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My head lolled against Sam’s chest. I thought I could feel his arm beneath my legs, and the other wrapped around my waist. I heard the beating of his heart. Or maybe that was mine.

I couldn’t be sure.

“She all right?” That was Nick.

“I think so. We have to get her to a hospital. Will shot her.”

“Ginger prick,” Nick said.

Sam tightened his hold on me. “Did you take care of—”

“Yeah,” Nick cut in. “Cas and Trev moved Arthur to a safe place.”

“And Riley?”

He hadn’t ever shown with the truck Will had asked for, and I’d waited. I’d been ready.

“No sign of him. I hope he ran,” Nick finally said. “Good fucking riddance.”

I WAS IN AND OUT FOR SEVERAL
days. The few times I was
in
, I heard the distant murmuring of nurses, sometimes a doctor.
Shock
, they said.
Infection. Poor girl
, they said.

I wondered if it was a way of my body telling me it needed rest. Not just because it’d been shot. But because it’d been through too much too soon.

When I finally opened my eyes and felt well enough to speak, Sam was by my side.

“Hey,” he said as sunlight poured from the window over his shoulder.

“Curtains,” I mumbled, my throat raw.

He got up and tugged the curtains closed, plunging the room into semidarkness. “Better?”

I opened my eyes slowly. “Much.”

Seeing Sam beside my bed was enough to put a smile on my face.

“What happened?” I asked. “Did the gunshot wound heal all right?”

“Drink this first.” He offered me a bottle of water. I started to object, but he shook his head, so I drank. And then guzzled the whole thing down. I guess I was thirstier than I thought.

After, with Sam’s help, I managed to pull myself into an upright position. When he settled back into the chair at my bedside, I looked him over. The skin beneath his eyes was shadowed and heavy. Stubble covered his face, hiding some of the cuts and bruises that were still healing. His hair stuck up at the crown, like he hadn’t showered yet today. Maybe not the day before, either. There was a long scrape running from the side of his neck, disappearing beneath the collar of his navy shirt.

“How are you?” I asked.

He let out a breath. “How am
I
? I’m not the one who got shot.”

I looked down at my legs and wiggled my toes beneath the blanket. Everything seemed to be in working order. Thank God. “How long was I out?”

“Five days.”

“Five days?” I shrieked.

“You had a minor infection. The doctors took care of it. You’re fine now.”

I laid my head back against the mountain of pillows beneath me.

“And Nick and Cas?”

“They’re fine. They’re getting something to eat right now.”

“My dad?”

Sam went quiet. That old, guarded expression I knew so well returned.

“Sam.”

He shifted his gaze to the floor, folded his hands together. “They wiped his memory before we got to him.”

Crying first thing upon waking after a five-day coma didn’t seem like the proper way to start the recuperation process. And my sides still hurt more than I could describe, and crying would only make it worse. So I bit my lip until the sensation died away.

Dad
, I thought.
I’m so sorry.

“Where is he?” I finally asked.

“He’s safe.”

“Where is he, Sam?”

“A place for senior citizens. He seems happy there.”

“You put him in a home?”

Sam straightened, gave me a sad, regretful look. He took in a long breath before answering. “He has lung cancer, Anna.”

“What? But—”

“He let it slip when I called him, when we were looking into the coded program.”

When I’d seen him after leaving the boys, I’d thought he looked unwell. I hadn’t realized it was that bad.

“He’ll be taken care of,” Sam went on. “He had money set aside for retirement, so the bills are covered. He’s in a good place.”

I nodded. After everything he’d been through, a home for senior citizens did seem like a vacation.

“I have to see him.”

“You will. Soon. You have to rest for now. Geez, Anna, take a break. Everything has been taken care of.”

We fell into silence. The machines behind me beeped and chugged.

“Thanks,” I said after a while. “For taking care of my dad.”

Sam shrugged. “He took care of us while we were in the farmhouse lab.”

Mention of the lab brought on another thought. A question I wanted to ask but was afraid to admit to Sam that I cared what the answer was.

He met my eyes, and a veil of worry eased over his face. “Trev?” he asked quietly.

“What happened with him?”

A baby cried out in the hallway, making Sam and me pause. When it was quiet again, he said, “He helped us escape and then plot your rescue. He helped save you, but I haven’t seen him since that day. I’m assuming he’s all right.”

“Trev was the one on the roof with the rifle, wasn’t he? The one who shot out the tires?”

“Yeah.”

“Were you guys at least nice to him?”

Sam smiled. “What do you think?”

“I think Nick was an asshole, Cas gave him a hard time, and you gave him the silent treatment.”

Sam didn’t say anything.

“You did, didn’t you?”

The door to my room opened. I thought it’d be a nurse to check on me, but it was Cas and Nick. I was glad to see them. I wasn’t ready to answer questions for the hospital staff. Or to be poked and prodded.

“How long has she been awake?” Nick asked, the ever-present scowl deepening on his face. “How come you didn’t call us?”

