Fall of Light (48 page)

‘This,’ said Caladan Brood, ‘proves a most cruel conscience.’

‘Go slowly with that broth,’ Lord Anomander said. ‘Tell me your name.’

‘Wreneck.’

‘Have you brothers or sisters?’

‘No.’

‘Your parents?’

‘Just my ma. The man who made me with her was with the army. He also made horseshoes and other stuff, but he died to a horse-kick. I don’t remember him, but Ma says I’m going to be big, like he was. She sees it in my bones.’

‘You’ll not return to her?’

‘Not until I kill the ones who hurt Jinia. Then I’ll come back. I’ll find Jinia in the village and we’ll get married. She says she can’t have children, not any more, after what they did, but that doesn’t matter, and it doesn’t matter if Ma doesn’t like her either, because of how she’s been used and all. I’ll marry Jinia, and protect her for ever.’

Lord Anomander was no longer looking down at Wreneck. He was instead looking across at Caladan Brood. He said, ‘And so I now raise my standard, Azathanai, to a deserved future, and a conscience scrubbed clean. If not in the name of love, then what cause suffices?’

‘Draconus would stand with you, First Son, beneath such a standard. And thus the nobles are lost.’

Lord Anomander turned away, studied the barren trees with their scorched trunks that surrounded the glade. ‘Are we then past the age of shame, Caladan? No sting should I ridicule my fellow highborn?’

‘Its power has diminished. Shame, my friend, is but a ghost now, haunting every city, every town and village. It has less substance than woodsmoke, and but rubs the throat with little more than an itch.’

‘I shall make it a wildfire.’

‘In such a conflagration, First Son, guard your standard well.’

‘Wreneck.’

‘Milord?’

‘When your time comes … for vengeance. Find me.’

‘I don’t need any help. They stuck a sword in me and I didn’t die. They can try it again and I still won’t die. My promise keeps me alive. When you become a man, you learn to do what you say you will do. That’s what makes you a man.’

‘Alas, there are far fewer men in the world than you might think, Wreneck.’

‘But I’m one.’

‘I believe you,’ Lord Anomander replied. ‘But understand my offer before you reject it. When you find those rapists and murderers, they will be in a cohort, in Urusander’s Legion. There may well be a thousand soldiers between you and them. I will clear your path, Wreneck.’

Wreneck stared at the First Son. ‘But, milord, I am going to do it at night, when they’re sleeping.’

Caladan Brood grunted a laugh, and then spat into the fire. ‘It is a clever man who thinks hard on how to achieve his promise.’

‘I am loath to risk you, Wreneck. Find me in any case, and we can discuss the necessary tactics.’

‘You have no time for me, milord.’

‘You are a citizen of Kurald Galain. Of course I have time for you.’

Wreneck didn’t understand that; he was not sure what the word ‘citizen’ meant. The bowl was empty. He set it down and pulled the furs closer about him again.

‘It nears dusk,’ said Lord Anomander. ‘Sleep, Wreneck. Tomorrow, we take you to Dracons Keep.’

‘And I will see again my promise to Draconus,’ Caladan Brood said.

‘Your meaning?’

‘Oh, nothing of import, First Son.’

Wreneck settled back, warm inside and out, with only the occasional cramp from his stomach. He thought about Dark, and Light, and Creation, and Chaos. They struck him as big things, ideas that men such as Lord Anomander and Caladan Brood would speak of when they thought no one else was listening. He tried to imagine himself talking about such matters, when he was older, when the life he had lived had been set aside and a new life had taken its place. In that new life, he would think about serious things, but not, he suspected, things like Dark and Light and Creation and Chaos, because with those things, it sounded too easy to push them away, far enough away to keep them from hurting. No, the serious things he would think about, he decided as he closed his eyes, would be ones that mattered. Ones that worked to make him a better man, a man not afraid of feelings.

He remembered his wail for his ma, after all the killing was over with and he was still alive and Jinia was hurt. That cry seemed to have come from a child, from Wreneck the child, but it hadn’t. Instead, it had been the birth-cry of a man, the man that Wreneck had become, and the man that he now was.

