“Another time.”
He admitted to himself that it was tempting. Invite his wife inside and take up where they’d left off. Pretend the past year had never happened. There was a time not so long ago that he would have done anything to have her back. It hadn’t even mattered that she’d left him for another man. He hadn’t known how he was going to spend the rest of his life without her in it. She seemed to read his mind.
Her fingers traced along his forearm. The heat flickered like a pilot light in his belly. He looked down at her. Her blue eyes were wide-open, shining beacons.
She let her hand rest on his forearm. “Would it help if I told you I know I screwed up? I know you have every right to be angry with me, but I’ve changed. Being away from you made me realize how good we were together, what I’d thrown away by being so stupid. I was scared at the thought of a family, but now I’m ready to have a baby, Paul. I’d like to settle down and make a family. I’m done with all the rest.”
He wanted to believe her. He’d been the one who’d wanted a child but she’d refused so many times, he’d given up on the idea. Now she was offering the only thing that could get him back into the marriage. Was this what he wanted? Could he trust her again?
“Let me sleep on it,” he said finally. “I need some time, Fiona.”
She reached up her hand and touched his cheek with the tips of her fingers. “I owe you that, I guess. When you’re finished thinking it through, I’ll be waiting with the wine chilled. This time I won’t be going anywhere. It’s time I came home.”
Three calls later, Gail stood up from her desk and stretched her arms toward the ceiling. The last caller was a first-year biology major whose girlfriend left him on the weekend. He’d drunk himself into a depression and was thinking about dropping out of school. She’d convinced him to seek a counsellor, or at least he’d said he would call the number she gave him. She’d done all she could.
Pleasure spread through her veins like warm treacle. Damn, she was good at this job. There was something about the anonymity of the calls that kept her from feeling judged and let her say things she never would say face to face. The pain at the other end of the line was something she’d lived. She said the comforting things to them that she would have liked someone to have said to her on those days she’d thought about killing herself in high school.
She looked across at the clock on the wall and saw it was going on eight-thirty. Where had the evening gone? Her eyes swung back to the empty desk across from her. And where the hell was Wolf? He’d become unreliable after he broke up with Leah, mooning around as if they were still a couple. Now he was all but lost in action.
Something cracked like a gunshot against the front door. Gail jumped at the noise, banging her knee against the desk. Her eyes swung toward the door and her mind started scrambling as she remembered that she hadn’t checked the lock.
She took a step toward the door, then moved back to her desk and searched around in the drawer until her hand wrapped around a pair of scissors. She pulled them out and started back toward the door, walking as silently as she could across the floor. The detached, rational part of her thought about how ridiculous she was being, but the scared part of her was running the show.
She reached the door and held up her hand to test the handle. Slowly, slowly, she levered it down until it wouldn’t move any farther. Relief made her weak. She let out her breath and slumped backwards against the wall. Nate had remembered after all. She was locked safely inside and whatever had hit the door was likely thrown by a passing student. She laughed at her fear of a moment before and pushed herself forward from the wall.
A sharp knock on the door behind her stopped Gail mid-stride. Her heart jumped like a frightened rabbit and she shrieked. She swung her fist up to her mouth and stifled a second scream. Once she got her emotions under control, she tiptoed back to the door and leaned her ear against the wood. The solid feel against her skin gave her strength.
“Is that you, Wolf?” she asked. No answer. “Wolf?” she yelled.
A man’s voice penetrated the door. “Yes,” he said and she let her breath out in one long sigh. Wolf had shown up after all. Damn the man for scaring her … and for being so late.
She grabbed the key from its hook on the wall and inserted it to unlock the deadbolt. Mark had set this system up against the wishes of the group. It took a key to lock the door from the outside and a key to open from the inside. Mark swore it was fail-safe, even after they raised concerns about fire. “The key will always be right here next to the door,” he’d said. “You can put it into the lock at the ready if it makes you feel more secure.”
