Charles Beaumont: Selected Stories (3 page)

He walked downstairs and into the living room. Miss Gentilbelle was standing in the doorway; her eyes danced over the wriggling animal.
Robert said nothing as they walked into the kitchen.
"I am sure, Roberta, that when you see this-and when you see that no one ever comes to take you away-that the best thing is merely to be a good girl. It is enough. To be a good girl and do as Mother says."
She took the frog and held it tightly. She did not seem to notice that Robert's mouth was moist, that his eyes stared directly through her.
She did not seem to hear the birds and the puppies whispering to Robert, or see them clustering about him.
She held the frog in one hand, and with the other pulled a large knife from the knife-holder. It was rusted and without luster, but its edge was keen enough, and its point sharp.
"You must think about this, child. About how you forced your mother into punishing you." She smiled. "Tell me this: have you named your little friend?"
"Yes. His name is Drake."
"Drake! How very appropriate!"
Miss Gentilbelle did not look at her son. She put the frog on the table and turned it over on its back. The creature thrashed violently.
Then she put the point of the knife on the frog's belly, paused, waited, and pushed inwards. The frog twitched as she held it and drew the blade slowly across, slowly, deep inside the animal.
In a while, when it had quieted, she dropped the frog into a box of kindling.
She did not see Robert pick up the knife and hold it in his hand.
Robert had stopped thinking. Snowy flecks of saliva dotted his face, and his eyes had no life to them. He listened to his friends. The puppies, crawling about his feet, yipping painfully. The birds, dropping their bloody wings, flying crazily about his head, screaming, calling. And now the frogs, hopping, croaking.
He did not think. He listened.
"Yes… . . . yes."
Miss Gentilbelle turned quickly, and her laughter died as she did so. She threw her hands out and cried-but the knife was already sliding through her pale dress, and through her pale flesh.
The birds screeched and the puppies howled and the frogs croaked. Yes, yes, yes, yes!
And the knife came out and went in again, it came out and went in again.
Then Robert slipped on the wet floor and fell. He rolled over and over, crying softly, and laughing, and making other sounds.
Miss Gentilbelle said nothing. Her thin white fingers were curled about the handle of the butcher knife, but she no longer tried to pull it from her stomach.
Presently her wracked breathing stopped.
Robert rolled into a corner, and drew his legs and arms about him, tight.
He held the dead frog to his face and whispered to it…
The large red-faced man walked heavily through the cypressed land. He skillfully avoided bushes and pits and came, finally, to the clearing that was the entrance to the great house.
He walked to the wrought-iron gate that joined to the high brick wall that was topped with broken glass and curved spikes.
He opened the gate, crossed the yard, and went up the decaying, splintered steps. He applied a key to the old oak door.
"Minnie!" he called. "Got a little news for you! Hey, Minnie!"
The silent stairs answered him.
He went into the living room, upstairs to Robert's room.
"Minnie!"
He walked back to the hallway. An uncertain grin covered his face. "They're not going to let you keep him! How's that? How do you like it?"
The warm bayou wind sighed through the shutters.
The man made fists with his fingers, paused, walked down the hall, and opened the kitchen door.
The sickly odor went to his nostrils first. The words "Jesus God' formed on his lips, but he made no sound.
He stood very still, for a long time.
The blood on Miss Gentilbelle's face had dried, but on her hands and where it had gathered on the floor, it was still moist.
Her fingers were stiff around the knife.
The man's eyes traveled to the far corner. Robert was huddled there, chanting softly-flat, dead, singsong words.
". . . wicked… must be punished… wicked girl…"
Robert threw his head back and smiled up at the ceiling.
The man walked to the corner and lifted Robert to his chest and held him tightly, crushingly.
"Bobbie," he said. "Bobbie. Bobbie. Bobbie."
The warm night wind turned cold.
It sang through the halls and through the rooms of the great house in the forest.
And then it left, frightened and alone.
