Authors: Judith Cutler
âCoincidence?'
âI suppose it has to be. Has this guy attacked anyone else?'
âWe've records of the odd Afro-Caribbean male assailant, the odd Asian one. But no one else reckons she was attacked by someone in disguise.'
âYou have to be grateful,' I said sternly, âthat I wasn't chased by someone in drag.'
At last we sighed, pretty well simultaneously, and I got up to make some coffee. He followed me.
âI thought you said George used to tidy your kitchen,' he said, passing me a couple of mugs from the draining board. âLooks neat enough to me.'
I suppose it did. It was as if I didn't want to let George down. I'd always matched my standards against his while he was alive, but I could tease him about his excesses then. When this summer came, I'd wonder if my lawn was as weed-free as his, the path as cleanly swept. But he wouldn't be there to seize the secateurs and finish the roses for me with the excuse that he'd had a light week and I looked done in.
I slopped some of the coffee. I stared blindly at the little puddle. Chris reached for the J-cloth and mopped it. Then he picked up the tray.
This time he sat on the floor, his legs stretched out in front of him, crossed at the ankles. Occasionally he would draw a circle in the air with one foot or the other, his shoes creaking softly.
âGeorge and Jools must have worked very closely together,' he said at last. âBut from what you've said of George, and what I've gathered myself of Jools, they don't seem to have been very similar. Chalk and cheese. Did they get on?'
âAsk Jools.'
âSophie, I know she's a friend of yours, but don't be quixotic about trying to defend her. As far as I know she doesn't have to be defended. I just need to know about her. About anyone. But I thought I upset you in there when I mentioned George.'
âIt's just that I need to brace myself. If someone mentions him without warning, I â But I can talk about him all evening if you want me to. Where shall I start? His worn cartilage? Buying his evening clothes from the Oxfam shop? His addiction to Spender? Loved a bit of anarchy, did George. But he was rock solid. Ask Tony Rossiter. He used to get George to sit in on auditions and interview panels far more regularly than anyone else because he was such a good judge of character. And Tony's probably told you that he sometimes asked George to have an avuncular word.'
Chris responded with not so much as a flicker of an eyelid.
âWith Jools, for instance,' I prompted. âYou see, Tony's my friend too. It's an incestuous little world, isn't it?'
He scrambled to his feet and ostentatiously rubbed cramp in his left calf. Whether it was genuine was impossible to say. But he started to prowl round the room, peering at my china, my pictures, my books. He straightened a frame. I rescued piles of photocopies as he headed towards them, but I didn't try to interrupt. I'd have done the same in his home, perhaps. It struck me how very little I knew of him. To have reached such a senior position while he was still in his thirties suggested he might have been on one of those accelerated-promotion schemes so resented by my less well-qualified police YTS students. If he was a graduate, what might his specialism be? Or did the police take over your life and soul to the exclusion of all your interests?
At last he pounced on a book. A Penguin,
The Canadian Air Force Exercises
. Pity: I'd hoped he'd reveal a sudden passion for Greek philosophy. But at least it gave him an excuse to start talking again.
âThe trouble is that they're so boring.' he said, flicking the pages. âWouldn't you find a fitness centre more inspiring?'
I opened my mouth to reply, and closed it. Then I started to laugh. âAny fitness centre? Or the one Jools just happens to use?'
He shrugged, but not very convincingly. Then, as I held his eye, he started to laugh too. âOK. A hit. But the one I used to use has gone bust, and I'm looking for another.'
âI don't see you as a weights man.'
âI'm into weights like you're into computers. But I liked the rolling road and the rowing machine. And the sauna. Do you use a centre?'
âI do. And it's the one I introduced Jools to. Are you planning to join? Or do you merely want to case the joint?'
âPerhaps we could go along together one day,' he said. âI'd enjoy poseur-watching with someone. Tell me, do you wear a snazzy leotard?'
His crow's feet were much in evidence; damn it, the man was flirting with me.
âStrictly a battered tracksuit. Lycra should be banned once you reach thirty.'
