Authors: J. Robert Janes
Was that the fear of discovery he saw in those bedroom eyes of hers, he wondered, or simply the fear of knowing she was way in over her head?
He'd lower his voice to barely a whisper. âThey are desperate men, Mrs. Fraser. Please make no mistake about it.'
She really did have such lovely eyesâlarge and of a deep chestnut shade but with those tints of green and flecks of amber Jimmy must always think of. Poor Jimmy. Love was such a stupid thing and Allanby such a lonely man. They really must do something to stem that. The colonel had been absolutely right.
âCaptain Allanby, would you show Mrs. Fraser to the perimeter?'
Trant had noticed that she wasn't wearing her wedding ring. He must have seen this earlier but hadn't said a thing then of it either.
âThat's all for now, Mrs. Fraser. We'll see you on Tuesday, I take it?'
She was still bent over the damned desk, was still giving Jimmy a full view of that backside of hers, yet hadn't been able to make herself move.
âWell?' he asked.
âYes. Yes, of course I'll come.'
As they walked along the road towards the barbed wire of the perimeter, Allanby broke the silence that she had always put between them. âI met your husband on the old tote road to Newtonhamilton. He was having a look at the bridge.'
âOh?'
She had definitely panicked at the thought. âThen I met him at the Darcy place. Why do you suppose he was poking around there? He's a very busy man.'
Mary was glad that it was dark and he couldn't see her clearly, but she'd have to say something, couldn't just leave it, had best be calm. âI've no idea, Captain. Hamish does love the countryside and he might have had a few moments to himself, though he gets few enough of them. Perhaps he was looking for another place to fishâhe loves his fishing, but again he can't seem to find the time.'
âAnd the Darcy place?' he asked.
She mustn't hesitate. âHe's always had an interest in saving things from the past. It's in far better shape than most.'
Was it? But he'd not ask how the bloody hell she'd even known! He'd leave that for a while, would chalk it up on the bricks as Fay Darcy's father had his frigging accounts. âMoney would be needed. Lots of it,' he snorted. âIt's a good job that family you married into sold out when they did, though, in '28 and just before the crash. The old man made quite a bundle, or so I gather.'
âHamish has three brothers and two sisters, Captain. That “bundle” as you call it, was shared equally after taxes.'
âAnd he's prepared to sink some into Irish history? Come on, Mary, that husband of yours is no fool. The Darcy place?'
âCaptain, I'm very tired and must get home.'
âWe'll put the bike in the boot and I'll drive you over.'
He would, too. âThat's very kind, but I'd rather be by myself. The air will do me good.'
God damn her anyway! He'd grab her by the arm and force her to face him. âMary, listen to me. I had to do what I did to that girl.'
âAnd Hamish and I have to suffer the consequences, as does Caithleen. Now
let
go of me, Captain. I'll walk the rest of the way by myself.'
Long after she had left him, Allanby continued to stare after her. She was like a moth trapped in a smoke-filled glass that had been turned upside down on a beer-sloshed table, the men all around and betting on how long she'd last.
âMrs. Haney, I'm awfully sorry to be a bother when you're just about to go home. Caithleen and I did look through your button box but we weren't able to come up with anything. Would you have a button to match these?'
A button, was it?
thought Ria, but the tone of voice and the look were those of apology, and she had no heart to let her tongue run over the hills with the doctor looking like a dog that had lost its bone and master.
Taking the blouse from her, she examined the gap. Given the right chance, Mrs. Fraser would come round, but would she be given that chance? âA bit of material's been torn, m'am. I'll be wanting fine thread and a fine needle for that. And was there anything else?'
To say, I wish we wouldn't fight, I need you on my side, would do no good. âWhy, yes, there is. Have either yourself or Bridget seen my wedding ring? I thought I must have left it beside the sink upstairs, but it seems to have vanished.'
âVanished, has it? Vanished my foot! Stolen most likely. Bridget ⦠Bridget Leahy, you come here now, my girl. I want a word with you I do, and when I'm finished your ears will be ringing so hard you'll never again hear that Bing Crosby you like so much singin' “I Surrender, Dear”!'
