Broken Lives (10 page)

After our delicious dinner, the waitress
brings out a piece of lemon torte, two forks, and two cups of
coffee. I watch as Alec nods slightly to dismiss her. He squares
his shoulders and leans up slightly in his chair. “They have
excellent dessert here; however, I thought we would both be too
full to have dessert, so I thought we could share a piece. I wanted
you to get the full experience of this meal.” 

“
Thank you. Alec, this whole
meal was wonderful. Even without the dessert, I would say I got the
full experience.” 

“
You say that now, but you
haven’t tasted the torte yet.” He lifts both forks and hands me
one. 

I take the first bite and a moan escapes my
mouth. 

“
Now, you have just
experienced the full meal,” he says, laughing.
“I almost think that you and that torte should get a
room.” 

After dessert, Alec reaches for my hand and
smiles. “Emma, I hope you know how much I love you.” 

“
I love you, too.” I search
his eyes — they are dark and mysterious.

He leans up in his chair and squares his
shoulders, and then he gently caresses my fingers. “Over the past
couple of days, I was forced to make a decision. When Molly showed
up at James’ birthday party, I was forced to come to terms with my
life and the effects that it will have on you and James. I was
fooling myself when I thought I could keep my past away from the
present.”

“
Alec, I don’t understand?
What kind of decision?” 

“
I know you don’t understand
and I don’t expect you to. I want you to always trust me to do the
right thing. I will never ever lie to you or put you or James in
harm’s way.” 

“
I do, I trust
you.” 

He reaches into his jacket packet and pulls
out a velvet box. He gives me a slight smile and my heart skips a
beat. I open my mouth to say something and nothing comes out. I
lick my dry lips, without taking my eyes off of the small
box. 

“
No, Emma, it’s not what you
think it is.” He hands it to me and adds, “Not yet
anyway.” 

I let go of his hand and take the beautiful
velvet box from him and slowly open it. Inside is a stunning
platinum, infinity symbol pendant necklace. I move the box slightly
side to side and watch it shimmer under the muted lighting.
Smiling, I lightly touch it and admire its beauty. “This is
gorgeous.” 

“
It’s a symbol to represent
that I will
always
put you, James, and Raelynn first. I want you and James in my
life, forever.” 

I look at him and a tear slides down my
cheek. “Oh, Alec.” I stand and walk over to him. He pulls me onto
his lap and I immediately kiss him. I pull away, only long enough
to say, “I love you.” 

Alec

I gave Emma an infinity symbol necklace only
because I couldn’t give her an engagement ring. My divorce isn’t
final yet and my heart won’t allow me to be engaged to one woman
while being married to another, even if the marriage is only on
paper. Emma kisses me while sitting on my lap in a crowded
restaurant — I don’t care who is watching. I return her kiss with
just as much passion.

I take the necklace from her and ask, “May
I?” 

She stands up from my lap and I stand with
her. While I remove the necklace from the box, she lifts her hair
for me away from her neck. I reach around her and fasten the
necklace. She raises her hand to touch it before turning to face
me. I just smile at her beauty: her blond hair, her fair flawless
skin, and her big blue eyes. “Beautiful,” I say, talking about her
and not the necklace. 

“
Thank you, I love it.” She
stands on her tiptoes and kisses my cheek. 

“
Are you
ready?” 

“
Don’t you need to pay the
bill first?” 

“
I already took care of
it.” 

She looks up at me and smiles. “Oh, you’re
smooth.” 

I wink at her and she takes my hand.

On the drive home, she holds my hand like she
always does, before she reaches for her phone and texts someone.
She doesn’t say anything and I don’t ask. When we get home, I am
sad to think that our night is coming to an end. I look over at her
and say, “Thank you for a wonderful evening.” 

She holds my hand and smiles. “Thank you, it
was a perfect night. Everything, the restaurant, dinner, dessert,
and my stunning necklace.” She reaches up and lightly touches the
infinity symbol. 

