Everything's Eventual (38 page)

Now, I tried to pretend I liked Frank and Lulu tried to pretend she liked Lucy, but Lulu gave up pretending a lot sooner than I did. I guess maybe neither one of them, the cat or the woman, could stand being a hypocrite. I don't think Lucy was the only reason Lulu left hell, I know it wasn't but I'm sure Lucy helped Lulubelle make her final decision. Pets can live a long time, you know. So the present I got her for our second was really the straw that broke the camel's back. Tellthat to Dear Abby!

The cat's talking was maybe the worst, as far as Lulu was concerned. She couldn't stand it. One night Lulubelle says to me, 'If that cat doesn't stop yowling, L. T. , I think I'm going to hit it with an encyclopedia. '

'That's not yowling, ' I said, 'that's chatting. '

'Well, ' Lulu says, 'I wish it would stop chatting. '

And right about then, Lucy jumped up into my lap and she did shut up. She always did, except for a little low purring, way back in her throat. Purring that reallywas purring. I scratched her between her ears like she likes, and I happened to look up. Lulu turned her eyes back down on her book, but before she did, what I saw was real hate. Not for me. For Screwlucy. Throw an encyclopedia at it? She looked like she'd like to stick the cat betweentwo encyclopedias and just kind of clap it to death.

Sometimes Lulu would come into the kitchen and catch the cat up on the table and swat it off. I asked her once if she'd ever seen me swat Frank off the bed that way he'd get up on it, you know, always on her side, and leave these nasty tangles of white hair. When I said that, Lulu gave me a kind of grin. Her teeth were showing, anyway. 'If you ever tried, you'd find yourself a finger or three shy, most likely, ' she says.

Sometimes Lucy reallywas Screwlucy. Cats are moody, and sometimes they get manic; anyone who's ever had one will tell you that. Their eyes get big and kind of glarey, their tails bush out, they go racing around the house; sometimes they'll rear right up on their back legs and prance, boxing at the air, like they're fighting with something they can see but human beings can't. Lucy got into a mood like that one night when she was about a year old couldn't have been more than three weeks before the day when I come home and found Lulubelle gone.

Anyway, Lucy came racing in from the kitchen, did a kind of racing slide on the wood floor, jumped over Frank, and went skittering up the living room drapes, paw over paw. Left some pretty good holes in them, with threads hanging down. Then she just perched at the top of the rod, staring around the room with her blue eyes all big and wild and the tip of her tail snapping back and forth.

Frank only jumped a little and then put his muzzle back on Lulubelle's shoe, but the cat scared the hell out of Lulubelle, who was deep in her book, and when she looked up at the cat, I could see that outright hate in her eyes again.

'All right, ' she said, 'that's enough. Everybody out of the goddam pool. We're going to find a good home for that little blue-eyed bitch, and if we're not smart enough to find a home for a purebred Siamese, we're going to take her to the animal shelter. I've had enough. '

'What do you mean?' I ask her.

'Are you blind?' she asks. 'Look what she did to mydrapes! They're full of holes! '

'You want to see drapes with holes in them, ' I say, 'why don't you go upstairs and look at the ones on my side of the bed. The bottoms are all ragged. Becausehe chews them. '

'That's different, ' she says, glaring at me. 'That's different and you know it. '

Well, I wasn't going to let that lie. No way was I going to let that one lie. 'The only reason you think it's different is because you like the dog you gave me and you don't like the cat I gave you, ' I says. 'But I'll tell you one thing, Mrs. DeWitt: you take the cat to the animal shelter for clawing the living room drapes on Tuesday, I guarantee you I'll take the dog to the animal shelter for chewing the bedroom drapes on Wednesday. You got that?'

She looked at me and started to cry. She threw her book at me and called me a bastard. Amean bastard. I tried to grab hold of her, make her stay long enough for me to at leasttry to make up if there was a way to make up without backing down, which I didn't mean to do that time but she pulled her arm out of my hand and ran out of the room. Frank ran out after her. They went upstairs and the bedroom door slammed.

