Dead Dreams ((Young Adult Paranormal Romance) ( Dead Dreams Trilogy)) (9 page)

Summer was
also awake having sle
pt on the
couch
. S
he looked
at him with tired and worn out eyes.

“
Hey Adam…
Man
you were out of it.
”
She commented.

“
I guess I was strung out
from all the shit that went down
.
”

“
I have
it every minute of
every day
, what’s new?
”
She replied.

“
Me too, are you hungry?
”
Adam said changing the subject.

“
Hell yeh always…
”

Adam
was
concerned
that he had no other clothes or hadn’t
washed since the day before.
He wasn’t used to living from hand to mouth or not having every day hygiene facilities at his fingertips.
Hungry
and dirty
he
walked
the early morning streets with Summer going back to the same hot spots from the night before hoping to find more throw-outs. But
everything they found was
totally inedible.

“
Shit man I need some food now!
”
Summer protested.

“
Don’t freak out we’ll find some, I promise.
”

“
Seriously I need it now, right now!
”

He
couldn’t
understand
why she was freaking out
,
after eating so much the night before
gorging away like she’d
not eaten for a week
.
Now she was
acting as if she’d
been starved.

“
Summer stop screaming and yelling
I
’l
l get something.
”
Adam insisted.

Stuck
with
wandering
in the worse part of the city
he was
irritated as hell
to
have
be
en
landed with a bratty hysterical female. Her
crazy
behaviour
was
going un-noticed by the faceless people going b
y, a
welcome reaction as Adam became
more frustrated by her ramblings.

“
Food food I need fucking food
!
”

“
Shut your g
od dam mouth!
”

“
Screw you loser!
”

With that she stormed
off leaving Adam to search
the bins.

To hell with her
and…
I can find a better place to hang out in than that filthy
shitty
apartment full of weirdo’s.’

He was feeling let down,
as if he’d been pushed back to square one. B
ut
he
couldn’t deny
that there was something very
different about Summer
Haze
and underneath the anger and frustration he was disappointed she’d
run off.

There was only one thing left to do
, not being able to face going back to nasty Nick and odd
ball Rone
he turned
and walked
in
the opposite
direction only to hear frantic footsteps behind him.
It was Summer
.

“
Adam where are you going? I’m
so
sorry for blowing up.
”
She said
looking shamefully guilty.

“
I’m not going back to that dump,
you can come with me if you want.
”
He replied firmly.

“
Where to
exactly,
where are you going
?
”

“
I won’t know till I get there.
”

The two of them
start walking with
Adam’s mind racing about
which
direction to take.

“
You know what?
”
He says stopping in his tracks,
“
I should’ve jumped off the bridge when I had the chance.
”

“
Then why didn’t you?
”
She replied.

“
I don’t know what stopped me and I regret it now.
”

They continue
d
to walk, the discu
ssion
why Adam didn’t jump
forgotten as they continue
d
to wander
aimlessly not know what they were
searching for or where they’re going. Luck finds them when passing by a bakery they go a
round the back to see if there was
anything to be had. Opening the lid of the first bin Summer
found
bread and pastries
stuck together
in bits. Diving
in she helped herself and began
to eat ferociously ri
ght there ignoring Adam’s shock,

“
Take it easy,
”
He said.
“
You’ll make yourself sick.
”

“
That’s the whole point.
”

“
What do you mean?
”

“
You’ll see.
”
She replied.

Less than five minutes after devouring
as much as she could
she ran
behind
a bin out of sight.
Putting
her fingers down her throat
she forced
herself to throw up.

“
I don’t believe this!
”
Adam said in disgust keeping his distance.

He’d
failed to
notice
that the night before after eating
she
’d excused herself and ra
n to the bathroom
The
fact that he
now had a bulimic on his hands didn’t sit well at all. Selfish by nature
there wasn’t
any room for those
in t
rouble and his first instinct was
to dump her and move on, somehow she
wasn’t
so attractive anymore, in his eyes
she’d
become repulsive.

“
Screw this.
”
He says turning to walk away.

“
Please don’t
leave me Adam…please!
”
She begged
.

She
had
crawled out from behind the bin on all fours wiping her mouth and with tears
streaming down her face
pleading
with
him to understand
. Unfortunately she wasn’t
in the co
mpany of someone who understood
. Empathy was something Adam lost when his Father died. H
er pleas fell
on deaf ears and the more she t
ried
the more distant and irritated
Adam became.

“
You know what.
”
He said.
“I’m
outta here and I think you should go your own way too, I don’t need some psycho
holding me up
.
”

“
Oh and you’re not a head case wanting to kill yourself?
”

“
It’s different.
”

“
How’s it different? We’re both messed up big
time, we’re the same you and me. D
amaged
goods
.
”
She replied defending herself.

“
I don’t make myself sick.
”

“
No, you just wanna jump off bridges!
”

Summer had a point, both of them had
serious issues and for once in his life Adam
was faced with someone who mirrored his own troubled world
.
She felt his
judgement
on her
was totally unfair considering his on-going fixation with dying.

“
I’m cold.
”
She said
rubbing her bare arms.

Adam reluctantly put
his arms around her snake-thin body, not something he was ever used to doing, comforting
someone
,
and he couldn’t work out why he was doing it for someone he was so mad at. Maybe it was
because
feeling
lost and confused
left
him with a strong feeling of vulnerability. ‘
Dad
where are you
?
’ He begged
.
But there was only silence.
He
was
fearful
that when he needed his dad
the most
he wasn’t there
and
he didn’t
want to think for a moment
that he’d
abandoned him.