Conflicted (Secrets and Lies) (28 page)

"Bri, you've been telling me all along that I need to make a choice. That's what I'm doing tonight. I'm following my heart and it's telling me that I want this with him. I can't handle trying to contain everything that happens inside of me whenever he's around any longer. I'm going to explode soon and it's not going to be pretty if I do."

She sighed. "I want you to be happy but I need to ask something of you in exchange."

I raised my hands to the sides in a dramatic fashion. "What do you want from me?"

"I want you to make a
real
choice. If you're going to have a relationship with Ethan, you aren't going to be able to work with him and dig around for damaging information on his company. It will destroy you. Harrison's offer dictates that you find out as much as possible so that he can print his piece. You can't have both. I want you to pick one and let go of the other within the next week," Bri demanded with a hard look in her eyes.

My hormones had stopped being in a negotiating mood a while ago. I nodded and opened the door. She started to follow me with her hands to her hips.

"I mean it Mia. You need to pursue a relationship with Ethan or continue with what you signed up for with Harrison. Either way, I want you to pick one and be done with it."

"I will make a choice," I promised.

Leaving the hallway and Bri behind me, I weaved my way back to the table to grab Ethan. The need for him grew stronger by the minute. On my approach to the booth, I sensed a bit of tension between Trey and Ethan. Each man had their arms across their chests as they stared at each other in a heated standoff. I pressed in close to Ethan and ran my fingers down his rigid arm until he loosened his stance. I took his hand once it was free and rose to my tiptoes.

"Let's go," I whispered heatedly.

His breath increased as my lips lingered at his earlobe. Ethan broke his focus from Trey to look at me. The burn behind his eyes matched the want that had settled into one large knot within me. I tugged at his hand urging him to follow me. He obliged as Bri slid into the table next Trey. She noticed the tension too and let out a gush of air.

"Mia, what are you going to do about your car?" Bri questioned.

"I'll make sure she gets it," Ethan answered for me.

It was a challenge to get to the exit. Every several steps had us in a heated embrace. We paused several times to run our mouths across one another while our hands journeyed lower with more brashness each time. After we made it through the club doors, we staggered at a pace that matched the erratic beats of my heart. His mouth licked along my neck as my lips sucked along his throat before wandering to his shoulder. We ping ponged our way throughout the parking lot taking advantage of steady surfaces when our bodies hit them.

I wrapped my arms around his neck as my fingers glided into his messy hair. Ethan started to kiss me with such a want that my fingers unbeknownst to me pulled his hair with so much force that he hissed loudly. He yanked his mouth away from mine. I softly ran my lips across his in apology. Ethan deepened the kiss as he started walking again. My hands went down his abdomen and underneath his shirt where they appreciated every carved line upon his body.

Everything south of me was on fire with how much I needed him inside of me. I brought my hands to the buttons of his shirt and started unbuttoning each one. Ethan had his hands along my waistline where he flitted with button on my skirt. He changed directions and coasted his hands up my stomach where he tugged at the straps of my bra.

Ethan pressed me against what I assumed was his car. He moved away but kept his scorching eyes on me. He rested his forehead against mine as his hand tucked an errant piece of hair behind my ear. My heart started to melt at how gentle he had become with me. He switched gears physically the same way he did mentally making it difficult for me to keep up. His heated pants had me drowning in need for him. He brought his lips to my earlobe and gave it a soft bite.

"Do you have any idea how beautiful you are to me?"

Unable to speak, I shook my head. I let out a low moan as he continued nibbling at my ear. His lips licked down my neck before settling into the crook of my shoulder. I grabbed his jaw bringing his mouth back to mine. I trailed my fingers along his waistline before digging into his pockets. As sweet as he was being, I needed so much more. It didn't help that need one bit when my fingers grazed along his hard length as I tried locating his keys.

Ethan laughed against my lips. He brought his hand down to his pocket fetching out his keys as well as my hand. He picked me up as he unlocked the door. He pulled me inside with him and shut his door to the outside world. I remained on top of him as he settled into his seat. My lips went to his neck making their way down to his exposed chest. I tore his shirt down to his elbows where he finished the job for me. He tossed his shirt behind us then brought his hands to mine gently removing my top.