“
You are more than welcome.
As they say, all good things must come to an end. Are you ready to
get the kids? Being a school night, I’m certain Brooke has them in
bed.” I look over and Brooke’s house is dark.

“
Alec?” 

I look back over at Emma, “What is
it?” 

“
I asked Brooke to keep the
kids all night. I’m not ready for this night to end
either.” 

My dick twitches at the thought of what this
might mean. “You want the kids to stay all night at Brooke and
Brice’s house?” 

“
If that is all right with
you, yes.” 

“
It’s just you and me,
together, all night, alone.” 

She giggles and says, “Yes, if that’s all
right with you.” 

“
I’ll get your door for
you.” 

I get out of the car and adjust myself before
walking over to open Emma’s door for her. She reaches for my hand
before I have time to offer it to her. She graciously stands and
links her arm in mine. We walk down the sidewalk and up the stairs
leading to the porch. I use my own house key to open the door for
her.

Once we are inside the dark house, I secure
the door and look at her. She is looking at me and biting her
bottom lip. I gently caress her cheek with my thumb, “Are you sure
this is what you want?” 

She smiles and leans her cheek into my hand,
“Alec, I am certain that this is all I want.” 

I smile and bend down to kiss her. She
responds to my kiss, and I swoop her up in my arms. Without turning
any lights on, I walk her through the dark house, down the hallway,
and into the master suite. I set her down on the floor without
taking my eyes off her. I cup her sweet face in my hands and kiss
her. “God, I love you so much” is all I say before kissing her
again.

She reaches behind her and unzips her dress.
I raise up and her black dress fall from her gorgeous body and
gathers on the floor around her feet. Emma stands there in a black
lingerie set, garter belt, and black high heels. My eyes are lust
filled and I can’t take my eyes off her. I take a step back so I
can get a better look. “Oh, God, Emma, you are beautiful.” I take
her hand and spin her around slowly. I look up and down the length
of her body and smile.

She stops in front of me, facing me. “I love
you so much,” she says before standing on her tiptoes to kiss me.
My dick now has taken on a mind of its own and is rock hard. I
should say something, but I’m afraid if I speak, the words will
sound like that of a four-year-old. I return her kiss, scoop her
hair up and fist it with one hand while I cup her breast with my
free hand.

I moan and I think she moans, too, but I
can’t be certain. My mind is on my painfully hard dick, her breast,
and her perfect body. I am thinking I am going to be inside her for
the first time and I finally get to make love to my girl for
hours.

She pulls away from me breathless and slowly
scoots back on the bed. My eyes travel up her body, lingering on
her black heels, her long smooth legs, lacy black panties, her lacy
bra, and her beautiful face. My smile matches her smile, as I
slowly crawl up her body. She opens her legs for me and I kiss her
slowly.

“
Please, make love to me,”
she says, in between kisses. 

Molly

I am a nurse, married to a
doctor, and we have a beautiful daughter we love more than life. I
have just given birth and Alec wants our daughter to be named after
the both of us. We decide we will name our beautiful daughter after
each of our middle names. Luckily, the two names go well together.
Alec Ray and Molly Lynn: Raelynn. If we had had a son, we would
have named him after Alec.
 

“
Raelynn, my new favorite
name,” he beams, holding our daughter in his arms.

I wake up to the sound of a car door
shutting. I peer over the steering wheel of my dark car and watch
as my husband opens the car door for his girlfriend. The way he
looks at her reminds me of the way he once looked at me. I watch as
they both walk arm in arm inside her house.

I have been watching her long enough to know
this is her house. I made it my business to know everything I can
about her. Now I have stalker tendencies. Drugs have done crazy
things to me. What in the hell happened to me? I had everything I
ever wanted and screwed it up. Now I do drugs to try to forget what
I no longer have. I use drugs to take away my heartache. When I am
high, I am able to forget about my problems. I focus on finding
that ultimate high — we are all in search of it. There is nothing
better than the feeling of euphoria. I know death may be a
consequence, but it is one I am willing to take.