I gave her half an hour or so to cool off; then I went upstairs myself. The bedroom door was still shut, and when I started to open it, I was pushing against Frank. I could move him, but it was slow work with him sliding across the floor, and also noisy work. He was growling. And I meangrowling, my friends; that was no fuckingpurr. If I'd gone in there, I believe he would have tried his solemn best to bite my manhood off. I slept on the couch that night. First time.

A month later, give or take, she was gone.

If L. T. had timed his story right (most times he did; practice makes perfect), the bell signalling back to work at the W. S. Hepperton Processed Meats Plant of Ames, Iowa, would ring just about then, sparing him any questions from the new men (the old hands knew and knew better than to ask) about whether or not L. T. and Lulubelle had reconciled, or if he knew where she was today, or the all-time sixty-four-thousand-dollar question if she and Frank were still together. There's nothing like the back-to-work bell to close off life's more embarrassing questions.

Well, L. T. would say, putting away his Thermos and then standing up and giving a stretch. It has all led me to create what I call L. T. DeWitt's Theory of Pets.

They'd look at him expectantly, just as I had the first time I heard him use that grand phrase, but they would always end up feeling let down, just as I always had; a story that good deserved a better punchline, but L. T. 's never changed.

If your dog and cat are getting along better than you and your wife, he'd say, you better expect to come home some night and find a Dear John note on your refrigerator door.

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He told that story a lot, as I've said, and one night when he came to my house for dinner, he told it for my wife and my wife's sister. My wife had invited Holly, who had been divorced almost two years, so the boys and the girls would balance up. I'm sure that's all it was, because Roslyn never liked L. T. DeWitt. Most people do, most people take to him like hands take to warm water, but Roslyn has never been most people. She didn't like the story of the note on the fridge and the pets, either I could tell she didn't, although she chuckled in the right places. Holly shit, I don't know. I've never been able to tell what that girl's thinking. Mostly just sits there with her hands in her lap, smiling like Mona Lisa. It was my fault that time, though, and I admit it. L. T. didn't want to tell it, but I kind of egged him on because it was so quiet around the dinner table, just the click of silverware and the clink of glasses, and I could almost feel my wife disliking L. T. It seemed to be coming off her in waves. And if L. T. had been able to feel that little Jack Russell terrier disliking him, he would probably be able to feel my wife doing the same. That's what I figured, anyhow.

So he told it, mostly to please me, I suppose, and he rolled his eyeballs in all the right places, as if saying, Gosh, she fooled me right and proper, didn't she? and my wife chuckled here and there those chuckles sounded as phony to me as Monopoly money looks and Holly smiled her little Mona Lisa smile with her eyes downcast. Otherwise the dinner went off all right, and when it was over L. T. told Roslyn that he thanked her for a sportin-fine meal (whatever that is) and she told him to come anytime, she and I liked to see his face in the place. That was a lie on her part, but I doubt there was ever a dinner-party in the history of the world where a few lies weren't told. So it went off all right, at least until I was driving him home. L. T. started to talk about how it would be a year Lulubelle had been gone in just another week or so, their fourth anniversary, which is flowers if you're old-fashioned and electrical appliances if you're newfangled. Then he said as how Lulubelle's mother at whose house Lulubelle had never shown up was going to put up a marker with Lulubelle's name on it at the local cemetery. Mrs. Simms says we have to consider her as one dead, L. T. said, and then he began to bawl. I was so shocked I nearly ran off the goddam road.

He cried so hard that when I was done being shocked I began to be afraid all that pent-up grief might kill him with a stroke or a burst blood-vessel or something. He rocked back and forth in the seat and slammed his open hands down on the dashboard. It was like there was a twister loose inside him. Finally I pulled over to the side of the road and began patting his shoulder. I could feel the heat of his skin right through his shirt, so hot it was baking.

Come on, L. T. , I said. That's enough.

I just miss her, he said in a voice so thick with tears I could barely understand what he was saying. Just so goddammuch. I come home and there's no one but the cat, crying and crying, and pretty soon I'm crying, too, both of us crying while I fill up her dish with that goddam muck she eats.