Her hand hesitated for a moment as it crossed her mind that she hadn’t exactly recognized Wolf’s voice through the door. It might even have been a woman talking in a low voice if she was being honest. She could ask Wolf to identify himself again, but he’d think she was crazy. After all, who else could it possibly be? She pulled down on the handle.
“You’re late, Wolf man,” she said swinging the door open. She expected to see his hairy face and was momentarily startled that nobody was standing on the top step. “Where are you?” she called, getting royally pissed off at the infantile hide and seek game, as she took a step outside. She craned her neck to look down the street. It was eerily empty, dark shadows between the buildings. She hesitated. The hair on the back of her neck stood on end. She began to tremble in the cool evening air.
This didn’t feel right.
Something clicked behind her and she began to turn. “Not funny, Wol …” her words were cut short by a
whoosh
of movement and lights as the raised brick smashed into the back of her skull. Her neck snapped forward and her teeth clamped together, cutting into her tongue. Blinding pain radiated from the back of her head the split second before her world went black. The force of the impact toppled her unconscious body onto the concrete steps like a sack of cement, where she lay with her head hanging over the edge, her arms and legs wantonly splayed. The scissors dropped into a hyacinth bush directly below. Mercifully, she didn’t feel a thing when her face banged against the concrete as she was dragged back inside and rolled with a kick against the wall. Nor did she offer any resistance when her arms and legs were pulled back and she was hog-tied and left like a trussed-up chicken until the cleaner’s arrival at six-thirty the following morning.
Chapter Twenty-Five
I
t felt like Kala had just closed her eyes when the alarm broke through her beautiful dream. The beautiful dream had been coming on the nights when she was overtired like a returning old friend. In the land between sleep and awake, she was ten years old again and running in her deerskin moccasins down a dirt path through the woods near Birdtail Creek where Lily waited for her by the river. The running always took up a good part of the dream, and tonight was no exception. When she finally reached Lily, their conversation was always the same.
“You’re late, but I told you I’d wait for you, Sun.” In the dream, they used the childhood names they’d given each other. Lily crouched down and lit a cigarette, blowing smoke toward the river and squinting at something on the far bank. She wore her old buckskin jacket and her hair hung in two black braids half-way down her back.
Kala dropped down next to Lily and hugged her knees to her chest. “I had trouble finding you. I’ve been running and running.”
“Well, now you’ve found me.” Lily’s mocking smile turned in her direction and it changed into her happy one — the smile she seldom used. Her eyes turned old. “I have a daughter now, Sun. I named her Dawn, after you. She’s the best thing I ever did. I want you both to meet soon.”
“I want to meet her too.”
“Family, Sun. We’re family, and no matter where me and Dawn go, that won’t change.”
“You’ll come back for me, Lil?”
“You know I will. You can bet your life on it.”
Kala leaned her head against Lily’s shoulder and they sat silently in the falling autumn leaves until the darkness made Lily’s face shadow over and recede into graininess, like a movie camera pulling back.
Kala reached over and slammed down on the clock’s alarm button. She rolled onto her side and opened her eyes, watching the morning sunlight stream through the open window and letting the warm feeling from the dream settle into her for a few moments. This was as much of Lily as she would ever have, this fuzzy childhood memory from their lives on the rez some eighteen years ago mixed up with the present. Their reunion as adults half a year earlier had ended as quickly as it had materialized. Lily had disappeared with Dawn and left no forwarding address, but Kala would search no more. Their spirits would have to meet again in another world. The dream was nature’s way of helping her to accept that.
Kala slipped out of the covers and padded naked to the bathroom, leaving Taiku spread sleeping across the foot of the bed. She turned on the faucets and let the water run hot before she stepped into the shower. She stood in its steaming stream as she washed her hair and soaped her body. Afterwards she dressed in clean jeans and a white blouse, leaving her shoulder-length hair loose to dry.
“Come, Taiku,” she called. “Time to rise and shine.”
