Aura (32 page)

She sighed as she looked at Thorn's bewildered face and confessed.  "There is so much to describe that I fear I am not doing a very good job of explaining and the more I say, the more there is to tell."
"It is all right Aura, I understand."  It went without saying that there would be many differences between the two cultures, especially if there truly was the number of years between them that she was talking about.  The world was ever changing.
Aura just gave him exasperated frown.  "How can you understand any of what I am talking about when you are so far removed from anything that I am speaking of that you could never begin to imagine it?  Unless I found a way to take you forward to my time."
By this time Aura's irritation at what she considered Thorn’s attempt to placate her had dissipated and she buried her face in his shoulder.  This time, however, rather than falling asleep, she cried.
Thorn pressed a tender kiss on the top of her head as he held her, hoping to soothe her fears and he spoke.  "I always knew that you were different, that you did not quite fit in.  I also recognized that you were having trouble dealing with things because you were not used to them.  I never was able to figure out why and after a short time I did not even try.  It seems I recognized right from the start, that you were meant for me.  You had to be.  You were everything I had prayed you would be.  Accepting what you were was not a simple thing.  I had been alone for a long time and women had tried many things to make me marry them.  You could have just have been another like them, despite what I felt about you.  You fought our union, which I found puzzling, but then you seemed to accept it quick enough when faced with the choice.  My first instinct was to wonder if it had all been a game.
Aura gave a hiccup as she gave a damp chuckle and commented.  "I do not remember being asked who I wanted to marry, or if I would, by either you or Vernon.  My objections were real, not some game."
"I understood that quickly enough.  I cannot explain what happened to bring us together, but I will say this.  None of the items that you have brought with you have been made here, or anywhere else that I have ever heard of.  This proves to me that what you have been telling me is the truth.  I doubt if I understand any of it any better than you, but I know it was meant to be."
“I don’t understand it any better, Thorn.  Perhaps it is enough that we accept what has happened to bring us together as an act of God and leave it at that.  What else could it be?"
Thorn moved to make himself more comfortable and replied.  "What indeed, for who else could have the power to move a person through time.  You will have to admit, it will take a lot of faith to believe in this."
"Where I come from Thorn, it takes a lot of faith to believe God even exists."  Aura told him.
Thorn leaned over and took her face between his two hands to give her a kiss.  "I am unsure whether I have been deserving or not.  I truly doubt it, but I have been given you, and so I must believe."
"I spoke with a priest before I came back.  He told me that if what I told him was true, you must have a lot of faith to believe.  He advised me also that I should cling to you with all my heart and soul, for in doing so you would help me strengthen my own faith.  Thorn," Aura wound her arms about his chest and held him tight.  "Never lose your faith, please believe in us, for perhaps it is true that my soul is your soul's true mate just as you believe."
“That is the one thing in this life I can promise you Aura.  I will never quit believing that you were my gift from God.”  Thorn assured her.

Thorn watched his brother and family ride up to the front of the house and he decided that this Yule time was about to be his best
, as they would be all together.
Life for Thorn had undergone a vast improvement since Aura had returned to his life.  His house was clean and in order, his food was well prepared, his clothing was clean and mended when they needed to be.  It seemed as if she had spent most of her time making their home comfortable.  He had no doubt that she was happy.  She often hummed as she bustled about and sometimes even broke into song.  It was an attitude that was contagious and soon shared by their staff.
Yes, Thorn sighed as he thought to himself, he was happy in his home and with his life.  He had even gotten used to Sid, as a concession for Aura.  He had to admit that the snake did keep the place free of mice and rats, rodents that Aura seemed to despise.
In their preparations for the holiday season Thorn had learned how Aura had gotten her jewels and while he thought the idea quaint, he thought it was a bit extreme.  It was also not how things were done in his time, though he admitted the practice did have merit.  Christmas was a time of religious celebration, a time for families to get to know each other again.  It was not a time to give expensive and frivolous gifts to one another.
Signi and Sillgrim still lived in the cottage while Sillgrim was building his stronghold, and Signi was beginning to show signs of her pregnancy.  Signi had sought out Aura when she had noticed changes that might mean that she was with child and Aura had done a few tests on her before confirming the fact.  After learning of her condition she had begged to be allowed to stay close to Aura until after the birth of the child.  This was no problem.  Sillgrim and Signi’s home would not be finished until early summer anyway. 
Thorn assured them that the house they dwelled in would be available to them for as long as they needed it.  He did not want his sister living in a tent with Sillgrim like a camp follower.  Sillgrim agreed with him, especially as she carried his child.  Sillgrim had never experienced close proximity to a pregnant woman, but he did know what it meant and he was inordinately proud of the fact that he was about to become a father. 
Aura hoped that she would conceive.  She thought that perhaps bearing Thorn's child would bind them, and that her feelings of insecurity would be silenced.  Thorn laughed at her insecurities.  He told her that if she truly believed in their love that she would no longer have reason to fear. 
