Elizabeth I (105 page)

The night was dark, no moon. Looking out my window at the river, I saw no reflection on the water, although I could hear its gentle lapping. The dead, dull hour held the city in its grasp.

Catherine slept on her bed near mine, breathing lightly. I envied her for a moment but put that aside.
I keep vigilant so you may sleep; so all of you in my kingdom may sleep.

My father had entrusted it to me, his beloved England.

I will preserve you, my people,
I vowed.
If for an instant I thought another could serve you better, I would make way for him or her. I have no desire to rule an instant past the time I may rule to your benefit, but to leave before that time is to desert you. And that I will never do.

I did not really sleep. I lay down, true, but I did not draw my bed-curtains—those who would have drawn them slumbered peacefully—and so I saw the deep blue that signaled the winter dawn frame my windows.

February 8. It was the fourteenth anniversary of the execution of the Queen of Scots. A cursed day.

Whitehall was unprotected. We had only a scant guard, my two-hundred-strong Queen’s Guard and the fifty Gentlemen Pensioners. Essex House was but a twenty-minute march away, and its courtyard was filled with eager soldiers and retainers. It was Sunday, when the apprentices—always a volatile group, and one that was taken with the likes of Essex—would be off work in the City. We were utterly vulnerable. As I lay watching the deep blue turn violet and then pale gray, I thought that perhaps Raleigh was right. We should have taken them last night. Now we had lost the advantage.

Up, up. I called for my clothes and dressed myself in serviceable garb to withstand a very long day. Raleigh was announced in the outer chamber. I went out to meet him and saw that he was in his soldier’s uniform, clutching his helmet under his arm. I could see by his face that he, too, had not slept.

“Your Majesty, I propose to speak to my kinsman Sir Ferdinando Gorges this morning. He is with them at Essex House, but perhaps he will talk to me. It may still be possible to reach them, before ...”

“Be careful,” I said. “We cannot know what they might do.”

After he left, still in the mist of dawn, I called Cecil and told him to send the councillors back to Essex House. “This time, it will be an official summons,” I said. “Lord Egerton must take the Great Seal, and if they do not respond, command their obedience under its authority. In the meantime, send warnings to the lord mayor and aldermen of London; they’ll be at St. Paul’s Cross for the eight o’clock sermon. Those are the biggest crowds of the day, and the rebels may try to recruit them.”

I stopped myself, realizing I had just formally anointed them “rebels.”

“Yes, Your Majesty.” Cecil did not contradict my choice of words. “I have already taken the liberty of alerting the lord mayor. I will also see what forces our supporters can command in the City, in case we need them.”

Now I would wait. Wait, while the vast, sprawling palace seemed to be holding its breath. Although it was impossible to do anything else, to think of anything else, I must make a show of it. I called for my secretary and my correspondence box. There were diplomatic letters I should answer, local petitions to respond to. The foreign secretary of King Henri IV inquiring about a property dispute near Calais ... a request for a royal portrait from the Merchant Adventurers ... a proposal that captive bears be better fed by their wardens ...

“Your Majesty!” There was a fierce knocking on the door, and the voice of Raleigh.

“Enter!” I bellowed. Oh, God. Whatever it was, this was the first report of the situation.

He strode in, brushing drops of water from his sleeves. “Essex insisted that Gorges and I talk only in the open, from boats in front of Essex House.”

“Never mind the particulars, what did Gorges
say
?”

“He said, and I quote, ‘You are like to have a bloody day of it.’”

So. Now all was clear. It was as bad as the worst we had imagined.

“Then he signaled his comrades, who rowed out from the water stairs aiming muskets at me. I did not stay.” He laughed, as if at his simplicity in stating the obvious.

“I am sorry, Walter. It is sad to lose a kinsman who chooses a different path.” As I had known time and again.

“Christopher Blount yelled from the shore that he should kill me.”

“Then he’s as big a fool as your cousin,” I said. “It’s a shameful thing when a man becomes enthralled to his own stepson.” What did Lettice think of her son and husband leading a rebellion? Was she encouraging them? Or was she horrified and helpless? “Did you see how many men they have? Was there a large crowd?”

“I couldn’t see into the courtyard. But it looked as if some of them had already gone. Most likely to the City.”

I turned and looked out the window. I did not see any crowds approaching. Every moment that they held off gave us more time to collect our counterforces.

It was ten o’clock. The crowds at St. Paul’s would have already dispersed. The rebels had lost their opportunity there. By this time the deputation of councillors must have reached Essex House. All depended on this. Perhaps they would be respectfully received and Essex politely swear to his peaceable intentions.

But no! That would be the worst result, for it would be a lie and serve only to buy him more time. We must flush him out now, not later.

“Thank you, Walter. You must see to your guardsmen now. They must be ready, all two hundred of them.”

Bowing hurriedly, he swept out of the chamber. I stood rooted to that spot, as if nails fastened my feet to the floor. I would stay here, helpless, while the rebels poured into Whitehall, stormed into the chamber. I could see their faces, see Essex flushed and bright eyed, see Christopher Blount, open mouthed and yelling, see Southampton with his pretty curls flying. They would truss me up, convey me to a little room, force me to abdicate, as the Scots queen was forced, as Richard II was. They would treat me with exaggerated courtesy, bowing and mocking, wrench the coronation ring off my finger, try it on themselves. Then I would be transported to some place of “retirement,” a place well guarded. Whom would they put in my place? Essex himself? Or would he proclaim himself lord protector and summon James of Scotland to come claim his crown?

