Charles Beaumont: Selected Stories (21 page)

Prentice said that he could see that.
"Ames pointed out to me that the only sin, the only one, was being bored. That was his justification, that was his incentive. He simply didn't want to sin, that was all. So the Group Activities went on. And they got worse. Much worse. One thing, they actually plotted a crime and carried it off: the Union Bank robbery, maybe you read about it: 1953. I drove the car for them. Another time, they decided it would ward off ennui by setting fire to a warehouse down by the docks, The fire spread. Prentice- do you happen to remember that DC-7 that went down between here and Detroit?"
Prentice said, "Yes, I remember."
"Their work," Dystal said. "Ames planned it. In a way, I think he's a genius. I could spend all night telling you the things we did, but there isn't time. I've got to skip." He placed his fingers over his eyes. "Joan of Arc," he said, "was the turning point. Ames had decided that it would be diverting to re-enact famous scenes from literature, So he and Bud went down to Main Street, I think it was, and found a beat doll who thought the whole thing would be fun. They gave her twenty-five dollars, but she never got a chance to spend it. I remember that she laughed right to the point where Ames lit the pile of oil-soaked rags . . - Afterwards, they re-enacted other scenes. The execution of Marie Antoinette. The murder of Hamlet's father. You know The Man in the Iron Mask? They did that one. And a lot more, It lasted quite a while, too, but Ames began to get restless," Dystal held out his hands suddenly and stared at them. "The next game was a form of Russian roulette. We drew straws. Whoever got the short one had to commit suicide-in his own way. It was understood that if he failed, it would mean something much worse-and Ames had developed some damned interesting techniques. Like the nerve clamps, for instance. Thomas lost the game, anyway. They gave him twelve hours to get it over with."
Prentice felt a cold film of perspiration over his flesh. He tried to speak, but found that it was impossible. The man, of course, was crazy. Completely insane. But-he had to hear the end of the story. "Go on." he said.
Dystal ran his tongue across his lower lip, poured another drink and continued, "Cummings and Chambers got scared then," he said. "They argued that some stranger would move into the house and then there'd be all sorts of trouble, We had a meeting at Reiker's, and Chris came out with the idea of us all chipping in and buying the place. But Ames didn't go for it. 'Let's not be so darned exclusive,' he said. 'After all, the new poeple might be bored, too. Lord knows we could use some fresh blood in the Group'. Cummings was pessimistic. He said, 'What if you're wrong? What if they don't want to join us?' Ames laughed it off, 'I hope,' he said, 'that you don't think we're the only ones. Why, every city has its neighborhood just like ours. We're really not that unique.' And then he went on to say that if the new people didn't work out, he would take care of the situation. He didn't say how."
Dystal looked out the window again.
"I can see that he's almost ready to give you an invitation, Prentice. Once that happens, you're finished. It's join them or accept the only alternative."
Suddenly the room was very quiet.
"You don't believe me, do you?"
Prentice opened his mouth.
"No, of course you don't. It's a madman's ravings. Well, I'm going to prove it to you, Prentice." He started for the door. "Come on. Follow me; but don't make any noise."
Dystal walked out the back door, closed it, moved soundlessly across the soft, black grass.
"They're on a mystic kick right now," he whispered to Prentice. "Ames is trying to summon the devil. Last week we slaughtered a dog and read the Commandments backward; the week before, we did some chants out of an old book that Ben found in the library; before that it was orgies-" He shook his head. "It isn't working out, though. God knows why. You'd think the devil would be so delighted with Ames that he'd sign him up for the team."
Prentice followed his neighbor across the yards, walking carefully, and wondering why. He thought of his neat little office on Harmon Street, old Mrs. Gleason, the clean, well-lighted restaurant where he had his lunch and read newspaper headlines; and they seemed terribly far away.
Why, he asked himself, am I creeping around backyards with a lunatic at midnight?
Why?
"The moon is full tonight, Prentice. That means they'll be trying again."
Silently, without the slightest sound, Matthew Dystal moved across the lawns, keeping always to the shadows. A minute later he raised his hand and stopped.
They were at the rear of the Ameses' house.
It was dark inside.
"Come on," Dystal whispered.
"Wait a minute." Somehow, the sight of his own living room, still blazing with light, reassured Prentice, "I think I've had enough for this evening."
