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Authors: James Sallis
Tags: #Fiction, #Mystery & Detective, #Police Procedural, #General
"That was it?"
He nodded. "Not a ripple since."
"Have you talked to his friends?"
"I tried. Turns out the ones I knew, kids I remembered being his friends, he hadn't had much to do with them, or they with
him, for a long time. He must have others, but I haven't found them."
"Not a good sign. People change habits and friends like that, usually it means a lot more's changing."
"Yes, sir. I know."
"I'll need the name of his school, kids you already talked to, his teachers, anybody you know who works with him, usual hangouts,
particular interests."
He took a manila envelope out of the book and passed it across to me. The photo inside showed a light-skinned, smallish, compactly
built young man with prominent features and hair clipped almost to his scalp. He could easily be in his twenties. The rest
was details. Names, lists. Nouns with no verbs. Like the photograph: bits of information, points of light, outlining a presence,
a shape, no longer there.
Sudden as pain, memory struck: a twilight long ago. I was twenty, new to New Orleans. Carl Joseph had gone off one of the
roofs he'd used to shoot people from, and his mother had come to me to try to make some kind of sense of it all. Having told
me about her son, about his life, she walked up the path around the big house into darkness, and I thought: Another person
leaving, falling away.
Then another memoiy, another blow. Years later. I'd just told the Claytons their daughter was dead and watched them turn to
stone. A friend of Verne's named Sanders had killed himself, filming the whole thing. Verne and I were sitting together on
her couch, looking out the window and drinking.
I used to ride trains a lot, Verne said. Mama'd put us on one and give the conductorfiftycents to look after us. And I'd sit
in the end car and watch everything pass by, all those places and people I'd never get to know, gone for good—and so quickly.
I'm still on that train, Verne told me. I've always been. Watching people I've loved go away from me, for good.
I slid everything back into the envelope. Phone numbers were on the outside. His ownrented room, his mother's apartment, the
university library where he worked most evenings.
"I'll do what I can," I said.
"I appreciate this, Mr. Griffin."
"Don't expect too much. And what there is, is likely to be bad."
That afternoon I visited his half brother's school, his mother at work, and the donut shop at Prytania and Louisiana.
One of the shop's glass doors had been covered with plywood, permanently from the look of it, and wired shut. A cardboard
placard on the wall warned, NO Alcoholic Beverages on Premises. Notices on the remaining door and on the marquee beneath the
TAST-T DONUT sign outside read Open 24 Hrs. Come in here at two A.M., you'd find people in layers of old clothes sitting half
the night over a cup of coffee.
The kid behind the counter with a shock of hair like carrot tops shooting off his head and wearing a dough-smeared assistant
manager tag confirmed that Shon Delany had failed to show up for work last Thursday. He'd also missed his shift on Friday,
and again on Sunday. Nor had he called in, any of those times.
Shon's homeroom teacher, a Miss Kamil Brown, couldn't be more specific about when Shon had stopped attending school. I'm sorry,
she kept saying. Sorry she couldn't help me, sorry she hadn't tried to contact Shon's parents, sorry she didn't have any real
reasonto call attendance, sorry she didn't have time to get to know the students any better. I believed her sorrow. She was
in her early twenties, couldn't have been at this more than a few years. Already she looked about her as though unable to
remember how she got here, or exactly where
here
was. Her eyes and voice were affectless, like those of young soldiers.
At Rite Way Dry Cleaners on Baronne the boy's mother, Rachel Lee Baldwin, reiteratedwhat Sam Delany had told me, admitted
that Shon hadn't been talking to her much these days when she
did
see him, and said that she had to get back to work. She too, whether from this latest incident or her whole life, had a vague,
shell-shocked look about her.
That night after dinner at Dunbar's I walked down Carondelet into town and prowled the Quarter awhile before settling in at
the Napoleon House. Joe's closed down years ago, the Seven Seas is long gone, but the Napoleon House is still around, looking
pretty much the same as it always has. Still has the same pictures, and as far as I can tell the same coat of paint, it had
when Ifirstsaw it.
I sat there watching those around me, those walking by past the French doors that opened one wall of the bar to the sidewalk
outside, and thinking about a passage from
Ulysses.
The sadness, the dark, in Dublin late at night, Joyce wrote, is swingeing. People who do not want to go home, who will not
go home, who have not got a home, lurch and stagger in the gloom, moths without a candle.
