His hand dropped onto my head and I responded to the pressure, letting him set the rhythm as I my headed bobbed up and down. When he pushed me down further, I didn't fight it, taking as much of him as I could. Then, suddenly, he was pulling me off of him and picking me up.
I barely had the chance to register the cool edge of the table under my ass before Cade was shoving his fingers inside of me. I cried out, my eyes closing as his fingers thrust into me, stretching me, preparing me. When they curled up to press against my g-spot, I nearly fell back. Only Cade's arm wrapping around my waist kept me upright.
He bent his head and wrapped his lips around one of my nipples. There was no slow build-up or licking. He just began to suck, hard. I dug my fingers into his hair, moaning as each pull of his mouth corresponded to his fingers rubbing against that spot inside of me. I'd never gone from zero to sixty this fast before and my body was shaking as it struggled to process how rapidly my orgasm was approaching.
He bit down on my nipple, and my hips jerked, forcing his fingers harder and deeper.
“Yes!” I ground down on his hand. “Yes, Cade!” I came calling out his name. I heard him swear as my pussy tightened around his fingers and then his hand was gone, leaving me gasping.
Pleasure was still racing along my nerves when, a moment later, I felt the head of Cade's cock against my pussy. Latex slipped against my skin and I had the absurd thought that Cade must've been a Boy Scout because he definitely lived by the 'always be prepared' motto when it came to sex. Then he was pushing into me and I thought about nothing but him inside me.
I was stretched enough from last night and his fingers that he was able to slide in smoothly, but my body was still sensitive from the previous pounding I'd received and the orgasm I'd had only seconds ago. I could feel every inch of him. I wrapped my legs around his waist, my arms around his neck. One of his hands went to the small of my back, the other between my shoulder-blades, giving him the leverage he needed.
His eyes locked with mine as he began to fuck me. I could feel his ass flexing against my calves with every stroke, the muscles in his arms hard and tight as he held me in place. Our breathing was harsh, mingling with the sound of our flesh coming together over and over.
I tilted my head, bringing our mouths together. Cade's fingers curled against my back as I thrust my tongue into his mouth. He made a sound in the back of his throat and I curled my tongue around his. They danced together, chasing back and forth between our mouths, sliding against each other as our lower bodies came together with greater intensity, working us both toward the inevitable.
I caught his bottom lip between my teeth and worried at it until Cade growled. He pulled out of me, yanking me off of the table and spinning me around so that I was bent over the table, my hands the only things keeping me from falling. I cried out as he grabbed my hips and slammed into me. My nipples rubbed against the smooth wood of the tabletop as each thrust pushed me forward.
“Touch yourself.” The command was harsh. “I'm close. Make yourself come.”
I shifted my weight so that I could move one hand beneath me. I was close enough that it wasn't going to take much. I wondered if I could come on his cock alone, but I didn't want to take the chance of him finishing before I could find out. I needed to come. My entire body was humming with tension, ready to explode. Cade's rhythm faltered as he drove into me and I knew he wasn't too far away. My fingers found my clit engorged and throbbing, begging for attention. I closed my eyes as I rubbed my clit, shutting out everything but the pleasure coursing through me. When Cade shoved himself deep inside me, the end of him hitting against the end of me, I let out a breathless scream and came.
White spots danced behind my eyelids as Cade came with a shout. He slumped over me for a moment, his hands on either side of my body. I was limp, barely able to hold myself upright as I gasped for air. I waited for him to say something, to help me up, anything.
I made a small pained sound as he pulled out. If this was what it was like after two days in a row, I could hardly imagine how I'd feel after a whole weekend of getting fucked by Cade. I'd need a full day to recover.
“I'm going to get cleaned up,” Cade said. He continued speaking as he walked toward his bedroom. “You have a spa appointment at one if you want to soak in the tub before you go. It's a whole exfoliating, waxing thing. You'll be done in plenty of time for your date.”
I pushed myself up off of the table and reached down for my robe. My hands were shaking as I pulled it on, suddenly feeling used and exposed. My eyes burned with tears and I hurried toward my bedroom, needing the privacy of my bathroom before I gave in to the dark emotions filling me.
Humiliation.
Rejection.
