Authors: Lisa Wingate
Tags: #FIC042000, #FIC042040, #FIC027020, #Texas—fiction
Blue Moon Bay
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For Mary and Emily
And their awesome grandparents,
The Douglases
The future is a blank page, but not a mystery.
âTinker's riddle
(Written on the wall of wisdom, Waterbird Bait and Grocery, Moses Lake, Texas)
I
s it possible for nine months and three days of your life to haunt you forever? Can memories become like restless spiritsâtheir long, thin fingers always reaching, and tugging, and grabbing? Their fingernails, in my case, would be some variation of floral pink and nicely manicured. Perfectly matched to a shade of lipstick and possibly a purse or some other accessory. Undoubtedly, this is not the norm for personal demons, but try telling them that. They won't listen, I promise.
There is no escape from those graceful Moses Lake ladies, with their embroidery-adorned pantsuits and their languid Southern drawls. When they whispered in my mind, their sentences rose and fell and rose again, filled with long vowels, padded and powdered with cheerfulness they couldn't possibly be feeling all the time. They became the stuff of my darkest recurrent nightmaresâthe kind that reprised the most awkward teenage years and found me wandering the halls of Moses Lake High School with no idea where I was supposed to go, suddenly aware that I'd arrived in my Pooh Bear pajamas. Or even worse, I'd forgotten the pajamas altogether. Yet, somehow, I was just then noticing. . . .
Even from thousands of miles away, after the passage of season after season, the high school dream lingered, along with the feeling that somewhere in the tiny town of Moses Lake, Texas, the ladies were still talking about me.
Such an odd little thing,
they were saying, a purposeful twang morphing the last word into
tha-ang
.
All that eyeliner and that tacky, tacky purple lip gloss. Why, those black T-shirts didn't help her figure one little bit, I'm tellin' ye-ew. But how much can you expect, considerin' what happened?
I wondered if their conversations turned darker, thenâif the women whispered behind their hands about things I was never allowed to know. Did they debate theories or did they discuss facts as they sat at Lakeshore Community Church, making greeting cards or knitting scarves for orphans or boxing cans for the food pantry? Did they
know
what happened?
In my dreams, sometimes I was running toward a door. I heard the ladies on the other side, whispering amongst themselves. I recognized the doorâlarge, white, with intricate molding. A double door. It was made to open inward, to allow the crowds to funnel through.
Then the door grew smaller, and it was a cellar door. It was plain and brown. There was a spider on a web in the corner. I reached for the handle.
I'd awaken in a sweat at that point, still hearing the echoes of the ladies chattering in the dusty corners of my mind.
Their voices found ways to carry into the daylight, sometimes. Occasionally, I heard them talking
to
me, those Moses Lake ladies.
Suga', now, sit up straight,
they'd admonish as I hunched over the table in some meeting, bleary-eyed while watching a computer render a building in 3-D from an electronic blueprint I'd been tweaking all night.
Oh, Heather, hon, put that foot down. A lady never crosses her legs at the knee. Darlin', don't swing your toe like that. Some boy might think you're a hussy. Mercy! Didn't your mama teach you any-thang?
How, I wondered, is it possible for such a small part of your childhood to linger so persistently? Do we choose the ghosts that haunt us, or do they choose us? And if we choose them, shouldn't we be able to banish them?
The questions were scrolling through my head again as I sat in a meeting room, watching Mel generate a virtual walkthrough of a big-box retail store. He was explaining how customer traffic would flow, how the layout allowed for excellent point-of-sale potential. He laughed and said, “It's about capturing those impulse buys.”
Leaning across the table, he inclined his head toward the Japanese contingent on the client side, as if he were sharing valuable trade secrets with them. “Of course, we all know that sixty-six percent of buying decisions are made in the store, and of those, fifty-three percent are pure impulse buys. Our research shows that with this layout, your percentages could increase to . . .” He paused, looked down at his notes, tapped the tabletop with his pencil.
I was only vaguely aware of the glitch in his presentation. I'd had the Moses Lake dream again last night. The past was floating in front of me like a cellophane overlay, scenes dripping and blending with the reflections from the conference room windows. It was raining outside again, typical for Seattle. Not the best weather for a critical presentation that could mean millions.
I'd dreamed all the way to putting my hand on the cellar doorknob last night. I'd curled up on a yoga mat behind my desk to catch a couple hours' sleep before the office came to life, and suddenly there were the doors. The white ones, then the brown one.
It had been a while since I'd seen the door. Maybe a year or more since I'd awakened with a start and moved through the day wondering what really happened at the bottom of those cellar steps.
“Heather, did you pull together the rest of that research?” Mel glanced my way expectantly, as if he hadn't already been given the numbers. My boss was slipping. Seven years ago, when I'd started at CTI, Mel was a lion.
“Sure. Of course.” I flipped through the paperwork to save face for Mel. In reality, the numbers and I were on intimate terms. “The consumer research indicates a potential seventeen percent increase in impulse purchases, as compared with your existing stores. Considering that we're discussing stores that are already running at a brisk average of three hundred and fifty dollars in gross sales per square foot, that increase would be . . .” Mel caught my eye and gave me a look that warned me not to start running calculations in my head and spouting figures. This was
his
meeting. Letting the papers settle back into place, I finished with, “Significant, of course.”