About nine an off-duty cop who turned out to be a friend of Walsh's came in. We got to talking about the murder rate and the
new mayor, wondering if the city would ever haul itself back upright.
Hours later, though I'd had only coffee and club soda, I lurched and staggered home myself.
I REMEMBER A December, unseasonably warm—it might have been June. Sometime in the late sixties. Cataclysms everywhere: social,
racial, personal. The whole period's kind of a blur. Not a good time for me, as they say.
I'd been thrown out of yet another apartment, spent the night in a covered bus stop having intermittent, elliptical conversations,
and at eight, when it opened, was standing outside the K&B at St. Charles and Napoleon waiting to buy a pint of bourbon. Someone
else was there before me, a neatly dressed businessman type in his Lincoln with the windows up and radio on. He asked for
two pint bottles of vodka, and at the register, for just a moment, our eyes met in silent kinship: two men buying liquor at
eight in the morning.
I walked along St. Charles sipping from the bottle, watching cars surge forward a half-block, a block, before they fetched
up at a dead stop behind traffic. Hydrogen sulfide burned
on
the air like a fuse. I turned off to the right, lakeside, into stands of massive old houses painted white, light blue and
peach. Palms, hibiscus, yucca trees and rubber plants sat in terra-cotta pots on galleries, balconies, patios. Rooms behind
windows were sparsely furnished with antique sofas, paintings in ornate frames, chairs and tables adrift on rafts of tapestrylike
carpet, chandeliers clear and bright as springwater. An area where a black man had best keep moving.
By ten-thirty or so, bottle long depleted, I was heading back down town towards Louisiana. A young man stood outside Gladstone's
hosing off the parking lot and street. In better days I'd stop at the lounge there for a drink whenever I was in the neighborhood.
Louis Armstrong used to meet fans and friends at the Gladstone when he came back to town.
Getting close to noon. Lunchtime. Between St. Charles and Claiborne I walked by at least a dozen corner grocery stores, bars
and one-room cafes, all of them giving off the meaty, rich smell of frying shrimp that's so much a part of this city. I had
no place to go, and I was hungry. But what I wanted most of all was another drink.
There was a period back then when I lived for over a year on something like $400. Rent for a small apartment, a kitchenette
and one room, maybe even a tiny bedroom, was $75. I'd pay a month'srent and move in. Wouldn't be able to make the second month,
but they wouldn't throw me out till the third—then I'd move on. At first, each new place was a step down the social scale.
Later on they seemed more like steps down the evolutionary scale.
I'll never forget the last one. I rang the front bell, and up from the stairwell of the basement where she lived rose a storklike
woman, flanked by three dogs, whose skin had peeled away in patches, leaving narrow dark septums around white flesh.
The apartment's floor was warped. Linoleum in spots had fused with the floor's wood; missing boards held in place windows
(themselves missing panes) beyond which hung screens orange with rust, screens so brittle that pieces broke away when I touched
them. The hot-water heater squatted in a comer behind the couch. Pipes in the wall drummed furiously whenever anyone flushed
a toilet or ran water. But it was all I could afford, so I took it. I paid, moved in my two paper bags stuffed with clothes
and books, drank a celebratory six-pack and fell asleep. About three that morning I awoke to a languid, warm breeze through
which stars shone brightly and a light rain fell, and went out.
And that was it, I never went back there. The next time I awoke it was in a hospital with this guy's face six inches from
my own saying, "Hey, bud, you in there?"
Don thought I never knew how bad it got, but I did. Drinkers always know. We've just turned ourselves into experts at not
noticing. All those years, almost every night, I'd wake at two or three in the morning, heart pounding, to the call of sirens
across the city. A mass of vines swinging in the wind would make a hunchback, human-shaped shadow on the wall, or rain in
the trees would sound like the feet of a thousand small living things coming towards me in the dark outside. Naked and sick,
I would stand at the window, promising myself the whole thing wasn't going to start up again, thinking
I won't,
knowing I would.
One of those nights, one of those mornings, at a bar on Magazine—it's been a long siege—a guy next to me is talking. For how
long, I can't remember. Can't remember much at this point, just these few moments. But he seems to be in the middle of something.
So I just moved up the street, he says, took that whole crowd with me, mothers, sons and all. I tell you, those were the days.
