Breathing Room (23 page)

"Mommyyyy!" Connor shot around the corner, his fat blue shorts bobbing from side to side as he ran.

"Hey, big guy!"Tracyrose, scooped him up, and covered his gelato-stained cheeks with kisses. He peered at Isabel over her shoulder and grinned, showing sparkly little teeth.

Something constricted around Isabel's heart.Tracy's life might be in disarray, but it still had its rewards.

*

Rengrabbed the FedEx envelope he'd been waiting for from the console in the villa's entrance hall and beat a hasty retreat to the master bedroom. He locked the door against small intruders and settled into a chair by the window. As he gazed down at the midnight blue cover withNIGHT KILLtyped across it in unassuming letters, he felt a sense of anticipation he hadn't experienced in years. Howard had finally finished the script.

He knew from their initial discussions that Howard's intention was to challenge audiences with the film's fundamental question: Was Kaspar Street simply a psychopath, or, more disturbing, was he the inevitable by-product of a society that took violence for granted?

Even Saint Isabel would have to approve of that message. He smiled as he remembered the way she'd looked less than an hour ago, with the sun shining in her hair and those beautiful eyes drinking him in. He loved the way she smelled, like spice, sex, and human goodness. But he couldn't think about her now, not when his entire career was about to open up. He settled back and began to read.

Two hours later he was in a cold sweat. This was the best work Jenks had ever done. The part of Street had dark twists and subtle nuances that would stretchRen's acting chops to the limit. It was no wonder every actor inHollywoodhad wanted a shot at this film.

But there'd been a major change since they'd last spoken, a change Howard hadn't discussed with Ren. With one brilliant stroke he'd intensified the film's theme and turned it into an existential nightmare. Instead of being a man who preyed on the women he loved,Kaspar Streetwas now a child molester.

Ren leaned back and shut his eyes. The change was pure genius, but...

No buts. This was the part that would put him on the A-list of every top director inHollywood.

He grabbed some paper to begin making notes on the character. This was always the first step for him, and he liked to do it immediately after his initial reading, while his impressions were still fresh. He'd jot down sensory memories, ideas about costume and physical movement, anything that came to mind that would eventually help him build the character.

He toyed with the cap of the pen. Usually the ideas flowed, but the change Jenks had made had thrown him off balance, and nothing was happening. He needed more time to absorb it. He'd try again tomorrow.

Several hours later, as he headed back to the farmhouse, he decided not to mention the change to Isabel. No sense in getting her all riled up. Not now. Not when their long waiting game was about to come to an end.

*

Isabel ignoredRen's suggestion that she wear something sexy and chose her most conservative black sundress, then added a black fringed shawl scattered with tiny gold stars to cover her bare shoulders. She was feeding the cats when she heard movement behind her. A tiny pulse jumped in her throat. She turned to see an angsty-looking intellectual standing in the doorway. With his rumpled hair, wire-rimmed glasses, clean but wrinkled shirt, well-worn khakis, and the backpack slung over one shoulder, he looked like Ren Gage's poetically inclined younger brother.

She smiled. "I was wondering who my date would be tonight."

He took in her subdued outfit and sighed. "I knew a miniskirt was too much to hope for."

Outside she saw a silver Alfa-Romeo parked behind her Panda. "Where did this come from?"

"My car won't be ready for a while, so I had this delivered to hold me over."

"People buy candy bars to hold them over, not cars."

"Only poor people like you."

*

The city ofSan Gimignanosat like a crown on the hilltop, its fourteen watchtowers dramatically outlined against the setting sun. Isabel tried to imagine how the pilgrims on their way fromNorthern EuropetoRomemust have felt as they caught their first sight of the city. After the hazards of the open road, this would have looked like a haven of strength and security.

Ren's thoughts had apparently taken the same path as hers. "To do this right, we should really approach by foot."

"I don't think these heels were designed for pilgrimages. It's beautiful, isn't it?"

"The best-preserved medieval town inTuscany. In case you didn't have time to read your guidebook, that's a lucky accident."

"What do you mean?"

