By a Spider's Thread: A Tess Monaghan Novel (19 page)

“Why are you telling me this? Take my advice, these are not the sort of confidences that a businesswoman imparts to someone who has hired her. I don’t wish to know anything about your private life.”

“I’m confiding in you because I’m human, and I know how this feels. Okay, you say your wife would never cheat on you, that you’d know, in your bones, if she had slept with another man. And maybe you’re right. But in my line of work, I see people who do things primarily for two reasons — sex and money.”

“Surely there are other reasons, other secrets.”

Tess nodded. “Yes, there’s shame, the need to cover up a past transgression. Is that involved here? Is there anything else you’re not telling me?”

Rubin shook his head.

“Your wife left you, forgoing money. She’s driving around in the Midwest in some old clunker of a car and eating at McDonald’s, which wasn’t kosher last time I checked. Did she want to get away from you and your life that badly? Or did she want someone else that much? It’s one or the other, and it could be both.”

She thought her harsh words might make the always-emotional Rubin dissolve into tears, but he just stared into the distance, shaking his head. He truly seemed overwhelmed by everything she had told him, which surprised Tess. Typically, the revelation of an affair was an
aha
moment that shed light on many smaller mysteries in a person’s life. It was like living in a house where plaster cracked and faucets leaked and wind whistled around the window frames, then finding out the foundation was sliding off the slab.

“I believed in my marriage,” he said at last. “I would never be so blasphemous as to compare it to a religion, but I counted on it and assumed it would always be there for me.”

“People make mistakes,” Tess said. “They do stupid things. I don’t know if your wife will ever come back to you once I find her. But if that’s what you want, you’re going to have to forgive her and be open to understanding why she did what she did.”

“
When
you find her. Why are you suddenly so confident, when you’ve just told me you have no leads?”

“Because we have someone helping us out.”

“That friend of yours? With all due respect, I don’t see anything extraordinary in her efforts so far.”

“Gretchen did okay with what we gave her. But the accomplice I’m really counting on is your son Isaac. He tried to call you twice yesterday. And he’s quite the little schemer — hustling money for the first call, calling collect the second time.”

“He’s a smart boy, at the top of his class,” Rubin said, allowing himself a moment of fatherly pride.

“So we’ve got someone working for us on the inside. But we can’t put everything on him, and we can’t give up. I’d like your permission to visit Natalie’s father, ask him the secret he’s been sitting on all these years.”

“No.”

“I won’t tell you what it is. That way you won’t break your promise to Natalie. And if it has no bearing on her disappearance, we’ll never speak of it again. Deal?”

She would have liked to offer her hand, but she knew better. Instead she tipped her glass close to Rubin’s. He hesitated, then clinked hers. They were good glasses, Riedel, a single goblet worth more than Tess’s entire set of mismatched glassware.

They also had to be hand-washed. Another reason, in Tess’s opinion, to run away. A sixty-dollar glass was a luxury only if you didn’t have to wash it yourself.

I
thought you said I could wear black,” Tess said, standing on a footstool in a huge dressing room and tugging miserably at a tube of crimson silk. Clearly intended for a beanpole without freckles on her shoulders, the dress had one zipper, two seams, an elasticized band around the top, and a fourteen-hundred-dollar price tag. There was more workmanship in the apron that Tess had made in home ec at Rock Glen Junior High. The apron had
pockets.

“Black would be fine, but it’s so boring and safe,” Kitty said, studying Tess and then Tess’s reflection, as if the mirror might yield a more pleasing verdict. “I wanted to see you in some colors for a change.”

“It’s appalling to pay this much for a dress like this.”

“I don’t care for it much either. Your hair and skin are going to fight that shade of red every step of the way.”

“No, I don’t mean
this
dress, I mean any dress that’s all label and Third World workmanship. Jesus, Kitty, let’s go to C-Mart when the next truck rolls in, buy a marked-down gown from Saks, and give the rest of what you were planning to spend to one of the local soup kitchens. Besides, who knows? You might find another Prada bag marked down to seventy-five dollars.”

