Diary of a 6th Grade Girl #2: How to Survive Middle School (2 page)

It was very dark and cool under the cover of the trees.  I was surprised that we saw a few squirrels pretty close, and even a ground hog way off in the distance.  There were a lot of different flowers there.  We kissed for a while, under the shade of the trees.  It was so romantic.  I haven’t had the chance to kiss him for real ever since the party.  Maybe kisses on the cheek here and there, but his parents were around when we went to dinner.  This was the very first time that the two of us were alone together.

I have a few friends who have talked about the way that they are with their boyfriends.  I know that their hands move to very private places when they kiss, especially the girls I know that have older boyfriends.  I was worried that this kiss was going to be like that, but it wasn’t.  I wouldn’t know what to do if it was, especially since that makes me blush and feel shy just to think about it.  I don’t know how the other girls can handle it.

But this kiss was just sweet.  There wasn’t tongue or anything, and that’s good because that sounds too sloppy.  It didn’t last very long, but I’m not complaining.  I think that both of us were worried that our dads would look up and see us gone.  He held my hand and we ran back to where they were fishing.

Neither of us caught anything, because we were too distracted to really do much fishing.  It was really nice though.  He hugged me goodbye, and he would have kissed me again, but both of our dads were watching.

I want to do things with him more often, because it’s so nice.  I’m just worried about what happens when we get closer.  My older sister has always been really close with her boyfriend.  I’ve walked into her room when her boyfriend, Andy, was here, and found them kissing in her bed.  She’s only two years older than me, and I think that
she’s
too young.  That makes me definitely too young.

So what do I do if Kyle wants to do something that I’m not comfortable with?

Day 23

Dear Diary,

Well, it’s Monday now.  I just got home from school, and I’m going to go to the library to meet Sharon soon, so that we can do our homework together.  Then we’re going to a movie.

Sharon thought that the picture was funny, and she didn’t really understand why I would have any problems with it.  She said that Kyle stood up for me and yelled at Kristy for doing that to me.  Then he went all over the school looking for me to make sure that I was okay.  He saw me get into the car with my mom, and he was really sad for the rest of the day.  Sharon thinks that I should just be happy that I have a real boyfriend like Kyle, and not a boyfriend that would dump me just because of a silly picture.

She might not understand it, but I still get laughed at sometimes in school, even though a good few days have passed since that picture was put up.  Kristy especially laughs at me.  She walked by with a piece of chocolate cake today and probably would have smeared it on my clothes except that I moved out of the way quickly enough, and then one of the teachers in the classrooms by my locker came out.  It was really lucky for me, but I’m sure that she’ll catch up with me eventually.

Still, it was fun to laugh at her not being able to follow through with her evil plan.

Day 24

Dear Diary,

It’s been crazy lately.  I can’t believe how much homework is being piled on top of me.  My backpack is crazy heavy, but it’s okay, I’ve been getting it all done.  Today is Wednesday, and Sharon just got dropped off at my house.  We’re going to get our homework done and then go to sleep.  It’ll be a lot easier with Sharon here—everything goes a lot faster when I have a friend by my side.  And tomorrow, she’s going to ride the bus with me to school, so it will be a lot easier.  It’s kind of cool having a sleepover on a week night.

I’ve never ridden to school on the bus with anyone else before.  Actually, I don’t think that I even know any of the other kids on my bus now.  So it will be really cool to get to go in with Sharon.  It’s a lot of fun just having her here.

I have to go now, she got mad at me because she thought I was doing my essay, but she found out that I was writing in my diary instead!  She is all business, and does not like to take any time for a break, so she expects me to get everything done as fast as I can as well…  Usually, I just do whatever I feel like, and as long as it’s done before I go to sleep, that’s okay.  But I like Sharon, so I’ll do what she says.  I’ll finish this entry up later.

Day 24 continued

Dear Diary,

Sharon just fell asleep.  She goes to sleep at nine o’clock every night on the week days, but she’ll stay up later on weekends.  I always stay up until ten o’clock or ten thirty, so I’m not tired yet.  I figured that this was a good chance to finish my entry from earlier.

We had a fight earlier because she doesn’t think that I’m dedicated to my school work or anything important.  But she does all sorts of stuff—her parents make her be very involved, so that she doesn’t have a minute to spare.  I told her that I think she’s just jealous that I can do whatever I think is right for me, and I’m not forced into anything.  I wasn’t trying to be mean, I was actually trying to calm her down, but that didn’t work out so well.

I’ve also noticed that she gets upset if I mention Kyle.  I think that she’s a bit jealous of that too, because I have a boyfriend and her parents don’t even allow her to talk to boys.  I didn’t say anything about that to her, because I don’t want to hurt her feelings.

I don’t like fighting with her, because she’s my best friend.  I just hope that we make up tomorrow.  Maybe a full night’s sleep will help calm her down, and she won’t be so upset when she wakes up.  I just want to make absolutely sure that she’s okay, and that we can still be friends.  I don’t know what I would do if we were friends anymore.  I have other friends at our lunch table, but I think that Sharon is my best friend ever.

Really, I wasn’t saying anything to be mean.  I was just being honest!  I’ll apologize and explain myself tomorrow…  Wish me luck.  I’m going to bed now.

Day 25

Dear, Diary

Right now, I’m in homeroom.  I don’t really have long to write, because the bell is going to ring soon.  I just wanted to say that Sharon and I made up.  It’s all better now, she’s just too stressed out with everything that she has to do.  And she did admit that she’s a bit jealous of me.  I told her I’m jealous of her too, because she’s smart and gets good grades all the time.  But I’m much happier just to be me.