"Enough?" Dystal's face twisted grotesquely. He bunched the sleeve of Prentice's jacket in his fist. "Listen," he hissed, "listen, you idiot. I'm risking my life to help you. Don't you understand yet? If they find out I've talked…" He released the sleeve. "Prentice, please. You have a chance now, a chance to clear out of this whole stinking mess; but you won't have it long-Believe me!"
Prentice sighed. "What do you want me to do?" he said.
"Nothing. Just come with me, quietly. They're in the basement,"
Breathing hard now, Dystal tiptoed around to the side of the house. He stopped at a small, earth-level window.
It was closed.
"Prentice. Softly. Bend down and keep out of view."
In invisible, slow movements, Dystal reached out and pushed the window. It opened a half inch. He pushed it again. It opened another half inch.
Prentice saw yellow light stream out of the crack. Instantly his throat felt very dry, very painful.
There was a noise. A low, murmurous sound, a susurrus, like distant humming.
"What's that?"
Dystal put a finger to his lips and motioned: "Here."
Prentice knelt down at the window and looked into the light.
At first he could not believe what his eyes saw.
It was a basement, like other basements in old houses, with a large iron furnace and a cement floor and heavy beams. This much he could recognize and understand. The rest, he could not.
In the center of the floor was a design; obviously drawn in colored chalks. It looked a bit, to Prentice, like a Star of David, although there were other designs around and within it. They were not particularly artistic, but they were intricate. In the middle was a large cup, similar to a salad bowl, vaguely familiar, empty.
"There," whispered Dystal, withdrawing.
Slightly to the left were drawn a circle and a pentagram, its five points touching the circumference equally.
Prentice blinked and turned his attention to the people.
Standing on a block of wood, surrounded by men and women, was a figure in a black robe and a serpent-shaped crown.
It was Ames.
His wife, Charlotte, dressed in a white gown, stood next to him. She held a brass lamp.
Also in robes and gowns were Ben and Rhoda Roth, Bud Reiker and his wife, the Cummingses, the Chamberses, the Johnsons-.
Prentice shook away his sudden dizziness and shaded his eyes.
To the right, near the furnace, was a table with a white sheet draped across it. And two feet away, an odd, six-sided structure with black candles burning from a dozen apertures.
"Listen," Dystal said.
Ames' eyes were closed, Softly, he was chanting:
All degradation, all sheer infamy,
Thou shalt endure. Thy head beneath the mire,
And drug of worthless women shall desire
As in some hateful dream, at last to lie;
Woman must trample thee thou respire
That deadliest fume;
The vilest worms must crawl, the loathliest vampires
gloom…
"The Great Beast," chuckled Dystal.
"I," said Ames, "am Ipsissimus," and the others chanted, "He is Ipsissimus."
"I have read the books, dark Lord. The Book of Sacred Magic of Abra-Melin the Mage I have read, and I reject it!"
"We reject it!" murmured the Roths.
"The power of Good shall be served by the power of Darkness, always."
He raised his hands. "In Thy altar is the stele of Ankf-f-n-Khonsu; there, also, The Book of the Dead and The Book of the Law, six candles to each side, my Lord, Bell, Burin, Lamen, Sword, Cup, and the Cakes of Life…"
Prentice looked at the people he had seen only a few hours ago in his living room, and shuddered. He felt very weak.
"We, your servants," said Ames, signing the words, "beseech your presence, Lord of Night and of Life Eternal, Ruler of the Souls of men in all Thy vast dominion.
Prentice started to rise, but Dystal grasped his jacket. "No," he said. "Wait. Wait another minute. This is something you ought to see."
". . . we live to serve you, grant us…"
"He's begging the devil to appear," whispered Dystal.
". . . tonight, and offer the greatest and most treasured gift. Accept our offering!" "Accept it!" cried the others.
"What the hell is this, anyway?" Prentice demanded, feverishly.
Then Ames stopped talking, and the rest were silent. Ames raised his left hand and lowered it. Chris Cummings and Bud Reiker bowed and walked backwards into the shadows where Prentice could not see them.
Charlotte Ames walked to the six-sided structure with the candles and picked up a long, thin object.
She returned and handed this to her husband. It was a knife.
"Killnotshaltthou!" screamed Ed Chambers, and he stepped across the pentagram to the sheet-shrouded table.