Introduction to
THE VANISHING AMERICAN
by John Tomerlin
On his way home, after working late at the office, Mr. Minchell discovers that he is, in fact, vanishing. To his employer, store clerks, bartenders-even his own family-he either has become literally invisible, or so insignificant that his presence no longer can be detected. Only through an act of daring, an assertion of his individuality, does Mr. Minchell reappear; gain attention; prove his existence.
The pun is a recurrent theme in Charles Beaumont's titles-"Fair Lady" being another, obvious, example; "Point of Honor" and Black Country" two less apparent ones-and is some indication of the sort of writer he was. A storyteller, a spinner of yarns, balladeer, prophet; a discoverer of the wonderous amidst the commonplace. His ideas sprang from the germinal "What if…?"
What if homosexuality were the norm instead of inversion; what if a woman sought rape instead of avoiding it; and what if, in lieu of the assimilation of aboriginals, an American actually did vanish?
The sometimes-obvious answers were couched in terms of characters and events so unexpected (occasionally unpleasant, frequently macabre, yet invariably real) that they laid bare new truths and new dimensions of understanding.
This is because the pure act of imagination that is a Beaumont story is deeply rooted in personal history. The office where Mr. Minchell works adding up figures on a manifest, is the office of a southern California trucking firm for which Charles performed similar, agonizing services in 1950. "King Richard" is one of the stone lions at the entrance to the public library on 5th Avenue near 42nd Street, which he often visited while living in New York.
To those who knew him best, the trappings and imagery of his stories are fun house mirrors through which his real life can be glimpsed: people, places, actual events. There was the early loss of his father, and strained relationships with his mother; a pair of maiden aunts in Washington who raised him-eccentrics to say the least; and periods of serious illnesses as a child. All appear repeatedly in his stories.
The most familiar character of all, though, one that appears time and again in different guises, is alone or has only one other equally powerless person to talk to; is sometimes the possessor of a unique gift or talent, sometimes not; and must, through an act of daring or personal risk, achieve recognition and appreciation.
"I'll be seeing you," the stranger in the crowd says. "That's right," Mr. Minchell says from his seat atop the lion. "You'll be seeing me."
Fear not, old friend, we see you still.
THE VANISHING AMERICAN
by Charles Beaumont
He got the notion shortly after five o'clock; at least, a part of him did, a small part hidden down beneath all the conscious cells-he didn't get the notion until some time later. At exactly five P.M., the bell rang. At two minutes after, the chairs began to empty. There was the vast slamming of drawers, the straightening of rulers, the sound of bones snapping and mouths yawning and feet shuffling tiredly.
Mr. Minchell relaxed. He rubbed his hands together and relaxed and thought how nice it would be to get up and go home, like the others. But of course there was the tape, only three-quarters finished. He would have to stay.
He stretched and said good night to the people who filed past him. As usual, no one answered. When they had gone, he set his fingers pecking again over the keyboard. The click-clicking grew loud in the suddenly still office, but Mr. Minchell did not notice. He was lost in the work. Soon, he knew, it would be time for the totaling, and his pulse quickened at the thought of this.
He lit a cigarette. Heart tapping, he drew in smoke and released it.
He extended his right hand and rested his index and middle fingers on the metal bar marked TOTAL. A mile-long ribbon of paper lay gathered on the desk, strangely festive. He glanced at it, then at the manifest sheet. The figure 18037448 was circled in red. He pulled breath into his lungs, locked it there; then he closed his eyes and pressed the TOTAL bar.
There was a smooth low metallic grinding, followed by absolute silence.
Mr. Minchell opened one eye, dragged it from the ceiling on down to the adding machine.
He groaned, slightly.
The total read: 18037447.
"God." He stared at the figure and thought of the fifty-three pages of manifest, the three thousand separate rows of figures that would have to be checked again. "God."
The day was lost, now. Irretrievably. It was too late to do anything. Madge would have supper waiting, and F.J. didn't approve of overtime; also…
He looked at the total again. At the last two digits.