“She just woke up,” Sam said.

“Just now,” I said.

Cas came straight over to my bedside. “My love. I’m so glad you’re awake.” And then he planted his lips on mine, cradling my head in his hands.

I pushed him off. “Cas!”

Sam reached across me and whacked Cas on the side of the head. “Quit being an idiot.”

Cas frowned. “Don’t you remember? She said she didn’t love you. She realized she loved me instead.”

I rolled my eyes. “Nice try.”

He grinned and pulled himself into the windowsill across the room, an open bag of chips in his hand. “You can’t blame a guy.”

I couldn’t stop the smile that spread across my face, even while I said, “You are so irritating sometimes.”

“Irritatingly adorable.”

When I looked again at Sam, I caught some silent conversation going on between him and Nick. Finally Sam broke the stare-down and glanced over at me. “Cas and I are going for a walk. You’ll be okay?”

I nodded, eyeing Nick. “Sure.”

“Since when do we take walks together?” Cas asked.

Sam ignored the question and pushed him toward the door. When they were gone, Nick came over and dropped into Sam’s abandoned chair.

“Hey,” I said.

Nick folded his hands together and cracked his knuckles. “I remember,” he said, his voice quiet and raw. “I remember everything.”

I sat up straighter. “Everything? How long? I mean…”

Another
pop
of his knuckles. “Long enough.” He sighed, ran his hand through his hair. Not that it did any good. It settled back in place, waves of dark hair curling around his ears. “I remember the first time I saw you with a bruise on your face. You were just a kid. And you’d been crying, and you wouldn’t look at me. You wouldn’t look at any of us.” He shook his head. “Your dad was already breaking you.”

“Nick—” I started, but he cut in before I could finish.

“It was my idea to wipe your memory. Back before the farmhouse. I told Dani she should let your uncle do it, make you forget the shit your dad put you through, because
I
wanted to forget, every single day of my life, what my dad had done to me.”

I didn’t say anything, because I didn’t know what to say. My memory being wiped so often, at such an early age, was part of the reason I’d been so confused the night I’d killed my parents.

But none of this would have happened if it wasn’t for Will and the Branch he’d created.

I blamed him more than anything.

“I remember making you a promise that day,” Nick continued. “I told you I would look out for you, and clearly I failed.”

“You don’t have to—”

He held up a hand. “Calm down. I’m not going to start spilling my soul. I just wanted to say that I am sorry for being such a dick at the farmhouse.”

I whipped the blanket back and lunged at him, wrapping my arms around his neck. Immediately, he stiffened, his arms stuck at his side, unmoving. But then he relaxed, and his arms came up, winding loosely around me.

“Now lie back down,” he ordered. “Jesus Christ. You just got shot.”

I smiled as he helped me into bed. I laid my head back against the pillows and closed my eyes.

I pictured the box of paper cranes still beneath the bed at our last house, the cabin we’d had to leave after we’d seen Riley on the grocery store security footage. I’d forgotten to grab them. Now that the Branch was broken, I wondered if it was safe to return there. If we could, I’d hang the paper cranes from the ceiling in my next room and watch them dance in the night.

USING CRUTCHES, I HOBBLED DOWN
the hallway of Cherry Creek Manor to room 214. I peered inside the open doorway at a man sitting in an easy chair staring out the window.

“Dad?” I said.

The man turned his head toward me. He stared at my face. Looked at my crutches. “Anna?” he said.

A renewed sense of hope and excitement came over me. “You remember me?” I asked.

He gave me a sheepish smile. “The nurse told me you were coming today.”

“Oh. Right.” I crutched my way into the room and sat in the chair across from him. His room was a generous size, with a private
bathroom and deck that overlooked the massive gardens. The gardens were covered in snow now, of course, but I could see hints of what it would look like in the spring. Pretty enough to spend an entire day sketching it.

“How are you?” I asked once I’d set the crutches aside.

Dad shrugged and then coughed, and then coughed some more. I pushed myself up and hopped to his side, patting his back. “Do you need some water?”

Still coughing, he waved me away. “No. I’m fine. Just a spell, is all.”

I sat back down. “When do you start treatments? For the cancer?”

He lifted a shoulder. “I’m old. Why would I want to go through that? It isn’t as if I won’t die soon anyway. Dying is inevitable.”

“But it might give you a few more years.”

“Years full of treatments and nausea? And achy bones? No, thank you.” He looked at me for a long time, head tilted slightly. “How are you? Sam told me you were in the hospital recuperating from a gunshot wound. Who would shoot a young woman?”

My own uncle
, I thought.

“I’m fine. Much better already.”

He nodded, but the look on his face said my answer wasn’t explanatory enough. I just didn’t have the energy to go into further detail, so I changed the subject.

“Are you happy here?”

He thought for a long time before finally saying, “Yes. I think so. I like the people here. I feel happy.”

Maybe Sam was right.

Maybe this was the best place for him.