Never
will
be another time like it. That old horn's bell crinkled up something fierce from all them times I'd bang it 'gainst the floor
to get those boys' attention, but then whenever I'd lift it up, point those few first notes at the sky, it was like all of
a sudden the whole
city
was holding its breath, listening. And pretty soon they'd start coming down from uptown, and from over by the river, from
all
over. Didn't need to put up signs. Those first notes were all it took.
To this day I don't know how much of the encounter I imagined. I had had, by that time, more than a few conversations with
people who weren't there. Maybe it was only some local musician telling me about his life and, playing novelist even then,
picking at the pieces of his story, arranging and rearranging them, I came up with this guy claiming to be Buddy Bolden. Maybe
it was all just a hallucination. Or one of the dreams that ripped me from sleep at three in the morning.
I remember how light gleamed and swam in the bottles behind the bar as I turned to him. I've always wondered, I told him.
When they earned you off to the madhouse. People said it was because you threw a baby out of an upstairs window.
You know well as I do, young man, people be likely to say anything. 'Sides, it was one of them skinny close-built houses down
on Jackson. Woman in the next house, she saw what was happening and jus' put her arms out and
caught
that baby.
You miss it? I said.
The music?
I nodded.
Everything done changed now, son. Tell you the truth, most days I miss the barbering more.
Then he was gone.
I walked down Claiborne, past the smell of yet more frying shrimp, to Loyola and then to the library, where I spent the afternoon
reading Borges and watching people board and dismount buses outside.
Fleeing reality?
You better believe it. Feeling its hot breath on my neck.
I remember how intense, how alive, things became as the sun sank low. Tables, chairs, corners of shelves, roofs across the
street—all trembled, faintly luminous, as though fragments of sunlight, reluctant to let go, still clung to them. Lambent.
But it was not only the visual world that came so strangely into focus. Moments before the library closed, I heard a reference
librarian's voice as she spoke into her phone half a building away: "Here's the information you requested, sir. He died in
Concord, at 7:05 A.M., May 21st, 1952. That's right, 7:05. You're welcome."
Out, then, into the waiting, impatient street.
"I'LL HAVE THE red beans and rice," Richard Garces said. "Please tell me they're not left over from Monday." Monday was traditionally
washday in old New Orleans,fix-aheadpots of red beans and rice simmering on the stove. Many restaurants carry on the tradition.
It's a city that embraces tradition.
"Tuesday, at the latest," Tammy said. One high, jean-clad hip went higher as she rested hand and order pad on it "No reason
you'd notice, but we do move a little slow around here."
They barely moved at all. Moochie's reminded me of those time capsules they used to bury back in the fifties, full of artifacts:
a newspaper, recordings of popular songs, comic books, Kool-Aid packets, a nylon scarf, souvenir ashtrays. Neon clocks and
beer signs hung on the walls. Formica, fake-wood paneling and bright plastic everywhere. Hank Williams, Patsy Cline and Jimmy
Reed on the jukebox.
We did our best, Richard, Don Walsh and myself, to get together like this at least once a week. Have dinner, talk things over.
Sometimes it would get put off week after week, other times it might happen every day or two. Over fiveor six years, I guess,
it averaged out.
"And to drink?" Tammy said.
"Coffee."
Don ordered rigatoni, salad with Italian. "And a beer. Any kind." I looked at him. He shrugged.
I asked guiltily for a large Caesar. Blood work on my two most recent hospitalizations, over a year ago, had shown high cholesterol,
but I tried not to think about it.
Iced tea now, coffee after.
"Tammy. How's Byron?" Richard said.
She had started away towards the kitchen, a turn, two steps; and now turned back. Hip again rising as she shifted weight onto
one leg. A kind of all-purpose gesture for her, at the same time confiding and defensive.
"He's fine. Said to tell you hello in his last letter, now that I think about it."
"Still in Atlanta?"
"Oh yeah. Couldn't haul him out of there with a team of Clydesdales."
At college in the sixties, both of them impossibly young, Richard (as they used to say) had brought Byron out—or they'd brought
one another out Then they'd openly lived together for a number of years. Something people throw parties and send out invitations
for, nowadays. But back then that sort of thing was your own personal Pearl Harbor. It was underground nuclear testing in
your backyard, Commie infiltration at the DAR, dryrotin the moral fabric.
"Still with Chip?"
"You bet. They finally bit the bullet Got married last year."
