Don't Look Back: sequel to He Loves Me Not (Lily's Story, Book 2) (6 page)

Dr. Eggleston smiled at me, apparently used to pregnant women who became emotional. “Well, you have a while to decide.”

I smiled back, relieved the hard questions were over.

Dr. Eggleston stood and patted the exam table. “Let’s get a look at your baby, shall we?”

I grinned, thrilled to get to the part of the appointment I had been looking forward to. I climbed onto the table and lay back. Dr. Eggleston pulled up by blouse, exposing my still flat stomach. She squirted gel onto my belly, then pressed a device against my abdomen. Immediately the room filled with the sound of a strong, rapid heartbeat.

Tears filled my eyes, but this time I didn’t care. Dr. Eggleston turned the monitor in my direction and I saw a blob on the screen, dancing and jumping around.

“Your baby is certainly active,” she said.

Suddenly worried,  I said, “Is that normal?”

“Oh yes. Perfectly normal.”

I smiled, reassured. “Can you tell if it’s a boy or a girl?”

“No, it’s too soon. You’ll have another ultrasound at twenty weeks. You’ll be able to find out then.”

I nodded.

She lifted the device from my belly and the room went silent. Wiping the gel off with a paper cloth, she said, “I’d like to see you again in six weeks.”

I sat up. “Okay.”

She handed me a snapshot of the ultrasound image. “Your first baby picture.”

Staring at the image, I smiled. “Thank you.”

On my way out I made the follow-up appointment, then walked to my car. The baby seemed real now. Not just an abstract idea, but a tiny, very real human being. An image of the baby’s room filled my mind and all I saw was an empty green room. I had absolutely nothing for the baby yet.

Pulling out of the doctor’s parking lot, I drove toward the Wal-Mart. Though I would be happy with second-hand furniture, I remembered reading that when it came to cribs, it was better to buy new. Some of the older cribs were unsafe and I wasn’t about to take a chance with my baby’s safety.

There were several cribs to choose from. After deliberating for a while, I made my selection. I had to have an employee help me load the box into my car. He slid it onto the floor in front of the back seats. I drove home, excited to get the crib set up.

Once I got home I realized I had a problem. I had been so excited to get the crib that I hadn’t thought through how I was going to get it into the house or how I was going to put it together.

I remembered Trish’s visit the previous week and her sincere offer to come over if I needed anything.

Maybe when her husband comes home he can help me, I thought.

The day was sunny but not too warm so I decided to walk to Trish’s house. First I put my purse in the house, then said hello to Greta. On impulse, I took out Greta’s leash, deciding to bring her along. She pranced around, ecstatic to see me and to be let out of her crate.

I locked the front door behind me and dropped the key in my jeans pocket, then set out for Trish’s house. It took ten minutes to walk there, mostly because Greta kept stopping to either mark her territory or to investigate bugs and other smells.

Finally, I turned up the paved driveway to Trish’s house. Her house was much larger than my little cottage and the yard was beautifully manicured. As I approached the door, it suddenly occurred to me that she might not know I was pregnant. I really had no idea what Mary had told her about me. How was I going to explain what I needed?

Well, my pregnancy will be apparent soon enough, I thought. No reason to hide the truth about that at least.

I rang the doorbell, trying to figure out how I was going to phrase my request. I was so preoccupied with my thoughts, I didn’t hear anyone coming to the door. Unexpectedly, it opened. I opened my mouth, ready to explain to Trish what I needed, but I was swiftly silenced when I saw who had opened the door.

Chapter Nine

A man, a few years older than me, stood on the threshold. He had the most gorgeous green eyes I had ever seen. I wondered if it was his natural color or if he was wearing colored contacts. His dark hair was so short as to be nearly shaved. Muscles bulged against the sleeves of his t-shirt.

“Can I help you?” he asked, smiling.

As I gazed at his handsome face, I had nearly forgotten why I had come over. Greta tugged against her leash, wanting to check out the new human.

“Marcus, who’s at the door?” a woman’s voice called.

Marcus turned toward the woman, who stepped into the doorway.

“Kate,” Trish said. “Hello.”

