Emma Donoghue Two-Book Bundle (21 page)

‘No!’

‘No way!’

‘Mr Bunch? Virgil? Did you say fifteen?’

‘They’re just like icebergs, that way,’ he hissed, paddling the boat near enough for them to take photographs. ‘For every inch you see, there’s a foot underneath the water. Not too close!’ he told one little girl. Rolling up his jeans, he showed them an old scar on his shin from one time he’d had too much rum and fallen over someone’s guitar case: ‘Gator bite.’

One lady took a picture of his scar.

‘The only sure way to keep them from attacking,’ said Bunch, taking out a squashy paper bag, ‘is to give them some snacks.’ And he started lobbing lumps of rancid chicken at the alligator, who snapped at one or two before sinking beneath the surface.

On the way back, he gave his happy party the rundown on good ole Cajun humour and
joie de vivre
, not to mention
laissez les bons temps rouler
on the bayou, winding up with a dirty joke about a priest. Finally, he produced his tip jar, which had an alligator jaw glued on top, and they crowed with delight and stuffed their notes through its wicked teeth.

That night Bunch was eating steak and listening to the Breaux Bridge Playboys at Mulate’s when Pitre walked in. The older man took one look at him across a crowd of Canadian college kids, then turned and walked back out the door. So that’s how it was now, Bunch thought. He wasn’t hungry any more; he pushed away his plate.

The summer turned hot, and there was more than enough business to keep both men busy. Old Pitre didn’t alter his methods. He turned up at nine every morning and sat there in the sun waiting for custom, pretending his former friend was invisible. The sun cooked him to red leather; you could nearly hear him sizzle. That was the downside of being a hundred per cent pure white Acadian, Bunch thought wryly, but a crack like that wasn’t so funny unless you could say it out loud. Ah, to hell, this was none of Bunch’s doing; blame the Spirit of the Lord.

He himself had bought a cheap cell phone so tourists could book their tours with him direct. He got his sixteen-year-old daughter to make him a Web site with ten pages of photographs of alligators, and linked it to every listing on Louisiana tourism. ‘
See local indigenous wildlife in its natural ecohabitat which makes it a photographer’s dream. Fishing also available
.’ Bunch’s real stroke of brilliance was finding a medium-sized gator with a stubby tail and feeding it meat scraps daily, until it would come when he called. After a few weeks he scrawled ‘
Performance of Live Cajun Music Included
’ on his leaflets, threw a small accordion into his bag, and upped the fare from twenty dollars to twenty-five.

Whenever he felt his spiel was getting a little flat, he’d spice it up with a tall tale about a six-foot catfish or a ghost. He took great pleasure in transforming Pitre’s near-death experience into a tale he called the Swamp Man. ‘My grandpère used to say the Swamp Man was a crawfisherman, stayed out too late one night, crashed his boat into a tree in the dark and drowned in no more than two feet of water. What’s he look like? Well, kind of decayed, you know – holes for his eyes, and dripping weeds all over him …’

Pitre overheard that story, one day, as he was drifting along with his own tour. He listened in, but didn’t look in Bunch’s direction. As their boats floated past each other, the tourists waved in solidarity. Pitre pulled down a tangled clump of grey Spanish moss and explained in his hoarse monotone that this was an airborne plant that did no harm to the trees it hung from.

He kept on telling it how it was. He didn’t think the Spirit wanted him soft-soaping things. He broke it to his tourists that the trees in Mudd Swamp were slowly dying because the government’s levee kept the water at an artificially high level all year round. Yes, the birds were pretty, but their waste was poisoning the trees from the top down. And a nutria was no relation to a beaver; it was more of a rat.

What bugged him the most, as the first summer of his new saved life wore on, was that his customers were always asking him where the restroom was – as if an open skiff or a knot of trees could be hiding such a thing. He wrote at the top of his leaflets,
NO RESTROOM FACILITIES
, but the tourists didn’t seem to take it literally. One of them, when Pitre had explained the situation at the landing, said to her husband, ‘Let’s go, hon. I’ve never been anywhere that didn’t have a rest-room.’