âMrs. Haney,
please
! I need a button, not a police inquiry. Bridget wouldn't have stolen my ring.'
âYou leave this t' me, m'am. Leave it, I say! Bridget? Bridget, girl, you fetch that button box of my mother's and a sheet from the closet upstairs. Fetch Caithleen as well. Three pairs of eyes it will be, Mrs. Fraser. Three I'm telling you.'
Good God Almighty, why did the woman have to go on like this? âPlease don't flood the place with tears. We've had far too many of them of late.'
Tears was it? and look who had opened the floodgates! âJust you leave it to me, m'am. Stand aside while I cuts to the quick of it!'
Lost buttons and lost wedding rings, was it now? And there was that half-brother of hers rolling his eyes to the heavens above while denying the two of them had talked at all, at all about the O'Bannions and the Darcys, to say not a blessed thing about Liam Nolan.
âThere's something going on around this house, Mrs. Fraser, and I aims to get to the bottom of it, I does.'
She had left the kitchen, had vanished just like her ring. Caithleen came running only to have the sheet torn from her hands and flung over the kitchen table, snapped to make it fly and settle without a hand needing to smooth it.
âNow you put that box down and stand there before it, the two of you. Bridget! close the lid. That was my mother's, and before ever we searched, we said us a prayer, we did. So bow your heads now, I say, and draw your hands together in penitence.'
The two of them were a pair, Caithleen the taller, Bridget the plumper. Ria drew in a breath. Girls had to be dealt with firmly where stealing was involved. âNow say after me, Dear Godârepeat it now, the two of you.'
They did, and their voices were most humble and that was as it should be. âDear God, Who is the One and Only God, Father of the Son and Blessed Father to us all, I do swear on my grave to come and that of my ancestors back unto the tenth generation that I have stolen nothing from this house. Bridget, you being employed and all by that kindest of men, we'll overlook them Christmas raisins and currants I be saving and we'll settle on Mrs. Fraser's ring. Did you steal it?' she hissed, making the girl fling back her head as if struck.
Bridget burst into tears. âNo, m'am. No! I wouldn't do such a terrible thing. You know I wouldn't. I'm a good girl. I goes to Mass. I says my prayers. I â¦'
âThat'll be enough, girl. Now look at that box of my mother's. See the inlay of it, do you? 'Tis the Star of David himself, it is, given in the circle of the world and come by ship from the very Plains of Abraham on the death to the third or fourth generation or more of a dearly departed relative. Now answer me again, girl. Did you take that ring because if you did, your heart is smaller than the smallest button in that box unless you repent and give it up this instant!'
The girl would have troubled Noah on the fortieth day, and him with the last of the doves in his hand. âFair enough, Bridget. Now don't carry on. I has to know, girl.
âCaithleen, you being a guest in this house and dear to us, I'll ask it of you too. If you did take Mrs. Fraser's wedding ring, it'll be a secret known only to the three of us.'
The girl didn't cry. Where there should have been tears there was only anger.
âI did not, Mrs. Haney. I wouldn't do a thing like that. The doctor's my friend.'
âThen let us find a button for that blouse.'
Caithleen wanted to say, There's no need. I have one, but she held her tongue. Dr. Fraser had the wedding ring. She had seen him looking sadly at it, but when she'd come along the corridor towards him, he had simply tucked it away in his waistcoat pocket and had said nothing. Not a blessed thing, though he'd seen her looking at it.
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The sound of the car was all that passed between them, the lights on the dash glowing dimly, the road ahead being dark, Hamish late as usual. Even on a Sunday he would be called away.
âDarling, I wish you'd say something. My ring will turn up. I didn't lose it on purpose.'
âAnd I didn't say you had.'
âThen what's bothering you? You know I can't stand your being upset with me any more than I can our having to go to another of these wretched do's of the colonel's.'