Taiku raised his head from his paws and jumped from the bed, leading her out of the bedroom. They went downstairs into the kitchen. Kala started a pot of coffee and put on Marjory’s sweater from the rack near the back door before stepping outside onto the deck. She and Taiku walked across the lawn down to the river’s edge. Clouds had moved in overnight and the sun was hidden behind grey skies. A stiff wind crashed waves against the shoreline. Kala shivered and buttoned the sweater before following Taiku down to the narrow strip of beach, sidestepping the waves slurping up on the sand and rocks. They walked to the far point where Kala stopped to skip stones across the waves.
“Look at that, Taiku. Six skips. I’m becoming unbeatable.”
Taiku sat down next to her, his tongue lolling out one side of his mouth, and looked out at the lake as if he was thinking over her words. She laughed and bent down to scratch his head. “Let’s head home then and get you some breakfast.”
The wind was against them walking back and she thought about the cup of hot coffee waiting for her. She even had enough time to toast a bagel to go with it. Still a half hour of peace before she had to meet Gundersund.
They were climbing up the short embankment onto the grass when she spotted him sitting on the stairs of the deck. Her heart gave a jump for which she mentally kicked herself. She would not let the man mean more to her than he should, even if there was something about him that made her happy to see him.
Gundersund stood at her approach and his eyes found hers. He started across the lawn to meet her half way. She noticed that his hair was wet, slicked back from his forehead. He’d missed a dab of shaving cream on his cheek, all speaking to a rushed exit. He was dressed much like her in jeans and a light-blue denim shirt under a windbreaker. What she could see of the shirt looked wrinkled.
“I thought we agreed to meet at Tadesco’s office?” Her voice came out gruff, but he didn’t seem to notice.
“Trouble, Stonechild. We have to get to the help line centre instead. I tried to call, but when you didn’t answer your phone, I thought I’d better come over to get you.”
“I left my cell inside while we took our morning walk. Sorry. What happened?”
“The cleaner found a staff member unconscious when he opened up this morning. Somebody smashed her head in from behind and tied her up. She’s in bad shape.”
“Which one?”
“The girl with the tattoos. Gail Pankhurst.”
“Damn.” Kala wondered what she’d missed. Could she have prevented this? She had to put the guilty thoughts away. “I never had a chance to interview Gail yesterday. Looks like Leah Sampson’s death is somehow linked to the help line.”
“It’s looking that way.”
“Della Munroe also smashed in Brian’s head from behind. I wonder if that means anything.”
“I thought of that too. But Della didn’t tie her husband up and tear apart his office.”
“They were searching for something?”
“Apparently. Rouleau’s going to meet us there.”
Kala nodded and started past him. “Let me get Taiku some food and I’ll be ready to go. Looks like we’re about to have another long, messy day.” She stopped and moved a step back toward him. “Two young women. What do they know that somebody is willing to kill them for?”
“It could be Leah’s secret boyfriend. He might be desperate to keep the affair from being exposed.”
“Someone said that Gail Pankhurst kept notes about her coworkers. You might be onto something. The fact both women work at the help line could be a red herring as far as the motive goes.”
“We should also consider that the two attacks aren’t connected.”
“What do you think the odds of that are?”
“Low, but still needs considering.”
Kala thought for a moment. “You haven’t mentioned the other option.”
“Which is?”
“Somebody phoned in information anonymously and Leah threatened to reveal what they told her. Maybe they’d done something so horrific that she was willing to break the code of silence.”
She could see the skepticism in his face. “I don’t know how she could have exposed anyone since they never identify themselves.”
Kala accepted his doubt without protest and started up the steps after Taiku, but her mind was turning over possibilities. At the top, she stopped again and turned to face him. “What if she recognized their voice? What if she let on she knew who the caller was and they had to make sure she never told anybody what they’d done?”
Gundersund looked up at her. She could see him thinking about what she’d said. His voice came out harsh in the morning’s silence. “Then whatever it is they’re trying to hide must be pretty damn awful if they’re willing to kill two women to make sure it never sees the light of day.”
Chapter Twenty-Six