He sighed. Forty-seven. And thought, startled: Today, for the Lord's sake, is my birthday! Today I am forty-what?-forty-seven. And that explains the mistake, I suppose. Subconscious kind of thing.
Slowly he got up and looked around the deserted office.
Then he went to the dressing room and got his hat and his coat and put them on, carefully.
"Pushing fifty now…"
The outside hail was dark. Mr. Minchell walked softly to the elevator and punched the Down button. "Forty-seven," he said, aloud; then, almost immediately, the light turned red and the thick door slid back noisily. The elevator operator, a birdthin, tan-fleshed girl, swiveled her head, looking up and down the hall. "Going down," she said.
"Yes," Mr. Minchell said, stepping forward.
"Going down." The girl clicked her tongue and muttered, "Damn kids." She gave the lattice gate a tired push and moved the smooth wooden-handled lever in its slot.
Odd, Mr. Minchell decided, was the word for this particular girl. He wished now that he had taken the stairs. Being alone with only one other person in an elevator had always made him nervous: now it made him very nervous. He felt the tension growing. When it became unbearable, he cleared his throat and said, "Long day."
The girl said nothing. She had a surly look, and she seemed to be humming something deep in her throat.
Mr. Minchell closed his eyes. In less than a minute-during which time he dreamed of the cables snarling, of the car being caught between floors, of himself trying to make small talk with the odd girl for six straight hours-he opened his eyes again and walked into the lobby, briskly.
The gate slammed.
He turned and started for the doorway. Then he paused, feeling a sharp increase in his heartbeat. A large, red-faced, magnificently groomed man of middle years stood directly beyond the glass, talking with another man.
Mr. Minchell pushed through the door, with effort. He's seen me now, he thought. If he asks any questions, though, or anything, I'll just say I didn't put it on the time card; that ought to make it all right .
He nodded and smiled at the large man. "Good night, Mr. Diemel."
The man looked up briefly, blinked, and returned to his conversation.
Mr. Mincheli felt a burning come into his face. He hurried on down the street. Now the notion-though it was not even that yet, strictly: it was more a vague feeling-swam up from the bottom of his brain. He remembered that he had not spoken directly to F.J. Diemel for over ten years, beyond a "Good morning" . . .
Ice-cold shadows fell off the tall buildings, staining the streets, now. Crowds of shoppers moved along the pavement like juggernauts, exhaustedly, but with great determination. Mr. Minchell looked at them. They all had furtive appearances, it seemed to him suddenly, even the children, as if each was fleeing from some hideous crime. They hurried along, staring.
But not, Mr. Minchell noticed, at him. Through him, yes. Past him. As the elevator operator had done, and now F.J. And had anyone said good night?
He pulled up his coat collar and walked toward the drugstore, thinking. He was forty-seven years old. At the current life-expectancy rate, he might have another seventeen or eighteen years left. And then death.
If you're not dead already.
He paused and for some reason remembered a story he'd once read in a magazine. Something about a man who dies and whose ghost takes up his duties, or something; anyway, the man didn't know he was dead-that was it. And at the end of the story, he runs into his own corpse.
Which is pretty absurd: he glanced down at his body. Ghosts don't wear $36 suits, nor do they have trouble pushing doors open, nor do their corns ache like blazes, and what the devil is wrong with me today?
He shook his head.
It was the tape, of course, and the fact that it was his birthday. That was why his mind was behaving so foolishly.
He went into the drugstore. It was an immense place, packed with people. He walked to the cigar counter, trying not to feel intimidated, and reached into his pocket. A small man elbowed in front of him and called loudly: "Gimme coupla nickels, will you, Jack?" The clerk scowled and scooped the change out of his cash register. The small man scurried off. Others took his place. Mr. Minchell thrust his arm forward. "A pack of Luckies, please," he said. The clerk whipped his fingers around a pile of cellophaned packages and, looking elsewhere, droned: "Twenty-six." Mr. Minchell put his twenty-six-cents-exactly on the glass shelf. The clerk shoved the cigarettes toward the edge and picked up the money, deftly. Not once did he lift his eyes.
