an hour ago, and he had a good night. They’re thinking he can go home tomorrow or the next day.”
“That’s good. I’ll see you soon.”
As Sam slid the key into the ignition, the back door to her car slammed shut. She spun around to find Clarence Reese pointing a gun at her.
“Give me the phone,” he growled, “and drive.”
Scanning the empty street, Sam swallowed hard, handed him the phone and reached for her own weapon.
“Don’t even think about it.” The cold metal of Reese’s gun pressed against her neck. “Hand it over.”
Sam gave him the gun.
“Clutch, too.”
Reaching under the cuff of the jeans she had worn to work the streets, she released the second smaller gun strapped to her leg and passed it back to him.
“Now drive. And no funny business.”
Sam cleared the panic from her throat. “Where are we going?”
“Head north. Out of the city.”
She glanced at the clock. Seven forty-five. In fifteen minutes, they’d be looking for her. On the way past Nick’s house, she fixed her eyes on his door, willing him to hear her silent cries for help.
“Is that your senator’s place?” Reese asked.
“Yes,” Sam mumbled.
“Maybe we should pick him up and take him on our little ride, too.”
Sam hit the gas to get out of there before Reese could make good on his threat to drag Nick into whatever nightmare he had planned for her. “What do you want?”
“I want the money you took from my house.”
“I don’t have it. It’s been seized as evidence.”
“I want it. Until I get it, I’ll be keeping you.”
Her cell phone rang. “If I don’t answer that, they’ll know something’s up.”
“Don’t try to pull no shit.”
Sam held out her hand, and Reese gave her the phone. “Holland.”
“Lieutenant,” Captain Malone said. “Everyone’s here for the meeting you called. Where’re you?”
“Hi, honey,” she said, her heart pounding. She checked the rearview mirror to find Reese’s cold eyes monitoring her every move. “No, I’m sorry. I didn’t get a chance to pick up the dry cleaning.”
“Holland, what the hell are you talking about?”
“You don’t have
any
shirts?”
“Is something, wrong?” Malone asked, his voice suddenly tense.
“Yes, honey. I know I promised. I just left the house, otherwise I’d come back to find something for you to wear.”
“You’re still on Capitol Hill?”
“That’s right. You might have to break out the iron.”
“Is it Reese?”
“Uh-huh. You can do it.”
“Stay calm,” Malone said. “We’re coming.”
“I love you, too. Have a good day.”
“Barf,” Reese said from the backseat as he reached out to snatch the phone from her hand. “He’s already got you picking up his dry cleaning? I didn’t figure you for the domestic type. You disappoint me.”
Relieved that he had bought her side of the phone call, Sam looked at him in the mirror. “I take care of him. He takes care of me.”
“I’ll bet he does.” Reese reached forward to run his finger down the slope of her neck, left bare by her clipped-up hair. “I’ll bet he takes
good
care of you.”
Sam worked at not flinching.
“A woman like you needs a real man. Not one who treats you like his little wife.”
“Is that how you treated your wife?” she asked him in the mirror.
His eyes narrowed. “She was a nag. Nothing was ever enough for her. She always had to have more.”
“So she deserved to be killed?”
“She needed to shut up.”
“What about your kids? What did they do to deserve what they got?”
“None of your business! Just shut the fuck up and drive.”
Sam did as she was told while keeping a watchful eye out for back up. She took Massachusetts Avenue, a main artery that headed northeast. Another five minutes passed in tense silence before Sam became aware of an unmarked Metro Police car behind them.
A bead of sweat slid down her back. All she could think about was Reese being killed before she could ask him the most important question. Her mouth felt pasty and dry so she reached for her soda and took a long swig. Of course her stomach reacted with annoying predictability. Taking a couple of deep, calming breaths, she said, “Did you shoot my father?”
“
What?
What the hell are you talking about?”
“My father, Metro Police Deputy Chief Skip Holland.” She watched him in the mirror, waiting for any indication that he recognized the name and got none. “He was shot on G Street two years ago.”
Baffled, Reese said, “I didn’t shoot no cop on G Street.”
Sam gritted her teeth against the urge to scream. “There were newspaper clippings and reports in your house.”
“That stuff in the closet? It ain’t mine. Belongs to the guy who lived there before me. He was supposed to come get it, but he never did.”
“You lived there for more than a year and never got rid of the crap the previous people left behind?”
He shrugged. “We were busy.”
For whatever reason, Sam believed him and her heart sank with disappointment. Another dead end. “Who lived there before you?”
“How the hell am I supposed to know? I ain’t the freaking landlord.”
“Why’d you shoot my partner?”
“Who’s your partner?”