Kitty had indeed unearthed a Prada bag at C-Mart five years ago, and it was the stuff of family legend. Tess’s mother, Judith, had driven the thirty-plus miles out to the Belair warehouse several times with her Weinstein sisters-in-law, hoping to repeat Kitty’s good luck. Prada proved elusive, but Judith had ended up with an out-of-season Kate Spade, a pair of Stuart Weitzman pumps, and several cashmere twinsets for twenty dollars apiece.

But Kitty was a Monaghan. She didn’t mind paying retail to get what she wanted — or even asking these bridal boutiques to open on Sunday, just for her, so she didn’t have to miss a day of work in her own store. Kitty’s Karma, the family called it.

“I told you, this is my gift to you.” Kitty kept circling Tess, poking and prodding, as if her persuasive hands could make the dress behave. “I’m exercising my bridal prerogative to boss you around, but instead of forcing you into some hideous lavender tulle concoction to match an insane color scheme, I want to pick out your dress and mine, then work backward, base everything on that. Just once I want you to have a perfect dress, the kind of thing you would never buy yourself.”

“But it’s such a waste.”

“Far from it. Trust me, Tess. One day you’ll regret not making more of the time in your life when all you needed was a little eye-liner to be dazzling. Does Crow have a tux?”

“I have no idea.”

“Well, it’s black tie optional, and I know he doesn’t have money to spring for a new one, and rentals never fit right. But I wouldn’t be surprised if his father had one he could wear. Mention that the next time you talk to him.”

“Sure.”

“Was he surprised? I hope he doesn’t mind that we’re going to go with a little jazz combo instead of one of the more avant-garde local bands he champions.”

“ ‘I knew the bride,’ ” Tess said ruefully, “ ‘when she used to rock and roll.’ ”

She had quoted the old song title just to change the subject, but as soon as she spoke, Tess had a vivid image of Kitty as a young college student, throwing herself around the Monaghan living room to some cutting-edge punk band, showing a young Tess how to pogo. She had been a most satisfactory aunt all these years. She was entitled to a little bridal madness.

The saleslady appeared with a tray of tea, sandwiches, and cheese puffs, and Tess looked at them with longing. But she wouldn’t dare eat a crumb while surrounded by ten thousand dollars’ worth of dry-clean-only duds.

“No luck with the red?” the woman asked a little too brightly. She was extremely thin, perhaps even a size zero, but a tad old to carry the youthful fashions she wore.

“Do I look like I’m having any luck with the red?” Tess asked.

“What about the salmon?”

“The color was okay, but the style was wrong,” Kitty said. “Too fussy.”

“Ah. Now, if it were you —”

“But it’s not for me. We’re shopping for my niece today.”

This was the third store of the afternoon, and they had heard this same wistful refrain before.
If it were you
…Kitty, with her petite figure, peachy skin, and red-blond curls, was a saleswoman’s dream, even if she didn’t have the height to carry true couture. Tess, clomping behind her in boots and jeans and sweater, had felt like one of Cinderella’s stepsisters.

“What are you going to do with the hair?” the saleslady asked, as if it were a stray pet Tess had adopted, not part of her body.

“Shave it,” Kitty said. “Mine, too. Everyone at the wedding is going to be bald. I saw it in
InStyle
magazine. Very chic, and it saves a fortune on hairdressers.”

The saleslady backed away with a nervous smile, and Tess was reassured that her aunt had not completely lost her sense of humor.

“Can we break for lunch?”

“Just one more stop,” Kitty said, using the soft, wheedling tone that had sold so many books and won so many men before she decided she could live with just one. “There’s a place in Towson that carries Vera Wang.”

“Vera Wang doesn’t really do hips, which I have in abundance.”

“But she does do cleavage, which you also have in abundance.”

“I’ve never gone for that bosomy swell where you end up on nipple patrol the whole evening, worrying that an entire breast might pop out of the top of your dress and hit someone in the face.”

