Dinner Along the Amazon (11 page)

Then one of the policemen came into the barn. He was all alone. I stayed very quiet, because I wasn’t going to let anything keep me from going through with my plan about my dad. Not even a policeman.

He urinated against the wall inside the door. It was sort of funny, because he kept turning around to make sure no one saw him, and he didn’t know I was there. Then he did up his pants and stood in the middle of the floor under the haylofts.

“Hey! Neil!”

That was the policeman.

He said it so suddenly that it scared me. I nearly fell off from where I was, it scared me so much. And I guess maybe he saw me, because he started right up the ladder at me.

“How did you know my name?”

I said that in a whisper.

“They told me.”

“Oh.”

“Have you been here all night?”

“Yes.”

“Don’t you realize that everyone has been looking for you all over the place? Nobody’s even been to sleep.”

That sort of frightened me—but it was all right, because he smiled when he said it.

Then he stuck his head out of this window that was there to let the air in (so that the barn wouldn’t catch on fire)—and he yelled down, “He’s all right—I’ve found him! He’s up here.”

And I said: “What did you go and do that for? Now you’ve ruined everything.”

He smiled again and said, “I had to stop them all going off to look for you. Now,”—as he sat down beside me—“do you want to tell me what it is you’re doing up here?”

“No.”

I think that sort of set him back a couple of years, because he didn’t say anything for a minute—except “Oh.”

Then I thought maybe I had to have something to tell the others anyway, so I might as well make it up for him right now.

“I fell asleep,” I said.

“When—last night?”

“Yes.”

I looked at him. I wondered if I could trust a guy who did that against walls, when all you had to do was go in the house.

“Why did you come up here in the first place?” he said.

I decided I could trust him because I remembered once when I did the same thing. Against the wall.

So I told him.

“I want to hide on my dad,” I said.

“Why do you want to do that? And besides, Mrs Currie said your parents weren’t even here.”

“Yes, but he’s coming today.”

“But why hide on him? Don’t you like him, or something?”

“Sure I do,” I said.

I thought about it.

“But he’s…he’s…Do you know if it’s true, my dad’s joined the army?”

“I dunno. Maybe. There’s a war on, you know.”

“Well, that’s why I hid.”

But he laughed.

“Is that why you hid? Because of the war?”

“Because of my dad.”

“You don’t need to hide because of the war—the Germans aren’t coming over here, you know.”

“But it’s not that. It’s my dad.” I could have told you he wouldn’t understand.

I was trying to think of what to say next when Mrs Currie came into the barn. She stood down below.

“Is he up there, officer? Is he all right?”

“Yes, ma’am, I’ve got him. He’s fine.”

“Neil dear, what happened? Why don’t you come down and tell us what happened to you?”

Then I decided that I’d really go all out. I had to, because I could tell they weren’t going to—it was just obvious that these people weren’t going to understand me and take my story about my dad and the army and everything.

“Somebody chased me.”

The policeman looked sort of shocked and I could hear Mrs Currie take in her breath.

“Somebody chased you, eh?”

“Yes.”

“Who?”

I had to think fast.

“Some man. But he’s gone now.”

I thought I’d better say he was gone, so that they wouldn’t start worrying.

“Officer, why don’t you bring him down here? Then we can talk.”

“All right, ma’am. Come on, Neil, we’ll go down and have some breakfast.”

They didn’t seem to believe me about that man I made up.

We went over to the ladder.

I looked down. A lot of hay stuck out so that I couldn’t see the floor.

“Are there any ducks down there?”

“No, dear, you can come down—it’s all right.”

She was lying, though. There was a great big duck right next to her. I think it’s awfully silly to tell a lie like that. I mean, if the duck is standing right there it doesn’t even make sense, does it?

But I went down anyway and she made the duck go away.

When we went out, the policeman held my hand. His hand had some sweat on it but it was a nice hand, with hair on the back. I liked that. My dad didn’t have that on his hand.

