Brother Francis was not so easily calmed. He could understand the logic of Markwart’s argumentthe man had, after all, spat in the face of the Father Abbot of the Abellican Church. But while Francis could logically argue that this had indeed been an unfortunate accident, his own actions justified, the rationalization could not take root in his heart. The pedestal had been knocked out from under him, that pervasive self-belief that he was above all other men. Francis had made mistakes before, of course, and he knew it, but not to this extreme. He remembered all the times of his life when he had imagined that he was the only real person, and that everyone else, and everything else, was merely a part of his dream of consciousness.
Now, suddenly, he felt as if he was just another man, a very small player in a very large script.
Later that morning, as the caravan moved far away, Brother Francis pushed the dirt on the pale face of Grady Chilichunk. In one blackened corner of his heart, Francis knew then that he was a damned thing.
Subconsciously that heart and soul ran to the Father Abbot then, for in that man’s eyes, there had been no crime, no sin. In that man’s view of the world, Brother Francis could hold his illusions.
P A R T T H R E E
The Demon Within
I cried for the death of Brother Justice.
That was not his real name, of course. His real name was Quintall; I know not if that was his surname or his birth-given name, or if he even had another name. Just Quintall.
I do not think that I killed him, Uncle Mathernot when he was human, at least. I think that his human body died as a consequence of the strange broach he carried, a magical link, so Avelyn discovered, to that most evil demon.
Still, I cried for the man, for his death, in which I played a great part. My actions were taken in defense of Avelyn and Pony, and of myself, and given the same situation, I have no doubt that I would react similarly, would battle Brother Justice without hearing any cries of protest from my conscience.
Still, I cried for the man, for his death, for all the potential lost, wasted, perverted to an evil way. When I consider it now, that is the true sadness, the real loss, for in each of us there burns a candle of hope, a light of sacrifice and community, the potential to do great things for the betterment of all the world. In each of us, in every man and every woman, there lies the possibility of greatness.
What a terrible thing the leaders of Avelyn’s abbey did to the man Quintall, to pervert him so into this monster that they called Brother Justice.
After Quintall’s death, I felt, for the first time, as though I had blood on my hands. My only other fight with humans was with the three trappers, and to them I showed mercyand mercy wellrepaid! But for Quintall there was no mercy; there could not have been even if he had survived my arrow and his fall, even if the demon dactyl and the magical broach had not stolen his spirit from his corporeal form. In no way short of his death could we have deterred Brother Justice from his mission to slay Avelyn. His purpose was all-consuming, burned into his every thought by a long and arduous process that had bent the man’s free will until it had broken altogether, that had eliminated Quintall’s own conscience and turned his heart to blackness.
Perhaps that is why the demon dactyl found him and embraced him.
What a pity, Uncle Mather. What a waste of potential.
In my years as a ranger, and even before that in the battle for Dundalis, I have killed many creaturesgoblins, powries, giantsyet I shed no tears for them. I considered this fact long and hard in light of my feelings toward the death of Quintall. Were my tears for him nothing more than an elevation of my own race above all others, and if so, is that not the worst kind of pride?
No, and I say that with some confidence, for surely I would cry if cruel fate ever drove my sword against one of the Touel’alfar. Surely I would consider the death of a fallen elf as piteous and tragic as the death of a fallen man.
What then is the difference?
It comes down to a matter of conscience, I believe, for as in humans, perhaps even more so, the Touel’alfar possess the ability, indeed the inclination, to choose a goodly path. Not so with goblins, and certainly not with the vile powries. I am not so sure about the giantsit may be that they are simply too stupid to even understand the suffering their warlike actions bring. In either case, I’ll shed no tears and feel no remorse for any of these monsters that falls prey to Tempest’s cut or to Hawkwing’s bite. By their own evilness do they bring their deaths. They are the creatures of the dactyl, evil incarnate, slaughtering humansand often each otherfor no better reason than the pleasure of the act.
I have had this discussion with Pony, and she posed an interesting scenario. She wondered whether a goblin babe, raised among humans, or among the Touel’alfar in the beauty of Andur’Blough Inninness, would be as vile as its wild kin. Is the evil of such beings a blackness within, ingrained and everlasting, or is it a matter of nurturing?
My friend, your friend, Belli’mar Juraviel, had the answer for her, for indeed his people had long ago taken a goblin child into their enchanted land and raised the creature as if it were kin. As it matured, the goblin was no less vicious and hateful, and no less dangerous than its kin raised in the dark holes of distant mountains. The elves, ever curious, tried the same thing with a powrie child, and the results were even more disastrous.
So I’ll cry not for goblins and powries and giants, Uncle Mather. I shed no tears for creatures of the dactyl. But I do cry for Quintall, who fell into evil ways. I cry for the potential that was lost, for the one terrible choice that pushed him to blackness.
And I think, Uncle Mather, that in crying for Quintall, or for any other human or elf that cruel fate may force me to slay, I am preserving my own humanity.