One July afternoon, after the dust of the departing cars had settled, Bunch walked over to Pitre. ‘I was thinking of renting a Port-o-Let,’ he remarked, as if resuming an interrupted conversation.

Pitre slowly shifted his gaze from the cypress forest to the man in front of him.

‘But they cost a bit, you know, because the company has to drive all the way out here to empty it. What say we go halves?’

‘What say nothing,’ said Pitre through his teeth.

‘Oh well,
cher
, if you’re going to be like that,’ said the younger man with a shrug. ‘Though I don’t think your heavenly friend would like your attitude …’

Pitre’s face never flickered, but the remark had got under his skin. He headed out to the swamp that evening, on his own, to see if it was any cooler than the land. When he got to the Site of Miracle, he cut the engine. He squinted up at the willow tree, but it looked much the same as all the others: a swollen base, tapering to a skinny top. He tried to feel again what it was that had touched him that moonlit night when he’d come within an inch of drowning. A sensation of being marked out, prodded awake, as distinct as a fingertip in the small of the back. He’d been so sure about his new calling at first, but now it seemed as if he’d mistaken some small but crucial marker a while back and gone astray.

A few days later there was a Port-o-Let standing in the shade of a live oak by Bourdreaux Landing. It looked like a grey plastic alien craft. Pitre pretended not to notice. At noon, he was emptying his boat of one group and filling it up with another when a girl ran over. ‘Uh, I wanted to use the restroom?’

‘No restroom,’ said Pitre automatically.

‘I tried the one over there, but it’s, like, locked! It says, “For use of Bunch’s Enchanted Swamp Tours only.” ’

Pitre’s teeth clamped together, and his bad molar started to throb. ‘That’s a mistake,’ he muttered. ‘Very sorry, ladies and gentlemen. You’ll just have to wait.’

‘I can’t wait two hours,’ wailed the girl.

‘That’s the trouble with you kids nowadays,’ Pitre told her. ‘Nobody’s got any self-control of themselves.’

Her family drove back to the hotel, and he didn’t get any tips that day, either.

In August it was hitting a hundred by ten in the morning.

Bunch bought a cap with a visor to keep the glare out of his eyes. He took to claiming that his name was authentically Acadian. ‘Sure is, ma’am. Used to be Bonche, you know, back in Canada, but when the British kicked us out at gunpoint back in 1755, my ancestors had to change to Bunch to avoid persecution.’

The young man varied his tall tales to keep himself from getting stale. He always took his tours past a duck blind in the middle of the lake, but sometimes he said it was a man-made nesting sanctuary for orphaned cormorants, and other times he called it a shelter for canoeists caught out on the lake in a lightning storm. Once – just to see if he could get away with it – he claimed it was a Dream Hut for young Chitimacha boys undergoing spiritual initiation.

‘The Swamp Man? That’s a terrible story,’ he said towards the end of all his tours, lowering his voice as if he was almost afraid to tell it. ‘This crawfisherman, back in old-time days, it was a long hard season, and he was desperate to know where the fish were biting, so he did voodoo. You know voodoo?’

Fervent nods all round.

‘I bought a how-to book on it in New Orleans,’ confided one old lady.

Bunch darkened his tone. ‘So this guy, he conjured up this spirit, and he didn’t know it, but it was the devil. This guy struck a bargain that his crawfish cages would always be full, you know? So now the devil had a hold of his soul. And the very first time the guy went out fishing, it was in the evening, getting dark, and he bent down to pull up his first cage, and it was so full, it was so heavy that it pulled him right down into the water.’

The tourists looked into the oily sheen, shuddering.

‘Did he drown?’ asked a small girl.

Bunch nodded. ‘Only he never really died. The flesh rotted off his bones, that’s all. And if you ever come out here in the evening, just when it’s getting dark, well, all I’ll say is, don’t put your hand into the water, because the Swamp Man might grab hold of it and pull you in!’