Keep him talking, Sam. Get as much as you can out of him before this goes bad
. “Yesterday? In your house?”
“He was a cop?”
Gratified to see Reese’s complexion go pale at that news, she said, “Yeah.”
“I didn’t mean to shoot no cop. He snuck up on me. I thought he was trying to rob the place. Man’s got a right to be in his own house, to protect his property.”
Thrilled to have at least gotten his confession on Freddie’s shooting, she released a long deep breath, satisfied with the partial victory. “Not after he kills his family in that house he doesn’t.”
The gun pressed hard into her neck. “Shut the fuck up and drive.”
Nick arrived at his office to find the staff huddled around the television in the conference room. “What’s up?”
“That guy Reese who killed his family and shot the Lieutenant’s partner?” Trevor said.
His heart slowing to a crawl, Nick nodded. “What about him?”
Trevor swallowed hard. “He’s taken a Metro cop hostage. They’re showing it live. A helicopter is following them on Mass Ave.”
Nick moved closer for a better look. At the sight of the dark blue sedan, he gasped. And then he told himself the department had hundreds of those cars assigned to their detectives and high-ranking officers. It could be anyone. “They haven’t said who it is?”
Trevor shook his head.
Nick reminded himself of Sam’s promise to call him the minute she could to let him know it wasn’t her. He retrieved his cell phone from his coat pocket and checked for missed calls. None. Staring at the phone, he willed it to ring.
“What’s that?” Reese asked, bending to look out the back window.
“Sounds like a chopper.”
“What the fuck? Are they
following
us? How do they even know?”
As he grew more agitated, Sam could think only of Nick and the conversation they’d had the night before. If he knew what was going on—and he probably did by now—he was waiting to hear from her. She ached when she remembered how upset he’d been after the shooting, and now this. Two days in a row, and this time she was actually in danger. No way would he stick around after this. The thought made her unbearably sad.
“They’re following us!” He threw the phone at her. “Call them. Tell them to back off.”
Her hands shaking, Sam reached for the phone and flipped it open. With only a moment’s hesitation, she called Nick.
“Sam!” He sounded as if he had pounced on the phone. “Are you okay?”
Gauging Reese through the mirror, she worked at keeping the hysteria out of her voice. “He wants you to call off the chopper.”
“I’ll tell Malone. I came over to HQ as soon as I heard the news. He’s right here. Do you want to talk to him?”
“Yes.” Then, realizing she might never get to talk to Nick again, she said, “Wait. No. You.”
“
Babe
,” he said, the single word full of agony. “I love you. I love you so much.”
“Me, too.”
Reese grabbed the phone from her hand and closed it.
Sam wanted to weep. She had so many other things she needed to say to Nick. If she had a lifetime, she’d never get to say them all.
“What the hell is taking so long?”
Reese roared, his eyes fixed on the chopper.
Sam startled at his loud tone. “It could be the press.”
“Motherfucker,” he muttered.
In the mirror, Sam watched his eyes dart from one side of Massachusetts Avenue to the other.
“There.” He pointed with the gun. “Pull in there.”
Using the signal to alert the unmarked car behind them, she turned into the parking lot in front of a diner.
“Nice and slow,” Reese growled. “Get out and come to the back door.” He gripped the clip holding her hair.
Sam winced as he pulled her close enough to whisper in her ear.
“One wrong move and you’re dead. You got me?”
“Yeah.”
“Hurry up.”
Sam hoped her legs would hold up under her as she got out of the car and moved to the back door. Out of the corner of her eye, she watched her colleagues move into position. If she could somehow give them enough room, if they could get off a shot…
But Reese had thought of that. When she opened the back door, he grabbed her and brought her down close to him. Hooking his arm around her neck and pressing the gun to her temple, he whispered, “Get out. Slowly.”
Sam took her time standing up.
He half walked, half dragged her into the diner. “Listen up,” Reese yelled, keeping the gun pressed to her head. “I want everyone out of here in one minute or this bitch cop is dead and so is anyone left.”
Eyeing the gun, customers scrambled for the doors.
“You.” Reese nodded to a paunchy middle-aged man who appeared to be in charge of the diner. “Over here.”
The man’s eyes almost popped out of his doughy face.
Now that they were out of the car, Sam waited for her opportunity to call upon her years of training to immobilize Reese. But not while there were still civilians in the diner.
One of the waitresses escorted the last elderly customer to the door, casting a panic-stricken glance at her boss on her way out.
“Go out there and tell them I want my money.” Reese pointed the gun at the petrified manager. “I want every cent of the ten grand they took from my house. They got one hour.
She’s
got one hour. Go.”
The manager didn’t have to be told twice.