screaming obscenities.
‘Piss off, you prat, I ain’t scared of you! I ain’t scared of no one!
You fucking white-skinned ghost, come back and fight like a man.
You hear me? I ain’t fucking scared of you!’ Alan called after him.
But he was scared, and he knew it. More to the point, Teddington knew it. But it made Alan feel better to say it.
Alone he put his head into his hands and tried to stem the tears
that were threatening to fall from his eyes. He was frightened that if
he started crying he would never stop.
Marie was in a cab on her way to Spitalfields after a call from Maisie.
As she had walked out of the hostel she had half expected to be
arrested. Instead she’d left without anyone taking any real notice.
But she felt inside that it was only a matter of time before the police
sought her out.
She was going to plead guilty and get it all over with. That was
the easiest way. As Sally had said, showing the police the video
would be her best defence. No mother could be expected to see
that and not react. But she knew that the men in the film would not
be easily incriminated. No, they’d have their arses well covered. The
video would disappear or something else would happen to discredit
her story.
It was how their world worked.
Her only other option was to contact them personally and try and
get a deal from them. But if she did that she would be letting them
get away with it. Strangely she didn’t feel the urge to kill them any
more, she had had her fill of killing since Patrick. She still couldn’t
believe she had really done what she had.
But in one part of her, no matter how bad she felt now and
would feel for the rest of her days, she was glad he was no more.
She wouldn’t go so far as to say she was pleased she had done it, but
she was pleased that he could never hurt her or her loved ones
again.
Inside the restaurant she saw a beaming Maisie, who out of her
working clothes and make-up looked just like any other young
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girl. As Marie sat down she poured her a large glass of ice cold
Chardonnay.
‘Let’s have a toast, shall we?’
Marie didn’t answer her.
‘Well, come on, love, get that down your neck. Cheers! I can see
you’ve already had a few, already been celebrating.’
‘I am not celebrating, Maisie. I can’t, not yet.’
She shrugged.
‘Fair enough. But Christ, Marie, you gave him a braying and a
half, didn’t you? I was watching you. I saw it all.’
Marie was quiet, wondering where this was leading. Was Maisie
going to try and use the knowledge against her in some way?
‘When you hit him, he didn’t know his arse from his elbow. It
was perfect! And the way his head opened up with the first
whack … Girl, I never, ever want to fall out with you. It was like
something from a fucking film! Then you just laid into him. I
couldn’t believe he was still alive when the others turned up. It was
so fucking freaky! And then I had to go back inside the flat and act
like I knew fuck all when inside I wanted to roar with fucking
laughter!’
Marie said loudly, ‘What the fuck are you going on about? What
others? Who else turned up?’
It was then that Maisie realised Marie had absolutely no idea what
had happened after she’d left.
Jason was sitting with his father watching the news when they were
both startled to see Patrick Connor’s picture appear on the screen
and hear a brief resume of his life of crime. The story went on to say
he had been tortured to death by a well-known drug baron, Mikey
Devlin, a man who had himself been shot by police marksmen at a
scrapyard in East London after a surveillance operation that had
lasted for months.
Jason was in shock but as Ossie tried to turn off the news he held
out his arm to stop him.
‘Leave it, Dad, I want to hear it all.’
Ossie listened with his boy as his natural father’s murder was
talked about calmly and dispassionately by the nice Welshman who
read the news on BBC1.
‘Haven’t you seen the news today, Marie? Some bloke called Devlin
was shot at a scrapyard in East London. Well, by all accounts it was
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him who lifted Patrick after you’d brained him. I didn’t know the
blokes who turned up, assumed they were just another set of
enemies. Christ himself knew Patrick had more than enough. But
his body was found in one of this Devlin bloke’s lock ups. They had
tortured him, used everything on him … cattle prods, a welding
iron, you name it. Fuck, I wish I’d seen it!’
Marie stared around the crowded restaurant and watched all the
people laughing and joking and drinking. In the corner was a
middle-aged couple. They were gazing into each other’s eyes
oblivious to everyone around them. They looked to be in love.
Would she have fallen in love with Mikey eventually? She had
wanted to use him, to make him hurt Patrick for her, and he had
done that without her prompting. He had done it because he cared
about her. She didn’t deserve such caring.
The relief of knowing she had not actually killed Patrick was
overshadowed by the knowledge that Mikey Devlin had done the
job for her. Because he cared.
She gulped at the wine and tried to work out what the hell she
was supposed to do next. She still had the video in her possession.
Could she use it in some way to bring the three men to justice?
Something had to be done. This could not be the end of it - too
many people had been hurt. She had to make sense of it all or it
would send her as mad as her father.
Thinking of her father reminded her of what had happened to him
and her mother. Whatever Louise was, she did not deserve to be
burnt alive for it and yet that was exactly what had happened to her,
and it was all Marie’s fault. Her father had avenged that and had been
locked away. Her own daughter had been determined to show her
that she didn’t need her, and now she was dead. Her granddaughter
was in care. Her son was the only bright spark in her life. Yet she was
causing him problems by her association with him.
She had inadvertently caused chaos in so many lives by her release
from prison. If only she had never been paroled, so much hurt and
trouble could have been avoided.
Her mother was right after all. She was nothing but a Jonah.
Alan was getting tired and irritable. He had been left half the day in
a cell without even a cup of tea or a cigarette. He was gasping for
both and when the door was finally opened was ready to tell
whoever it was exactly what he thought of them.
