Every Man Dies Alone (23 page)

“Yes,” said the attorney. “True!” And no more. But seeing Harteisen gazing at him so expectantly, he went on, “You’re a child, Max, such a child!”

The actor, who was used to hearing himself described as a man of the world, tossed his head back angrily.

“Listen, Max, we’re among ourselves,” the attorney went on. “The door is padded, we can speak openly together. You know, if only dimly, how much injustice there is in Germany today, how much screaming, bloody injustice—and no one lifts a finger. On the contrary, they’re proud of their disgrace. But because the actor Harteisen has suffered a teensy-weensy hurt, he suddenly makes the discovery that there is injustice abroad in the world, and he screams for justice. Come on, Max!”

Depressed, Harteisen said: “But what shall I do, Erwin? I’ve got to do something!”

“What should you do? Well, that’s completely obvious! You and your wife move to some pretty spot in the country, and you stay nice and quiet. Above all you stop this dangerous talk about ‘your’ minister, and you don’t talk about what Göring said. Otherwise it’s possible that the minister will go after you in a completely different way.”

“But how long am I supposed to sit idly in the country?”

“A minister’s moods come and go, Max. And go they will, you can be sure of that. One day, your name will be back in lights.”

The actor shivered. “Not that!” he said. “Please, not that!” He stood up. “Are you really saying that’s the best you can do for me?”

“Absolutely!” said the attorney, and smiled. “Unless you fancy a spell in a concentration camp as a martyr for your art.”

Three minutes later, the actor Max Harteisen was standing in some bewilderment in the staircase of the office building, holding a postcard in his hand: “Mother! The Führer has murdered my son…”

My God! he thought. Who would write something like that? They must be crazy! It’s their death-warrant, for sure. Unthinkingly, he turned the card over. But there was no address, either of sender or a recipient, just these words: “PASS THIS CARD ON, SO THAT MANY PEOPLE READ IT!—DON’T GIVE TO THE WINTER RELIEF FUND!—WORK AS SLOWLY AS YOU CAN!—PUT SAND IN THE MACHINES!—EVERY STROKE OF WORK NOT DONE WILL SHORTEN THE WAR!”

The actor looked up. The elevator passed in a spill of illumination. He had the feeling of many eyes on him.

Hurriedly he slipped the postcard in his pocket, only to pull it out again a moment later. He was about to return it to the window-sill when doubt assailed him. Perhaps the people in the elevator had seen him there, with the postcard in his hand—and lots of people knew his face. The card would be found, and surely someone would come forward, prepared to swear they had seen him putting it down there. In a sense it would be true: he had put it down there, though he hadn’t been the first to do it. But who would believe him, in light of his falling-out with the Minister? He had so many strikes against him, and now this!

Sweat beaded on his brow, suddenly he understood that it wasn’t just the writer of the postcard, but also himself, who was in danger of his life, and perhaps he even more than the other! His hand itched: he wanted to put the card down, he wanted to take it away with him,
he wanted to tear it to pieces, just where he was… But perhaps there was someone at the top of the stairs, watching him? In the last couple of days, he had had the sensation now and then of being watched; he thought it was nerves on his part, Goebbels’ petty vindictiveness getting to him…

Maybe the whole thing was a trap for him? To show the world how right the minister had been in his judgment of the actor Harteisen? Oh, Christ, he was going mad, he was seeing ghosts! A minister wouldn’t carry on in that way! Or was that exactly the way he would carry on?

But he couldn’t stand there all day. He had to make a decision—this wasn’t the time to think about Goebbels, he had to think of himself!

He races back up half a flight of stairs; there is no one standing watching him. But already he is ringing the bell for attorney Toll. He charges past the secretary and slams the card down on the attorney’s desk: “Here, I found this on the staircase a moment ago!”

The attorney takes a cursory look at the postcard. Then he gets up and carefully shuts the double-door to his office, which Harteisen in his agitation has left open. He returns to his chair. He picks up the card and reads it through slowly and carefully, while Harteisen stalks back and forth, casting impatient glances at him.

Now Toll lets the card drop and asks, “Where did you say you found this?”