I groaned as his lips went from one side of my collarbone to the other before he dropped them to my breasts. After he shoved the straps of my bra aside, his tongue caressed each nipple until they stood on end. It intensified my want for him. Every shred of my sanity went out the window as I worked to satisfy my need for Ethan. I tilted my head back and drove my hips into him with force. My clear-cut implication of what I wanted from him brought his lips back to mine. Ethan kissed me as if he was satisfying his own cravings for me. I rocked into him again with no shame. He groaned with pleasure. His hips met mine with every push I exerted.

"Mia, you said you don't want our first time to be in public but you're making it very difficult right now," Ethan moaned.

I drove my hips into him with even more force. I didn't give a damn that we were in public. The hot pool of desire between my legs wasn't getting the satisfaction I needed with our remaining clothes in the way. My fingers fumbled with his fly as they worked to open it. Ethan separated our lips and grabbed my hands to stop me. He stared at me with reckless desire but there was a faint amount of uncertainty within his eyes.

"Are you sure you want this now?"

"Yes, I can't handle it any longer Ethan. I need you," I begged.

He slammed his lips to mine. His mouth captured every part of mine and his tongue slithered at an erotic pace. Ethan lifted my legs and slid down my panties in one swift movement. He readjusted his jeans to free himself just as fast and lowered me on to him. I almost fell apart with how amazing it was having him inside me. Ethan moved at a slow pace to allow my body to accept his considerable length. Impatient for more, I drove harder needing him deeper. He met each of my thrusts with vigor. My body erupted with sensation. As I rocked into him each time, the tingling throughout my body amplified even higher.

"Fuck..." Ethan hissed.

His hands travelled up my back before tightening on my shoulders and bringing me into him even further. My body expanded as we carried along at an impassioned pace. It made everything inside my body burn for more. My hips obliged by pushing deeper. His head fell to the seat as he gripped me even tighter. He leaned forward to torture my breasts with his lips.

"I've wanted you for so long. Fuck...it's like you were made for me..." Ethan muttered.

We pressed upon with our bodies sliding against each other. He decided to change the pace to one that was far more relentless than we went at so far. Ethan began to pound even rougher. He was as far within me as he could go and it had every part of me clenching around him.

"God...Yes..." I screamed.

His lips sucked along my breasts so hard that I dropped my head to his shoulder. I bit down as the fire inside me grew to an inferno. We started to rock into each other with more force. I couldn't get enough of him or the mind-blowing sensations taking over my body. His mouth went from my breasts to my earlobe. His lips caressed every spot that it touched upon my skin. My breathing matched the pants that Ethan exuded in between each stroke of the tongue.

"You wanted this now but I want so much more from you tonight. Let's finish this so we can get to that part of our evening," Ethan groaned loudly.

"I need it to be faster if you want to move this along," I hollered without a care.

Ethan obliged doing exactly as I asked. His hands moved down to my hips as he continued to drive into me. I squeezed around him as the blaze within my core exploded throughout my entire body. I screamed riding out the pleasure with him. My fingers tangled in his hair and jerked hard as he released into me. I rested my forehead against his as we came down from our intense ecstasy. His car became a symphony of our ragged breaths that matched the rapid beats of our hearts. Ethan was still somewhat hard making me start to tingle all over. Unconsciously, I clenched against the hardness and he shifted me further down his lap.

"I think one brazen act this evening is enough don't you," Ethan remarked.

I can't believe I begged him to have sex with me in a parking lot of a packed club. And I was loud - really loud!

"Umm...yes, I think one is more than enough," I whispered.

My cheeks flushed even hotter than the rest of my body as I looked over to him. Ethan pulled out of me with ease. He wrapped his arms around my waist as his nose grazed along mine. His tongue outlined my lips and a small moan escaped from me. He was turning me on all over again.

"I take it that you don't do that often."

"Try never."