Two women moaned theatrically. They weren’t really afraid, Bunch knew; in this day and age it was hard to really scare anybody.

As trade fell off a little in the worst of the heat, he couldn’t have done without his cell phone. It meant he could sit around in the shade at the Lobster Shack, drinking homemade root beer, till he got a call to say there was a group wanting a tour. Whereas old Pitre squatted in the dust at Bourdreaux Landing every day like some kind of scarlet lunatic, under a limp banner that said
PITRE’S HOLY SPIRIT TOURS ANYTIME.

One morning Pitre turned up at Mudd Swamp at eight; he’d had a pain in his jaw all night that had kept him from sleeping. His stomach wasn’t right, either. He sat down in his usual spot and tried to pray. The problem was that he’d never got the knack of it in his childhood. And now he was a man of the Spirit, he still didn’t know quite what to say, once he’d got beyond
Oh Lord, here I am, like you told me.

By noon not a soul had turned up. Pitre’s tongue was stuck to the roof of his mouth. He’d forgotten to bring any water. His jaw was hurting bad now; he blamed his molar. His boat floated motionless beside the landing, not ten feet from the other man’s, which had a duck decoy glued on the prow and a freshly painted name:
Zydeco.
Pitre narrowed his eyes at the dirt track that led down from the road. There was no shade; the sun bored into his head through his eyelids, his ear holes, his cracked lips. In the long grass he saw a sledgehammer and recognized it as his own; he must have left it there after banging in a sign. He lurched to his feet at last, feeling the old break in his leg. His body was just a collection of bad memories. But there was something he could do, anyway.

He picked up the sledgehammer and staggered under the weight of it. He cradled it against his shoulder like an old friend. At the landing, he climbed down into the
Zydeco;
the skiff skittered under his feet. His heart was sounding strangely. He hoisted the hammer over his head and brought it down with all he had.

Pitre was lying in the bottom of the boat. He couldn’t tell if he’d managed to hole it. The light was behaving like water. He seemed to have stopped breathing. He couldn’t tell whether something had gone wrong with the whole world or whether it was just him; he felt like he was under some kind of dreadful enchantment.

At the hospital the nurse was a big black lady from Lafayette; she got pissy with him when he tried to pull the oxygen tube out of his nose. Kept saying, did he know he could have died?

‘So could we all,’ said Pitre balefully. A phrase floated back to him, and he pointed one unsteady finger at her: ‘You know not the day nor the hour.’

They let him out on the third morning, just to shut him up, according to the nurse. ‘You take it easy now,’ she growled, ‘because nobody gets three chances.’

When he got back to the Landing, Bunch was sitting on the side of the
Zydeco.
The boat seemed unmarked, Pitre noticed with a slight pang, and the sledgehammer was nowhere to be seen.

He was obliged to speak. ‘Understand you called me an ambulance on that cell phone of yours.’

‘That’s right,’ said Bunch, as if they were chatting about the weather.

Pitre stared past him, at the cypresses, their heavy greenery. ‘I received a message,’ he said, jerking his chin upwards.

‘Another one?’

He ignored that. ‘We don’t want another Cain and Abel situation. In a spirit of brotherhood,’ said Pitre, then paused to clear his throat, ‘I propose that we unite our tour companies.’

Not a smirk from Bunch.

‘No use both doing six trips a day when we could each do three.’

‘Whatever the Spirit says, my friend,’ said Bunch, letting his teeth show when he grinned.

Niniane Molloy had never been anywhere like the Los Angeles Neverland. They sold melatonin for jet lag and chromium picolinate for sugar cravings. There was chocolate-free chocolate and honey-pickled ginseng. In the next aisle, two huge young men debated whether powdered pearl would help them achieve definition. There were trays labelled
JUICE-YOUR-OWN WHEATGRASS;
Niniane stroked the tender stalks with one finger, then moved away in case she would be seen and made to pay. Sacks of one hundred per cent unbromated flour weighed down a shelf. She had never known that flour was bromated before. She wondered what harm she’d been done by thirty-four years of bromate. Or was it bromide? Or brome?