“Outside in the stairwell, half a flight down.”

“On the stairwell! Do you mean on the steps?”

“Don’t be so pedantic, Erwin! No, it wasn’t on the steps, it was on the windowsill.”

“And may I ask what prompted you to bring this charming
billet doux
to me in my office?”

The attorney’s voice has an edge to it, and the actor says pleadingly: “But what am I supposed to do? It was lying there, I absent-mindedly picked it up.”

“And why didn’t you put it straight back? That would have been the natural thing to do.”

“The elevator passed me while I was reading it. I had the feeling someone might have seen me. My face is so widely recognized.”

“That’s good—I like that!” said the attorney bitterly. “And so you turned back and came running to me waving the card in your hand?” The actor nodded, grim-faced. “No, my friend,” said Toll decisively, and held out the postcard. “Here, take it. I don’t want anything to do
with it. Nota bene, you may not refer to me in any way. I’ve never seen this card. Here, take it back!”

White-faced, Harteisen stared at his friend. “I thought of you,” he said, “not just as my friend but my attorney, the man who represents me at law.”

“Not on this, or, perhaps better, not any more. You’re an accident waiting to happen, you have an incredible talent for blundering into the worst situations. You will plunge others into destruction with you. So here, take it back!”

He held it out to him again.

Harteisen stood there, white-faced, hands dug into his pockets.

After a long silence, he said, “I daren’t. In the last few days I’ve quite often had the sense I was being watched. Do me a favor and just tear it up, will you! Put it with the other rubbish in your wastepaper basket!”

“Much too dangerous, my dear fellow! It would just take the office boy or some nosy cleaning woman turning it up, and I’d be in it up to my neck!”

“Burn it, then!”

“You forget we have central heating here!”

“Take a match, and burn it over your ashtray. No one would ever know.”

“You would know.”

Pale-faced, they stared at each other. They were old friends, going back to school days, but now fear had come between them, and fear had brought mistrust with it. They eyed one another silently.

He’s an actor, thought the attorney. Maybe he’s putting on a show for me, to draw me into something. Comes here with instructions to test my reliability. I barely got away with it that other time, with that wretched defense before the People’s Court. But ever since, they’ve wondered about me…

How much is Erwin actually doing in my interests? thought the actor grimly. He won’t help me with the minister, and now he’s even prepared to declare he’s never set eyes on that postcard. How is that acting for me? He’s acting against me. Who knows whether this post-card—you hear so much about traps being set for people. Come off it, that’s all nonsense, he’s always been a perfectly trustworthy friend…

And both looked at each other and thought better of it. They smiled.

“We’re crazy to doubt each other!”

“We’ve been friends for twenty years!”

“School together!”

“Look at how far we’ve come!”

“What were we thinking? The son betrays his mother, the sister her brother, the boyfriend his girlfriend…”

“But not you and me!”

“Let’s think about what to do with this postcard. It would really be dangerous for you to leave here with it in your pocket if you feel you’re being watched.”

“Maybe it was just nerves. Give it to me, I’ll get rid of it somewhere!”

“You and that dangerous thoughtlessness of yours—I don’t think so. Leave the card here with me!”

“You’ve got a wife and two kids, Erwin. Maybe your office staff isn’t completely reliable. Who is, anyway, nowadays? Give me the postcard. I’ll phone you in fifteen minutes and tell you it’s disappeared.”

“My God! That’s you all over, Max! A phone call over something like that! Why don’t you just ring Himmler, and get it over with?! At least that’s quicker!”

And once again they look at each other, each a little comforted not to be quite alone, but to have a dependable friend.

Suddenly, the attorney pounds his fist down on the card. “I wonder what was on the mind of the idiot who wrote this thing, and left it on the staircase! Dragging strangers to the gallows!”

“And for what? What is he actually saying? Nothing that each one of us doesn’t know for himself. He must be a madman!”

“This whole nation has become a nation of madmen; I think it’s a contagion!”

“If only they could nab the person who put others at such risk! Honestly, I think I would be pleased…”

“Ach, don’t. I don’t think you would be pleased if yet another person had to die. But how do we get out of this situation?”