He turned his flushed, streaming face full on me. Looking back into it was almost more than I could take, but Idid take it; felt Ihad to take it. Who had gotten him telling the story about Lucy and Frank and the note on the refrigerator that night, after all? It hadn't been Mike Wallace or Dan Rather, that was for sure. So I looked back at him. I didn't quite dare hug him, in case that twister should somehow jump from him to me, but I kept patting his arm.

I think she's alive somewhere, that's what I think, he said. His voice was still thick and wavery, but there was a kind of pitiful weak defiance in it, as well. He wasn't telling me what he believed, but what he wished he could believe. I'm pretty sure of that.

Well, I said, you can believe that. No law against it, is there? And it isn't as if they found herbody, or anything.

I like to think of her out there in Nevada singing in some little casino hotel, he said. Not in Vegas or Reno, she couldn't make it in one of the big towns, but in Winnemucca or Ely I'm pretty sure she could get by. Some place like that. She just saw aSINGER WANTED sign and gave up her idea of going home to her mother. Hell, the two of them never got on worth a shit anyway, that's what Lu used to say. And shecould sing, you know. I don't know if you ever heard her, but she could. I don't guess she was great, but she was good. The first time I saw her, she was singing in the lounge of the Marriott Hotel. In Columbus, Ohio, that was. Or, another possibility

He hesitated, then went on in a lower voice.

Prostitution is legal out there in Nevada, you know. Not in all the counties, but in most of them. She could be working one of them Green Lantern trailers or the Mustang Ranch. Lots of women have got a streak of whore in them. Lu had one. I don't mean she stepped around on me, orslept around on me, so I can't say how I know, but I do. She yes, she could be in one of those places.

He stopped, eyes distant, maybe imagining Lulubelle on a bed in the back room of a Nevada trailer whorehouse, Lulubelle wearing nothing but stockings, washing off some unknown cowboy's stiff cock while from the other room came the sound of Steve Earle and the Dukes singing Six Days on the Road or a TV playingHollywood Squares. Lulubelle whoring but not dead, the car by the side of the road the little Subaru she had brought to the marriage meaning nothing. The way an animal's look, so seemingly attentive, usually means nothing.

I can believe that if I want, he said, swiping at his swollen eyes with the insides of his wrists.

Sure, I said, you bet, L. T. , wondering what the grinning men who listened to his story while they ate their lunches would make of this L. T. , this shaking man with his pale cheeks and red eyes and hot skin.

Hell, he said, Ido believe that. He hesitated, then said it again: Ido believe that.

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When I got back, Roslyn was in bed with a book in her hand and the covers pulled up to her breasts. Holly had gone home while I was driving L. T. back to his house. Roslyn was in a bad mood, and I found out why soon enough. The woman behind the Mona Lisa smile had been quite taken with my friend. Smitten by him, maybe. And my wife most definitely did not approve.

How did he lose his license? she asked, and before I could answer: Drinking, wasn't it?

Drinking, yes. OUI. I sat down on my side of the bed and slipped off my shoes. But that was nearly six months ago, and if he keeps his nose clean another two months, he gets it back. I think he will. He goes to AA, you know.

My wife grunted, clearly not impressed. I took off my shirt, sniffed the armpits, hung it back in the closet. I'd only worn it an hour or two, just for dinner.

You know, my wife said, I think it's a wonder the police didn't look a little more closely athim after his wife disappeared.

They asked him some questions, I said, but only to get as much information as they could. There was never any question of him doing it, Ros. They were never suspicious of him.

Oh, you're so sure.

As a matter of fact, I am. I know some stuff. Lulubelle called her mother from a hotel in eastern Colorado the day she left, and called her again from Salt Lake City the next day. She was fine then. Those were both weekdays, and L. T. was at the plant. He was at the plant the day they found her car parked off that ranch road near Caliente, as well. Unless he can magically transport himself from place to place in the blink of an eye, he didn't kill her. Besides, he wouldn't. He loved her.