Mr. Minchell pocketed the Luckies and went back out of the store. He was perspiring now, slightly, despite the chill wind. The word "ridiculous" lodged in his mind and stayed there. Ridiculous, yes, for heaven's sake. Still, he thought-now just answer the question-isn't it true? Can you honestly say that that clerk saw you?
Or that anybody saw you today?
Swallowing dryly, he walked another two blocks, always in the direction of the subway, and went into a bar called the Chez When. One drink would not hurt, one small, stiff, steadying shot.
The bar was a gloomy place, and not very warm, but there was a good crowd. Mr. Minchell sat down on a stool and folded his hands. The bartender was talking animatedly with an old woman, laughing with boisterous good humor from time to time. Mr. Minchell waited. Minutes passed. The bartender looked up several times, but never made a move to indicate that he had seen a customer.
Mr. Minchell looked at his old gray overcoat, the humbly floraled tie, the cheap sharkskin suit-cloth, and became aware of the extent to which he detested this ensemble. He sat there and detested his clothes for a long time. Then he glanced around. The bartender was wiping a glass, slowly.
All right, the hell with you. I'll go somewhere else.
He slid off the stool. Just as he was about to turn he saw the mirrored wall, pinktinted and curved. He stopped, peering. Then he almost ran out of the bar.
Cold wind went into his head.
Ridiculous. The mirror was curved, you jackass. How do you expect to see yourself in curved mirrors?
He walked past high buildings, and now past the library and stone lion he had once, long ago, named King Richard; and he did not look at the lion, because he'd always wanted to ride the lion, ever since he was a child, and he'd promised himself he would do that, but he never did.
He hurried on to the subway, took the stairs by twos, and clattered across the platform in time to board the express.
It roared and thundered. Mr. Minchell held onto the strap and kept himself from staring. No one watched him. No one even glanced at him when he pushed his way to the door and went out onto the empty platform.
He waited. Then the train was gone, and he was alone.
He walked up the stairs. It was fully night now, a soft, unshadowed darkness. He thought about the day and the strange things that were gouging into his mind and thought about all this as he turned down a familiar street which led to his familiar apartment.
The door opened.
His wife was in the kitchen, he could see. Her apron flashed across the arch, and back, and across. He called: "Madge, I'm home."
Madge did not answer. Her movements were regular. Jimmy was sitting at the table, drooling over a glass of pop, whispering to himself.
"I said-" Mr. Minchell began.
"Jimmy, get up and go to the bathroom, you hear? I've got your water drawn."
Jimmy promptly broke into tears. He jumped off the chair and ran past Mr. Minchell into the bedroom. The door slammed viciously.
"Madge."
Madge Minchell came into the room, tired and lined and heavy. Her eyes did not waver. She went into the bedroom, and there was a silence; then a sharp slapping noise, and a yelling.
Mr. Minchell walked to the bathroom, fighting down the small terror. He closed the door and locked it and wiped his forehead with a handkerchief. Ridiculous, he thought, and ridiculous and ridiculous. I am making something utterly foolish out of nothing. All I have to do is look in the miror, and-.
He held the handkerchief to his lips. It was difficult to breathe.
Then he knew that he was afraid, more so than ever before in a lifetime of being afraid, Look at it this way, Minchell: why shouldn't you vanish?
"Young man, just you wait until your father gets here!"
He pushed the handkerchief against his mouth and leaned on the door and gasped.
"What do you mean, vanish?"
Go on, take a look. You'll see what I mean.
He tried to swallow, couldn't. Tried to wet his lips, found that they stayed dry.
"Lord-"
He slitted his eyes and walked to the shaving mirror and looked in.
His mouth fell open.
The mirror reflected nothing. It held nothing. It was dull and gray and empty.
Mr. Minchell stared at the glass, put out his hand, drew it back hastily.