When I saw Trish, I finally found my voice. “Hi.”

“Marcus, this is our new neighbor, Kate.”

He gave a curt nod in my direction.

“Kate, this is my son, Marcus.”

“Hi,” I said again, captivated by his eyes.

“He’s in the marines and just got home today. We hadn’t been expecting him for a while so it was a wonderful surprise.” She put her arm around his waist, the top of her head just reaching his shoulder. “And we’re so glad he’s back.”

When Trish had come over to introduce herself and she and I had chatted, we’d never gotten to the part where she had a handsome son.

“What brings you over, Kate?” Trish asked.

Suddenly realizing I was interrupting a family reunion, I didn’t want to tell her why I’d come. “It’s nothing. It can wait.”

“Nonsense,” she said in a friendly way. “You obviously came here for a reason. Now what was it?”

Feeling awkward, I tried to make light of what I needed. “Well, it’s just that I bought something and I needed some help carrying it into the house. But it can wait. I was going to see if your husband could help me when he has some time.”

“Bill is actually out of town for the next week, but Marcus can help you, right son?”

“Yes, ma’am,” he said, smiling.

For some reason, I was reluctant to accept his offer of help. It’s true that I found him attractive, but I had zero interest in getting involved with anyone. Plus, there was the minor fact that I was still married.

But what does any of that have to do with allowing him to help me bring in the crib, I thought.

I was confused and didn’t understand my feelings. But I did know I couldn’t drag the crib into the house by myself and it was highly unlikely that I could put it together myself either. Trish and Marcus were looking at me, waiting for my answer. “That would be great. Thanks.”

Marcus stepped onto the porch, putting Greta into a frenzy. She jumped against his leg, trying to get a good sniff. I pulled on her leash. “Greta, no!” As usual, she ignored me, but fortunately I was still stronger than her and was able to pull her back.

Marcus knelt down and let her smell his hand. “Is that better?” he asked her. She happily licked his hand, apparently accepting him.

“Nice dog,” he said, looking up at me.

“Thanks. I just got her last week.”

He nodded, then stood. “You ready to get started?”

I really wasn’t. I would have preferred someone safe, like Trish’s husband, but it didn’t seem I had a choice at this point. “Sure.” I started walking down the driveway and he fell into step beside me. He was about a head taller than me, I noticed.

“So, what’s this thing you need help brining in your house?”

It was a good thing I was looking in front of me. If Marcus had seen my face, I’m sure I would have looked like a deer caught in the proverbial headlights. Since he had just gotten home, I seriously doubted Trish had told him anything about me. Plus I didn’t know if she was even aware of my pregnancy. “You’ll see,” I hedged.

He laughed. “Okay.”

We had to stop a few times as Greta paused. It seemed there was no forcing her to move if she didn’t want to.

“So, your mom said you just got home,” I started, trying to be friendly. “Where were you before?”

“I’ve been stationed in Afghanistan for the last two years.”

“Oh. How was it there?”

Out of the corner of my eye I saw him look at me.

“It’s pretty rough over there. It’s nice to be home.”

I glanced at him and nodded.

We finally reached the gravel drive that led to my house and turned up the road. In moments we stood next to my car. I pointed to the large box in the back seat.

“So this is the mystery item,” he said, reaching for the door. He pulled it open and grabbed the box, sliding it out the door. Once it was out of the car and sitting on the driveway, the word ‘crib’ was plainly visible.

I saw him look at it, but he made no comment.

“Where would you like it?”

“I’ll show you.” I walked to the front door, fished the key out of my pocket and turned the lock. I held the door open for him as he easily carried the box into the living room. I closed the door and pointed to the stairs. “This way.” He followed me up the stairs and into the baby’s room. “You can just set it over there,” I said, pointing to a wall.

He set it down, careful to not damage the wall. “Smells like you painted recently.”

“Yes.” I had never been very good at small talk and this was no exception.

“Do you need help with anything else?”

I really wanted to ask him to put the crib together, but I knew I wouldn’t need it for months and I wasn’t ready to explain my situation. Maybe I could have Trish’s husband Bill do it when he got back from his business trip. “No, I think that will do it. Thanks for your help.”