Prentice rubbed his eyes.
"Shhh."
Bud Reiker and Chris Cummings returned to the center of light then. They were carrying a bundle. It was wrapped in blankets.
The bundle thrashed and made peculiar muffled noises. The men lifted it onto the table and held it.
Ames nodded and stepped down from the block of wood. He walked to the table and halted, the long-bladed butcher knife glittering in the glow of the candles.
"To Thee, O Lord of the Underground, we made this offering! To Thee, the rarest gift of all!"
"What is it?" Prentice asked. "What is this gift?"
Dystal's voice was ready and eager. "A virgin," he said.
Then they removed the blanket.
Prentice felt his eyes bursting from their sockets, felt his heart charging the walls of his chest.
"Ann," he said, in a choked whisper. "Ann!" The knife went up.
Prentice scrambled to his feet and fought the dizziness. "Dystal," he cried.
"Dystal, for God's sake, what are they doing? Stop them. You hear me? Stop them!"
"I can't," said Matthew Dystal, sadly. "It's too late. I'm afraid your wife said a few things she shouldn't have, Prentice. You see-we've been looking for a real one for such a long time…"
Prentice tried to lunge, but the effort lost him his balance. He fell to the ground. His arms and legs were growing numb, and he remembered, suddenly, the bitter taste of the drink he'd had.
"It really couldn't have been avoided, though," Dystal said. "I mean, the boy knew, and he'd have told you eventually. And you'd have begun investigating, and-oh, you understand. I told Lucian we should have bought the place, but he's so obstinate; thinks he knows everything! Now, of course, we'll have to burn it, and that does seem a terrible waste." He shook his head from side to side. "But don't you worry," he said. "You'll be asleep by then and, I promise, you won't feel a thing. Really."
Prentice turned his eyes from the window and screamed silently for a long time.

PERCHANCE TO DREAM

by Charles Beaumont

"Please sit down," the psychiatrist said, indicating a somewhat worn leather couch.
Automatically, Hall sat down. Instinctively, he leaned back. Dizziness flooded through him, his eyelids fell like sashweights, the blackness came. He jumped up quickly and slapped his right cheek, then he slapped his left cheek, hard.
"I'm sorry, Doctor," he said.
The psychiatrist, who was tall and young and not in the least Viennese nodded. "You prefer to stand?" he asked, gently.
"Prefer?" Hall threw his head back and laughed. "That's good," he said. "Prefer!"
"I'm afraid I don't quite understand."
"Neither do I, Doctor." He pinched the flesh of his left hand until it hurt. "No, no: that isn't true. I do understand. That's the whole trouble. I do."
"You-want to tell me about it?"
"Yes. No." It's silly, he thought. You can't help me. No one can. I'm alone! "Forget it," he said and started for the door.
The psychiatrist said, "Wait a minute." His voice was friendly, concerned; but not patronizing. "Running away won't do you much good, will it?"
Hall hesitated.
"Forgive the cliché. Actually, running away is often the best answer. But I don't know yet that yours is that sort of problem."
"Did Dr. Jackson tell you about me?"
"No. Jim said he was sending you over, but he thought you'd do a better job on the details. I only know that your name is Philip Hall, you're thirty-one, and you haven't been able to sleep for a long time."
"Yes. A long time…" To be exact, seventy-two hours, Hall thought, glancing at the clock. Seventy-two horrible hours…
The psychiatrist tapped out a cigarette. "Aren't you-" he began.
"Tired? God yes. I'm the tiredest man on Earth! I could sleep forever. But that's just it, you see: I would. I'd never wake up."
"Please," the psychiatrist said.
Hall bit his lip. There wasn't, he supposed, much point to it. But, after all, what else was there for him to do? Where would he go? "You mind if I pace?"
"Stand on your head, if you like."
"Okay. I'll take one of your cigarettes." He drew the smoke into his lungs and walked over to the window. Fourteen floors below, the toy people and the toy cars moved. He watched them and thought, this guy's all right. Sharp. Intelligent. Nothing like what I expected. Who can say-maybe it'll do some good. "I'm not sure where to begin."
"It doesn't matter. The beginning might be easier for you."
Hall shook his head, violently. The beginning, he thought. Was there such a thing?
"Just take it easy."