I'd offered myself to him and he'd taken what I'd given, but he didn't want me. I was a job. A body he found physically attractive and enjoyed fucking. Nothing else.
Chapter 9
The spa treatment was wonderful. Even the waxing hadn't been an entirely unpleasant experience. There'd been a facial and a massage that had left my skin tingling and my muscles relaxed. The only thing that would've made it better would've been if I had been getting ready for a date with someone I cared about. I refused to put a name in there. He'd made it perfectly clear where I stood with him.
The hotel room was empty when I got back, but I went straight to my room anyway. I didn't want to risk running into Cade as I was unsure how to handle what had happened. I couldn't tell him I was upset or that would bring up questions as to why I felt that way, and that would lead to the end of everything. I wasn't sure I was ready for that just yet.
I laid out all of the clothes I'd brought with me and began to look through them to find something perfect for tonight. I didn't really want to go through with it, but it was the only way to keep up the pretense with Cade. Besides, I thought, there was always the off chance that I could actually have fun. And hadn't that been the entire point of this whole thing? For me to prove I wasn't some pathetic loser who needed her friends to set her up on pity dates? Granted, Cade had set this one up, but this was a test, not pity.
I picked up the teddy I'd bought for my ex-fiancé to enjoy. I'd brought the clothes, thinking that using them with someone other than Ronald would somehow fulfill the promise of that missed opportunity. I saw the whole truth of it. This whole trip, I'd been trying to make it a replacement for what I hadn't gotten with my ex. An out-of-country trip. A five-star hotel. Hot sex.
This wasn't a romantic getaway, though. And nothing that happened this weekend would have any sort of special meaning. If anything, what I was doing with Cade just cheapened everything. I put on the teddy and then looked through the dresses I'd brought. There was no use saving any of this.
Most of the clothes I'd bought for my honeymoon had been for a Caribbean cruise in August, not Toronto in October, but I had purchased a couple warmer outfits, not knowing how cold it would get on the ocean at night. I picked one of those now, a clingy deep blue sweater-dress. The deep v-neck showed off the tops of my breasts and the hemline was mid-thigh, revealing enough leg to get some attention. It was attractive without promising too much.
I was ready early, but stayed in my room. At five-thirty, a text came through. It was Cade letting me know that a car was ready to take me to the restaurant. I scowled at his message and then shoved my phone into my purse. The entire ride down to the lobby, I told myself that I needed to focus on having a good time, on proving I could do this. I needed to prove it to myself as much as anyone else.
The driver didn't try to talk to me on the ride, which I was grateful for. I didn't want to make small talk at the moment. I had enough of that in my near future. When I walked into La Vecchía Ristorante, for a moment, I forgot about the circumstances surrounding my being there. The place was gorgeous. Warm lighting, stone walls, just the right combination of romantic and chic so that it was perfect for any sort of date. Grudgingly, I admitted that Cade had done well in choosing it.
“Ms. Gamble?” The hostess interrupted my thoughts.
“Yes?” I was surprised she knew who I was, but I didn't ask. I had a feeling Cade had taken care of it and I didn't want to think about him anymore for the rest of the night.
“Your table's right this way.”
She led me to a table near the back. I perused my menu while I waited, but I didn't have to distract myself for very long. A few minutes after I'd been seated, one of my quick glances toward the doors showed the hostess coming my way again, a man close behind her. I set aside my menu, deciding I didn't want to try to play coy and pretend to not be watching. I let myself study my date as he came closer.
He was tall, even taller than Cade, and more muscular. Cade's build wasn't quite thin enough to be lean, but my date was almost too big for my tastes. His hair was golden blond and cropped short. Not military, exactly, but in that same vein. As he drew closer, he smiled and I saw straight white teeth, a dimple and warm brown eyes. His features were cute rather than handsome or pretty. All-in-all, a nice package. I found myself wondering what had prompted Cade to pick someone like this guy. It wasn't like we'd discussed the types of guys I found attractive. As far as I knew, he didn't even know what Ronald looked like, so he couldn't have used that as a template. Not that my date looked like my ex. What made me so curious was that it seemed like Cade had purposefully picked someone who didn't look anything like him.
As my date sat down, he extended his hand across the table. “Jason Lowe.”