Then we ate breakfast with all those people who’d come to look for me. At least, they ate. I just sat.

After breakfast, Mr and Mrs Currie took me upstairs to the sitting room. It was upstairs because the kitchen was in the cellar.

All I remember about that was a vase that had a potted plant in it. This vase was made of putty and into the putty Mrs Currie had stuck all kinds of stones and pennies and old bits of glass and things. You could look at this for hours and never see the same kind of stone or glass twice. I don’t remember the plant.

All I remember about what they said was that they told me I should never do it again. That routine.

Then they told me my mother and my dad would be up that day around lunch time.

What they were really sore about was losing their sleep, and then all those people coming. I was sorry about that—but you can’t very well go down and make an announcement about it, so I didn’t.

At twelve o’clock I went and sat in Mr Currie’s truck. It was in the barn. I took out those two boxes I’d put in the glove compartment and looked at them. I tried to figure out what my dad would do with an old box like that in the army. And he’d probably never play another game of golf as long as he lived. Not in the army, anyway. Maybe he’d use the box for his bullets or something.

Then I counted the red stones I was going to give my mother. I kept seeing them around her neck and how pretty they’d be. She had a dress they’d be just perfect with. Blue. The only thing I was worried about was how to get a hole in them so you could put them on a string. There wasn’t much sense in having beads without a string—not if you were going to wear them, anyway—or your mother was.

And it was then that they came.

I heard their car drive up outside and I went and looked from behind the barn door. My father wasn’t wearing a uniform yet like I’d thought he would be. I began to think maybe he really didn’t want me to know about it. I mean, he hadn’t written or anything, and now he was just wearing an old blazer and some grey pants. It made me remember.

I went back and sat down in the truck again. I didn’t know what to do. I just sat there with those stones in my hand.

Then I heard someone shout, “Neil!”

I went and looked. Mr and Mrs Currie were standing with my parents by the car—and I saw Bud come running out of the house, and then Teddy Hartley. Teddy Hartley sort of hung back, though. He was the kind of person who’s only polite if there are grownups around him. He sure knew how to pull the wool over their eyes, because he’d even combed his hair. Wildroot-cream-oil-Charlie.

Then I noticed that they were talking very seriously and my mother put her hand above her eyes and looked around. I guess she was looking for me. Then my dad started toward the barn.

I went and hid behind the truck. I wasn’t quite sure yet what I was going to do, but I certainly wasn’t going to go up and throw my arms around his neck or anything.

“Neil. Are you in there, son?”

My dad spoke that very quietly. Then I heard the door being pushed open, and some chicken had to get out of the way, because I heard it making that awful noise chickens make when you surprise them doing something. They sure can get excited over nothing—chickens.

I took a quick look behind me. There was a door there that led into the part of the barn where the haylofts were and where I’d been all night. I decided to make a dash for it. But I had to ward off my father first—and so I threw that stone.

I suppose I’ll have to admit that I meant to hit him. It wouldn’t be much sense if I tried to fool you about that. I wanted to hit him because when I stood up behind the truck and saw him then I suddenly got mad. I thought about how he hadn’t written me, or anything.

It hit him on the hand.

He turned right around because he wasn’t sure what it was or where it came from. And before I ran, I just caught a glimpse of his face. He’d seen me and he sured looked peculiar. I guess that now I’ll never forget his face and how he looked at me right then. I think it was that he looked as though he might cry or something. But I knew he wouldn’t do that, because he never did.

Then I ran.

From the loft I watched them in the yard. My dad was rubbing his hands together and I guess maybe where I’d hit him it was pretty sore. My mother took off her handkerchief that she had round her neck and put it on his hand. Then I guess he’d told them what I’d done, because this time they all started toward the barn.

I didn’t know what to do then. I counted out the stones I had left and there were about fifteen of them. There was the golf ball, too.