It was Teddington, as he knew it would be. He could see by the
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policeman’s stance that he was after another row. It was why he was
in the cell and had not had Alan brought to an interview room.
‘What do you want, cunt! Another history lesson on the
Colombians or a smack in the fucking teeth?’
Teddington had three other men with him and grinned at them
as he said, ‘See what I fucking mean? He has to be on a fucking
death wish.’
Alan held up his fists like an old-time prizefighter.
‘Come on then, one at a time. Or are you too scared to take me
on? Come on then, I fucking dare you. You come in here like four
mad fairies and think you can intimidate me. Well, fuck you!’
Teddington was half impressed with this man though he
wouldn’t let him know that.
‘Come on then, you load of fucking filth poofters. Show me what
you can do, or are you all after my arse?’
Alan started to laugh again.
‘That’s it, ain’t it? You’re all shirt lifters!’
That was when the kicking started.
Alan had made the mistake of forgetting he was actually no good
to them now that Mikey was dead. Instead of trying to make things
easier for himself, he had only succeeded in making everything
worse. Fifteen minutes later he was bruised, bleeding, and back on
the street. The sound of Teddington’s laughter was ringing in his
ears as he came to the sickening realisation that out here his life was
in mortal danger because he was a known grass.
Everyone he knew would be scared to help him. He was finished.
He was the reason Mikey had been shot and his boys banged up.
Alan Jarvis had gone from respected businessman and scrap metal
tycoon to drug dealer, importer, and finally grass.
What a glittering career he had carved out for himself.
Now he was completely on his own. He would never see his girls
again because he could be traced through them. His name would be
spoken with hatred and everyone would wonder if he had opened
his trap about them as well. He had no one to turn to and no one
to rely on.
The sooner he disappeared the better.
Anastasia was laughing, her little face red from the exertion. As
Lorraine and Peter Porter watched her they both felt extremely
happy. She was everything they had ever dreamed of in a child:
bright, pretty and with a lovely nature. She had settled in well and
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already hugged them as if they were her real parents. That in itself
felt like a privilege.
Since the sad news of her mother’s death they hoped they might
be considered for adoption. After all, they were mixed race like her.
Lorraine’s father was from Bangladesh though Peter was pure
Yorkshire. They had met at university and had fallen in love in
seconds, but since Peter had found out he was sterile their cosy little
world had been destroyed. Until they had started fostering, that is.
Although they’d loved all the kids they had looked after, this little
one was special. As she grinned at them now they both felt a lifting
of their heart like a physical sensation.
‘Annie’s!’
She spoke the name they had given her with pride as she grabbed
her dolly from the table. They had thought ‘Anastasia’ a bit of a
mouthful and so they had shortened it accordingly. Annie had liked
it. She found it easier to say than her other name and so she used it
at every opportunity. After a few short weeks she felt like their very
own child and they were terrified of the day she might be taken
from them.
Anastasia had never been so happy, and if every now and then she
briefly remembered and asked for her mummy it soon passed,
especially when she was hugged close by Lorraine.
She was getting used to the regular food, and a house where no
one shouted. Of getting up at the same time each day without
having to lie in bed for ages waiting for her mummy. She was used
to getting plenty of attention now and plenty of treats: swimming,
the cinema and regular play school.
It was an idyllic life for the little girl with the curly hair and the
effervescent personality. She had a look of her mother about her,
but a darker, more honed version. Her character was actually more
like her grandmother’s, had the same self-contained quality. Now
her personality was developing properly she was also getting strong—
minded. Her foster parents put this down to her feeling more
secure. They were right, she was blossoming under their tutelage
and it showed. Even the social worker was impressed with the way
she had come on since they had placed her.
When the news came on the TV and her father’s photo was
displayed, Annie opened her arms wide and said loudly: ‘Daddy
gone!’
Both Lorraine and Peter noticed that she seemed happy as she said
it and they laughed together, not understanding what the joke was.
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Then, her face serious now, she said, ‘Mummy gone.’
And Lorraine hugged her and said gently, ‘Yes, Mummy’s gone,
darling, but Mummy Lot is still here.’
‘Big hug!’
Annie’s voice was loud and Lorraine hugged her hard.
‘Yes, my little darling. Big hug.’
‘All right, Dad?’
Lucy was shocked at her father’s appearance but tried her hardest
not to show it.
He smiled at her, his face lighting up with recognition.
‘Hello, love.’
Kevin was unshaven and it made him look like a tramp. He had
lost weight and his body movements were jerky. Though she had
been warned what to expect, actually seeing him with her own eyes
was still a big shock. He had always been such a dapper man. Smart
and well-groomed. In control of himself.
‘Hello, Sue. I didn’t know you two knew each other!’
He was delighted by his daughter’s visit and it made them both
feel good to see him so happy.
The two best girls! I’ve been wanting to see you. I have
something to tell you, see. I should have told you before but I
couldn’t. Kept it locked away in here for years.’ He tapped his head
with a nicotine-stained finger. ‘And I have to tell you now otherwise
I won’t be allowed to go home. Will I, Sue?’
He looked at her as he said her name and she smiled her
agreement. He spoke in riddles a lot of the time these days.
‘Do you want a cup of tea? They’ll make you a cup if you want
one, they’re very good like that here. It’s because we’re all as mad
as hatters!’