Ash: A Secret History (171 page)

Ash, ignoring the last of what he said, caught Florian’s hand in hers and swung the woman around to face her.

“That’s it. That’s
it!
” She took in a breath. “Heito knew what Gundobad had done to Carthage. He knew Gundobad had living children.
That’s
what he was afraid of. Burgundy being made into a wasteland!”

“And he bred for a bloodline that doesn’t do miracles – that keeps miracles from being done.” Florian’s hands shut tight around Ash’s gloved fingers, almost cutting off the circulation. “They didn’t know about the Wild Machines. They were just afraid of another Gundobad.”

“Well, she’s out there, right enough!” Ash jerked her head in a random direction, understood to mean
beyond these city walls.
“Our Faris. Another Gundobad. Any time the Wild Machines want to make her act…”

“Except that she can’t. Because of me.”

“First Charles, then you.” Ash couldn’t stop a smile. “Jeez, I thought
I
was good at finding trouble and jumping into the middle of it!”

“
I didn’t ask for this!
”

Her voice echoed back from the walls of the shaft. Dull, booming reverberations faded away. The wind from above shifted the candlelight, and brought a scent familiar from slaughterhouses: old blood, old urine and dung. Fear, and death, and sacrifice.

The silence deepened. No knowing, now, how much of the night is gone, or whether across the city, in the cathedral, they are waking to sing Lauds, or Matins, or Prime.

“It was Duke Charles’s dream,” the bishop said, “to regain the middle kingdom of Europe – to become, in time, another Charlemagne; another Emperor over all. How else to stop us wasting our time in quarrels and wars, and unite Christendom against our enemies? A Charlemagne with Heito’s grace. My brother was a man who might have been that … but it was not given to him. If he had turned his eyes south, we might not be in such desperate trouble now. God rest him. But you are Duchess now.”

“Oh, I know that,” Florian said absently. She reached up and rapped her knuckles on Heito’s stone shin. “Now you tell me something. Tell me, why is there sunlight over Burgundy?”

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“What?” Ash looked around, confused, at the shadowed chapel.

“Outside. Daytime. Why is it light? Why isn’t it
dark?
”

“I don’t get it.”

Florian hit one hand into the other. “You told me. The Wild Machines draw down the sun. That’s
real.
So – why isn’t it dark here? Why is there sun in Burgundy? It’s dark in the lands all around us.”

Ash opened her mouth to refute the argument. She closed it again. Bishop John’s frown showed pure bewilderment. The wind from the sacrificial shaft brought the smell of cold stone and corruption, deep here in the earth.

“Does it – feel – real?” Ash asked. “The sunlight?”

“Would I know?”

“You knew about the Hart!”

Florian frowned. “Whatever’s in my blood, I used it for the first time, on the hunt. I did something. But after that … no. I’m not
doing
anything.”

“After the hunt, there is nothing for you to do,” Bishop John said. “It is not what you do, it is what you are. You have only to live, and you are our guardian.”

“I can’t tell,” Floria said. “I can’t feel anything.”

Sweat sprang out in Ash’s palm.
What else don’t we know?

“Maybe it’s people here praying for light. The Bishop here says all men have grace…” She began to pace on the terracotta tiles; stopped in the small space, and swung around. “No,
that
doesn’t work, because I guarantee men have been praying as hard as shit in France and the Cantons, too! And it was black as the ace of spades when we came through there. If God’s grace was going to do a miracle through prayer, we’d have seen the sun over Marseilles and Avignon!”

“I’m no longer devout.” Florian smiled painfully. “While I was in the sacred baths, I was thinking. I know what I do – I preserve the mundane. So did Duke Charles. I wondered why things were so bad in the infirmary. I’ve had men dying on me since I got here. Men I’d expect to see live. Charles’s praying priests didn’t do him any good, either! This is the real world, here.”

The Bishop murmured, “‘God lays His heaviest burden on His most faithful servants.’ We can’t have His gift without His penalty.”

Florian hit her hand into her fist again. “So why is it
light
here?” She looked down at her tumbled robes, and her bare hands. “And why was there a miracle at Auxonne?”

For a second, Ash is back on the field, among rain-sodden mud, with jets of jellied flame searing across men’s burned-black faces. She absently wiped her hand across her mouth. The stench is still clear in her memory.

Ash remembers priests on their knees, the snow coming down as the wind changed. “I asked de Vere to ask the Duke to let his priests pray – for snow, so the enemy would have no visibility; for the wind in our favour, so their shafts would drop short.”

Floria, eyes bright, gripped Ash’s arm. “At first I thought the Duke must have been injured. Weakened. But de la Marche told me it happened before he was wounded.” Bewildered, Floria turned to the bishop. “Shouldn’t those priests have been praying for nothing? Or is there – I don’t know – a weakness in the bloodline?”

“We are only men,” Bishop John said mildly. “We have nurtured the line of ducal blood, century upon century, but we are only men. Imperfect men. These things must happen, only once or twice in a generation. If we could reject
all
grace, how could God send us a Hart to be made flesh?”

“The Hart,” Florian said. “Of course: the Hart.”

“Florian won’t be perfect,” Ash said abruptly. “She
can’t
be. I’ve been in Carthage. Two hundred years of incest.” The expression on the bishop’s face almost made her laugh. “That’s what it took the Wild Machines to get a Faris. Two hundred years of scientific, calculated human stock-breeding. Incest! And what have you been doing in Burgundy?”

“Not incest!” Bishop John gasped. “That’s against the laws of God and man!”

A raw, coarse laugh burst out before Ash could stop it. She grinned at the bishop’s pallid face, there being nothing else to do now but laugh, scarified by irony. All mercenary now, she snorted out, “That’s what you get for following God’s law! You said it to me, at the hunt.
Burgundy has a bloodline.
Well, Burgundy should have done it properly! Dynastic marriages, chivalric love, and a bit of adultery at best – shit. That’s no way to breed
stock.
You guys needed a Leofric here!”