Arthur used to drink echinacea, even though their mother called it one of his fancy American habits. It made him retch, but he swore he never got colds.

Now Niniane was studying the little rolls of homeopathic tablets. One was for travel sickness and general nausea, another for sleeplessness and irritability. She hadn’t slept since the night before last. Or was it only yesterday? It tired her to keep adding eight to everything. If it was blazing sun outside the Neverland Health Store in La-La Land, then it must be pub-closing time back in Ireland.
EXHAUSTION DUE TO FEAR,
said the next label. Niniane thought maybe what she needed was Fear Due to Exhaustion. Did the tablets know the difference?

In the end she didn’t buy anything. She couldn’t find a remedy for partial deafness due to having the dregs of the cold to end all colds and flying halfway round the world anyway, because it was a free ticket from a supermarket competition, no changes, no refunds. And anyway, she couldn’t bring herself to stand at the Neverland’s counter, holding up the queue while she peered at dimes and nickels like a visitor from another planet.

It was hard to cross the road in this town, she found; cars saw only each other.

Back at the Hollywood Hills Hotel, Niniane sat in the single chair, its metal tubing impressed on her thighs. She thought of Doris Day’s motto for decor – ‘Better to please the fanny than the eye’ – and it almost made her smile. The room was bare as a stage set. A woollen jumper, glasses, purse, a three-pack of knickers she’d bought at the airport when she realized her bag wasn’t going to come down the carousel no matter how long she waited; they’d turned out to be thongs. And a broken-spined copy of Marcel Proust’s
Remembrance of Things Past
, volume one. It wasn’t being read that had worn the book out, but being carried. Niniane had found it in Arthur’s room at home in Limerick, years ago, after he left for good, on the shelf in between
How to Get a Green Card
and
Complete Poems of Walt Whitman.
She always took it on holiday in the hopes of getting into it. Not that this was a holiday, exactly.

She took the creased card out of her pocket again. ‘
LA Self-Storage
’, it said; ‘
The No-Fuss Solution
’. Below the address, what had to be a room number, scribbled in red:
2011.
Someone had stuck the key to the back of the card; the tape was brittle with dust. She’d found it at Christmas in the ashtray in the drawer, the ashtray Arthur wasn’t supposed to have had in his room, because as their mother always said, no child of hers would be stupid enough to smoke. Niniane had kept it in her purse for months now. What did it mean that her brother had left the key in the ashtray? That it didn’t open anything any more, didn’t matter at all? Or that it just wasn’t worth coming home to Ireland for?

Later. Later would do.

Niniane lay diagonally across the brown and orange coverlet. The slatted blinds made a bright shadow on the wall. She considered taking her tights off, but she had no socks with her, and her heels would be sure to blister as soon as she went out for a walk. She lifted her head off the bed for a moment to contemplate her black nylon legs. Her tights were all that were holding her together; if she peeled them off, the skin might come, too.

It didn’t seem to her that she had slept, only that the next time she looked at the wall it was the colour of ashes, and the clock said ten to midnight.

There was a phone beside the bed, but she couldn’t hear a dial tone. Had her ears stopped up completely? She sniffed and yawned like a goldfish on dry land. ‘Hello,’ she said into the mouthpiece. At least she could hear herself. Then she noticed the sign on the table: EXTRA CHARGE TO PLUG IN PHONE.

Niniane went around the corner to the Five and Diner and rang the airline. It always slightly embarrassed her to give her name. Arthur used to call her Ninny. Her mother had got them both out of some trashy novel about Merlin. Doris Day always hated her name, too; she had her friends call her Clara, or Susie, or Eunice, or even Do-Do. In America you didn’t have to stay what you were. You could change your name or your nose or just get in your Chevy and drive away.

The airline told her that her bag might have gone to Cincinnati.