I didn’t want to throw stones at all of them. I certainly didn’t want to hit my mother—and I hoped that they wouldn’t send her in first. I thought then how I’d be all right if they sent in Teddy Hartley first. I didn’t mind the thought of throwing at him, I’ll tell you that much.

But my dad came first.

I had a good view of where he came from. He came in through the part where the truck was parked, because I guess he thought I was still there. And then he came on into the part where I was now—in the hayloft.

He stood by the door.

“Neil.”

I wasn’t saying anything. I sat very still.

“Neil.”

I could only just see his head and shoulders—the rest of him was hidden by the edge of the loft.

“Neil, aren’t you even going to explain what you’re angry about?”

I thought for a minute and then I didn’t answer him after all. I looked at him, though. He looked worried.

“What do you want us to do?”

I sat still.

“Neil?”

Since I didn’t answer, he started back out the door—I guess to talk to my mother or someone.

I hit his back with another stone. I had to make sure he knew I was there.

He turned around at me.

“Neil, what’s the matter? I want to know what’s the matter.”

He almost fooled me, but not quite. I thought that perhaps he really didn’t know for a minute—but after taking a look at him I decided that he did know, all right. I mean, there he was in that blue blazer and everything—just as if he hadn’t joined the army at all.

So I threw again and this time it really hit him in the face.

He didn’t do anything—he just stood there. It really scared me. Then my mother came in, but he made her go back.

I thought about my rink, and how I wouldn’t have it. I thought about being in the fifth grade that year and how I’d skipped from grade three. And I thought about the Indian who’d sold those boxes that I had down in the truck.

“Neil—I’m going to come up.”

You could tell he really would, too, from his voice.

I got the golf ball ready.

To get to me he had to disappear for a minute while he crossed under the loft and then when he climbed the ladder. I decided to change my place while he was out of sight. I began to think that was pretty clever and that maybe I’d be pretty good at that war stuff myself. Field Marshal Cable.

I put myself into a little trench of hay and piled some up in front of me. When my dad came up over the top of the ladder, he wouldn’t even see me and then I’d have a good chance to aim at him.

The funny thing was that at that moment I’d forgotten why I was against him. I got so mixed up in all that Field Marshal stuff that I really forgot all about my dad and the army and everything. I was just trying to figure out how I could get him before he saw me—and that was all.

I got further down in the hay and then he was there.

He was out of breath and his face was all sweaty, and where I’d hit him there was blood. And then he put his hand with my mother’s hankie up to his face to wipe it. And he sort of bit it (the handkerchief). It was as if he was confused or something. I remember thinking he looked then just like I’d felt my face go when Bud had said our dad had joined the army. You know how you look around with your eyes from side to side as though maybe you’ll find the answer to it somewhere near you? You never do find it, but you always look anyway, just in case.

Anyway, that’s how he was just then, and it sort of threw me. I had that feeling again that maybe he didn’t know what this was all about. But then, he had to know, didn’t he? Because he’d done it.

I had the golf ball ready in my right hand and one of those stones in the other. He walked toward me.

I missed with the golf ball and got him with the stone.

And he fell down. He really fell down. He didn’t say anything—he didn’t even say “ouch,” like I would have—he just fell down.

In the hay.

I didn’t go out just yet. I sat and looked at him. And I listened.

Nothing.

Do you know, there wasn’t a sound in that whole place? It was as if everything had stopped because they knew what had happened.

My dad just lay there and we waited for what would happen next.

It was me.

I mean, I made the first noise.

I said: “Dad?”

But nobody answered—not even my mother.

So I said it louder. “Dad?”

It was just as if they’d all gone away and left me with him, all alone.

He sure looked strange lying there—so quiet and everything. I didn’t know what to do.

“Dad?”

I went over on my hands and knees.

Then suddenly they all came in. I just did what I thought of first. I guess it was because they scared me—coming like that when it was so quiet.

I got all the stones out of my pockets and threw them, one by one, as they came through the door. I stood up to do it. I saw them all running through the door, and I threw every stone, even at my mother.