Cockney: A Stepbrother Romance (46 page)

Thankfully she’s clothed here, at some teacher’s union meeting or wherever we are that she’s giving a speech to. Honestly, I hate crowds; hate the sounds and the noises and the way they make me nakedly aware of William Archer’s words:
Blend in
. Blending in is
not
something I do well with in crowds. And yet, here I am, standing here and enduring. Tell me again why the fuck I signed on for this?

Reagan pushes past me to get to the stage, her shampoo in my nostrils and her fingertips
just
lingering over my wrist as she slips past me.

Fuck
. Oh, right, yeah that;
that’s
why I signed on for this.

As grueling as it’s been when we’re alone and she’s driving me completely wild, we’ve also been going out to events and speeches and fundraisers, and that’s a
whole
new game. I’m seeing her more and more in the limelight like this, and I’m
getting
it; she’s amazing at this shit. As childish or as flustered as she gets when I tease her,  or when we’re in the middle of this frosty bullshit cold-war, she’s fucking incredible at this whole politician thing. She exudes the confidence in front of crowds that you’re really only born with, and she acts the part and suddenly becomes
older
than her twenty-three years, and I
get
why she’s such a sensation. 

She even dresses older. I mean obviously there’s no place for yoga pants and bra-less t-shirts on a campaign trail or on a news blurb. But the problem is, even in those conservative long skirts or even those fucking pants suits, she’s still sexy as all hell. Jesus, when’s the last time I- hell, when’s the last time
anyone
has checked out a chick’s ass in a pants suit?

But even as stunning as she looks, I’m still mesmerized by what she’s saying, and by her poise and her grace. And the people she speaks to go fucking
nuts
for her, and seeing that, I realize that she might actually win this thing.

I’m grinning at her from off-stage, laughing right along with the rest of these teachers over some joke about PTA meetings that I don’t even get, when I feel a tap on my arm. Before I can even turn, the tap is turning into a hand which snakes its way through my arm, and then all of a sudden I realize I’ve been blind-sided with a hug.

“Hiya handsome.”

Rachel- No, Tiff- shit. I’ve met her before. She does something with events planning with a firm we worked with months ago, and it seems she’s about as forward now as she was then when she literally palmed me her hotel key; which, of course, I left on the bar. There’s persistence, and then there’s just plain skanky, and the latter is a total turn-off for me. I wonder briefly if the bartender I passed the key-card on to ever ended up having a great night back then.

Samantha; that’s her name

“So, how’re things, big guy?” She purrs out; oozing sex through the wildly inappropriate low-cut of her neck and hemline, and pressing her tits against my arm. 

I glance back at the stage, at Reagan, before I turn back to her; “I’m sort of working right now, actually.”

“You?
Work?
” She giggles obnoxiously and runs a finger up my chest, and it’s annoying the shit out of me.

“Yes, Samantha, I work.” I say irritably. 

“Well, you want to come work on me?” Jesus, subtlety is
not
in this girl’s vocabulary. For a half-second, part of me responds, if only because I’m still so on fucking on edge from the week of watching Reagan; seven days and nights of working out with her, watching her practice her speeches in fucking shorts and tank-tops and seeing just a
peak
of her panties one time when the skirt she was wearing around the apartment rode up to her ass as she bent over to pull her boots on. Yeah,
that part
of me responds, just for a half-second.

But no;
fuck
no.

“Maybe some other time, Sam,” I smile thinly at her and turn at the sound of applause just in time to see Reagan coming off the stage, and then I’m even more pissed that Samantha’s kept me from hearing the rest of her speech. 

“But
boooo
, I thought you’d be more
fun
.” Samantha wines, tugging on my arm and pressing her tits up against me even more.

‘Boo’?
Is this girl fucking serious? I turn around again to yank my arm out of my grasp and give her a withering look, and when I turn back to the stage again, my eyes narrow and I growl.

Reagan is talking and laughing with some douchey looking prep-school poster-boy, her hand on his arm as she laughs uproariously at something that’s just come out of his pompous-looking mouth. Erika, Reagan’s obnoxious “brand manager” is there too along with Donald, and the two of them are beaming like a couple of assholes at Reagan talking with this chump. The confusing surge of jealous only intensifies when they turn and nod at me before they
all
start to walk over to where I’m standing on the side of the stage with Samantha
still
hanging off of me.

“Hudson!” Donald says to me, as if we’re old pals. His face is all red and puffy from smooching this guy’s ass; “I wanted to introduce you to Congressman Kennedy.”

Oh you’ve gotta be fucking kidding me.

The douchebag chuckles and puts his hand on Reagan’s shoulder for whatever reason he’s deemed that to be appropriate as he laughs, as if Donald’s just made the joke of the fucking century.

I want to hit him.

“Oh, no, not
those
Kennedy’s; I wish!” He chuckles again and Reagan is laughing right along with him; loudly.

“Chet Kennedy,” He says, sticking his hand like he’s about to sell me a used car. Holy shit,
this
is Chet the ex boyfriend? If I wanted to hit him before, I want to knock him the fuck out now.