Niniane’s mouth still tasted of sour orange juice from the plane. She sank into the bulging plastic of a corner booth and ordered the All-Day Pancake Special. She picked out new words from the conversation in the next booth:
brewskis
, she heard, and
high colonic
, and
that’s bitchin’.

She sat up in bed reading Proust with watering eyes till half past two, while a moth charred itself against the bulb. Then she switched on the Weather Channel with the sound turned down and fell asleep watching a tornado inch its way up the East Coast. In her dream Niniane had the strangest sense that Arthur was nearby, maybe in the shower or parking his yellow convertible on the street below her window.

How long had it been, she wondered when she woke up. Five years this summer since her brother’s last trip home, she was sure of that. He’d told them he was living in Dallas, but was very vague about his job, something to do with sales. And when was that slightly peculiar phone call from San Diego, the time he didn’t sound happy enough to be drunk?

One Christmas, early on, she remembered, her mother had been loud in complaint. ‘Nothing but a card!’ The postmark was from LA, no address on the back of the envelope. Dark inked words inside, scattered like seeds across the printed message.
Happy Christmas folks, hope you’re all well
– was that it? Or
Take care of yourselves, love A.
? If Niniane had known it was going to be the last message, she’d have read it more carefully.

A year later, there was no card, and her mother said the American postal system was known for its deficiencies. But Niniane suspected Arthur had forgotten. Men without wives were notoriously bad at keeping in touch.

The following year, no card, no comment.

A friend from the office, waiting by the photocopier, asked after that handsome big brother of Niniane’s she’d gone to a college ball with. ‘My god, how long has it been?’ And then, brutally, ‘Don’t you miss him?’

Niniane had felt an immense weariness and walked away.

On the rare occasions Arthur came up in conversation at home these days he was like a figure in a children’s book, frozen in time. When neighbours asked, her mother always said that her son was on the West Coast and doing very well. But after tea one New Year’s Eve, alone with her father in the kitchen, Niniane had finally asked it, that question without a verb: ‘Any word from Arthur?’

Her father had said nothing, just kept drying his hands on the dishcloth. The dishwasher was pumping and he was slightly deaf these days. She liked to tell herself that he hadn’t heard what she said.

There were some people splashing round in the motel pool already. As soon as Niniane was dressed she walked out to the railing and squinted down. She didn’t have anything to swim in, and besides, the pool looked so small, it would be like floating in a petri dish. These toffee-coloured girls and boys with their candy-floss hair would flinch from her pale Irish body.

The man at the desk asked where her car was; she really should have rented a car. ‘I can’t drive,’ she told him, smiling placatingly. It was obviously a sentence he’d never heard before.

Back home in Limerick, Arthur had been the one who was always borrowing the Fiat to drive to godknowswhere and leaving the seat pushed too far back. Niniane was the one who had stayed in with their parents and made tea and toast in the intervals of
The Late Late Show.
If there were only two of you, things got divided up that way.

She walked out into the shiny street. The morning sun was strange on her skin. She considered buying a clean T-shirt from a stall, but they all had palm trees on them, or Elvis. She’d never known heat like this, so thick you could slice it, so heavy the streets seemed to waver. But she looked up at the glassy sky and for a moment caught that feeling. Songs with the word
California
in them wandered through her mind. If ever a place was the polar opposite of Limerick, this was it. Once you got here, how could you ever go home? Which reminded her of the key, back in the hotel in the ashtray. But it could wait a few hours more. She had come here for herself, really, for a break from ordinary life. She could be a tourist like anybody else.

Only Niniane didn’t look like anybody else, as she sat at the very back of the Stars’ Homes tour bus. Her skirt was three feet longer than anyone else’s, hot on the back of her knees. Her jumper was knotted round her hips. Her black vest revealed tufts of hair at her armpits, which was just about as unacceptable as leprosy in this town; she kept her elbows clamped by her sides. She sang grimly in her head:
Take me back to the Black Hills, the Black Hills of DA-KO-TA.

