Desert Rogues Part 2 (69 page)

He stood and glared at her. “I am angry because my wife took the side of a foolish young woman and I did as she requested. I am angry because I believe Aisha chose poorly.”

He stopped talking, but she sensed there was more. Something much larger than Aisha and her problems. But what?

Murat walked away from the table into the sitting area of the tent. She followed him.

“You gave a woman her freedom, Murat. What is so terrible about that?”

“What is so terrible about our marriage?” he asked. “Why do you seek to escape?”

Was that it? Did he see her in Aisha?

“I'm not in love with anyone else,” she told him. “I would have told you if I was.”

“I never considered the matter,” he said, but she wasn't sure she believed him.

“Being married to you isn't terrible,” she said slowly, still not sure what they were arguing about. “My objection is to the way it happened. You never asked.”

“I did and you refused.”

“Right. And you went ahead and married me, anyway. You can't do that.”

“I can and I did.”

She couldn't believe it. “You say that like it's a good thing.”

“Achieving my goal is always a good thing.” He moved toward her. “We are married now. You will accept that.”

“I won't.”

“And if you carry my child?”

Daphne pressed both hands to her stomach. They should know fairly quickly. “I'm not.”

“You are not yet sure.” He loomed over her. “Make no mistake. Any child will stay here. You may leave if you like.”

“I would never leave my baby behind.”

“Then the decision is made for you.”

She wanted to scream. She wanted to demand that he understand. Why was he being so stubborn and hateful?

“I won't sleep with you again,” she said.

“So you told me before, yet look what happened.”

She felt as if he'd slapped her. “Is that all that night meant to you? Was it just a chance to prove me wrong?”

“Your word means very little.”

She turned away, both because it hurt to look at him and to keep him from seeing the tears in her eyes.

“I'm sorry I came on this trip with you,” she said. “I wish I'd never left the palace.”

“If you prefer to be back there, it can be arranged.”

“Then go ahead and do it.”

M
urat left the tent without looking back. Daphne wasn't sure what to do, so she stayed where she was. Less than forty minutes later she heard the sound of a helicopter approaching. One of the security agents came and got her, and before she could figure out what had happened, she found herself being whisked up into the night sky.

The glow of all the campfires seemed to stretch out for miles. She pressed her fingers against the cool glass window and wished for a second chance to take back the angry words she and Murat had exchanged.

He'd hurt her. She refused to believe he'd spent last night making love with her only to prove a point. Their time together had to have meant something to him, too. But why wouldn't he admit it? And why had he let her go so easily?

Just like before, she thought sadly, when she'd broken their engagement. He'd let her go without trying to stop her then, too.

The trip back to the palace took less than thirty minutes. She made her way to the suite she shared with Murat and let herself inside.

Everything was as she'd left it, except that the man she'd married was gone. She had no idea when he would return or what they would say to each other when he did.

She wandered through the room, touching pictures and small personal things, his pen or a pair of cuff links. She missed him. How crazy was that?

Something brushed against her leg. She looked down and saw one of the king's cats rubbing against her. She picked up the animal and held it close. The warm body and soft purr comforted her. Still holding the cat, she sank down on the sofa and began to cry.

 

“So, how was it?” Billie asked the next morning as she threw herself on one of the sofas. “I can't imagine riding through the desert. Flying would get you there much faster.”

Cleo sat next to her sister-in-law and swatted her with a pillow. “The journey is the point. When you fly you never get to see anything.”

“Yeah, but you get there fast.” Billie grinned. “I'm into the whole speed thing.”

“And we didn't know that.” Cleo fluffed her short, blond hair. “Did you have a good time? I thought you would have been gone longer.”

“It was great,” Daphne said, hoping the cold compresses she'd used earlier had taken down some of the swelling around her eyes. Crying herself to sleep never made for a pretty morning after. “I enjoyed the riding, and the tent was incredible. Like something out of
Arabian Nights.
There were dozens of rugs underfoot, hanging lights and a really huge bathtub.”

Billie smoothed the front of her skirt over her very pregnant belly. “Tubs can be fun. Anything you want to talk about?”

“Not really,” Daphne said, trying to keep things light. “The cultural differences were interesting. I enjoyed watching Murat work with the council.”

