Dark Debts (13 page)

Cathy returned with a small bottle of aspirin and a Dixie cup full of water.

“I'm only givin' you these if you swallow 'em like a normal human. It makes my skin crawl when you chew 'em.”

She put the cup down on the table and handed him the bottle. He shook a few pills into his palm.

“How many are you takin'?”

He looked at her. “I don't know. How many do I have permission to take?”

“I don't understand why you refuse to get a prescription. It couldn't be any worse than livin' on aspirin.”

He popped four into his mouth and made a big display of chewing them.

Cathy made a face. “Thank you.”

“Spite is my natural reaction to nagging.” He handed the bottle back to her.

“No, keep it. You might get hungry later on.”

She moved behind him and began to massage his temples, which surprised him, given the tense undercurrent since he'd walked in the door. He closed his eyes, tossing her the olive branch of letting her know it felt good.

“How did you know where it hurts?” he asked.

“I know all your headaches. The press always gets you right here.”

She was right, which was amazing, since it had been years since he'd had any problems with the press. But then, Cathy had been through the thick of it, so it probably shouldn't surprise him that she remembered. (The day of Tallen's execution, she had chased a reporter from the
Atlanta Constitution
off Lucy's front porch with a baseball bat. Called him a “selfish, insensitive, chickenshit jackass.” It made the front page, in a sanitized form.)

He could smell her perfume. She'd always had a knack for finding cheap perfume that didn't smell like cheap perfume. Still, hers paled in comparison to the memory of Randa's, which had been light and crisp and—he'd bet money—French. Reminded him of the perfumes he used to smell on the women at the Ritz-Carlton—the ones who dripped Chanel. It had been off-putting then, the scent of a wall he'd never scale. But without the Chanel and the jewelry and the hair that wouldn't move in a wind tunnel, the effect was different. French perfume on a woman wearing faded jeans and a baggy sweater was an alluring incongruity.

Cathy's voice saved him from his thoughts. “It doesn't make any sense.”

“What?”

“That Cam would kill himself. He was always the survivor.”

Jack opened his eyes. “You don't think I'm a survivor?”

“I guess that depends on your definition of survivin'.”

Jack refused the bait. “I don't know why he killed himself. What difference does it make?”

She shrugged. “I just always thought Cam was safe.”

“Yeah, well. Nobody's safe.” He hadn't told her about the liquor store thing, not wanting to endure the barrage of theories sure to follow. In fact, he'd only told her about Cam's death at all because it would hit the local paper sooner or later, and she'd be insulted if she hadn't heard it from him first.

She moved away, back to the sink. She leaned against it, facing him. The look on her face made him feel like he was in the crosshairs of a deer rifle.

“Was she pretty?”

Damn. How had he given himself away? He picked up the Dixie cup and drank the water slowly.

“Jack?”

He put the cup down. “Yeah, for a bloodsucking, lying, scheming, self-obsessed journalist who dragged me to a bar, I suppose she was pretty.”

He looked at the clock on the wall above the sink. It was almost midnight. “I should go home.”

“You've been sayin' that ever since you got here. Why don't you go home?”

He didn't answer. He didn't know how to tell her, and it was getting to the point where he'd have no choice.

“Jack?”

He stared at the table. She sat down in the chair across from him.

“Jack, what is wrong?” Her voice was full of concern that he knew was genuine. He continued to rack his brain for a way to go from
A
to
C
without passing
B
. After a long moment, he looked at her and shook his head. “It's crazy—”

“What?”

“The stupid dreams—” He had told her about the dreams yesterday, although not in any kind of detail. There was no way to describe them that did them justice.

“What about them?”

“They're not just bad dreams. Not like nightmares. They're like—” He shook his head again.

“What?”

“I don't know.” There was no use trying to explain. He didn't understand it himself. He might as well get the worst behind him. “Can I stay here tonight?”

She gave him a look that was about what he'd expected. “Jack . . .”

“To
sleep.
”

“I can't keep you from havin' bad dreams.”

“I know that.”

“Then what's the point?”

He couldn't believe she needed to ask. Maybe she just wanted to hear it out loud. Hell, he'd give her that.

“I don't want to be alone.”

She looked at him like she was waiting for the punch line; then, realizing there wasn't going to be one, she shifted to thinking out loud.

“All right . . .” she said, weighing it carefully. “As long as you stay on your side of the bed.”

“Scout's honor.”

“So, Jack . . . what are we solvin'? I mean, what are you gonna do
tomorrow
night?”

“I don't know. How long are they gonna be in the woods?”

“I'm serious.”

“So am I.” He smiled a little. She didn't return it. “What's wrong?”

She sighed, shook her head a little, finally spoke. “You never once slept here when I asked you to, you know? When
I
needed
you
.”

It landed where it was thrown. He waited a couple of respectful seconds, then decided he should at least go through the motions of defending himself.

“Look, you know—”

“Don't, Jack. Save it for somebody who doesn't know it by heart.” She got up and left the room.

H
e sat bolt upright in bed and reached for Cathy in the dark, but he was alone. He could hear the sound of the TV in the other room, and a dog howling in the distance. He took deep breaths and waited for his heartbeat to slow down.

The dream had been the same as last time, only more vivid. He could still see the hag-woman's face. He could still feel her hands around his throat, her thumbnails piercing the skin on his neck. He could remember the putrid smell of her sour breath. He half expected to see her step out of the shadows. He looked around the room, though he didn't know what he was looking for.

He lay back down and closed his eyes, trying to clear his head. He felt foggy and disoriented, as if he'd
left
reality instead of returning to it. Or like he'd come back from someplace far away—farther away than a person's mind could travel in a dream. It didn't make any sense, yet the feeling was strong. He felt drained by it.