Ethan ran a trail of kisses along my jaw. I snuggled into him as my fingers trailed up his detailed chest. The urge to get lost in him again grew with each stroke. By the wetness that slicked upon the inside of my thighs, my body was without a doubt ready. Though he was no longer in me, it was evident that he was just as eager for more. It became more apparent with each touch I gave him. If we kept up this slow, sensual torture upon one another, we would be gearing up for round two. I took in his heated breaths before releasing his grip from my waist.

He stared at me for a moment then retrieved his shirt. I shuffled off his lap and over to the passenger seat. I grabbed my top and slid it on as he retrieved his from the backseat. A small smile crept upon my lips as I watched him button up his shirt. It was a shame that the shirt needed to go back on at all. I giggled as my eyes went past him to the darkness of his windows. I was sure that the moans and the movement of the car gave plenty away but at least no one could see who was in it.

"What?" Ethan inquired.

"I understand your answer about the windows a little better," I said, motioning to the tint.

Ethan flashed a devilish grin. "I've never had sex in this car. It never crossed my mind not even with you but then you started begging."

"Hardy har har. Can we go now?" I asked with a roll of the eyes.

Ethan grabbed my face and swept his lips across my mouth. His tongue passed mine before he broke off the kiss. I tried to resume it but he stopped me by placing a finger between them.

"I have so much more planned for you so buckle up and prepare yourself. Your life is about to be changed in ways that you never thought imaginable."

I sat back in shock grabbing the seat belt in response to his command. I continued to gape at him as he peeled out of the parking lot. He weaved in and out of traffic towards the part of the waterline that brushed into the city. I rested my head against the window. I needed a minute to process things. Everything about him was so incredibly right.

Ethan pulled into a high-end apartment development. He rolled his window down to swipe an access card that opened the garage. After he parked his car, Ethan ran his fingers up my arm. They left a trail of heat in every spot. Ethan placed my hand on my cheek so that I would look at him. I smiled shyly as he sat sideways staring at me with such passion in his eyes that it made my insides become molten lava. He gently released my face and opened the door. We made our way to the elevators without a word. Once inside, he hit the top floor.

As we went up, Ethan shuffled us until my back hit the wall of the elevator. He brought my hands above my head as his elbows settled outside of my pinned arms. He lowered his face within inches of mine. I stood bewitched under the spell he had over me. His mouth placed soft kisses across my upper and lower lips before he pulled away. I tried to move closer but it was difficult considering he immobilized me. I burned from every angle to be near him.

"Patience," Ethan whispered.

I huffed. "If you want patience, stop teasing me."

"It sucks to be teased doesn't it," he pointed out.

His lips went to my earlobe where he nibbled his way back to my mouth for a brisk kiss. I looked anxiously over his shoulder to see if we were near his floor. I was close to ripping off his shirt for the second time tonight. Ethan dropped my hands and moved to the opposite of the elevator. I gasped at the sudden loss of his body and he laughed. I moved to close the distance but he held up a hand for me to stop.

"Are you trying to make me blow up? Why did you do that only to put on the brakes?"

"Now, you understand what you did to me when you broke off our first kiss."

I glared at him. "Is this some sort of lesson?"

"Maybe," he said with a mischievous grin.

I silently mouthed the colorful thoughts running through my head.

"You drive me insane when you allow yourself to be so damn flippant," Ethan growled.

"You seem to bring out every feeling within me before I have a chance to run it through the part of my brain that controls my rational side. Most of the time, I'm happy if I can filter anything when I'm around you," I admitted.

He sighed. "I like that you lose control around me. It's the only time I get a piece of the real person behind the wall that you have up around the rest of the world."

Ethan left me stunned as he got out of the elevator. I stumbled out and followed him on his way down a long hall. He walked for a minute before turning around to face me. I froze waiting for his next move. He marched back to me and his lips met mine with force. His tenderness disappeared as he pressed against me with urgency. We stood there in the middle of the hallway exploring each other's mouths before he stopped again. The starting and stopping was driving me nuts. He stepped away with grief stretched across his face.