They would capture Robert Cecil and the other Privy Councillors, have a trial, and execute them. The realm would be left without either monarch or wise councillors, for they had no one of any caliber to staff the government with. The leaders of this grim treason had all tried for court positions and failed to obtain them, due to lack of qualification.

My feet moved. I slid first one shoe, then the other, across the patterned floor. Movement gave relief; just doing something broke the spell of helpless waiting.

I walked through the connected rooms of the royal apartments, with a guard at each door, clutching his halberd, wondering if I were reviewing them in order to take my leave. Would I remember each table, each tapestry, the view out of each window, in my prison cell?

Whitehall was a massive palace, spread out over twenty-three acres. Some called it the largest in Christendom, but how could anyone know that? Nonetheless, it could take several hours just to pass through all its halls and its two thousand chambers. How far would I progress before I was apprehended? Like a silent wraith, Catherine kept pace with me. I kept stealing glances out the windows as we glided past. No movement; nothing stirring, either on land or on the river.

The brisk walking calmed me, and by the time we reached the shield gallery I felt strong again. This gallery, overlooking the river, was the place where the fanciful shields from the Accession Day tilts were displayed. They lined the walls and framed the windows; forty-one years’ worth of them gleamed back at me. Had I held my last tilt celebrating my coming to the throne? Who would sit upon it this November when the seventeenth rolled around?

“I will,” I said out loud. “God did not bring me to the throne and keep me here through all the dangers I have seen to desert me now.”

“I believe that, dear Queen,” said Catherine.

“He will keep me here where he has placed me,” I insisted.

We turned and left that gallery. I walked swiftly through the adjoining rooms toward the wooden privy gallery that connected the palace to the upper story of the high Holbein Gate. The mist had lifted, and a thin, cold sunlight shone on the grounds. “Let us at least walk in the garden,” I said to Catherine. “Surely that is safe.”

Two of Raleigh’s guards in their scarlet uniforms, ornamented front and back with the golden Tudor roses, fell in behind us. I was glad of it and did not try to elude them. They clutched their velvet-handled, gilded halberds tightly, and the heavy sound of their boots was reassuring. They were exceptionally tall and strong; in fact, they were selected for their physiques. I only hoped that their prowess equaled their stature. The privy garden was very large, with green and white painted rails bordering gravel walkways between squares of ornamental plantings. My father had set it out, and the wooden columns with gilded heraldic beasts in every square had not changed. The middle of the garden featured a large fountain and the elaborate sundial from Catherine de’ Medici that indicated the time in thirty different ways. I looked up; the sun was not quite at its zenith—which would still be low in the sky these February days—but it was approaching it.

“I am guessing it is eleven o’clock,” I said, turning to Catherine and the guards.

“Not quite, Your Majesty,” said one of the guards.

“I am guessing it is past eleven,” said Catherine.

“Now we will have our answer,” I said, peeking at the device.

“You are correct,” I told Catherine. “It is a little past eleven.”

Oh, what had happened to my embassy? They should have returned by now, Essex in tow. Something had gone wrong, dreadfully wrong.

“We can wait no longer,” I said. “I must send to know what has become of Lord Egerton and the others.” The garden, the heraldic beasts, the fountain, all were invisible to me. All I could see was Essex House.

Back in the state apartments—well guarded with a double row of men—I sent for Cecil. He was nearby in his own court quarters and appeared almost instantly.

“Something has gone awry,” I said. “They should have returned by now. We must send to know what has happened.”

Still all was quiet. No mobs were descending on us.

“I have already done so, Your Majesty,” said Cecil. “Forgive me if I was premature.”

“No, it saves time.” Time, time—it seemed to be barely moving. Was it my enemy or my friend?

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C
ecil’s men returned very quickly, shaken and out of breath. They brought the attendants of the original party with them. We received them all in the privy chamber. Behind me was the huge mural of my father and his Tudor dynasty.

“Tell me what you know, and tell all of it. Spare me nothing,” I ordered them.

They looked at one another, as if trying to select a spokesman. “For God’s sake, men, one of you speak!” I cried.

A small, balding man stepped forward, clutching his hat. “I was with Lord Egerton,” he said. “When they reached Essex House, the deputation was surrounded by a sea of jeering men in the courtyard. I could not hear anything they said, but finally Essex himself came out. Over the tumult I could just hear Essex yelling that traitors planned to murder him in his bed and he would now defend himself. Then Lord Egerton put on his hat and read out a statement, and held up the Great Seal.”

“He had to invoke his office, then,” I said. “The document called for them to submit to my authority, lay down their arms, and state their intentions, on pain of treason. What happened next?”

The man looked tormented. “They—they shouted to kill Lord Egerton and to dash the Great Seal upon the ground.”

I stared. For a moment I was unable to speak. “And then?”

“Essex escorted them into the house. All of them! Then he locked them up, and set a guard on them!”

“What? He is holding the Crown representatives hostage?”

“Yes, Your Majesty.” He hung his head.

“Look at me. Stand up like a man. It was not you who did it. Where are they now?”

“They set out toward the City, followed by all their rabble from the courtyard. The men shouted that Sheriff Smythe of London was on their side and had a thousand men ready to rally. I think they mean to call out the citizens of London, try to recruit them to their cause.”

“But what is their cause?” No, that was a foolish question. More accurate was, What is their pretended cause?

“I heard Essex yelling, ‘For the Queen! For the Queen! The crown of England is sold to Spain! A plot is laid for my life!’”

Cecil smothered a laugh. “He has gone over the edge, then. The only one plotting is he himself.”