Deliberately he left his foot off the brake as they rounded a hairpin bend. Her stomach lifted. Bends and ups and downs had always been a problem, only the more so now. Her stomach felt so queasy. Every morning it was as if she couldn't keep a thing down. âI wish you'd let me drive.'
âWe'd never get there. Blame Mrs. O'Brian, if you like, for letting her son play Tarzan with his cousins on my day of rest. Blame the fathers, too, for giving the boys the ropes and iron hoops they thought the little nippers would need.'
âYou're enjoying this.'
âI am not. You know I can never forgive Trant and the colonel for the way Jimmy threatened Caithleen and had us shoved about, but I have to keep up a pretense of sociability!'
âHow much have you had to drink? Look, I know the Bushmills is gone. There was a half left last night when I went to bed.'
âYou sound like a fishwife.'
âI'm only telling you the truth.'
He gripped the wheel with one hand and, digging into his jacket pocket, thrust the flask at her. Mary knew then that he really was upset with her but that he'd say nothing of it. âI wish I hadn't lost my ring, Hamish. I really do.'
âMrs. Haney questioned the girls. If I've understood it correctly from Caithleen, the Spanish Inquisition couldn't have been worse.'
âPlease don't make fun of it. That girl has to go. She's upsetting Bridget and Mrs. Haney.'
âMary, how can you say a thing like that when you know it is yourself she's upset?'
Hamish had always been one for the truth. Abruptly she turned from him to stare emptily out the side windscreen. After the âInquisition' she had searched the house, had even gone into his study, though it couldn't have been left in there.
âI didn't drink the Bushmills, lass. I took it up to Clarence Malloy so as to give the old man a bit of comfort. That flask of mine is empty.'
Instinctively she flung herself from the windscreen to hug his arm and lean against him, then to snuggle down with her feet curled up on the seat and her head in his lap. âDon't hate me,' she said.
Fraser eased off on the accelerator. He couldn't let her go into the colonel's without her ringâit wasn't right of him. They'd all notice. Dorothy Bannerman was a royal pain in the ass, and God knows, he hated these things as much as Mary, but had she taken the ring off on purpose or instinctively and not even realized it? She'd been at the castle yesterday. At breakfast this morning she'd been quiet, hadn't looked well and had got up suddenly to leave the room, he having only just broken the yolks of two poached eggs on toast. He'd found her in the conservatory watering the plants and looking pale.
Erich Kramer was far more her age, sensitive too, when he'd a mind, and intelligentâthe two of them had several interests in common. They'd got on wellâhadn't he seen it coming, fool that he'd been? Hadn't he encouraged it, if not for both their sakes then simply because Mary had been lonely and feeling so out of place, but now? he had to ask. What now? He had thought that once Erich had gone back to Tralane it would have been the end of the matter, but then had come the offer of books from the lending library in Newry and his own suggestion that she help out, since the librarian there had insisted on someone responsible being left in charge. Trant and Bannerman had talked it over at length, and had finally agreed.
Again he had only himself to blame but what the hell was he to do? Pull over to the side and switch off the motor?
She was asleep. Fraser knew this, felt it, had to ask, Exhaustion? and answer, Oh dear, oh dear.
âMary ⦠Mary, we're almost there. Do you want to straighten your hair?'
She stirred, got more comfortable and murmured, âDarling, take me away from Ireland. Take me some place where I don't know anyone but you.'
âIs it Erich, lass? You can tell me if it is.'
âErich? It's ⦠It's just this place. It's got to me. I can't stand it anymore and yet I know I'm going to have to.'
Fraser felt an utter foolâangry with her for not being honest, angry with himself for wanting to pitch the ring out on to the road! Slamming the car into first, he started off again. Doctors had the right not to tape their headlamps to blackout pinpoints. He had compromised by going the half and leaving the centre swath free but felt like getting out and tearing the things off.