“Aubree Gamble,” I answered automatically as I shook his hand. “Call me Bree.” I didn't want anyone else calling me Aubree, especially not someone I was supposed to seduce.
“It's nice to meet you, Bree.” He flashed another charming smile and then looked at the waiter who'd appeared. “I'll start with water, but if my date is amenable, we'll be ordering wine with the main course.”
Amenable. And used correctly. That earned points from the English teacher. Another point for not ordering for me. He was doing well so far. “That sounds lovely.”
We chatted about menu choices and wines while we decided what we wanted. Once we'd put in our orders, the conversation shifted to the usual introductory small talk. I tried not to tense as I remembered how this had been the point in my last date where things had started going south. I hoped Jason wasn't as self-absorbed as Steven Danforth had been.
“Your friend didn't tell me much about you except that you were gorgeous.”
“Thank you,” I said. Surprisingly, I didn't blush. I wasn't sure if that was because I'd gotten used to the compliments or if it was simply the difference in who was saying them. I really hoped it was the first. “He didn't say anything about you at all.” I smiled and sipped at my water. “But if he had, I'm sure he would've been equally complimentary.”
Jason laughed, a nice sound without any innuendo or double-meaning attached to it. “So, Bree, do you mind if I ask what you do for a living?”
“I'm a teacher.”
As the questions went back and forth, I realized why Cade had chosen for this date to be outside of Chicago. Both Jason and I were giving ambiguous enough answers that, while we were learning about each other, we also weren't providing enough information that could be used to find the other. Our names alone wasn’t sufficient.
The conversation flowed more smoothly than I'd expected and I found myself relaxing a bit more. Jason was a charmer, but not in a sleazy kind of way. He seemed to be genuinely interested in what I had to say, but not so much so that I didn't find out he was divorced, worked for a pharmaceutical company and traveled a lot. He didn't take himself too seriously, but wasn't flippant about things either. He was sweet, humble with just the right amount of confidence. He was everything I should've been looking for in a first date. In a relationship, even.
Except I couldn't stop thinking about the ways he wasn't like Cade. His looks. His smile. The way he carried himself. Even how he spoke. It wasn't that I didn't think Jason was attractive, but he wasn't the one I wanted. It didn't matter that Cade had made it perfectly clear that there wasn't anything between the two of us but business.
I barely tasted any of the delicious food in front of me, spending more time pushing it around on my plate so I looked busier than I was. The more time that passed with Jason, the more I realized this wasn't going to work. I should've been enjoying Jason's company and trying to figure out if I wanted to invite him back to my room, but instead, I was wondering if Cade would be there when I went back.
“If you'll excuse me,” I said abruptly. I stood and gave Jason a smile. “I just need to use the ladies' room.” I took my purse and headed toward the restrooms.
The bathroom was empty and I breathed a sigh of relief. I went to the sink, wishing I could splash cold water on my face without ruining my make-up. Instead, I settled on washing my hands and then pressed a damp paper towel against the back of my neck. I couldn't do this anymore. It wasn't fair to Jason. I knew the date hadn't been set up under the most honest of explanations, but he at least deserved someone who wasn't thinking about another man.
I could tell him I wasn't feeling well. The fact that I'd hurried away to the restroom would support a lie. And it wasn't entirely untrue. The thought of having a one-night stand with a virtual stranger was turning my stomach. If I couldn't have Cade, that was one thing, but even after all of his 'teaching,' I still wasn’t the type of woman to have sex with someone I felt nothing for.
My phone rang and I dug it out of my purse, answering without even bothering to see who it was.
“Don't do it.”
The sound of Cade's voice sent my pulse racing. Had he just called to tell me not to sleep with Jason? A small flare of hope perked up inside me.
“You're thinking of walking out, aren't you?”
“What?”
“Did you really think I'd send you on a date with a perfect stranger and not keep an eye on you?” His voice was flat. “I've been watching you, Aubree, and you're faking it. Badly. Running to the bathroom was an excuse to back out without hurting poor Jason's feelings. I bet you were planning to lie, planned to tell him you were sick, weren’t you? Because Aubree Gamble is too nice to tell the truth and too chicken shit to follow through.”