"This was an important city until the Black Death wiped out most of the population."

"Just like the castle."

"Definitely a tough time to go without antibiotics. San Gimignano was no longer a major stop on the pilgrimage route and lost its status. Fortunately for us, the few citizens who survived didn't have the money to modernize the place, which is why so many of the watchtowers are still standing. Parts ofTea with Mussolini were filmed here." A tour bus whizzed by in the opposite direction. "That's the new Black Death," he said. "Too many tourists. But the town's so small that most of them don't stay overnight. Anna told me it clears out by late afternoon."

"You talked to her again?"

"I gave her permission to have the wall taken apart starting tomorrow, but only if I'm around to supervise."

"I'll bet she didn't like that."

"Ask me if I care. I put Jeremy in charge of guard duty."

Ren parked in the lot just outside the ancient walls and slung the backpack over his shoulders. Although his angsty intellectual's disguise didn't hide as much of him as his other disguises had, most of the sightseers had left, and he didn't attract too much attention as they toured the town.

He shared what he knew about the frescoes in the twelfth-century Romanesque church and was remarkably patient as she poked into the shops. Afterward they walked through the narrow, hilly streets to the Rocca, the town's ancient fortress, and climbed its surviving tower to gaze out at the view of distant hills and fields, spectacular in the fading evening light.

He pointed toward the vineyards. "They're growing grapes for vernaccia, the local white wine. What do you say we sample some of it with our dinner while we have that talk you're so keen on?"

His slow smile made her skin prickle, and she nearly told him she wanted to forget both the wine and their talk so they could go straight to bed. But she was too bruised to handle any more blows, and she needed to do this right.

The small dining room at the Hotel Cisterna had stone walls, peach linen tablecloths, and another of the spectacular views thatTuscanygave away for free. From their table tucked in a corner between a set of windows, they could look down on the sloping, red tile rooftops of San Gimignano and watch the lights come on in the houses and farms that surrounded the town.

He lifted his wineglass. "To talking. May this conversation be mercifully short and wildly productive."

As she took a sip of the crisp vernaccia, she reminded herself that women who didn't claim their own power got stomped on. "We're going to have an affair."

"Thank you, God."

"But we're doing it on my terms."

"Now, there's a surprise."

"Do you have to be sarcastic about everything? Because if you do, I need to tell you right now that it's not attractive."

"You're just as sarcastic as I am."

"Which is why I know how unappealing it is."

"Just go on, will you? I can tell you're dying to lay out your terms. And I'm hoping 'lay' is the operative word here, or is that too sarcastic for you?"

He was already enjoying himself.

"Here's what we need to be clear about." She ignored the fact that his eyes were flashing a dozen different kinds of amusement. She didn't care. Too many women lost their spirit to their lovers, but she wouldn't be one of them. "First...you can't criticize."

"Why the hell would I want to do that?"

"Because I'm not the sexual triathlete you are, and because I threaten you, which you don't like."

"Okay. No criticism. And youdon't threaten me."

"Number two...I won't participate in anything kinky. Just straightforward sex."

Behind the lenses of those scholarly glasses, his silver-blue wolf's eyes grew cagey.

"What's your definition of straightforward?"

"The accepted definition."

"Got it. No groups. No toys. No Saint Bernard. Disappointing, but I can live with it."

"Forget it! Just forget it." She threw down her napkin. "You are way out of my league, and I don't know why I entertained the notion, even for a moment, that we could go ahead with this."

"Sorry. I was getting bored." He leaned across the table to flip her napkin back into her lap. "Do you want strict missionary position, or would you rather be on top?"

Leave it to him to try to turn this into a joke. Tough. Men had dozens of ways of protecting the illusion of their superiority, but she wasn't buying into any of them. "We can be spontaneous about that."

"Can we take our clothes off?"

"You can. As a matter of fact, it's a requirement."

He smiled. "If you don't want to undress, that's fine with me. A nice pair of black fishnets and a garter belt should help retain your sense of modesty."

"You're all heart." She traced the rim of her wineglass with her finger. "Stating the obvious, this is only going to be about our bodies. There won't be an emotional component."

