Dating A British Billionaire (BWWM Romance) (7 page)

Nisha

Something was off with Ed. I could just feel the tension in his lips when he kissed me and in his arms as he ushered me into yet another hidden Italian restaurant on the Southbank. I would have wondered out loud about this. I would have asked him what was on his mind, but the truth was that my mind was so packed with worries that if I tried to stuff anything else into it, I might have exploded. As we were shown to our seat, my mind wandered back to Valerie and my mother. I had been working less to account for my time with Ed, but paying more to have Valerie watched all the nights that I had to be out. Mother was less than satisfied; less than pleased. But what could I do? I had been sucked so deeply into this fairytale world that I could hardly imagine a way out of it.

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Edward

Something was off with Nisha. I could feel the tension in her smile, the shadow behind her brilliant eyes. There was a frown hidden behind her every smile and her radiant skin held wrinkles of worry. I ushered her into her seat, but instead of taking mine, I got on one knee. My heart was pounding against my chest, but I knew that if I hesitated just a moment longer, I would never do it, and then I might have regretted it for my entire life. So I said, “Nisha Johnson, will you marry me?”

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Nisha

It was beyond my wildest imagination. My prince wanted to make me a princess. He was proving his love with the oval cut diamond he had presented me with. His eyes were wide and earnest, almost tearing. Pleading. Every fiber in my brain was telling me to say no; that there was no way this could possibly work; that I couldn’t even trust him with my deepest, darkest secret. But my heart: my heart had swelled in my chest and butterflies flew around in my stomach like it was a miniature garden. So I went against all reason, and I said, “Yes.”

Chapter 11 – Nisha

Two bottles of wine later, we were stumbling into my apartment. I wasn’t sure if it was the cloud of drunkenness, or the weight of the ring on my finger, but I was distracted. As the door shut behind me, slamming back into place, the sound of it echoing through my densely packed, empty apartment. A small voice in the back of my head told me that he shouldn’t have been there; we shouldn’t have been doing this. But I didn’t listen.

I didn’t care. “I love you,” I whispered, wrapping my arms around him.

I felt his hands resting on my waist as he kissed me, his scruff scratching against my cheek. I leaned into him, arching my back and holding on to him like my life depended on it. As we stood there snuggling in my kitchen, it felt as if we no longer existed as two different people. I felt just as much him as I did myself. He pried my lips open with his tongue. I felt the sharp, hard muscle in my mouth, urging me on. We somehow managed to work our way down my short hallway and into my living room. As soon as our feet hit the Persian rug I had picked up at a thrift shop in Camden, he grabbed my thighs and hoisted me up.

I was more a part of him than ever. I was literally flying, impervious to gravity, to pain. I trusted him with every fiber of my being, with every neuron in my mind. How could he betray me? How could he hurt me? We were one and the same and nothing, absolutely nothing, could diminish what we had. With the power of a lion, but the grace of a gazelle, he managed to lower himself onto the couch and me onto him. A little voice in the back of my head silently thanked God that I had not gone with the floor length gown that I had been pondering all afternoon.

He was the most comfortable seat I had ever sat in and looking down at him, he looked the most vulnerable, yet powerful that I had ever seen him. His eyes glistened in the moonlight and his mouth, framed by the stubble of his growing beard hung slightly ajar, as if he meant to drink me in through the air. “I love you too,” He replied.

I could smell the after-dinner liquor on his breath and it only made me want him more. I leaned down and kissed him, my skin practically melting at his touch as his hands explored every part of my body. I could feel his fingers tracing my every rib, before moving on to the folds of cloth that covered my waist. He fiddled with my dress before simply slipping his hands under it. I wrapped my legs tightly around him and clutched at his thick head of hair.

His kisses travelled from my lips to my jaw and down my neck. My eyes flashed wide open at the sensation of his lips suckling my skin. I could feel the warmth of his breath and his decisive tongue in there somewhere, tracing circles all over my neck.

I grabbed a chunk of his hair and drew his head back, pressing my own lips against the taut skin. I could almost feel him shuddering beneath me. His hands, which remained wrapped around my waist, grew softer, becoming mere whispers as I began to feel a distinctive hardening beneath me. I rubbed against his bulge, the wetness between my own legs seeping through the dress.

In one swift movement, he ripped the straps of my dress off of my shoulders, letting them slowly fall down my arms. He pressed his nose against my shoulder, taking a huge whiff of me. I completely wrapped myself around him, as tightly as I could. As close as possible wasn’t close enough. In the next moment, I could feel his lips on my chest. He massaged me there, his fingers flicking me, driving me mad with desire.

I drew his head back, smothering him with a kiss. My fingers worked quickly to unbutton him, my hands pressing inside of his smooth Gucci shirt to the hairy chest underneath. He bit his lip as he squeezed my bum, the painful pleasure ringing through my muscles. “This couch is great,” he said as his lips found their way back to my neck. I was squirming under his touch, my nerves standing on end from the mere sensation of it all. “But do you have a bed?”

I giggled at this, glancing down at him as his head dipped back to my chest. “Of course I have a bedroom, Ed,” I muttered.

“Wonderful.” With that, he grabbed my legs, standing up again with me in his arms and carried me across the parlor and down the hall.

“Do you even know where you are going?” I asked, the second time we stumbled into a wall.

“I am a master at special reasoning.”

I giggled at this as he finally succeeded in getting us into my bedroom. He stopped right by my bed, and as I climbed out of his arms, I internally kicked myself for picking that day not to dress my bed, but settled with the fact that he probably wouldn’t even notice, much less care.