“
Come on, Doll, can we go
home now?” I look over in the passenger seat and my friend Bobby is
slouched there. He smells of day-old beer and cigarettes. I look
back at the house my husband walked in — it remains dark. My
stomach does a flip flop at the thought of Alec in the house,
making love to his girlfriend. My head and thoughts immediately
fill with rage and I want to go in there and claim what is mine,
what was once mine.

The drugs I do have distorted my thinking.
It’s hard for me to tell the difference from the truth and fiction.
When I am sober, I know the painful truth. The drugs allow me to
blame others for my wrongdoing. They allow me to forget what I once
had — what I will never have again. 

I scratch my arms to relieve the tingling
sensation that now consumes my thoughts. I scratch my arms so hard
I draw blood just trying to find some relief from the itch. I look
over at Bobby, who is already filling the syringe with my
much-needed dose of heroin. This is just what I need to make me
forget and to take my mind off of my real problems. I know this is
the reason for my problems, but right now, I am solely focused on
my next high. 

“
Is this what you need,
Doll?” 

I smile and lean over to kiss him. Bobby is
my only friend. He is a large man and at one time, I can tell he
was very good looking. He saved me from some thugs a long time ago,
and I will always be grateful to him. I always feel safe when I am
with him.

Chapter Four: A New Beginning

Emma

I wake up and I am hot, way too hot to sleep.
I blink a few times and memories of last night come rushing back to
me. My night with Alec; our first time together. I close my eyes
and try to remember every last detail. 

I am cradled safely in Alec’s arms. “Good
morning, Emma.” 

I look up at him and he gently brushes my
hair from my face. “Good morning, Alec. Did I wake you?” 

Alec leans into me and kisses me sweetly,
“No, Baby, you didn’t wake me. I was just watching you sleep and
remembering last night.” 

“
Mmm, last night was pretty
special.” I kiss him back just as sweetly. 

“
Yes, it was; it was just as
amazing as I knew it would be. I wish we could stay like this all
day,” he says,
scooting closer to
me. 

I cuddle into him and ask, “Why can’t
we?” 

“
Baby, I’m glad I was able
to make you forget, but we have work today.” 

“
Work! Oh, God, I forgot all
about that,” I say, trying to sit up in bed. 

“
Not so fast, Emma, we have
plenty of time. I’ll start breakfast and get the kids from Brooke’s
while you shower.” He kisses me again before he stands up from the
bed and slips on his boxer briefs.

“
Alec?” 

“
Yes, Baby,” he says,
watching me intently. 

“
Thank
you.” 

He winks at me and walks out the
door. 

I shower and let my hair dry naturally. A
little mascara, lip gloss, body spray, a gray dress, and heels. I
am now ready for the day. I hear laughter and I know the kids are
home from spending the night with Brooke.

I walk out of the bedroom and the kids are
dressed and sitting at the table eating their oatmeal and a banana.
I grab a coffee before joining them at the table. I kiss Raelynn
and then James. Alec smiles and stands to pull out my chair for me
to sit down. He whispers in my ear, “You look beautiful.” And just
like that I get those butterflies low in my belly. 

After breakfast, Alec
showers and is dressed for work after only a few minutes.
It must be nice being a man.
He walks out of the bedroom in his dark blue scrubs and smiles
when he sees me. 

“
I’ll take the kids to
school on my way to work,” he says. 

“
All right, I’ll pick them
up from school. Do you want to eat dinner out after we go to
taekwondo?” 

“
Sounds perfect. Come on,
kids, get your book bags,” Alec yells to the kids, who are both in
the bedroom. 

The next two weeks go by, and we fall into a
comfortable family routine. Alec helps with the kids, the
housework, and dinner. We spend a lot of time at home just being a
family. I am happy that we haven’t seen or heard anything from
Molly. Alec has court tomorrow, and we are anxious to see if Molly
will show up to contest the divorce. We both are hoping to be able
to move on with our lives once it’s final.