“You weren't gone long enough to get to the City of Thieves, were you?” Cleo asked, then covered her mouth. She winced and dropped her hand. “Tell me Murat told you about it. I
so
don't want to be shot at dawn.”

“Not to worry. He did. And, no, I didn't make it there.”

She'd been looking forward to it, too. She hadn't really wanted to leave the caravan. She'd acted impulsively in the moment. Why had she reacted so strongly last night? Why had he been so willing to fight with her and let her go?

“I wanted to see Sabrina and meet Zara,” she said.

“They're both very cool,” Cleo said. “You'll have time later. Or we could plan a lunch. The show-off here can fly us out there in a helicopter.”

“Cleo's just jealous because I'm talented,” Billie said with a grin.

“It's disgusting,” Cleo admitted. “And she brags about it all the time.”

“Do not.”

“Do, too.”

Daphne felt a wave of longing. These women weren't sisters, yet they were closer than Daphne had ever been to anyone in her family. If she stayed, she could be a part of this, as well.

If.

Cleo shifted to the edge of the sofa and laced her hands together. “I'm not sure how to say this delicately, so I'm just going to blurt it out. Something's up. You're obviously unhappy. You're back early and Murat isn't with you. Given how you two came to be married and all, Billie and I were wondering if you wanted to talk. You don't have to, but we're here to listen.”

Daphne bit her lower lip. She did want to confide in someone, but…“You're both in very different places.”

“Okay.” Billie looked confused. “I know you mean more than us sitting on the sofa and you sitting on a chair.”

Daphne couldn't help laughing. Cleo stared at Billie and rolled her eyes.

“She means we're in love with our husbands and she's not sure she is.” She glanced at Daphne. “Is that right?”

“Yes.”

“I knew that,” Billie said. “I guess you have a point. But Murat isn't so bad, is he?”

“I don't know.”

Daphne realized it was the truth. That while she hated what he'd done to her—how he'd used circumstances and manipulated her to get what he wanted—she wasn't sure how she felt about the man himself.

“There's the whole ‘going to be queen thing,'” Cleo said. “Does that count for anything?”

“Of course it doesn't,” Billie said. “Daphne has more depth than that.”

Cleo sighed. “I actually wasn't asking you.”

“Do you two ever stop arguing?”

“Sure,” Cleo said. “When we're not together.” She linked arms with her sister-in-law. “Billie and I have fabulous chemistry. I love sniping at her more than almost anything. It's like a sporting event.”

Billie nodded. “Jefri and Sadik have gotten used to never getting a word in edgewise when the four of us have dinner.”

“Shopping is a complete nightmare for the guys,” Cleo said. “We have credit cards and we know how to use them.” She disentangled her arm. “How can you not want to be a part of this?”

“You're tempting me.”

“More than being queen?”

Daphne curled up in the chair and leaned her head against the back. “I remember when I was here before. I was so young, just twenty, and engaged to Murat. The thought of being queen really terrified me. I was sort of a serious kid, and I knew there would be huge responsibilities. I didn't think I could ever manage.”

“And now?” Billie asked.

“I don't know. There's a part of me that thinks I could really help Murat. He doesn't have anyone he can confide in. Not to say anything against his brothers.”

Cleo and Billie looked at each other, then at her. “I know what you mean,” Cleo said. “Sadik is in meetings with Murat and that kind of thing, but he only has to worry about his own area of expertise. Murat has all the responsibility. King Hassan is handing over more and more of the day-to-day ruling. So a wife he trusted could help lighten the load.”

“Maybe. I think I could make a difference. As much as I don't get along with my family, I have to admit I've been raised to be married to a powerful man.”

“How nice not to have to learn what fork goes where,” Billie grumbled.

Daphne grinned. “It's a skill that has served me well.”

“So you're okay with the office of queen, which means the problem lies with Murat himself,” Cleo said. “I think you're going to have to solve that one on your own.”

Daphne knew she was right. “I appreciate the support.”

Billie slipped to the edge of the sofa and leaned close. “I'm about to say something I shouldn't, but I have to because I feel bad about what happened. Cleo, you can't tell anyone. Not Zara or Sadik or anyone.”

“I won't. I promise.”