"And your folks?"
She shrugged.
"Maybe with time," Richard said.
Tammy's glance said no way, there
wasn't
that much time. She dropped our order off at the kitchen.
"So it wasn't David after all," Garces said, returning to the conversation Tammy had interrupted when she came to our table.
"No. Though it could have been."
"Assuming David is still alive," Walsh said.
I nodded. Of course. "But in some very odd, very particular way, it
felt
as though it were David—when I firstgot the call." I tried to explain what was going on within me as I walked into that room.
Warm fronts and cold fronts colliding, high-pressure areas, patches of dazzling sunlight, scatters of raindrops the size of
cities.
Tammy brought our drinks.
"No way to explain the connection?" Richard said. "What he was doing with David's book?"
"No way to know there
was
a connection. He'd had the book a long time. Someone had."
"I take it there wasn't any ID on him."
"I sent a lab tech out for prints," Walsh said. "Lots of mental hospitals routinelyfingerprint their admissions. He's been
on the streets long—and it looks like he has—then chances are good he's in the system somewhere, a match is going to roll
up."
"I was at the hospital all night. About noon, he stabilized and got shipped upstairs to one of the ICUs." It had looked like
some futuristic version of
The African Queen:
three people pushing along his raft of a gurney hung with clear plastic bags, monitors, oxygen tank, respirator the size of
a lunchbox. "He's since regained consciousness. But he was anoxic during the arrest. No way to know how long, really. Or how
much damage was done."
"This may be just another dead end, Lew."
"Maybe."
David had disappeared years ago, during a summer in Europe. In effect he fell off the edge of the world. He'd written his
mother almost every week, then the letters stopped. Two months passed. Her own letters to him, sent
poste restante
to a post office in Paris, were never returned. I tried to trace him: got Vicky and her husband in Paris to run things down
at that end, talked to the chairman of his department and to David's sole friend at Columbia, had an old friend of my own,
a detective in New York, follow up there. Dooley was able to place David on a nonstop flight, Paris to New York, then to a
cab that dropped him midtown, maybe Grand Central or Port Authority. There the trail went cold. Dead ends.
It was
all
dead ends. I had put the minicassette with its two twenty-second segments of blank tape where someone had called, stayed on
the line, and said nothing—whenever I heaid them, trapdoors fell open beneath me—away in my desk.
"They're pulling the tube tonight," I said as Tammy brought our food. "If he's able to remember, able to talk at all, I'llfindout
what the connection is with David."
"Assuming there is one."
"Right."
"Get you anything else?" Tammy asked. We told her no. She told us to enjoy.
"You want me to come along, Lew?" Walsh said.
"No need. I've spoken with the doctors. They say it's okay."
"I'll be home. They give you any problem, you call me." He downed the last half of his Abita Amber in a single gulp and started
in on his food. Forkful of salad, forkful of rigatoni.
The smell of Richard's red beans came across the table in waves. A plateau of rice jutted above the beans at one side of the
bowl, a section of sausage, striped black from the grill, at the other.
"Something else." I told them about Shon Delany and asked if either had any suggestions.
Walsh shook his head. "Lew, you ever gonna learn to say no?"
"No."
"I'll get it on the network tonight, if you'll write it all down for me."
I already had, and handed it across. Richard was part of an underground information system, social and mental-health workers
who'd more or less stumbled onto this as an effective shortcut. He'd used it before to help me find LaVerne's daughter.
"And tomorrow morning I'll talk to some of the people on the streets, slide them into it. Kids especially."
"Thanks, Richard."
"Es nada.
Speaking of which," he said, turning to Don, "the streets and kids, not nada: how's Danny doing?"
Walsh shrugged.
"No job yet?"
"Jobs were rain, he'd be cactus. He did work half a day at a place on the butt end of Canal, one of those old diners that
looks like a trailer. The manager, kid about ten years younger than him, started to show him how he was doing something wrong
and Danny just walked out. Showed up at the house still in his apron."
"I figured things weren't going too well when he missed our lunch last week."
"Days go by when I hardly see him at all. Others, a block and tackle couldn't get him out of the house. What can you do?"
"Not much, Don, Tough as it is."
"Yeah."