They got to the lane soon enough, the colonel and his wife living in a Tudor âcottage' that was set in five acres of well-treed grounds near Armagh and solid comfort but Bannerman must have always looked out for himself, and Dotty, with her face powder, blush and creams, had simply tagged along. They had a poodle named Schnapps, a cat named Robustus, and two sons in the war, and they had a sign on a ramrod staff that had been cast out of Sudanese musket balls and was stabbed into the lawn to simply read:
DULSE AND DOTTY AT HOME
.
Och
, how many times had he vowed to steal the bloody thing and never had the courage?
Mary heard him fling it into the boot and knew then that he might well go on a bender that could last for days, that he was not only furious with her but with himself. Whiskey did things to him. First the talk, then the fun, and then the pain. He hadn't done that in a long, long time, not since she'd first known him and he'd come to love her.
The cocktails were over and they were just going in to dinner when Hamish rang the bell. They said their hellos and gave their apologies, his voice loud and boisterous. âA fractured right humerus and the left femur, Colonel. Assorted bruises, abrasions and cuts, and a gash like the leavings of a hurley stick. I packed the lad off to Newry in his father's donkey cart with enough morphine to turn him into a dope addict.'
âAll the Irish are the same. They breed them that way,' roared the colonel, in good form.
âDon't they,' shouted Hamish. âMary ⦠Mary, lass, let me
tak
your
coot
.'
âCoats upstairs for the ladies, Mrs. Fraser. Third on the right. Can't miss it. Powder on the left. Hamish, glad you could make it. Been wanting to have a chat. Informally, if you get the gist.'
âOh I do, Colonel. I do. Captain Allanby, nice to see they've given you a night off. Major, have the gates been left wide open?'
Mary could hear them from the top of the stairs and then from the bedroom whose bed was heaped with coats. So Jimmy was here and the major, and damn it, what was she to do?
Sit
with them at dinner? She'd throw up all over the place.
Somehow she got herself together and went down but didn't have to sit with either. Dotty Bannerman had given her Father Eugene O'Donnell on her right and the Reverend Frederick Mountjoy, pastor of All Saints in Belfast, on her left. Perhaps the woman had thought she'd be the cushion between them, perhaps the cement that bound these two old chunks of granite into some sort of conversational bridge.
There were, however, three RAFâsmashing types, as the Brits were fond of sayingâall in their uniforms with wings, five officers from the Royal Navy and a good sprinkling from the army, several WRNS and FANNYs,
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even two unattached but soon-to-be-attached Anglo-Irish girls by the looks they gave the boys, and assorted others both male and female.
It wasn't the usual, not quite. In fact, it was a darned sight different, and she wondered then as Father O'Donnell waited patiently for his turn to say the blessing, if the colonel and the major hadn't done it all on purpose. To cut her off from Hamish and single her out in the company of younger people like herself. Younger people who were at war and on leave, something she'd know little of.
âAntisubmarine patrols out of Derry. It's jolly fast and furious when we see them and have a chance to run in, but terribly boring most of the time.'
âAnd cold. Bloody awful, I should say.'
âMy da's a farmer. Sheep and cattle mostly, and the pigs. Me mam's a hairdresser and I'm a secretary.'
âMy father's a lawyer and doing very nicely, I'll thank you kindly.'
âYou lot should try the North Atlantic in gale force ten. Whips the tops right off the waves. Makes Jerry want to submerge just to steady the crockery.'
Destroyers, that one, felt Mary, but wasn't gale force ten the maximum, or was that twelve? They had had the soup and the poached salmon and were now on the main course. The chandeliers gave their light among the assorted crystal, the laughter and the conversation. Wineglasses were refilled constantly, no shortages here, not even a hint of them. The waiters had all been recruited from the hotels in Armagh and were very attentive in black bow ties and dinner jackets.
Snatches of conversation kept coming at her, glimpses of flashing blue and brown eyes, of white, white teeth, for the Anglo-Irish girls had cozied up to the two RAF across the table. The girls were plump-breasted things with necklines that plunged dangerously every time they leaned over, having deliberately dropped a fork or spoon. The one would toss her long raven-hair back; the other would bat her big brown eyes and smile.