But you won’t guess what happened this morning.  I came in to school and put my stuff in my locker.  I forgot to lock it because I had to go down to the principal’s office to hand in a slip from my mom.  When I came back, my locker door was open and my stuff was everywhere.  I’m not sure if anything was taken, but it was still horrible.  I don’t know if I should go to the principal about this.

I’m going to talk to the people at my lunch table and see what they think.  But I have a pretty good idea who did this.  Kristy just can’t leave me alone, can she?  What is her problem?

Day 26

Dear Diary,

I did end up going to the principal.  I wasn’t going to, because I don’t really want to stir up any problems with Kristy, and make things worse.

The only reason I did end up going is because I mentioned it to Anna.  I figured she could give me some advice on it, since she’s older and ‘wiser’ than I am.  She went straight to mom without giving me any advice, and my mom freaked out.  She called the principle right away.

I had to go in and talk to him this morning.  He understood about it and said that he was sorry I had to go through that, and then he promised me that it’s going to be worked out as quickly as possible.

I’m not entirely sure if I believe that or not.  Kristy isn’t the kind to stop bothering me just because someone tells her to.  Oh well, if it works then it works I guess.  If not, I’ll figure out another way.  I mean, she has to get tired of it eventually, right?

I don’t know anymore.  This whole thing stresses me out, and I heard a rumor today that Kyle went on a date with another girl.  I don’t understand that.  But I haven’t seen him very much lately, only when he’s walking me to classes.  He hasn’t been at lunch because he joined some new club that meets during lunch times.

I miss him.  And I miss not being harassed by some girl that I thought I was friends with.  Why does Middle School have to be so complicated?  Maybe it’ll get easier later on.  I hope it will.

Day 27

Dear Diary,

I got called to the principal’s office today in the middle of lunch.  Of course it had to be while I was at lunch, so that everyone could watch me walk out of the cafeteria and wonder what I had done wrong.  I could feel all of their eyes on me.  And to make matters worse, I ended up being called there at the same time as Kristy.  It was humiliating, and the walk to the principal’s office was horrible because Kristy was right next to me the entire way, glaring at me and saying mean things just because she knows it bothers me.

But I just ignored her and went in to the office in silence.  When we got there, the secretary told me that we were actually going to see the guidance counselor, and not the principal.  They told Kristy and I that we would need to work out our problems before they would let us get back to school.

So, basically, they were forcing us to get along in order to be able to leave the office.

I can’t remember everything that we said back and forth with the guidance counselor watching.  Basically though, I told the counselor everything that Kristy has done to me this school year, and then Kristy denied having any part in it.  She claimed that it must have been someone else.  And then she said that I deserved it, and that if it had been her she would do a lot worse.

After the counselor asked her a few questions, she finally said that she hates my guts because I’m mean, and that I embarrassed her in front of everyone, and didn’t even bother to call her over the summer when I promised that I would.

I sat there for a moment wondering what the heck she was talking about.  I haven’t ever embarrassed her or done anything to be mean to her.  Even though she’s mean to me, I don’t want to start anything worse.  We ended up staying in the guidance counselor’s office for two class periods before Kristy would just smile, say that it was okay, and then fake apologized so that we could get out of there.  It was one long, long day.

The guidance counselor finally let us out, and I think that she was happy to.  I guess that most people just get out of there within fifteen minutes because they fake an apology or something.  Not Kristy though, and I certainly wasn’t going to apologize for something that I’ve never done.

Day 28

Dear Diary,

I came into school today, and everything seemed to be going okay.  Then last period, the period before lunch, I went to go and get my science textbook.  When I opened it, a note fell out and fluttered down.

At first, I was excited because I knew it had to be a note from Kyle.  Then I read it.  It just said, “Library during lunch.  We need to talk.  It’s important.”  It wasn’t signed with the “xoxo” at all!  There wasn’t anything sweet there, period.

I think the rumor must be true about the other girl.  Right now, I’m sitting in Science class, and I have lunch next period.  So that means that I’ll have to go to the library as soon as the bell rings.  I feel like I’m going to throw up.  I don’t want Kyle to break up with me…  But what else could a note like that mean??

Day 29

Dear Diary,

I’m really confused; I’m not sure what’s going on right now with anyone.  I went in to the library yesterday, like the note had said.  I took a seat at my usual table, where Kyle and I will eat lunch together on some days, and I waited.  And I waited.  It took me about half an hour to give up hope and decide that Kyle wasn’t going to show up.

I stayed in the library a little bit longer, to see if he might show up at the last minute, but the bell rang after I had been sitting at that table for forty five minutes.  I couldn’t figure out what was going on, and I’m still confused.  I couldn’t imagine why he would put that note in my locker if he wasn’t going to show up.  But then I realized that this was one of the days when his club met during lunch, and then I was really confused.

All day, I didn’t see him in the hallways or anything.  I’ll also add that I regret skipping lunch before I went to the library—I wanted to be there on time, and I was too nervous to eat anything.  As a result, my stomach growled every time the class was silent.  It was like it was trying to embarrass me on purpose.  But anyway, I kept an eye out for Kyle all day.

Here is where it gets
really
confusing.  When I got home about an hour ago, I was thinking about it.  I went and found Anna in her room, on the phone with her boyfriend, and I asked her what she thought that I should do.  It took me a while to explain everything, and her boyfriend got to hear most of the situation as well.  They both said the same thing: call him.  And surprisingly, even though they had been on the phone, they agreed that I needed to use it more than they did.  Since we only have one phone in the house, the landline, they gave up their time to talk.  It was nice of them.

I was really nervous to call him, especially since I thought I knew what was coming.  When he answered on the second ring, he said, “Hey baby!”  It’s the same thing every time, and I couldn’t figure out what that meant.  He was so cheerful and happy to hear my voice.