This is the scar of battle, I fear, that will prove to be the most everlasting.
—ELBRYAN THE NIGHTBIRD
CHAPTER 18
Enemies of the Church
The only magic they carried was a garnet, for detecting the use of the enchanted gemstones, and a sunstone, the antimagic stone. In truth, neither of the pair was very proficient with gemstones, having spent the bulk of their short years in St.-Mere-Abelle in rigorous physical training and in the mental incapacitation necessary for one to truly claim the title of Brother Justice.
The caravan had gone back to the east that morning, while the two monks, changing out of their robes to appear as common peasants, had gone south, to the Palmaris ferry, catching the first of its three daily journeys across the Masur Delaval at the break of dawn. They were in the city by mid-afternoon, and wasted no time in going out to the north, over the wall and not through the gate. By the time the sun was low on the western horizon, Youseff and Dandelion had spotted their first prey, a band of four monstersthree powries and a goblinsetting camp amidst a tumble of boulders less than ten miles from Palmaris. It quickly became obvious to the monks that the goblin was the slave here, for it was doing most of the work, and whenever it slowed in its movements, one of the powries would give it a sharp slap on the back of the head, spurring it to motion. Even more important, the monks noted that the goblin had a rope, a leash, tied about its ankle.
Youseff turned to Dandelion and nodded; they would be able to take advantage of this arrangement.
As the sun was slipping below the horizon, the goblin exited the camp, followed closely by a powrie holding the other end of the rope. In the forest, the goblin began foraging for firewood, while the powrie stood quietly nearby. Youseff and Dandelion, silent as the lengthening shadows, moved into position, the slender monk going up a tree, the heavier Dandelion slipping from trunk to trunk, to close ground on the powrie.
“Yach, hurry it up, ye fool thing!” the powrie scolded, kicking at the leaves and dirt. “Me friends’ll eat all the coney, and there’ll be nothing but bones for me to gnaw!”
The goblin, a truly beleaguered creature, glanced back briefly, then scooped another piece of kindling. “Please, master,” it whined. “Me arms is full and me back is hurtin’ so.”
“Yach, shut yer mouth!” the powrie growled.“Ye’re thinkin’ ye got all ye can carry, but it’s not enough for the night fire. Ye’re wanting me to come all the way back out here? I’ll flog yer skin red, ye smelly wretch!”
Youseff hit the ground right beside the startled powrie, plopping a heavy bag over its head in the blink of a surprised eye. A moment later Dandelion, in full run, slammed the dwarf from behind, hoisting it in a bear hug and taking it on a fast run, face first into the trunk of the nearest tree.
Still the tough powrie struggled, throwing back an elbow into Dandelion’s throat. The big monk hardly noticed, just pressed all the harder, and then, when he saw his companion’s approach, he hooked his arm under the powrie’s and lifted the dwarf’s arm up high, exposing ribs.
Youseff’s dagger thrust was perfectly aimed, sliding between two ribs to pierce the stubborn dwarf’s heart. Dandelion, holding fast the thrashing powrie, managed to free one hand so he could wrap the wound, not wanting too much blood to spill.
Not here.
Youseff, meanwhile, turned to the goblin. “Freedom,” he whispered excitedly, waving his hand for the creature to run away.
The goblin, on the verge of a scream, looked curiously at the human, then at its armload of wood. Shaking from excitement, it tossed the wood to the ground, slipped the rope from its ankle and sped off into the darkening forest.
“Dead?” Youseff asked as Dandelion let the limp powrie slump to the ground.
The big man nodded, then went to tighten the bindings on the wound. It was imperative that no blood would be spilling when the pair returned to Palmaris, and particularly not when they entered St. Precious. Youseff removed the powrie’s weapon, a cruel-looking serrated and hooked blade as long and thick as his forearm, and Dandelion put the dwarf in a heavy, lined sack. With a glance about to make sure the other powries had not caught on to the ambush, they went on their way, running south, the load proving hardly a burden to the powerful Dandelion.
“Should we not have taken the goblin for Connor Bildeborough?” Dandelion asked as they slowed their pace, nearing the city’s north wall.
Youseff considered the question a moment, trying hard not to laugh at the fact that his dim-witted friend had only mentioned it now, more than an hour after they told the goblin to run away. “We need only one,” Youseff assured him. The Father Abbot had made his needs quite clear to Brother Youseff. Any action against Abbot Dobrinion had to either appear as simply an accident or lead suspicion in a direction far removed from Markwart; the implications within the Church should St.-Mere-Abelle seem connected in any way, after all, could prove grave. Connor Bildeborough, though, was not such a problem. If his uncle, the Baron of Palmaris, even suspected the Church in Connor’s demise, he, in his ignorance of the rivalries between the abbeys, would be as likely to blame St. Precious as St.-Mere-Abelle, and even if he did turn his attention to the abbey on All Saints Bay, there would be little, very little, he could do.