After a lengthy pause, Hall said: "I first found out about the power of the human mind when I was ten. Close to that time, anyway. We had a tapestry in the bedroom. It was a great big thing, the size of a rug, with fringe on the edges. It showed a group of soldiers-Napoleonic soldiers-on horses. They were at the brink of some kind of cliff, and the first horse was reared up. My mother told me something. She told me that if I stared at the tapestry long enough, the horses would start to move. They'd go right over the cliff, she said. I tried it, but nothing happened. She said, 'You've got to take time. You've got to think about it.' So, every night, before I went to bed, I'd sit up and stare at that damn tapestry. And, finally, it happened. Over they went, all the horses, all the men, over the edge of the cliff…"    Hall stubbed out the cigarette and began to pace. "Scared hell out of me," he said. "When I looked again, they were all back. It got to be a game with me. Later on, I tried it with pictures in magazines, and pretty soon I was able to move locomotives and send balloons flying and make dogs open their mouths: everything, anything I wanted."
He paused, ran a hand through his hair. "Not too unusual, you're thinking," he said. "Every kid does it. Like standing in a closet and shining a flashlight through your finger, or sewing up the heel of your palm… common stuff?"
The psychiatrist shrugged.
"There was a difference," Hall said. "One day it got out of control. I was looking at a coloring book. One of the pictures showed a knight and a dragon fighting. For fun I decided to make the knight drop his lance. He did. The dragon started after him, breathing fire. In another second the dragon's mouth was open and he was getting ready to eat the knight. I blinked and shook my head, like always, only-nothing happened. I mean, the picture didn't go back. Not even when I closed the book and opened it again. But I didn't think too much about it, even then."
He walked to the desk and took another cigarette. It slipped from his hands.
"You've been on Dexedrine," the psychiatrist said, watching as Hall tried to pick up the cigarette.
"Yes ."
"How many grains a day?"
"Thirty, thirty-five, I don't know."
"Potent. Knocks out your co-ordination. I suppose Jim warned you?"
"Yes, he warned me."
"Well, let's get along. What happened then?"
"Nothing." Hall allowed the psychiatrist to light his cigarette. "For a while, I forgot about the 'game' almost completely. Then, when I turned thirteen, I got sick. Rheumatic heart-"
The psychiatrist leaned forward and frowned. "And Jim let you have thirty-five-"
"Don't interrupt!" He decided not to mention that he had gotten the drug from his aunt, that Dr. Jackson knew nothing about it. "I had to stay in bed a lot. No activity; might kill me. So I read books and listened to the radio. One night I heard a ghost story. 'Hermit's Cave' it was called. All about a man who gets drowned and comes back to haunt his wife. My parents were gone, at a movie. I was alone. And I kept thinking about that story, imagining the ghost. Maybe, I thought to myself, he's in that closet. I knew he wasn't; I knew there wasn't any such thing as a ghost, really. But there was a little part of my mind that kept saying, 'Look at the closet. Watch the door. He's in there, Philip, and he's going to come out.' I picked up a book and tried to read, but I couldn't help glancing at the closet door. It was open a crack. Everything dark behind it. Everything dark and quiet."
"And the door moved."
"That's right."
"You understand that there's nothing terribly unusual in anything you've said so far?"
"I know," Hall said. "It was my imagination. It was, and I realized it even then. But-I got just as scared. Just as scared as if a ghost actually had opened that door! And that's the whole point. The mind, Doctor. It's everything. If you think you have a pain in your arm and there's no physical reason for it, you don't hurt any less… My mother died because she thought she had a fatal disease. The autopsy showed malnutrition, nothing else. But she died just the same!"
"I won't dispute the point."
"All right. I just don't want you to tell me it's all in my mind. I know it is."
"Go on."