As the bus wormed its way up a steep avenue, she was pressed back in her seat. She’d stopped listening to the commentary a while back, after Boris Karloff and Marlene Dietrich. Most of these mansions looked the same, anyway: lush trees protruding over twenty feet of security fence. She tried to imagine Arthur behind one of these shaded windows, sipping wheatgrass juice.

Niniane tried to follow the little red stars on the map, but they danced before her eyes like chicken pox. It was too hot to sit still.

The speaker behind her head crackled. ‘That was Vincent Minnelli’s and now look to your left, you’ll see coming up at 713 North Crescent Drive, the lovely home of Miss Doris Day.’

She pressed her cheek to the glass, but there was a eucalyptus tree in the way. The prickling air was closing in around her. She couldn’t bear this any longer. She lurched to the front of the bus.

‘Take your seat, ma’am,’ the driver said. ‘No standing while the bus is in motion.’

‘Would you stop the bus, please?’

‘We gotta respect the privacy of the stars.’

‘Let me off, I can’t breathe,’ she bawled. She had never shouted at a stranger before.

As the bus drew away from the curb, leaving her standing on the shoulder, Niniane felt almost wonderful. The grass under her feet was unnaturally plump. The sun went behind a cloud for a moment and the air seemed a little cooler. There wasn’t another human being in sight; only high walls and hedges, and the soft whirr of sprinklers, and the bark of a pedigree dog. Maybe Arthur was a gardener. Any minute now he would stroll along the path with a sack of clippings in each hand.

She walked back as far as No. 713. It looked like all the others. The light bounced off the sidewalk like a chorus line. Maybe Doris would come out in a minute, wearing yellow, with that toothy smile. Niniane had a look at the plush lawn and sang in a whisper: ‘
Please, please, don’t eat the daisies.
’ Then, all at once, she was so tired she had to sit down on the curb. Her face cream was melting into her eyes; she seemed to be wearing false lips made of paper.

When she looked up, a police officer was getting out of his car. On his hip was a huge gun, the only one she’d ever seen in real life. Niniane stood up so fast that everything went black before her eyes.

‘I was walking,’ she said in answer to his questions. ‘Just walking, and I got tired.’

He put away his notebook and opened the car door for her.

‘I wasn’t going to hassle her or anything,’ she repeated as she fastened the seat belt.

The police officer asked who she meant.

‘Doris Day.’

‘Miss Day hasn’t lived in that house since 1975, ma’am.’

He drove her all the way back to the Hollywood Hills Hotel. There was one moment, when they paused at a red light, when she thought of asking how long a person, a family member, would have to be gone before he could be reported as missing. But then the lights changed.

She apologized for putting the officer to the trouble and asked him to let her off anywhere, she could walk, but he told her this was not a walking kind of city.

Such an odd word for it,
missing,
she thought as she sat on the thin hotel mattress. Maybe Arthur wasn’t missing them at all; maybe he was incommunicado. Now there was a grand phrase. Maybe her brother was alive and well in his condo, just around the corner from the Hollywood Hills Hotel, and living such a wonderful new life that he couldn’t be bothered to write home about it. Selfish bastard.

A shriek, outside in the street. The window was dusty above the air conditioner; she pressed her face to it. On the street two young men on Rollerblades were greeting each other with loud cries. The black guy had short white hair. They kissed on both cheeks, then slid off in opposite directions.

That wasn’t it, was it? Not enough of a reason to never come home. Niniane had always known Arthur wasn’t the marrying kind, even though it had taken her nearly thirty-five years to put words on it. She had tried to bring it up once, but he’d changed the subject, which was fair enough. And their parents must have known, too, in their way. Nothing was said, but they never nagged him with questions about girlfriends.

Maybe Arthur had somebody over here. Maybe that was enough for him.
A chosen family
– that was the phrase, she’d read it in a magazine. But he was kidding himself because you couldn’t unchoose your old family. You couldn’t just walk away, not when they’d never done anything to deserve it.