We talked for a while longer about nothing in particular—the weather, the food Dad was eating, the news. It was odd for me just sitting with him, chatting. My dad and I had never been big on small talk. But I enjoyed it now.

“Well, I should go.” I slowly rose to my feet. “I’ll check in soon, okay? And if you need me, you have my number.”

I crutched my way to the door.

“Anna?” Dad called. I paused in the doorway. “I love you.”

My eyes burned with the sudden need to cry. I sucked it up.

“I love you, too.”

He smiled before turning away and resumed looking out the window.

DESPITE THE WEEKS THAT HAD PASSED
since I’d killed Will, since the Branch had broken itself into nothing but scattered pieces, I was still finding it difficult to order a cup of coffee without overanalyzing the people in the shop. Without placing the exits and alternate exits in my head.

Of all the habits one could form, those weren’t so bad.

The barista behind the counter handed me my coffee, and I turned to the bar to add a few packets of sugar and cream when I nearly ran into someone who’d been standing directly behind me.

“Excuse me,” I said. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s all right.”

I looked up at the sound of the familiar voice.

“Trev.”

“Do you have a minute?”

I glanced out the front windows at the sedan sitting across the street. Sam, Nick, and Cas were waiting inside. I could see Cas dancing to the music that must have been blasting from the stereo system. And Nick scowling at him.

Sam stared at the coffee shop.

“How did you get past Sam?” I asked Trev.

A prideful smile teased at the corners of his mouth. “I’m not as useless as you seem to think I am.”

I checked the car again.

“It’ll just take a second,” Trev said.

“All right.”

He led me to a table along the far wall. We both danced around each other, trying to claim the seat that faced the door. I won.

“What do you want?” I said, clutching the paper coffee cup in my hands. It was nearly scalding, but if I needed a weapon quickly, burning coffee was my best bet without drawing too much attention.

I didn’t know what this was or who Trev might have with him, so I wanted to be prepared, even if my heart said to calm the hell down. He’d helped save me, after all. More than once. Things had been so good these last few weeks that I couldn’t help but expect something bad to happen.

“I just wanted to see you,” he answered, adjusting the cuffs of his wool trench coat. The collar stuck up high around his neck, like a
shield. His hair was shorter than when I last saw him, trimmed neatly, swept to one side.

“See me for what?”

“To say good-bye.”

I frowned. “Are you going somewhere?”

He tapped lightly at the table, as if to stall while he rehearsed what he wanted to get out.

“After you guys first escaped headquarters back in October, I started digging into my past. Do you remember me telling you about the girl I thought I was working to keep safe? That she was the reason I was with the Branch?”

I nodded.

“Well, I went looking for her. And I found her. She was real after all.”

I straightened. “And?”

“She barely remembered me. And while I spent all those years being treated with anti-aging serums, she aged normally. She got married. She had a kid.”

He looked away, toward a couple at the table across from us. They seemed oblivious to everything around them.

When he turned back to me, I saw the old Trev, and I saw that look on his face, the lightbulb moment that meant he’d found a quote in his vast collection that would fit perfectly for the moment.

But as quickly as it’d come, the expression faded, and I realized
that I was no longer the person he liked to share his quotes with. Whatever this one had been, I would never know it.

“I ruined what I had with you guys for a girl who had moved on. And now…” He trailed off and pulled his hands back, tucking them in his lap.

I suddenly went on alert.

“There’s that, too,” he said, gesturing at me. “It doesn’t matter how many times I try to prove my loyalty to you. You’ll never trust me again.”

He was right, but I said, “I’m sorry,” anyway.

He shook his head and pulled a cell phone from his pocket. “I have a gift for you.” He tapped something into the screen before turning the phone around so I could see the image. It was a button that said simply
DETONATE
.

“What’s this?”

“An end,” he said.

“To what?”

“The Branch.”

I frowned. “I don’t understand.”

He leaned forward and lowered his voice. “Push the button and you’ll see.” He swept out of the chair, came around the table, and hugged me. It was a tentative hug for a timid friend. I let go of my coffee to return it.

“I miss you, Anna. Every single day.”

When he pulled away, a part of me, the part that had been best friends with him for so many years, seemed to pull away, too.

I didn’t want him to go, but at the same time, I knew he couldn’t stay. He couldn’t ever be part of our group again.

“Take care of yourself,” he said.

He walked out the front door, as if to prove to Sam he still had the ability to move around without him noticing. As if to say,
See, I could have done something terrible, but I didn’t.

When Sam saw Trev, he got out of the car and raced across the street.

I hurried out the front door. “It’s fine,” I said.

Trev kept going, hands tucked in his pockets. He didn’t look back.

Later that night, I set the cell phone Trev had given me in the center of the table. We gathered around and stared at it. The red button was just an image on the screen, but it was so much more than that.

We knew the risks were huge. We knew it could be a trap.

“Ready?” I said.

The boys nodded.

I pressed the button.