Aura thought Thorn’s blind faith frustrating at times.  He might find it easy to believe, but she had been given no foundation to fall back onto when it came to blind faith.  She was finding it difficult to adjust to her new life enough without leaning on concepts she could not understand.  She had no faith in true love.  Her experience with parental bonds went no further than her mother and stepfather, and she knew how flawed that was.
Both Thorn and Aura were at hand to greet his brother's family and Edwin smiled as he teased his brother in greeting.
"Finally found a way to hold on to Aura, Thorn?  I thought I would arrive to find you alone again."
Thorn laughed, sweeping Aura into his embrace as he replied.  "She just needed to decide that she wanted to stay.  Her being here now proves that she does."  He released her and she blushed.
Elizabeth had stood off to the side, organizing the children as their father had greeted his brother and sister in law.  She smiled as Aura had been swept into Thorn's arms and noted how Aura blushed with pleasure, mingled with awkwardness.  She had feared what she might find, remembering the last Yule time they had shared together.  She noted how happy Thorn was and said a quick prayer of thanks.  Aura was not so transparent, she hid her happiness behind a cloak of shy caution, but it still showed through and Elizabeth knew it was right.
"Aura," Edwin put an arm about Elizabeth’s shoulders to draw her forward to present her with pride.  "I would like you to meet Elizabeth, my wife.  Elizabeth, this is Aura, Thorn's only contribution to the growth of our family."
Aura gave Elizabeth a friendly smile and they exchanged an embrace as they greeted each other.  "I have waited a long time to meet you. "
"I am equally curious about you."  Aura admitted.
Thorn and Edwin moved off, believing that this was a conversation best left for women to hold on their own.  They had more important matters to discuss.  Aura turned her attention to the three children before her, and listened as Elizabeth introduced them.
"The eldest is named after his father, Edwin.  Then Laura.  Then Dwaine.  “This one," Elizabeth patted her stomach, which showed no signs of stretching, indicating a new pregnancy, "I have not begun to think of a name for yet."
"How long have you been married?"  Aura asked in wonder.
"Six years." Came Elizabeth's proud reply.
"Six years and four children!"  Aura exclaimed as she gave her a look of awe.
Elizabeth sparkled back.  "Every child is a treasure, I would not give them up for anything.  Aura there is nothing more wonderful, more fulfilling, than carrying the child of the man you love and I do love Edwin."
"As he does you.  Come into our home," Aura picked up the youngest, while the other two each had a hold of one of their mother's hands.  "I will show you to your rooms and we can then take the children to the nursery.  We have gotten one of the girls from the village in to help care for the children during the holidays.  You may see them any time you wish, but I think they will enjoy the nursery.  The help will leave you free to do whatever you want while you are here.  I am sure you will want to visit Signi and Sillgrim for a while.  Signi is also carrying a child."
"How about you Aura?"  Elizabeth asked.
Aura sighed as she answered:  "We are not all so fertile I guess, but it will come."
"Enjoy it Aura, it is never the same after the children start coming.  Each one is precious, and a blessing from God and each one brings you closer.   You will find that they also take time that you used to have just for him."
"Would you want it any different?"  Aura asked.
"No, for while they take time, each one tells of the love Edwin and I share."
"They certainly do that."  Aura chuckled.
Aura remembered how she had told her stepfather that she did not really believe that the ladies had to endure having a child every year.  Elizabeth was living proof that ladies were no less susceptible to consistent child bearing than any other woman during this age. 
Aura and Elizabeth entered the guest room and she looked about her in wonder.  "It all looks so comfortable, Edwin will not want to get out of bed."
"It seems he seldom is anyway, considering all the children you have had.  You might as well be comfortable."  Aura teased.
Elizabeth tossed her a broad smile and teased back.  "I am sure Thorn is not much different.  He always believed he would find the one meant for him, his soul mate he used to call her.  I am glad it is you Aura, though I am not sure why yet."
"What was Thorn’s life like, Elizabeth?  He never speaks much of his life as it was when he was growing up."  Aura asked curiously.
"It was not easy for him, losing his mother at his birth.  He also lost his father and stepmother in a raid when he was very young.  He had to practically raise Edwin and Signi when he was little more than an overgrown boy and all the while holding off warring armies.  I think that in the beginning it was more luck than anything that he was never killed in battle.  There is not another knight in Christendom that can match him in battle.  For a long time I thought he felt women had only one use and with so many after him he had plenty of opportunity to use them.  The novelty wore thin quickly and he learned to hold women in disdain.  There were times I feared he might never marry or fall in love."
Aura felt a sudden melancholy and changed the subject.  "Perhaps we should take the children up to their rooms.   Anne will be waiting for them, and this little guy looks like he could use a good sleep.”  She indicated the child she held.