"They told me I'd never really get well, I'd have to take it easy the rest of my life. Because of the heart. No strenuous exercises, no stairs, no long walks. No shocks. Shock produces excessive adrenalin, they said. Bad, So that's the way it was. When I got out of school, I grabbed a soft desk job. Unexciting: numbers, adding numbers, that's all. Things went okay for a few years. Then it started again. I read about where some woman got into her car at night and happened to check for something in the back seat and found a man hidden there. Waiting. It stuck with me; I started dream. ing about it. So every night, when I got into my car, I automatically patted the rear seat and floorboards. It satisfied me for a while, until I started thinking, 'What if I forget to check?' Or, 'What if there's something back there that isn't human?' I had to drive across Laurel Canyon to get home, and you know how twisty that stretch is. Thirty-fifty-foot drops, straight down. I'd get this feeling halfway across. 'There's someone… something… in the back of the car!' Hidden, in darkness. Fat and shiny. I'll look in the rear-view mirror and I'll see his hands ready to circle my throat… Again, Doctor: understand me. I knew it was my imagination. I had no doubt at all that the back seat was empty-hell, I kept the car locked and I double-checked! But, I told myself, you keep thinking this way, Hall, and you'll see those hands. It'll be a reflection, or somebody's headlights, or nothing at all-but you'll see them! Finally, one night, I did see them! The car lurched a couple of times and went down the embankment."
The psychiatrist said, "Wait a minute," rose, and switched the tape on a small machine.
"I knew how powerful the mind was, then," Hall continued. "I know that ghosts and demons did exist, they did, if you only thought about them long enough and hard enough. After all, one of them almost killed me!" He pressed the lighted end of the cigarette against his flesh; the fog lifted instantly. "Dr. Jackson told me afterwards that one more serious shock like that would finish me. And that's when I started having the dream."
There was a silence in the room, compounded of distant automobile horns, the ticking of the ship's-wheel clock, the insectival tapping of the receptionist's typewriter. Hall's own tortured breathing.
"They say dreams last only a couple of seconds," he said. "I don't know whether that's true or not. It doesn't matter. They seem to last longer. Sometimes I've dreamed a whole lifetime; sometimes generations have passed. Once in a while, time stops completely; it's a frozen moment, lasting forever. When I was a kid I saw the Flash Gordon serials; you remember? I loved them, and when the last episode was over, I went home and started dreaming more. Each night, another episode. They were vivid, too, and I remembered them when I woke up. I even wrote them down, to make sure I wouldn't forget. Crazy?"
"No," said the psychiatrist.
"I did, anyway. The same thing happened with the Oz books and the Burroughs books. I'd keep them going. But after the age of fifteen, or so, I didn't dream much. Only once in a while. Then, a week ago-" Hall stopped talking. He asked the location of the bathroom and went there and splashed cold water on his face. Then he returned and stood by the window.
"A week ago?" the psychiatrist said, flipping the tape machine back on.
"I went to bed around eleven-thirty. I wasn't too tired, but I needed the rest, on account of my heart. Right away the dream started. I was walking along Venice Pier. It was close to midnight. The place was crowded, people everywhere; you know the kind they used to get there. Sailors, dumpy looking dames, kids in leather jackets. The pitchmen were going through their routines. You could hear the roller coasters thundering along the tracks, the people inside the roller coasters, screaming; you could hear the bells and the guns cracking and the crazy songs they play on calliopes. And, far away, the ocean, moving. Everything was bright and gaudy and cheap. I walked for a while, stepping on gum and candy apples, wondering why I was there." Hall's eyes closed. He opened them quickly and rubbed them. "Halfway to the end, passing the penny arcade, I saw a girl. She was about twenty-two or -three. White dress, very thin and tight, and a funny white hat. Her legs were bare, nicely muscled and tan. She was alone. I stopped and watched her, and I remember thinking, "She must have a boy friend. He must be here somewhere." But she didn't seem to be waiting for anyone, or looking. Unconsciously, I began to follow her. At a distance.
"She walked past a couple of concessions, then she stopped at one called 'The Whip' and strolled in and went for a ride. The air was hot. It caught her dress as she went around and sent it whirling. It didn't bother her at all. She just held onto the bar and closed her eyes, and-I don't know, a kind of ecstasy seemed to come over her. She began to laugh. A high-pitched, musical sound. I stood by the fence and watched her, wondering why such a beautiful girl should be laughing in a cheap carnival ride, in the middle of the night, all by herself. Then my hands froze on the fence, because suddenly I saw that she was looking at me. Every time the car would whip around, she'd be looking. And there was something that said, Don't go away, don't leave, don't move…
"The ride stopped and she got out and walked over to me. As naturally as if we'd known each other for years, she put her arm in mine, and said, 'We've been expecting you, Mr. Hall.' Her voice was deep and soft, and her face, close up, was even more beautiful than it had seemed. Full, rich lips, a little wet; dark, flashing eyes; a warm gleam to her flesh. I didn't answer. She laughed again and tugged at my sleeve. 'Come on, darling,' she said. 'We haven't much time.' And we walked, almost running, to The Silver Flash-a roller coaster, the highest on the pier. I knew I shouldn't go on it because of my heart condition, but she wouldn't listen. She said I had to, for her. So we bought our tickets and got into the first seat of the car…"
Hall held his breath for a moment, then let it out, slowly. As he relived the episode, he found that it was easier to stay awake. Much easier.