The notion sent a shiver through him, though he wasn’t sure why. But it didn’t feel made up. It felt true, even if he wasn’t sure what made it true.
But one thing I now know. I made it through all of childhood, and not once did I learn about surrendering.

I swam across the icy stream without even knowing it, and now I am safe again, for a time. Here with Lord Anomander, who is the First Son of Mother Dark. And with the Azathanai, who even if he’s not good for anything else can at least make a fine bowl of broth.

He closed his eyes, and moments later was fast asleep.

In his dreams, the dying gods awaited him. They seemed without number. He stood in their midst, confused and wondering. They were, one and all, kneeling to him.

  *   *   *

There was an old memory, but it was the kind that never went away, and ever seemed closer than one would expect, given the span of years that had passed since. There had been a column, filled with families, their livestock, and wagons heaped with everything that would be needed to break land and build homes. Ivis was young, just one more dust-covered child with more energy than sense. They had been journeying into the north, beyond the forest, and the horizon was far away. Ivis remembered his wonder at that, as if the world had simply unfolded.

They had passed old cairns and tracks worn into battered swaths by wild herds. There had been stones and boulders in rows, not parallel as might line a road, but converging, often on the southern slope of a rise. Some of the cairns had sprouted dead saplings, many of them toppled after the past winter, when the winds had been fierce. These saplings had no roots. They had been hacked at the base into rough points, and driven into the heaps of stone. The mystery of such a thing was more enticing to Ivis than whatever truth he might have discovered, with a few questions to any of the adults – in particular the hunters. Instead of runs and blinds and kill-sites, he had chosen reasons more ethereal for all the strange formations they had found on the vast plain.

Gods stood tall, and with hands spread could command the sky. At night, the gleam of their eyes burned through the darkness with a cold light. And in looking down, they made clear their message: they were far away, and from that distance was born indifference. Still, once, long ago, these gods had not been far away. Indeed, they had sat with their mortal children, sharing the same fires. This was the age before the gods left the world, Ivis had told himself, before mortals had broken their hearts.

The lines of boulders, the cairns upon the summits, the huge wheels – all of these had come in the wake of the gods’ leaving. The desperate mortals had looked up at the sky, witness to the dwindling fires of all that was now lost.

It well suited a child’s mind to believe that the ones left behind, abandoned, would seek a new language, written in stone upon the plain, with which to call upon the gods. And, at least in the beginning of these notions, there had been little recognition of the desperation behind such efforts. The stars were far away, but not so far as to lose sight of the world below.

The day had been bright, clear, when the Jhelarkan attacked the column. Invisible borders had been crossed by the homesteaders, although, as Ivis later understood, the Tiste were hardly ignorant of their transgression. Sometimes, among a people, there existed a certain arrogance. It had been built up, that arrogance, in a multitude of layers, making it strangely impregnable to the weaker virtues of fairness and respect. It spoke with deceit, and when that failed, with slaughter.

But arrogance had a way of misunderstanding things. If the first Jhelarkan had seemed confused by notions of ownership; if they had not quite understood what it was that the Tiste expeditions were demanding, nor the claims they subsequently made – none of this was synonymous with weakness. In retrospect, Ivis now understood, the Jhelarkan had proved rather adept in grasping the new language thrust upon them, with its forts and outposts, its timber harvests and slaughtered beasts.

A few shouts upon the other side of the column, and then screams, and Ivis, running back to the wagon where sat his mother and grandmother, his much younger cousins huddled in the protective clutch of arms that had, until that moment, done such a good job of holding off the cruelties of the world … Ivis, confused, frightened, seeing a horrifying shape lunge into the midst of his family, making the wagon rock, and another one, its huge jaws closing round the head of the ox in its traces, dragging the bellowing beast down on to its fetlocks.

The blood that erupted from Ivis’s kin was like a sheet thrown out on the wind. The enormous wolf –
soletaken
– slaughtered everyone in the wagon. Then it was scrambling down, snarling and flinching at a spearthrust from a hunter Ivis could not see, and the refuge towards which the young boy had been running was but a heap of torn bodies.