The headache was throbbing. He pulled himself to his feet and went to look for the bottle of aspirin Cathy had given him. Cathy glanced up from the TV.

“What's wrong?” He shook his head and headed for the bathroom. “Did you have a bad dream?”

“It didn't kill me. Don't worry about it.” He went into the bathroom and closed the door. He didn't care if she knew he was annoyed, even if he had no right to be. To him, it had been implicit in the unspoken deal that she would go to bed when he did, to be there if he woke up. He had offered her a rare glimpse of his vulnerability, and she had opted for Jay Leno.

He popped a couple of aspirin, then turned on the cold water and splashed it on his face until he felt better. He wiped his face on a towel without bothering to take it off the towel rack, then looked in the mirror, as if to check for damage.

What the hell?

On his neck, just where he had felt her thumbnails, were small red crescents, surrounded by a cluster of purple bruises. He blinked hard, then leaned closer to the mirror. They were still there. He touched one of the crescents and could feel a slight indentation.

Suddenly he felt a hand on his back. He gasped and swung around wildly, almost knocking Cathy over. She jumped out of the way. “Jesus, Cathy!”

“I'm sorry. I thought you saw me.”

He closed his eyes and winced as a pain shot through his head, sharp and hot. He felt Cathy's hand on his shoulder. Her skin felt cool against his. He shook his head and she pulled her hand away.

“Are you okay?”

He opened his eyes, slowly, and looked at her. “You're not going to believe this.”

“What?”

He was surprised she hadn't already noticed. He pointed to his neck.

“What?” she asked again.

Maybe he wasn't pointing to the right place. He turned and looked in the mirror.

Nothing. He put his hand to his neck. “They're gone.”

“What's gone?” she insisted impatiently.

He looked at her. What was he supposed to say?
A witch-woman tried to choke me in my dream and it left marks on my neck; they're gone now, but you have to believe me.

He shook his head. “Nothing.”

He moved past her, trying to look annoyed, like it was her fault she didn't see anything. He slammed the door to the bedroom—not hard, just enough to keep her from following him. He made it to the bed before his legs gave way.

What the hell was going on? Had he still been asleep when he saw the marks? Hell, no! He'd been wide awake. Then what had he seen? He must have made the marks himself. He'd somehow pressed his own hands on his neck so hard that even his bitten-down-to-the-quick nails had made the marks. And somehow they'd vanished before Cathy could see them. That had to be it. Might not hold up to a lot of scrutiny, but it was stone solid compared to the alternatives.

He lay down in hopes of calming the pain in his head. It had spread from his temples to the base of his skull, as if someone were tightening a steel band. He definitely had to do something about the damned headaches. They were getting worse, along with the dreams. He felt he was under siege. Maybe Cathy was right. Maybe it was time to break down and trek to Atlanta in search of someone with a couch and a prescription pad. Unloading the family secrets couldn't be any worse than this. (Although he could just imagine his first visit.
Let's see. There were four brothers, three with impressive criminal records, which, by the way, includes me. One brother was executed by the state of Alabama. One supposedly drowned, although I've long suspected that my father killed him. My father killed himself, which was the only good thing he ever did for the world. My brother the token success story just killed himself, but first he had a nervous breakdown and killed someone else. My mother was basically psychotic and delusional by the time she died, and, oh yeah, she killed herself, too. Me, I've never had the guts to kill myself, but I'm working on it. I haven't been to a therapist before now because I didn't think I needed it.
)

The lighted dial on the clock by the bed said 1:10, which meant Cathy would probably be watching the stupid television for at least another twenty minutes. He'd just have to stare at the ceiling and think. Not something he relished, but he didn't have any other choice.

Something moved.

He raised his head and looked in the direction of the movement.

There's something there.

In the corner, by the dresser. It wasn't really a
thing
so much as a
shape
, but it was moving—a constant, fluid motion. Swirling. It was colorless—shades of black, somehow. The darkest parts were a vile black, like wet tar; and yet it was transparent. Looking at it was like staring through gasoline vapors.

Jack closed his eyes tightly, then opened them. It was still there. It was floating now, slowly, across the floor, still swirling within itself. For reasons that made no sense, he had the strange sensation it was
watching
him.

It knows who I am.

It was moving toward him, slowly but steadily. He opened his mouth to call Cathy, but the dry scream lodged in his throat, making it even harder to breathe.

And then it was gone.

Gone. It didn't dissolve. It simply wasn't there anymore. He turned his head enough to make sure the room was empty, although he knew without looking. The air around him was warm.

Oh, God . . . What was it? What
was
it?

His mind grasped furiously for an explanation. There was only one.

It didn't happen.

Of course it happened. Why am I shaking?

You think it was there, but it wasn't. Just like the marks on your neck.

Screw the marks on my neck! There was something in here just now! I saw it!

Right.

I'd swear on my life!

That's just what Mom used to say.

He could feel a mist of cold sweat on his chest and his forehead. He forced himself to stand and reached for his jeans from the back of the chair. He pulled them on. His hands were trembling so, he could barely zip them up.

There was a tap on the door, then Cathy pushed it open. “Jack?”

He couldn't look at her. He kept dressing.

“Jack, what is goin' on?”

“Nothing,” he said quietly. He was losing his mind. It was that stark and that simple. Cathy came over and put her arms around him; kissed him on the shoulder, a gesture that was far too intimate for him in his current state. He pulled away from her.

“Sorry,” she said, under her breath. She was too used to it to be offended.

I'm losing my mind. Isn't
that
just perfect?

He reached for his shirt.