Elizabeth agreed, stating they all could.  It was late and they had been traveling all day, only stopping for quick meals.  They were very tired.  Aura and Elizabeth helped Anne put the children to sleep.  The youngest drifted off almost immediately.  Aura smiled down at the cherubic little face as she brushed a stray curl from his forehead then bent to brush a light kiss on the toddler's cheek.  The two women left the room to say a few last words to each other before they parted.
"You will make a wonderful mother Aura, you love children."
"Yes, and as I look at yours I can almost see what ours might look like, and my arms ache to hold Thorn’s child."
"You love Thorn, don’t you?"  Elizabeth sought confirmations of her thoughts.
"I am madly in love with Thorn.  He makes me feel so complete and in his arms I can deny him nothing."
Elizabeth threw her arms about Aura and gave a cry of happiness.  "I knew it, no wonder he is so happy." 
Thorn joined Aura a few hours later, and was surprised to find her still awake.  He slid into the bed beside her and gently gathered her into his arms as she snuggled up to him.
"Is something wrong Aura?"  He asked in concern.
 
She shook her head and hugged him closer to herself.  "I am just tired.  They seem so very settled in their lives and roles."
"Time and children do that to you Aura.  I never stop teasing Elizabeth that she must have been born pregnant to have so many.  She always seems to be carrying another baby.  Edwin used to worry about it, but she bears her children easy, so he never worries overmuch about it any more."
"Signi is afraid she is going to have a difficult pregnancy.  I think it would do her some good to talk to Elizabeth about it.  She might be able to ease her mind."
Thorn smiled as he kissed Aura’s forehead and complimented her.  "You are always thinking of others, perhaps we would do well to think of ourselves for a few moments."
"But I have been."  She responded with a roguish smile.
"Really?  And what have you decided?"
"That Elizabeth has the right idea.  Thorn, I would be proud to carry your child."
"We have all sorts of time for children, Aura."  Thorn spoke, as they had covered this ground many times before.
"I know," was all she said.
His mouth moved to cover hers and she wiggled to get closer to him.  He was in a mellow, gentle mood, and Aura decided to follow his lead.  He seemed to move with studied grace, touching, kissing, softly caressing and she responded in likewise fashion.   This seemed to be a different Thorn, a part of the man she had yet to see.  It both excited and amazed her that after being with him, and living intimately with him for over seven months, that she should find him suddenly changed, at least for the moment.  Even their joining had been, it seemed, like part of a dream and therefore not quite real.
Aura had to force herself not to scream as they came together.  Thorn had not used the same amount of restraint as he had called her name a moment before collapsing over her.  He did not care if they were heard.
"Perfect."  Thorn breathed into her ear as he molded her pliant body to his. 
They woke several hours later, this time to succumb to a frantic, wild bout of passionate lovemaking.  It was as if they could not seem to get enough of each other, and Aura almost passed out as he continued to thrust into her.  Shortly thereafter he exploded deep within her, spilling his seed.  The next morning they overslept.
Aura took one look at Edwin and Elizabeth, as they took their seats before them then looked at Thorn, who smiled back at the couple with a twinkle in his eye.  She gave a silent groan and rolled her eyes skywards.  She was not about to be pulled into this one, it could turn out to be very embarrassing.  Edwin and Elizabeth had been married long enough that they did not need to use much imaginations to know what had happened to make their host and hostess late, they knew.
Sillgrim and Signi did not make an appearance until the afternoon and Signi did not look as if she was feeling well.  The two brothers took one look at their sister then shot Sillgrim inquiring and not so friendly looks.  Sillgrim knew there would be no explaining anything to Signi’s brothers, but he was willing to try.
"Signi is having problems carrying the child.  I do not know what to do to help."
"I have not seen either of you for over a week.  You could have sent a servant for Aura to attend her."  Thorn stated bluntly.
Sillgrim did not want to say it but he was beginning to resent Aura.  She had a way of making everyone seem inadequate and Sillgrim realized that although he might have wanted her at one time, there were moments now when she did no more than irritate him.  He hated what he thought of as her superiority, without understanding why.  He looked at the two men before him and frowned as the thought crossed his mind that they were going to insist that Aura check on Signi. 
As it turned out it was not Aura that ended up helping Signi, but Elizabeth.  Aura sat back and watched as Elizabeth reassured Signi of the normality of her fears and they talked about common shared experiences and feelings in relation to their pregnancies.  Aura eventually grew tired of the conversation and retired to a room where she had set up to work on her tapestries. 
Aura sat looking at the sewing she had done and chuckled to herself.  She remembered when she thought that such work boring, now her crafts occupied a good portion of each day.  The men, who were roaming about the house looking for something interesting to do, came upon her.
"Where are Elizabeth and Signi?"  Thorn asked as he led the other men into the room.