Billie nodded and stared at Daphne. “If you want to leave, just tell me. I can get you on a plane and back to the States in five hours.”

Daphne thought of the long flight over. “How is that possible?”

Billie grinned. “We'd take a jet. No luggage room, but plenty of speed. I need an hour's notice. That's all. If it gets bad and you need to run, I'll take you.”

Daphne felt her eyes start to burn. These women didn't even know her and yet they were willing to offer so much support.

“I appreciate the offer. I doubt things will come to that, but if they do, I know where to find you.”

The women left after lunch. Daphne walked into the gardens and admired the bronze artwork there. Her favorite piece stood in the center of a large, shallow pool. A life-size statue of a desert warrior on the back of a stallion. As she studied the power in the horse's flanks and the fierce expression on the warrior's face, her fingers itched to be back in clay. She wanted to make something as wonderful as this.

“If only I had that much talent,” she said ruefully. But she still enjoyed the process. She had time for that here. Time for many things she enjoyed.

She sat on a bench and raised her face to the sun. Now that she was alone, she could admit the truth. She missed Murat.

Despite his imperious ways and how he made her crazy, she missed him. She wanted to hear his voice and laughter. She wanted to watch him work and know that his strength would one day be their children's. She wanted his touch on her body and her hands on his.

So when exactly had she stopped hating enough to start caring about him? Or had she ever hated him? What did she do now? Accept what had happened and move on?

Her heart told her no. That giving in would mean a lifetime of never being more than an object in his life. She wanted more than his rules and wishes. She wanted him to care. To woo her. To love her.

She dropped her chin to her chest as the truth washed over her. She wanted him to love her enough to come after her, instead of always letting her go so easily. She wanted to know it was safe to fall in love with him.

But how? How did she convince a man who believed he was invincible that it was all right to be vulnerable once in a while? How did she get him to open up to her? How did she get him to give her his heart?

She touched her stomach. If she was pregnant, she had her lifetime to figure it out. If she wasn't, then time might be very, very short.

Which did she want? If she had to choose right now, which would it be?

 

Murat couldn't remember the last time he'd been drunk. He usually didn't allow himself to indulge. As crown prince it was his responsibility to be alert at all times. But tonight he couldn't bring himself to care.

He'd waited all day for Daphne to return, but she had not. Even as he and his people rode deeper into the desert, he watched the sky for a helicopter that did not come.

He should never have ordered the helicopter. He knew that now. If he'd ignored her outburst, she would still be with him. But her reluctance to accept their marriage as something that could not be changed made him furious. How dare she question his authority? He had honored her by marrying her. It was done, and they needed to simply move forward.

But did Daphne see it that way? Was she logical and grateful? No. She constantly fought him, making life difficult, looking at him with accusations in her eyes.

He reached for the bottle of cognac and poured more into his glass. The smooth liquid burned its way down his throat.

Time, he told himself. He had time. Unless she wasn't pregnant. Then she would leave as she had before.

Do not think about that, he told himself. She would not leave again. He wouldn't permit it. Nor would the king.

The sound of muted footsteps forced his gaze from the fire. He watched as several of the tribal elders approached, bowed, then joined him by the fire.

“Will you be attending the camel races tomorrow, Your Highness?” one of the men asked.

Murat shrugged. He had wanted Daphne to see them, but now…“Perhaps. After the morning petitions.”

“The council sessions went well today,” another said. “Your justice, as always, provides a safe haven for your people.”

Murat knew the compliments were just a way to ease into the conversation the old men
really
wanted to have with him. He thought of how Daphne would listen attentively, all the while secretly urging them to get to the point.

She played the games of his office well. She understood the importance of ritual and tradition, even when she didn't agree with it. Unlike many women he had met, she would have patience for tribal councils and diplomatic sessions and negotiations.

“You made an interesting choice with Aisha,” the first man said. “To give her to Barak.”

He decided to help them cut to the chase. “The decision was a gift to my bride. It was her request that the young lovers be allowed to start a new life.”

“Ah.” The elders nodded to each other.

“Of course,” one of them said, “a woman sees with her heart. It has always been the way. Their tender emotions make them stewards of our households and our children. But when it comes to matters of importance, they know to defer to the man.”