He squinted. Inches away. There was a form now: vague, indistinct, featureless: but a form.
"Lord," he said. He understood why the elevator girl hadn't seen him, and why F.J. hadn't answered him, and why the clerk at the drugstore and the bartender and Madge.
"I'm not dead."
Of course you're not dead-not that way.
"-tan your hide, Jimmy Minchell, when he gets home."
Mr. Minchell suddenly wheeled and clicked the lock. He rushed out of the steamfilled bathroom, across the room, down the stairs, into the street, into the cool night.
A block from home he slowed to a walk.
Invisible! He said the word over and over, in a half-voice. He said it and tried to control the panic that pulled at his legs, and at his brain, and filled him.
Why?
A fat woman and a little girl passed by. Neither of them looked up. He started to call out and checked himself. No. That wouldn't do any good. There was no question about it now. He was invisible.
He walked on. As he did, forgotten things returned; they came and they left, too fast. He couldn't hold onto them. He could only watch, and remember. Himself as a youngster, reading: the Oz books, Tarzan, and Mr. Wells. Himself going to the University, wanting to teach, and meeting Madge; then not planning any more, and Madge changing, and all the dreams put away. For later. For the right time. And then Jimmy-little strange Jimmy, who ate filth and picked his nose and watched television, who never read books, never; Jimmy, his son, whom he would never understand.
He walked by the edge of the park now. Then on past the park, through a maze of familiar and unfamiliar neighborhoods. Walking, remembering, looking at the people and feeling pain because he knew that they could not see him, not now or ever again, because he had vanished. He walked and remembered and felt pain.
All the stagnant dreams came back. Fully. The trip to Italy he'd planned. The open sports car, bad weather be damned. The firsthand knowledge that would tell him whether he did or did not approve of bullfighting. The book…
Then something occurred to him. It occurred to Mr. Minchell that he had not just suddenly vanished, like that, after all. No; he had been vanishing gradually for a long while. Every time he said good morning to that bastard Diemel he got a little harder to see. Every time he put on this horrible suit he faded. The process of disappearing was set into action every time he brought his pay check home and turned it over to Madge, every time he kissed her, or listened to her vicious unending complaints, or decided against buying that novel, or punched the adding maching he hated so, or…
Certainly.
He had vanished for Diemel and the others in the office years ago. And for strangers right afterwards. Now even Madge and Jimmy couldn't see him. And he could barely see himself, even in a mirror.

It made terrible sense to him. Why shouldn't you disappear? Well, why, indeed? There wasn't any very good reason, actually. None. And this, in a nightmarish sort of a way, made it as brutally logical as a perfect tape.
Then he thought about going back to work tomorrow and the next day and the day after that. He'd have to, of course. He couldn't let Madge and Jimmy starve; and, besides, what else would he do? It wasn't as if anything important had changed. He'd go on punching the clock and saying good morning to people who didn't see him, and he'd run the tapes and come home beat, nothing altered, and some day he'd die and that would be that.
All at once he felt tired.
He sat down on a cement step and sighed. Distantly he realized that he had come to the library. He sat there, watching the people, feeling the tiredness seep through him, thickly.
Then he looked up.
Above him, black and regal against the sky, stood the huge stone lion. Its mouth was open, and the great head was raised proudly.
Mr. Minchell smiled. King Richard. Memories scattered in his mind: old King Richard, well, my God, here we are.
He got to his feet. Fifty thousand times, at least, he had passed this spot, and every time he had experienced that instant of wild craving. Less so of late, but still, had it ever completely gone? He was amazed to find that now the childish desire was welling up again, stronger than ever before. Urgently.
He rubbed his cheek and stood there for several minutes. It's the most riduculous thing in the world, he thought, and I must be going out of my mind, and that must explain everything. But, he inquired of himself, even so, why not?