The attorney looked thoughtfully down at the card. Then he reached for the telephone. “We’ve got a political commissioner here in the building,” he said to his friend by way of explanation. “I’m going to present the card to him, tell him what actually happened, and not put too much importance on any of it. Are you sure of your statement?”

“Completely.”

“And your nerves?”

“Of course, my dear fellow. I’ve never yet had stage fright. I was
always nervous beforehand, mind you! What kind of person is this political commissioner?”

“No idea. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him. Probably some little pen pusher. Anyway, I’m going to call him.”

But the manikin who turned up didn’t look much like some pen pusher, more like a fox—and he felt very flattered to meet the renowned actor whom he had seen so many times in films. He reeled off six titles right away; the actor hadn’t been in any of them. Max Harteisen praised the manikin for his memory, and then they passed on to the substantive part of the meeting.

The little fox read the card, and it wasn’t possible to tell from his expression what he thought of it. He remained inscrutable. Then he listened to the account of the finding of the card, and of its delivery here to the office.

“Very good! Absolutely right!” the commissioner praised them. “And what time was that, would you say?”

For a moment, the attorney faltered, and glanced at his friend. Best not to lie, he thought to himself. After all, people had seen him come in here with the card, in a highly excited state.

“About half an hour ago,” said the attorney.

The manikin raised his eyebrows. “So long as that?” he asked with quiet surprise.

“We had other things to talk about,” explained the attorney. “We didn’t attach that much importance to it. Or do you think it could be important?”

“Everything is important. It would have been important to catch the fellow who left the card. But, of course, after half an hour it’s too late for that.”

Each one of his words sounded like a faint reproach against that “too late.”

“I’m sorry about the delay,” said the actor Harteisen smoothly. “It was my fault. I thought my own affairs were more important than this—this trash here!”

“I should have known better myself,” the attorney chimed in.

The little fox smiled soothingly. “Well, gentlemen, what’s done is done. At any rate, I’m glad to have had the pleasure to meet Herr Harteisen in person. Heil Hitler!”

Loudly, jumping to their feet: “Heil Hitler!”

And when the door had closed behind him, the two friends looked at each other.

“Thank God, we’re rid of that bloody card!”

“And he didn’t suspect us!”

“No, he didn’t think it was our handiwork, but he did see that we hesitated between handing it over and not handing it over.”

“Do you think we’ll hear any more of the matter?”

“No, I have to say I don’t. At the worst, a harmless interrogation, where and when and how you found the card. And there you just have to tell them what happened.”

“You know, Erwin, I think I’ll be quite relieved to be leaving the city for a while.”

“You see.”

“There’s something corrosive about it!”

“Corrosive! I’d say we were pretty corroded already!”

In the meantime, the little fox had driven to his local group. Now a brownshirt was holding the card in his hands.

“This is a matter for the Gestapo,” said the brownshirt. “Why don’t you take it there yourself, Heinz. Wait, I’ll write you a note to take with it. What about the two gentlemen themselves as culprits?”

“Out of the question! Of course, neither of them is exactly politically reliable. But I tell you, they were sweating blood and water when they started talking about the card.”

“You know, Harteisen’s supposed to be in bad odor with Minister Goebbels,” the brownshirt mused.

“Even so!” said the little fox. “He would never have dared anything like this. Much too frightened. I listed six films to his face that he never appeared in, and admired his performances in them. He was bowing and scraping like there was no tomorrow. He was beaming with gratitude. And all the time I could smell the sweat of fear on him!”

“Show me one that isn’t afraid!” said the brownshirt contemptuously. “And it’s so unnecessary. They just need to do what we tell them.”

“It’s because people have got in the habit of thinking. They have the idea that thinking will help them.”

“They need to do as they’re told. The Führer can do their thinking for them.”

The brownshirt tapped the card. “And this man here. What do you make of him, Heinz?”

“What can I say? I guess he probably really did lose a son…”

“Pah! The people that do these things are always rabble-rousers. Trying to follow their own ends. Sons—Germany—they don’t care. I reckon it’s some old Communist or Socialist…”