The phone rang. I rather expected him to leap for it, saying, âThat'll be for me.' But he sat down almost sombrely while I picked my way across the photocopies. He might as well have answered it. It was Ian Dale. They had a short, terse conversation. Chris terminated it and picked up his anorak.
âMissing child,' he said briefly as he opened the front door. Then he turned. âIf you like,' he said hesitantly, âI could DTP your CV for you. If you let me know what you want where and so on.'
âThanks,' I said.
I watched his car out of sight. Perhaps I had some notion of expressing sympathy and solidarity. As he headed down Balden Road, a taxi came up. It stopped opposite me, then did a trundling U-turn to wheeze to a halt beside me. I stepped back as it disgorged Stobbard Mayou.
âSophie! I came to see you.'
âCome along in, then. Bit of a mess, I'm afraid.'
Not great conversation; but I for one was wondering if he meant to step our relationship up a gear. Maybe more than one gear, from that smile. But he didn't pay off the taxi.
He surveyed the chaos in the living room with bewilderment. Suddenly he asked, âYou don't have any tissues, do you, Sophie?'
I ran upstairs. He should have the new box from beside my bed even if I had to take off my make-up with toilet paper.
He refused a drink: it might react with the antihistamines his physician had prescribed. He turned down tea and coffee, too, even decaffeinated coffee. I stood helpless, irritated. What on earth had happened to his savoir-faire? And why was he here? It seemed a pretty extreme way to cadge a box of tissues when he could have found a late-night chemist just as easily.
At last he smiled. He unzipped his handbag.
âI got hold of these. For the ballet. Week after next. I'd be honoured if you'd accompany me. As my guest.'
âI'd love to, I â'
âI'll call for you â say, six-thirty? Maybe a drink before the performance. And the reception afterwards. The fifteenth.'
I went to write it in my diary.
âGod, it's a Tuesday. That's my evening-class night.'
âCut it.'
âI'm the teacher.'
âCut it anyway.'
âI'll try to swap it â I'd better let you know.'
I followed him out to the taxi.
âSix-thirty, remember,' he said. Suddenly he stuck his head out of the taxi window. Then he pushed it down further and thrust a small box at me. Inside was an orchid.
This time George didn't tell me off when I poured a finger or two of Jameson's. But I could feel him eyeing me with concern when I started to worry about buying a dress for the ballet. Could I really be planning so much effort for a man who'd been not so much casual as offhand about our date? Why didn't I phone him and tell him where to put his gilt-edged invitation?
And his orchid.
And I might give Chris much the same advice about his leotard.
In the end I stomped off to the bath with
Persuasion
. The chapter where Captain Wentworth, noticing Mr Elliot's admiration for Anne, begins to admire her himself.
I'd almost forgotten that I was to spend Thursday not at William Murdock but at a conference centre in Bournville. It was the sort of day I always approached with mixed feelings. At the moment the dominant one was pleasure. The surroundings were almost rural and the centre itself was clean and quiet. But there was guilt, too, and on any event like this colleagues could be found totting up how much the day must have cost and trying to equate it with decorating just one of our college rooms to a civilised standard. And there was frustration: we were supposed to be sharing ideas with other further-education colleagues, not about the subject we all held most dear â teaching â but about a new government initiative called Records of Achievement. Students were to record all the positive things they'd learned during their education, and the suggestions of my more cynical colleagues were pleasantly ribald.
To look at the name badges across the table was to see the history of Birmingham in the history of great men. Cadbury College. Joseph Chamberlain. Josiah Mason. William Murdock. Matthew Boulton. No James Watt â he was commemorated by a school in Sandwell. What about the future? The Sophie Rivers survival school?
I suggested it to Shahida when we shared the mirror in the carpeted loo. She did not overwhelm me with her enthusiasm. But she sparked when I mentioned Stobbard and the ballet. âOf course you must go! And wear something good, too.'
âI haven't got anything good.'
âWell, buy something good. Just because we live our lives in a scruffy, dirty building, where we daren't wear nice clothes for fear of wrecking them, doesn't mean we're not allowed best bibs and tuckers!'