After all, I'm invisible. No one can see me. Of course, it didn't have to be this way, not really. I don't know, he went on, I mean, I believed that I was doing the right thing. Would it have been right to go back to the University and the hell with Madge? I couldn't change that, could I? Could I have done anything about that, even if I'd known?
He nodded sadly.
All right, but don't make it any worse. Don't for God's sake dwell on it!
To his surprise, Mr. Minchell found that he was climbing up the concrete base of the statue. It ripped the breath from his lungs-and he saw that he could much more easily have gone up a few extra steps and simply stepped on-but there didn't seem anything else to do but just this, what he was doing. Once upright, he passed his hand over the statue's flank. The surface was incredibly sleek and cold, hard as a lion's muscles ought to be, and tawny.
He took a step backwards. Lord! Had there ever been such power? Such marvelous downright power and-majesty, as was here? From stone-no, indeed. It fooled a good many people, but it did not fool Mr. Minchell. He knew. This lion was no mere library decoration. It was an animal, of deadly cunning and fantastic strength and unbelievable ferocity. And it didn't move for the simple reason that it did not care to move. It was waiting. Some day it would see what it was waiting for, its enemy, coming down the street. Then look out, people!
He remembered the whole yarn now. Of everyone on Earth, only he, Henry Minchell knew the secret of the lion. And only he was allowed to sit astride this mighty back.
He stepped onto the tail, experimentally. He hesitated, gulped, and swung forward, swiftly, on up to the curved rump.
Trembling, he slid forward, until finally he was over the shoulders of the lion, just behind the raised head.
His breath came very fast.
He closed his eyes.
It was not long before he was breathing regularly again. Only now it was the hot, fetid air of the jungle that went into his nostrils. He felt the great muscles ripple beneath him and he listened to the fast crackle of crushed foliage, and he whispered:
"Easy, fellow."
The flying spears did not frighten him; he sat straight, smiling, with his fingers buried in the rich tawny mane of King Richard, while the wind tore at his hair -
Then, abruptly, he opened his eyes.
The city stretched before him, and the people, and the lights. He tried quite hard not to cry, because he knew that forty-seven-year-old men never cried, not even when they had vanished, but he couldn't help it. So he sat on the stone lion and lowered his head and cried.
He didn't hear the laughter at first.
When he did hear it, he thought that he was dreaming. But it was true: somebody was laughing.
He grasped one of the statue's ear for balance and leaned forward. He blinked. Below, some fifteen feet, there were people. Young people. Some of them with books. They were looking up and smiling and laughing.
Mr. Minchell wiped his eyes.
A slight horror came over him, and fell away. He leaned farther out.
One of the boys waved and shouted: "Ride him, Pop!"
Mr. Minchell almost toppled. Then, without understanding, without even trying to understand-merely knowing-he grinned widely, showing his teeth, which were his own and very white.
"You-see me?" he called.
The young people roared.
"You do!" Mr. Minchell's face seemed to melt upwards. He let out a yell and gave King Richard's shaggy stone mane an enormous hug.
Below, other people stopped in their walking and a small crowd began to form. Dozens of eyes peered sharply, quizzically.
A woman in gray furs giggled.
A thin man in a blue suit grunted something about these damned exhibitionists.
"You pipe down," another man said. "Guy wants to ride the goddamn lion it's his own business."
There were murmurings. The man who had said pipe down was small and he wore black-rimmed glasses. "I used to do it all the time." He turned to Mr. Minchell and cried: "How is it?"
Mr. Minchell grinned. Somehow, he realized, in some mysterious way, he had been given a second chance. And this time he knew what he would do with it. "Fine!" he shouted, and stood upon King Richard's back and sent his derby spinning out over the heads of the people. "Come on up!"
"Can't do it," the man said. "Got a date." There was a look of profound admiration in his eyes as he strode off. Away from the crowd he stopped and cupped his hands and cried: "I'll be seeing you!"
"That's right," Mr. Minchell said, feeling the cold new wind on his face. "You'll be seeing me."
Later, when he was good and ready, he got down off the lion.