“Nice to meet you,” I say as formally as possible, my voice frosty and leaden as I stick my hand out.

“New York Legislature; Westchester County, of course.” He says, as if I should know what even means. His eyes drop to the ink peeking out from my cuff and I see this smirking, judging look pass across his face. I squeeze his hand extra hard, enjoying seeing him wince. Reagan’s eyes are boring in on me, with a look on her face that I can’t quite read.

“
Hiii!
I’m Sam!” Fuck; she’s still fucking here and she’s still hanging off my arm. I glance at Reagan and see her eyes narrowing at Samantha before she slips her arm through Chet’s. My blood pressure immediately spikes through the ceiling. 

Donald and Erika are all over the two of them, gushing over every dip-shit comment that comes out of his mouth and making sure every damn photographer in the room gets a picture of him and Reagan with their arms linked. Samantha is still tied around my arm, and the whole thing is just like watching a slow-motion car-wreck in action as I stand there with my throat feeling tight and my rage bubbling just below the surface. I want a cigarette; hell, I kind of want a drink.

Chet’s people come over and tear him away for something, and I can’t manage more than a barely perceivable nod as he tells me again how
great
it was to meet me. Donald’s shoots me a dirty look and taps the daily schedule printout in his hand against his watch, as if it’s
my
fucking fault that
Chet
has us running off schedule. I finally manage to shake the bimbo off my arm as he and Erika split, and then we’re alone on the side of the stage.

“What?” 

Reagan’s shooting me this thin little smirk, her eyes flashing at me; “So,
Sam
-“

I roll my eyes; “
Not
what you think.”

“Oh and what would I be thinking, Hudson, and why would I
possibly
think that?” Her sarcastic smile is exaggeratedly fake.

“Relax, Princess, she’s not my type.”

Reagan bristles at the word; “And what type would that be that, Hudson? The kind that has something besides air between their ears?” She snorts, “She sure had me fooled.”

For some reason, I grin; getting a weirdly smug sense of satisfaction from the fact that Reagan is
clearly
jealous. “Well what about you and
Chet
back there? You guys pick out color-schemes yet for the Lincoln bedroom?”

Reagan rolls her eyes, “Oh give me a break-“ Her eyes land on me and she grins; “What, are you
jealous?
”

I tense up inside, but I keep my voice cool; “What, of
Chet
and his collection of polo shirts and boat shoes?” I snort; “Uh, no, Reagan, I’m not.”

“Oh, and
what
, is little miss Tits McGee back there supposed to make
me
jealous?”

I want to laugh, but the fire in her eyes stops me, and I let out an exasperating sigh instead; “Jesus, what about our relationship would make you this jealous seeing that girl hanging off my arm?”

“There
is
no ‘
our relationship
’, Hudson” She snaps, looking fierce and adorable at the same time.

“Yeah, no shit,
Princess
.”

I see her eyes blaze at me, and she opens her mouth to say something but then stops herself and shakes her head instead; “We’re late for the next appearance today, let’s go.” She says curtly, before turning on her heel and storming away, leaving me standing there watching her walk away. I want to kick myself for saying shit like that to her, but really, I know why I do it. I push her away like that because I can’t let her get close; not with the shit that I’m carrying around. Fuck; I saw hell on Earth in the desert, so why the fuck can’t I deal with this girl? 

P A S T

“What are you drinking?” Reagan’s been giving me this weird look from across the room for the past fifteen minutes while I’ve been giving my condolences to the rest of her family. I’ve finally extricated myself from Bryce and Logan, and some Aunt who I’ve never met before, and made my way over to where she’s sitting on the bottom step of the curved staircase in the foyer.

“I’m not.”

She frowns at me as she sips on the cup of what looks like coke but smells suspiciously like something else; “Well, it’s a
funeral
, you probably should be.” She
clearly
has been, as she leans into me and holds my gaze in that slightly glazed way a good couple of drinks will do to you. She sighs and looks into her cup; “Sorry, I forg- It’s just sort of weird being back here without him, even if he was barely every here anyways.”

I nod, intimately knowing the feeling she’s describing, since it’s how I feel about everything, every day I wake up after coming back from what I did; “Yeah, I know the feeling.” She’s still staring into her cup, so I try and change the subject; “Hey so how’s art history going?” 

“Renaissance Art, and I switched to Political Science.”

I can’t help but grin, knowing how much the Old Man would have smirked at that one; “Hey, that’s pretty coo-“

“Do you want to go for a walk?” She’s looking up at me with that same look on her face that I can’t quite read, thought I can see a flare of wildness there that always manages to drag me into her.

“Uh, sure?”
No, bad idea, bad fucking idea asshole!
I’ve been around enough girls in this exact same precursor to a mistake to know what “do you want to go for a walk” means. But when she stands and offers her hand, I’m
still
grabbing ahold and getting up to following her as she leads us away from the crowd. I follow her up the staircase and down the hallways, and I
almost
want to say some quip about ‘interesting walk, up here where your bedroom probably is’ but I don’t because that would be crass, and that’s something I’m working on.