âAnd I don't even know if I like the guy. He's so bloody moody.'
âTreat it as just a posh night out, then. How many times have you gone to a posh reception? Well, remember there's a first time for everything. And what was it you were saying the other day â the older you get, the more you ought to experience? Experience this. In a really posh dress.'
âI can't afford a posh dress.'
âHire one, then. There's a shop in Harborne my sister went to. Don't you dare make any more excuses. Just go.'
âYou couldn't spare the time to come with me? On the way home, perhaps?'
âDo you want my opinion or just a lift? Come on, cheer up. Cinders will go to the ball.'
But it was Shahida who needed cheering at the end of the afternoon. She came back from coffee looking strangely subdued, and made a hash of her presentation. While she was unlocking her car, I said, âYou'll have to tell me what it is, Shas. Who's been upsetting you?'
âI don't want to talk about it.'
âYes, you do.'
She had let me in and fastened her belt before she said, to the windscreen rather than me, âThere was this guy in the coffee lounge. Very well dressed, very suave. About fifty, I suppose. With some other group â not one of us, thank goodness. He just turned to me and looked at me and said, “Breed like fucking rabbits, that's the trouble with your sort.” And he just walked away.'
I took her hand: what could I have said? There was the logical objection that she didn't even look pregnant yet, but that wasn't worth making.
She drove so carefully I knew she was forcing herself to concentrate. She botched her parking â eventually I had to see her into the space. And then she laughed. âGood job that bastard didn't see that. “Can't park a fucking Fiesta, that's the trouble with your sort!”' And she tucked her arm into mine and steered me towards the dress shop.
All through my Friday classes, I told myself the letter didn't matter. But it did. Every time I didn't have to think about anything else, it pushed back into my consciousness again. But I didn't have any time to do the obvious thing, which was to phone Chris or Ian and ask them to handle it; perhaps I was afraid their reaction would prove the letter did matter.
There was nothing intrinsically offensive about it: no abusive language, no overt threats.
My dear young lady.
It is safer not to interfere with that which does not concern you.
But Chris and Ian, now sitting with me in the quietest corner of an increasingly noisy city-centre pub, stared at it grim-faced.
âYou should have told us about this straight away,' said Ian reproachfully, tapping it with a heavy forefinger, ânot wait till this hour of the evening.'
Chris, who looked if anything even wearier than Ian, was less restrained. âWhy the bloody hell didn't you ring us earlier? This arrived at eight this morning, did you say? And now it's ten at night. So whoever wrote this has had another fourteen hours to perfect his plans to fix you.'
âFix me? You mean â Chris, this isn't serious, surely!'
âYou know bloody well it's serious, don't you?'
Ian put in more gently, âIn a murder case, everything's potentially serious, Sophie. And you're involved with two, don't forget â we don't even know which one this is connected to. There!' He slipped the letter into one polythene bag, the envelope into another. They had become Evidence. âWhoever wrote it doesn't give us much to go on,' he added.
âI thought you could identify which typewriter was used from the shape of the letters or something.'
Chris sighed ostentatiously. âFirst we have to find the typewriter, Sophie. But in any case this is not a typewriter. It's been produced by a word-processor or a computer, then printed.'
âDon't computer printers have identifiable characteristics?'
âDaisywheels might. Even dot-matrix printers may have, I suppose. But whoever wrote this has done something else to confuse us â photocopied it.'
Ian reached for it and pointed. âI reckon they've done it several times, reducing it, enlarging it. You can see how blurred the print is.'
âThey'd never use it on that advert for photocopiers,' I said. âTell me, do photocopiers have fingerprints? I mean, can you tell which machine copies come from?' I touched a zigzag mark half an inch long which appeared at the bottom of the letter.
I might as well not have spoken.
âFor God's sake, Sophie, can't you get it into your thick head that we can't identify anything until we have something to compare it with? And to do that we have to have some idea who sent it. And this particular “who” knows who you are, knows where you live, thinks you know who he is. And wants to shut you up? We don't yet know what lengths he'll go to either.'