My hands finished off the rest of his buttons, slipping his shirt out of his pants. He stood there kissing me on every spare part of my face as I went to work, unbuckling his belt, undoing his button and pulling down his pants. His bulge poked right through his Calvin Klein boxers, the tent forming a shadow on my aged, hardwood floor. I wanted all of him, inside of all of me.

Driven by drunkenness, motivated by love, I dropped down to my knees, peeled off his boxers, and took him into my mouth. His sigh floated through the air, penetrating my ears as my mouth stretched to encompass all of him. I could feel his large hands, his heavy fingers on my shoulders, in my hair, egging me on. My eyeliner had smudged, my lips were swollen, but I had never been happier in my life.

“Come here, love,” he whispered, drawing me up from the ground. He took my head in both of his hands and pressed his lips against mine. Our essence slipped all over our faces and my legs split, my skirt hiking up as his hard manhood slipped in between my thighs.

In the next moment, I was on my back on my bed and his body was pressing onto mine. His meaty arms, his smooth back, the cuts of his muscles, the tufts of hair: it all drove me mad. He stood at the edge of the bed and ripped off my dress. I was so mesmerized by the taste of him in my mouth, by the glow of his skin in the moonlight, to care what happened to my dress.

I grunted as he pressed himself on my now-naked body. It felt so warm, so right. I spread my legs, allowing him to fit neatly on top of me. My jaw swung open, my eyes flashing wide and my gasp filling the night air as he shoved himself inside of me. My entire body shuddered at the sensation of his hard manhood inside of my sex. My legs locked him in as he thrust in and out. In and out. I grabbed his neck, my arms pressing him down on top of me until there wasn’t a single space of air between our bodies.

We were one in the same.

I clenched my legs and he yielded, rolling under me. I pressed my hands onto his shoulders as I hopped up and down, his hands spotting my lower body. I could feel him pressing right up against me in the most perfect way, my nails digging into his skin, my fists slamming against his chest. “Oh God,” I whispered.

He slapped my bum, his hips slamming up against mine as I collapsed on top of him. His hands squeezed me as we both plummeted towards our orgasm. My toes curled, my hands squeezed into fists and a screech slipped out of my mouth as he shuddered underneath me.

“Oh.”

“Oh.”

I rolled off of him, my head finding a perfect place to nestle, right above his armpits. We held hands. And then we slowly drifted off.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Chapter 12 – Nisha

I woke up to a splitting headache… and to pounding. When I rolled over, my body hit another. I opened one eye at a time, to find Edward lying right next to me, his right hand stretched towards me and his left placed on his chest, just so, as if planted there by the meticulous director of an art film. A smile played on the edges of my lips… before the knocking continued. As I stumbled out of bed, trying my best to fight through the headache, the light sensitivity and my burning throat, I labored to wrap my head around who could possibly be at my door this early on a Sunday morning. “Coming!” I yelled in my hoarse voice as soon as I had shut the bedroom door behind me.

As the knocking continued, I failed to catch a grip on what was going on. I failed to even remember what the date was.

“Nisha! Open this door!”

“Grandma! People are sleeping.”

Oh God. I stopped dead in my tracks, staring at my locked door and the family I had never even told my new fiancé about. My headache got that much worse. It felt like my own brain was banging against the inside of my head. “Oh fuck,” I whispered, my eyes prickling with the promise of tears as I struggled to figure out what the hell I was thinking, getting engaged to someone without telling them about my daughter; without meeting my daughter. I already felt like shit and my mother hadn’t even had a chance to discover what I had been lying to her about.

There it was again: the knocking.

I made a sad attempt to swallow the lump in my throat before I travelled the remaining steps to my door and pulled it open.

There she was, my mother in her morning dress and my daughter in the same clothes I had put on her the day before. My heart dropped, like a useless rock into the pit of my stomach as I stared into her dejected eyes with my doubtlessly bloodshot ones. I was suddenly hyperaware of my scent, no doubt a cross between something like bourbon, red wine and sex, my dry, stained lips, my smudged makeup and the oversized t-shirt I had thrown on in the middle of the night when I got up to use the bathroom. I was supposed to come by and pick her up. I always came back for her at the end of my nights.

But I had gotten drunk and forgotten. “Oh, Valerie,” I whispered.

I had hardly gotten those words out of my mouth when I heard footsteps from behind me.

“What on earth…” my mother started to ask as she eyed me up and down. Then, her eyes went wide as she gazed past me.

I turned to find Edward, my fiancé, my prince, standing right in front of all of us, wearing nothing but his Calvin Klein boxers. His well-maintained body glowed warm in the morning light, but his muscles were tense, from head to toe as he stared right into my mother’s eyes.

“I want to die,” I mumbled.

Mother shifted her gaze back to me, her eyes cutting holes right through me. I turned to meet her stare, the force of it cutting right through to my insides. “I’ll take Valerie out for brunch, while you sort out your…” she eyes Edward up and down one more time before adding, “Issues…” With that, she shifted her gaze to Valerie who was staring distrustfully at Edward. I frowned at this. Already, Edward had been painted as the strange man who had invaded her home to her and this was the worst way I could have imagined them crossing paths.

“Come on, Valerie.” My mother took her hand, walked her right back out into the hall then shut the door behind the both of them.

It wasn’t until the sound of the slamming wood resonating had faded away that I realized I hadn’t actually wanted them to leave. Now that I was alone with Edward, there were no more buffers to his anger. I turned to face him. His jaw was set, lips were pursed and he looked as if he had not moved an inch since he first laid eyes on my mother and daughter. In all the time I had spent with him, I had never seen him this angry. I shuddered to think that I was the cause of it. “I’ll uhm…make us some coffee.” I stepped into my small kitchen and started the process of brewing coffee.