In his terror, he had run under the wagon, where he huddled. From above, the blood of his family drained down like rain between the slats, covering him.

His memories of the rest of that attack were blurred, too vague to parse. The Jhelarkan had been a hunting pack turned war-band. They could easily have butchered everyone in the column. Instead, they had struck once, and then retreated. They had sought to deliver a message, in language most plain. Only years later, when the war had begun in earnest, did the Jhelarkan come to understand that warnings never worked. Arrogance, after all, met such warnings with words like
infamy.
Arrogance responded with
indignation.
And this was the fuel for vengeance and retribution, the birth-cries of war, and the Tiste made it so, in ways wholly predictable and, he now understood, utterly contemptible.

In the mind, death plays with the dead, to breed more death. The stronger death’s hold, the more foolish the mind. Why, I wonder, does history seem to be little more than a list of belligerent stupidities?

How rare was it, he asked himself, that virtues changed the world? How brief and flitting such bright moments?
But then, since when did love bend to reason? And how much vengeance is fed by the loss of someone dearly loved?

The Jhelarkan lost the war. They lost their land. Righteousness was demonstrated with blood and battle. Justice was won with triumph, making a lie of both.

In all of this was proved the indifference of the gods, and the language of stone boulders upon the plain was a language too simple to manage the complexities of the new world. His memory of that day, beyond even the murder of his family, belonged to the futility of the old ways. Those boulders no doubt still remained, serving now as monuments to failure. The Tiste claimed the land, and in a few short years the wild herds were all gone, and with the ground too poor for crops and too cold for livestock, the settlers eventually left their winnings, returning south.

The servants had cleared the last of the plates and bowls from the table and jugs were brought to fill tankards with heady, steaming mulled wine. Ivis had said little during the meal, rebuffing efforts directed his way. His concentration had wavered from the conversations until his sense of them was lost, and in the fugue that followed, he let lassitude take hold. Some nights, words proved too much of an effort.

He was, nevertheless, all too aware of Sandalath, seated upon his right. Impropriety was seductive. Unease and the notion of the forbidden proved spices to his desire. Still, he knew that he would do nothing, break no covenant.
Barring the slaying of my lord’s daughters.
The notion startled him, the truth of it shocking enough to sweep aside his lassitude.

Yalad was speaking. ‘… and so a chilly week ahead is likely. The outer walls will be bitter cold, and that makes the timing propitious. It will force them closer to the heart of the house.’

Ivis surprised everyone by speaking. ‘Your point, gate sergeant?’

‘Ah. Well, I was suggesting, sir, the closing off of the outer passages at that time, further reducing their avenues of escape.’

‘And why would that be a good thing?’

Yalad’s brow clouded. ‘To better effect their capture, sir.’

‘They may be children, Yalad,’ said Ivis, ‘but they are also witches. What manner of chains do you think will hold them?’

Surgeon Prok cleared his throat and said, ‘Falt, the herb-woman from the forest, could not stay long her last visit to me. The power of those two hellions proved too inimical. It infests the entire house. Sorcery abounds these days, gate sergeant, and it is as unruly as the season.’ He tilted his tankard towards Ivis. ‘The commander has the right of it. We have no means of containing them, barring immediate execution, which the commander will not sanction.’

Leaning back, Yalad held up both hands. ‘Very well. It was but an idea.’

‘The situation is indeed trying,’ Prok offered by way of mollification. ‘At times, in my station, I catch a scuffle or drawn breath, and find myself fixing gaze upon this wall or that. I believe I have found a secret door, and have chocked it secure. But magic … well, it is difficult feeling entirely safe.’

Ivis gestured to a servant. ‘Build up that fire again, will you?’

Although unsettled by the discussion thus far, with its ponderings on witchery and murder, Sandalath was unaccountably relieved when Ivis stirred awake enough to engage in the conversation. He had been a distant, remote presence during the meal, seemingly unmindful of the company.

There were ghosts in this house now, and no doubt in the courtyard and beyond, out upon the battlefield. There was a restlessness to the air that had little to do with the chill draughts as the winter wind fought its way through cracks and beneath doors.