“Good point,” Kitty said, studying Tess’s décolletage, which was fighting the red dress even harder than her hair and her skin. “We couldn’t afford the liability insurance if those things got loose at the reception. High neck it is.”

Gratefully, Tess jumped down from the footstool, knocking over her bag, which sent her gun skittering across the floor. Kitty lifted the hem of her ankle-length skirt, as if the Beretta were a rodent.

“Do you always carry that now?”

“Everywhere it’s legal.”

“Will you insist on bringing it to the wedding?” Kitty was striving for a light tone, but Tess could tell she was upset. She didn’t like guns, and she didn’t like being reminded that Tess would now be dead without one. Her aunt simply could not reconcile those two facts. Tess understood. She wasn’t particularly fond of this reality either, but she was getting used to it. She tried to think of the Beretta as a paradoxical talisman: As long as she had it, she would never need it.

“Depends on whether the dress has a belt, so I can holster it. Of course, I also have a shoulder holster. Or maybe that fancy handbag designer, the one who does all those one-of-a-kind bags for Oscar night, could whip up something for an armed and dangerous bridesmaid.”

“You know, I think we should break for lunch after all.”

T
he little boy was looking for his father.

He went from room to room in the old house, only vaguely aware of the flames in the windows, the heat building up around him. He was not scared. He is never scared. From somewhere outside the house, his mother screamed, telling him to turn around, to come back, to flee to safety, but he paid no heed. He knew that his father was in the house somewhere, and he would not leave without his father. He walked from the third floor to the second, from the second to the first. The house was his family’s, the only house he had ever known. Yet it was unfamiliar-looking, with strange furniture he had never seen before. And the basement was still unfinished, not the playroom he used in the daytime, filled with toys and games and gadgets. This was a dark, creepy place with a cold stone floor, no furniture, and no electricity. Upstairs the fire crackled happily, making a sound like Jiffy Pop. He still was not afraid. Jiffy Pop was nothing to be afraid of. Maybe his father was making it for him. Only his father could make it right, so every kernel popped, just like it said on the bag.

And then he saw his father lying on the basement floor, dressed as if for work, his gray suit surrounded by a burgundy stain. Had Poppa spilled something? Cranberry juice or Hawaiian Punch? Would Mama be mad at Poppa for making a mess? There was a gun, his father’s gun, which he had to carry for work. But the gun was in Poppa’s right hand, and his father was left-handed, like him. Why was the gun in his right hand? Someone else must have killed him and tried to make it look like his father did it to himself.

The boy took the gun away and put it in his toy chest, which had suddenly materialized, and now the basement was the rec room he remembered, with the cast-off sofa and pine paneling and the old black-and-white RCA in the corner, because his father just bought a big color television for the den. Would they have to give the color television back, now that his father was dead?

Zeke willed himself awake, an essential trick to master for those prone to nightmares. He had thought the dream was the by-product of his old life and assumed it would end when he finally got out. But here it was again, more or less the same. Some details varied, but the fiery house remained constant. It always started off as a surreal approximation of the shingled Forest Park home his family had owned before his father’s death, then reclaimed itself at the end, taking on its true contours in case Zeke ever made the mistake of thinking his father’s suicide could be confined within the boundaries of a bad dream.

And the young Zeke always had some petty thought upon finding his father’s body.
Would they get to keep the color television? The new Cadillac?
Strange, the one question the dreamworld Zeke never asked was the one Zeke had asked in real life:
Did this mean they weren’t going to the Orioles game?
Zeke didn’t beat himself up too much over that. He was only five when his father died — in the basement of what was left of his business, as a matter of fact, not at home. And he was discovered by an employee, not his son, so the event had seemed unreal to the little boy. After all the rabbi’s vague talk about journeys and God’s fate and being summoned by the Angel of Death, Zeke came to believe that his father had gone to a place from which he might return. So he had asked what a five-year-old boy would have asked in those years, the glory years of McNally and Palmer and Brooks: “Does this mean we’re not going to the Orioles game?”