One night last year Walsh had got a call from the Coral Gables, Florida, police department. An officer there said they had
his son in custody. The charge
this
time (yes, they'd had him at the station before) was burglary. Twenty-eight years old, Danny was still living with his mother,
unemployed, the officer said, and recently, while she was away at work and he off somewhere, his mother's house had been cleaned
out. An investigating officer tracking stolen goods came across her TV in a pawnshop and, following up on it, days later trailed
Danny back to the self-storage facility where he'd cached his mother's property. He'd pawned a few things, given some of it
away, but mosdy it was just sitting there, stacked up neat as a pin.
The boy's mother now claimed that she might have kind of given him permission, or at least somehow given him the impression
that it would be perfectly okay, to haul off the furniture, appliances and even the handles off the kitchen cabinets for chrissake.
So, unless she decided to proceed, beyond a court-ordered commitment for observation, there wasn't a lot they were going to
be able to do—till the next time. But his, Walsh's, name had come up during the investigation, and now Sergeant Montez was
calling as a professional courtesy, officer to officer, because he thought Walsh might want to know what was going on, maybe
get involved?
The upshot being that when Danny got out from under the commitment, he decided he'd be better off living with his father.
Well, not actually living with him, he'd just be in the same city, you know. So he came to stay with Don while he looked for
work and a place of his own and never left.
Big brother-like, Richard had taken him under wing, showing him the city (not that he seemed much interested), introducing
him to a few people (in whom he seemed even less interested), meeting him for occasional lunches and coffee.
"Tell him to give me a call," Richard said.
"I will."
"Anyone up for dessert?" Tammy asked. "Sam's put together a sweet potato and pecan pie that he plans on advertising as a threat
to intelligent life on the planet."
Most cities, they leave it up to traffic, poverty, automatic-weapons fire. Things like that. Here, they tiy to feed you to
death.
We declined.
"Coffee all around, then?"
"With a shot of bourbon and another of these." Don held up the empty Abita bottle. When Tammy brought everything on a tray,
he drank his coffee at once, then threw back the bourbon and started in on the beer, nursing it. It was a door I'd spent a
lot of years ducking to get through, myself.
"So you're headed back to the hospital," Richard said.
I nodded.
"How about you, Don? You got anything on for tonight?"
"Go home, see if Danny's there, see what shape the place's in. The usual."
"I'm hitting the seven o'clock show at the Prytania, you want to come along."
"You asking me for a date?"
"You bet, big boy."
"Probably some damn French thing, too. Get me in the mood."
"Oh, I thertainly hope tho."
"You guys want anything else? Nah, thanks, Richard. But I think I'll go on home. Not much in the mood for lighthearted comedies."
"Actually, according to reviews it's a gripping, compelling tale of obsession and madness."
"Well then. I definitely don't need any more of that. I get gripped and compelled real hard, every day I go in to work. Most
nights too, I don't turn the phone and the beeper off."
Tammy put the check down. I reached, but Don already had it.
"My turn."
Outside, eveiything about the night was quietly transformed. Humidity softened the edge of buildings; glistening wet, the
streets looked clean and new; even the headlights of oncoming cars were wrapped in shells of soft white. We walked together
a block or two, to Don's car, the same ancient Regal he'd had for years. Richard continued up Prytania.
"Drop you, Lew?"
"Thanks, but I'll walk. Great night."
He looked around. "Yeah. Yeah, I guess it is. Let me know how things turn out at the hospital?"
"Don." He'd gotten in. I leaned down to be at a level. "You going to be all right?"
"Sure. Sure I will. We always are, aren't we, you and me?"
"It's been a long siege, my friend."
"Yeah, just sometimes I get tired of looking at the goddamn white of their eyes, know what I mean?"
I nodded and shut the door for him. He looked through the window at me a moment, then rolled it down and stuck out his hand.
I took it and we shook. It seemed an odd thing to do with so old and close a friend.
I watched him drive off, into the night. Thinking I'd walk partway then get a cab, I cut over to St Charles and wound up,
instead, walking the whole distance.
The upper parts of buildings were gone, as though, from the sky down, everything were slowly dissolving, slowly becoming insubstantial.
Cars materialized beside me all at once out of the mist. Buses loomed up like sudden cliffs. Walking across Jackson to Claiborne,
I came upon two men sitting together in the shelter of a cardboard box shouting a tuneless duet. Even their words, as far
as I could tell, were invented.
After all, Beckett says, when you're in the last bloody ditch there's nothing left but to sing.