âKing Billy was the curse of all Ireland,' said Father O'Donnell briskly, the two clergymen talking across her as if she didn't exist.
âAnd Patrick, I be thinking, though there are those of us who would claim him as our own,' said Mountjoy with spittle.
âFather, would you pass me the cranberry sauce, please?'
âThat I will, miss. As I was saying, Father Mountjoy â¦'
âPastor ⦠It's pastor.'
âThat it is, if you're claiming it.'
âI saw you refereeing the boys at hurley the other day, Father.'
âThat you did, miss. Now please don't interrupt me.'
Trying to tuck in a bite, she saw the two flying officers across the table laughing at her predicament. Flashing them a smile and shrugging with her eyebrows only made the Irish girls furious, but what could one do? âAre you really on antisubmarine patrols out of Derry?' she asked. It was all but a shout.
The one nodded, the other grinned and said, âWould we lie to you about a thing like that?' to which the Irish girls got huffy and the Royal Navy second lieutenant added, âThey haven't hit a thing yet, Mrs. Fraser,' and the Catholic priest pricked up his ancient ears.
âMrs. Fraser, ah now I have your name and take cognizance of it.' Without her wedding ring, she was, and with an eye for the lads and the husband down at the far end making mischief with the wine.
âAren't they very hard to detect?' she asked, hiding her left hand in her lap and leaning over the table so as to be heard.
âVery,' said the Royal Navy officer. âLike the proverbial needle in the haystack.'
âI've seen lots of them,' said one of the pilots. âFrom the air we can spot them better. Besides, we've got â¦'
âJack, steady on. Ears, eh what?'
âOh, sorry, Chris. Sorry. Need to keep my mouth zipped, Mrs. Fraser.'
âBut are you detecting them better than before?'
He gave her a nod. The raven-haired girl tossed back her hair. âMy dad says there are lots of U-boats in the South, off Cork and other places.'
âIn the West,' said the brown-eyed one. âThere are hundreds of places for them to hide. Dingle Bay, for sure. Thousands of little coves and no one in sight for miles around.'
Someone asked her jokingly how she could be so certain and she answered swiftly, âMy da knows more than pigs, he does.'
The Royal Navy officer suggested she should offer her services to the War Office to which the poor girl blushed crimson and said, âMe mam's from Glenbeigh, so there, Your Highness, and my grandda's seen three of them German U-boats which is more than th' whole lot of ye have seen, I suppose.'
A girl of spirit. âGood for you, Maevis. That's telling them,' said the raven-haired one looking darkly across the table as if this Mrs. Fraser was to blame for it all.
âThree?' asked the pilot named Jack. He wasn't going to leave it. âUp Derry way we're seeing three a week sometimes. They come to raid the convoys.'
âOh, and do they? Convoys is it? Ships from America, Erin. In the films, I'd be for sure and you, too, what with them eyes of yours that are such a lovely shade of violet and that ebony hair.'
They talked about America. One had best pick at the roast chicken and try a bit of the beef but definitely not ask Pastor Mountjoy to pass the forgotten horseradish.
Hamish was on his feet. Someone was dinging a glass, and soon everyone was following suit. âLadies and gentlemen, I give you His Majesty, the King,' he said, raising his glass. He had such a strong voice and good bearing when he wanted.
âThe King ⦠The King,' they all chimed in.
âAnd the war,' he said, looking down the length of the table towards her.
âHere, here,' shouted someone. âThe war.'
âPlease let's not have any talk of that beastly business, not tonight,' said their hostess from the other end of the table. âDulsey, you know we agreed.'
She was really looking most dismayed and likely to blubber at any moment.
âBoys in a bit of a dust-up with Rommel's chaps,' apologized the colonel gruffly. âGone missing in action. We've been waiting for weeks for news. Sorry, luv. Dr. Fraser meant well.'
âOh I did indeed,' said Hamish clearly, âbut what I meant was the U-boat war in the North Atlantic. May it go so well every one of the damned things is sunk!'