"That," he said, "was the end of the first dream. I woke up sweating and trembling, and thought about it most of the day, wondering where it had all come from. I'd only been to Venice Pier once in my life, with my mother. Years ago. But that night, just as it'd happened with the serials, the dream picked up exactly where it had left off. We were settling into the seat. Rough leather, cracked and peeling, I recall. The grab bar iron, painted black, the paint rubbed away in the center.
"I tried to get out, thinking. Now's the time to do it; do it now or you'll be too late! But the girl held me, and whispered to me. We'd be together, she said. Close together. If I'd do this one thing for her, she'd belong to me. 'Please! Please!' Then the car started. A little jerk; the kids beginning to yell and scream; the clack-clack of the chain pulling up; and up, slowly, too late now, too late for anything, up the steep wooden hill…"

"A third of the way to the top, with her holding me, pressing herself against me, I woke up again. Next night, we went up a little farther. Foot by foot, slowly, up the hill. At the half-way point, the girl began kissing me. And laughing. 'Look down!' she told me. 'Look down, Philip!' And I did and saw little people and little cars and everything tiny and unreal.
"Finally we were within a few feet of the crest. The night was black and the wind was fast and cold now, and I was scared, so scared that I couldn't move. The girl laughed louder than ever, and a strange expression came into her eyes. I remembered then how no one else had noticed her. How the ticket-taker had taken the two stubs and looked around questioningly.
"Who are you?" I screamed. And she said, 'Don't you know?' And she stood up and pulled the grab-bar out of my hands. I leaned forward to get it.
"Then we reached the top. And I saw her face and I knew what she was going to do, instantly: I knew. I tried to get back in the seat, but I felt her hands on me then and I heard her voice, laughing, high, laughing and shrieking with delight, and-"
Hall smashed his fist against the wall, stopped and waited for calm to return.
When it did, he said, "That's the whole thing, Doctor. Now you know why I don't care to go to sleep. When I do-and I'll have to, eventually; I realize that!-the dream will go on. And my heart won't take it!"
The psychiatrist pressed a button on his desk.
"Whoever she is," Hall went on, "she'll push me. And I'll fall. Hundreds of feet. I'll see the cement rushing up in a blur to meet me and I'll feel the first horrible pain of contact-"
There was a click.
The office door opened.
A girl walked in.
"Miss Thomas," the psychiatrist began, "I'd like you to-"
Philip Hall screamed. He stared at the girl in the white nurse's uniform and took a step backward. "Oh, Christ! No!"
"Mr. Hall, this is my receptionist, Miss Thomas."
"No," Hall cried. "It's her. It is. And I know who she is now, God save me! I know who she is!"
The girl in the white uniform took a tentative step into the room.
Hall screamed again, threw his hands over his face, turned and tried to run.
A voice called, "Stop him!"
Hall felt the sharp pain of the sill against his knee, realized in one hideous moment what was happening. Blindly he reached out, grasping. But it was too late. As if drawn by a giant force, he tumbled through the open window, out into the cold clean air.
"Hall!"
All the way down, all the long and endless way down past the thirteen floors to the gray, unyielding, hard concrete, his mind worked; and his eyes never closed…
"I'm afraid he's dead," the psychiatrist said, removing his fingers from Hall's wrist.
The girl in the white uniform made a little gasping sound. "But," she said, "only a minute ago, I saw him and he was-"
"I know. It's funny; when he came in, I told him to sit down. He did. And in less than two seconds he was asleep. Then he gave that yell you heard and . .
"Heart attack?"
"Yes." The psychiatrist rubbed his cheek thoughtfully. "Well," he said. "I guess there are worse ways to go. At least he died peacefully."