“Yes, ma’am.” He headed out the bedroom door and down the stairs.

When he opened the front door, he paused and turned toward me. I noticed his eyes flicker to my stomach, but I knew it was impossible to tell I was pregnant just by looking. I looked at him, waiting for him to say what was on his mind.

“Never mind.” He shook his head. “Take care,” he said instead.

“You too.” I locked the door behind him, then went to the front window and watched him walk toward the street that ran in front of our houses.

I pulled out my laptop and brought up my email account. I had been checking my emails daily. Trevor had sent a few more emails, each getting progressively angrier, but I had resisted the urge to respond. I’d also been checking the Reno newspaper every day to watch for any information about Trevor’s arrest. So far there had been no mention of anything and I wondered if the charges had been dropped or a plea deal made.

Alyssa, my friend from Reno, had emailed me back, but she was still at her parents’ house. Though I really wanted to give her all the details of my new life, I hadn’t told her where I’d moved, only that I had left. It saddened me that I couldn’t tell my friend more. Alyssa was the only person I really had a connection with who knew the truth about my life.

As I thought about my safety, I wondered if it might be best if I were to just reinvent myself and put my past behind me. I knew I couldn’t cut Alyssa out completely, but I had to minimize my contact. I had to think of my safety and the safety of my baby.

The first thing I wanted to do was sell Dad’s house. The idea had been hovering in the back of my mind for the last couple of weeks, but now it had pushed itself forward and I knew it was best. That night was Greta’s second dog obedience class and the next night I had my second self-defense class. I would leave early in the morning the day after my class.

Chapter Ten

I went to Greta’s obedience class that night and learned some techniques to use with her. Billi was there with Chloe. We were both busy with our dogs and didn’t have a chance to do more than say hello. The next night I went to my second self-defense lesson. This time when Steve had me practice what I’d been taught, I responded with confidence. Throughout the previous week I’d practiced some of the movements and also visualized myself using them, which seemed to help.

Early the following morning I loaded a suitcase with the items I thought I’d need, filled a container of dog food, grabbed Greta’s pet bed, then strapped Greta into the passenger seat with the special doggie seatbelt I’d bought. She didn’t seem to mind being restrained and this way she wouldn’t get in my way while I drove or get hurt if I had to stop suddenly.

It took half the day to reach Reno, mostly because I had to stop a few times to give Greta breaks. As we passed through Reno I thought about Trevor and wondered what he was doing. Though I knew it was unlikely Trevor would see me, I couldn’t help but watch the cars around me, fearful that he would somehow know I was in town and find me.

I pushed him out of my mind and drove on to Lovelock. When I arrived at my house I was ready for a break and happy to have gotten there. Everything looked as I remembered it. I took Greta inside and she went to work thoroughly exploring. I brought in our belongings and sat on the couch. A plume of dust filled the air, making me cough.

As I looked around, I could see it would be a big job to get the place ready to sell. I had left minimal utilities on - I hadn’t wanted the pipes to freeze - but there was no Internet access here. I found the phone book and searched for a cleaning service. Using my cell phone, I arranged to have someone come out the next afternoon and do a thorough cleaning.

My next task was to decide what to do with the furniture and Dad’s belongings. Fortunately I had already packed up most of the house in the few months between Dad’s passing and me heading off to the University in Reno. Walking around the house and looking at the furniture, I realized it was mostly old and not in the best condition. Money had been tight and decorating the house hadn’t been high on Dad’s priority list.

I thought about Mary and her generosity in giving me the furniture that was now in my house. I thought it might be nice if I could do the same for someone else. Grabbing the yellow pages again, I looked up a charity that advertised their willingness to pick up goods. When I called, they said they had a cancellation and could come by the next morning. I hoped they would be gone in time for the cleaning people to come over.

With a notepad and pen in hand, I walked to each room, writing down which pieces of furniture to donate and which to have shipped to my place in California. By the time I was done, there were very few items I wanted to keep. I had decided to keep the new television, some linens, and all of the photos.