Mel took over again, but two of the principals were clearly more interested in hard facts than Mel's sales talk about
Environments that perform
and
brand iconography
. Mel was pushing hard, borderline desperate, but after seven years of paddling in the man's wake, I understood his nuances. It was hard to know how to feel, sitting there watching him struggle to revive the old magic. On the one hand, he had plucked me off the bottom rung of the ladder. On the other hand, every time I tried to climb the ladder, Mel's foot was squarely on my head. I wanted to move up, to eventually achieve what he had achievedâproject leader, junior partner, partner. I'd never get there with Mel in the way.
My cell phone vibrated in my pocket. I slid it out and glanced while everyone was watching virtual customers move through checkout lanes. The customers started at a normal pace, then gradually sped up, buzzing by like bumblebees exiting a hive, having sacrificed nectar for shopping carts filled with fifty-three-plus-percent impulse buys. They were moving so fast, they never even knew what hit them.
The text message was from Richard.
Problem. Call me ASAP.
The phone vibrated with an incoming call as I was tucking it away. Surely that wasn't Richard. He knew how long these meetings could take. One advantage of dating a guy who was in the real estate business was that he understood. When clients come to town, the clients come first.
I took a peek at the screen. I didn't recognize the number, but I knew the area code. 510. California. My mother, undoubtedly. Suddenly Richard's text message made sense.
My foot vibrated under the table as the meeting worked toward a close. When it was over, I gathered my files and politely excused myself from the room. Somehow, Mel and I ended up on the elevator together anyway.
“They left quickly.” He leaned into the corner, his head falling against the wall as if he couldn't hold it up one more second.
“It was a long meeting.” But we both knew what a quick exit usually meant. “They won't find a more comprehensive proposal than ours, though.”
“Let's hope.” His eyes slowly closed, like he was already trying to figure out how he'd survive if we didn't get this Itega contract.
The doors opened. Watching him there, crumpled against the wall, I felt the need to say something more. I held the doors open with the button, so as not to be ferried to the executive suites along with Mel.
“It's a good proposal,” I offered. “We've got a slick design. Perfect fundamentals.”
He didn't react.
Like a puppy, I stood there pathetically waiting for a pat on the head, for some acknowledgement of the countless hours I'd put into the proposal, of the devotion I'd given to managing all aspects of the design package. Finally, there wasn't much choice but to step through the door onto my floor. The one nicely above the designers in their Spartan cubicles and squarely below the posh executive level.
“What's going on with that thing in Texas?” Mel's question followed me.
I turned and pushed the button to open the doors again. “What?”
“The thing in Texas. The processing plant . . . Proxica Foods. What's happening with that?” Mel cracked an eye open. “
Your
project.” Was it my imagination, or did the emphasis on
your
come with an underlay of resentmentâan insinuation that I was overstepping my bounds by insisting that, if I could bring this project in, I would be the project leader.
“Everything seems to be right on target. The principals at Proxica are happy with the design concept. The property deals are in the final stages. They're looking at a state-of-the-art processing plant and eight corporately-owned production farmsâsix for poultry and two for grain crops.” The phone message from Richard crossed my mind, and an uncomfortable sensation settled underneath my favorite blue blazer. The biggest event in my career, and I was banking on something that involved my mother. . . .
Mel's lips pursed, smacking slightly, as if he were tasting the potential of the deal. Maybe now that the Itega bid had soured a bit, Mel was looking to take over my Texas project. Would he really do that?
“Keep me apprised,” he said, rubbing his chest as I exited the elevator.
“Aye-aye, Cap'n.” The words were a thin attempt at lightness. The second the elevator doors closed, I raced toward my office, muttering to myself and thinking of the Texas deal and my mother.
A pair of interns, chatting as they ferried mailing tubes, stopped talking and sidled to the wall as I passed, clutching the tubes like Roman shields. I had the momentary pang of regret that comes from knowing someone finds you humorless and slightly frightening, but it quickly passed. Interns rotated through the firm constantly. If they were here to learn architecture and design in the real world, they might as well see how things really were. No point filling them with the warm fuzzies. It was a long, hard climb before you got to take on a project of your own. Those fresh-faced college kids were better off seeing the truth now and then deciding how badly they wanted it.
I dialed Richard's number while rounding the corner into my office. “Hey, what's up?” I asked, an odd little singsong in my voice. Maybe I just felt the need to be girly and cute, so as not to send him scurrying, like the interns. In the dating world, intimidation is not considered a desirable quality. Normal men tended to see me as slightly work-obsessed and hyperfocused. Or, as my friend and former roommate, Trish, liked to put it,
married to my iPhone.
But Richard was as normal as they came. Normal and successful, and he liked me. He didn't have a string of failed marriages behind him, and he was with a respectable law firm. An especially rare find among the over-thirty set, where pickings became slim.
He sighed, and I knew the news was not good. I loved him for hesitating a minute, as if he felt the need to break it to me gently. In general, Richard hated conflict, which was probably why he was in real estate law and not prosecuting murder cases. “Well, I know you said she was unpredictable, but . . .”
I didn't even wait for him to drag through the rest of the sentence. “What happened? Did she sign the offer?” Poor Richard. I should never have brought him into this. My mother was probably lighting incense in his office, hanging crystals, or reciting dark, dramatic, obscure poetry by some writer only English professors had heard of.
“She's not here. Not coming . . . Well, not today, anyway.”
“What?” My voice echoed into the corridor, and I closed the office door, keeping the conversation inside. No one knew about the Texas project except Mel, Richard, and the commercial broker who was quietly shopping for land he would then resell to Proxica for their new facilities. Proxica had insisted that their expansion plans be kept confidential. Strange things happen when communities find out that a company with deep pockets is sniffing around. “You've
got
to be kidding.”