"If you say so."

Now came the tough part, but she wasn't backing off. "One more item...I won't engage in oral sex."

"And why is that?"

"It's just not my thing. A little too...earthy."

"You know, you're kind of limiting my options here."

She set her jaw. "Take it or leave it."

Oh, he was going to take it all right, Ren thought as he watched that delectable mouth set in a mulish line. He'd made love both on-screen and off- to the most beautiful women in the world, but not one of those exquisite faces had as much life going on behind it as Isabel's. He saw intelligence, humor, determination, and an overriding compassion for the human condition. Even so, all he could think about was scooping her up right this minute and carrying her to the nearest bed. Unfortunately, Dr. Fifi wasn't exactly a scoopable sort of woman, not when she had an agenda. He wouldn't be surprised if she whipped out some kind of contract and made him sign it first.

The pulse fluttering lightly in her throat encouraged him. She wasn't nearly as self-possessed as she pretended to be. "I'm feeling a little insecure," he said.

"Why should you feel insecure? You're getting what you want."

He knew he was working with a short rope, yet he refused to let her call all the shots.

"But what I want seems to have some big warning stickers plastered across it."

"You're just not used to women openly communicating their needs. I understand that might feel threatening."

Who would have figured a great brain could be so sexy? "Regardless, my ego's getting pretty deflated."

"Metaphysically speaking, that's a good thing."

"Physically speaking, it isn't. I want to believe I'm irresistible to you."

"You're irresistible."

"Could you manage to sound a little more enthusiastic?"

"It's a sore point."

"My irresistibility?"

"Yes."

He smiled. This was more like it.

The waiter arrived with an antipasto that included sausage, olives, and golden bites of deep-fried vegetables. Ren chose one and reached across the table to hold it to her lips.

"Okay, just to summarize the agenda: no criticism and no oral sex. That's what you said, right? Nothing too kinky."

He'd hoped he could get another rise out of her, but she was made of stronger stuff.

"That's what I said."

He slipped the morsel between her lips. "I guess I shouldn't ask about whips or paddles."

She didn't even bother responding to that silliness. Instead, she took a delicate dab at the corner of her mouth with her napkin.

"Or handcuffs," he said.

"Handcuffs?" The napkin stalled halfway to her lap.

Was this a spark of interest? She looked flustered, but he wasn't stupid enough to let her see that he'd noticed. "Forget it. I was being disrespectful, and I apologize."

"A-apology accepted."

He heard that little stammer and fought down a chuckle. So, Ms. Control Freak might not be averse to a little light bondage. Even though he had a pretty good idea which one of them was going to end up in handcuffs, he decided it was a good start. He just hoped to hell she wouldn't lose the key.

Ren took every excuse he could find to touch her during the meal. His legs brushed hers under the table. He stroked her knee. He played with her fingers and fed her tidbits from his plate. In a corny move he must have picked up from one of his films, he rubbed his thumb over her bottom lip. How calculated could a man get? And every bit of it was working.

He pushed aside his empty cup of cappuccino. The meal had been delicious, but she couldn't remember a thing she'd eaten. "Are you finished?" he asked.

Oh, she was finished all right.

When she nodded, he led her from the dining room toward a crooked flight of stairs, but instead of descending, he steered her up.

"Where are we going?"

"I thought you might like a bird's-eye view of the piazza."

She'd seen enough views for today. She wanted to get back to the farmhouse. Or maybe he'd like to do it in the car. She'd never done it in a car, but tonight seemed like a good time for new experiences. "I think I'll pass on the view. Maybe we should head for the car."

"Not so fast. I know you're going to want to see this." With his hand on her elbow, he turned down a corridor and pulled a heavy European room key from his pocket.

"When did you get that?"

"You didn't really think I was going to give you a chance to change your mind, did you?"

The room was tiny, with gilt moldings, a swirl of cherubs frescoed over the ceiling, and a double bed with a simple white counterpane. "The only one they had left, but I think it'll do, don't you?" He set down his backpack.