A little ironically, Florian said, “Remember, I succeeded. I made the Hart real.” Her voice contrastingly quiet, her gaze abstracted, she walked back towards the shrine of St Heito. With her back to Ash, she said, “If the Dukes need to prove themselves – I have. If I hadn’t, the Wild Machines would have made their miracle at the hunt.”

“Oh. Yeah.” A little embarrassed at her outburst, Ash coughed. “Well … yeah, there’s that.”

“…Until I die.” Barely a whisper. Florian turned to face them. “I still don’t understand. I’m alive. What the
Ferae Natura Machinae
do when they draw down the sun is real—”

“Oh, it must be.” Ash sounded sardonic. “The Wild Machines don’t do miracles – if they did, they wouldn’t need the Faris! And Burgundy would have been charred and smoking six hundred years ago.”

Florian gave a loose-limbed shrug that did not belong on anyone wearing court dress. “We’re right about that, or we’d be dead. But, Ash – we shouldn’t be seeing the sun.”

A brief burst of novices’ voices came from above as the iron-studded door opened, then shut. Bishop John of Cambrai called to them to leave, up a shaft that echoed now.

Puddled wax alone remained of the smaller candles; the fatter ones still burning down, beginning to enclose their flames like yellow lanterns. A stray cold draught blew across the back of Ash’s neck. She reached up to scratch under the fur collar of her demi-gown with one finger.

“It’s no use me trying to— I won’t take them by surprise again.”

“No. I know that.” Florian gathered up her robes again, hugging them against herself, as if for comfort. “But I’m right. Aren’t I? Bishop, you can’t answer this one. There’s still something we don’t know!”

“This must be taken to your
grand conseil,
” John of Cambrai said. “Or the
petit conseil
first, perhaps, your Grace. There may be those who can answer this. If not, then we conclude, I think, that God may do His will as He wills it, and if He chooses to bless us so, then all we may rightly do is give thanks for His light.”

Ash, alienated by his expression of shaky piety, remarked, “Godfrey says that God doesn’t cheat.”

Florian turned away from the bishop’s hand, and Ash saw her face; her eyes prominent, dark-circled, stressed. Catching Ash’s gaze, the woman said, “I didn’t want to know that there’s
still
something I don’t know!”

The Bishop of Cambrai stepped back towards the altar. His soft, black eyes reflected the candlelight. He moved with gravitas. When he turned back, he held in his hands a circlet carefully cut, glued and shaped from horn. The ducal crown.

“You had questions. They have been answered,” he said. “This is your vigil. Will you take the crown?”

Ash saw her panic. The glittering walls pressed in, in the candles’ yellow gloom; the brick vaults above sweating nitre, and the tiles underfoot smelling of old blood. There is nothing here to remind her of the filigree stone of the palace above, all white light and air. This place is a fist of earth, ready to close around them.

Florian said finally, “Why do I have to? I don’t need it, to do what I do. This whole thing –
I don’t need this!
”

She backed a step away from the Bishop of Cambrai.

“You didn’t need this,” Ash said grimly. “
I
didn’t need this. But you understand something, Florian –
make your mind up.
Are you running away from this, or are you Duchess? You commit yourself to one or the other, or I’ll kick your sorry ass so hard you’re going to wonder what fell on you!”

“What’s it to you?” Florian said, almost sulkily. It was not a tone Ash was used to hearing from her, although she suspected Jeanne Châlon might have heard it a lot, fifteen years ago.

Ash said, “None of us owe Burgundy anything. You could be what you are in London or Kiev, if we could
get
there. But I’m telling you now, if you’re staying here, you’d better be committed to being Duchess. Because there’s no way I’m putting people’s lives on the line as army commander if you don’t mean it.”

Bishop John said, half under his breath, “Now we see why God brought you here, demoiselle.”

Ash ignored him.

Florian muttered, “We’ve – the Lion’s agreed to defend Dijon.”

“Ah, for fuck’s
sake!
If I find us a way out – fuck knows how! – they’ll go if I say go. I’ve been talking to people. They don’t give a flying toss about the glories of Burgundy, and they really, really don’t give a shit about fighting alongside Messire de la Marche. Some of us have died here, but they don’t have any
loyalty
to this place—”

“Shouldn’t I have? If I’m going to be crowned?”

“And do you?”

“I do.”

Ash stared at Floria’s face. There was very little to go on, in her expression. Then, in a flood, everything there: doubt, dread, fear at having committed herself, fear at having said, not what is true, but what is required. Tears filled up her eyes and ran over her lids, streaking her cheeks with silver.

“I don’t want to do this! I don’t want to be this!”

“Yeah, tell me about it.”

A flicker of the old Florian: sardonic bleakness: “You and the Maid of Burgundy.”

“Our guys won’t fight for some Duchess,” Ash said, “but they’ll fight for you, because we don’t leave our own. You’re the surgeon, you went to Carthage; they’ll fight like shit to keep you alive, the same as they’d fight to hang on to me or Roberto or each other. But we really don’t care if it’s fighting rag-heads to keep the Duchess alive, or fighting Burgundians to get you out of here. The
Burgundians
need to know you’re Duchess, now do you
get that?
”

“What do you want to do?”

Refusing the distraction, Ash said rapidly, “Me? I’ll do whatever I have to do. Be their banner. Right now, I need to know what
you’re
going to do. They’ll know if you don’t mean it!”

Florian moved away, stepping on the chill flagstones of the chapel as if they were hot; all her body fidgeting with indecisiveness.

“This is a place for confessing sins,” she said abruptly.

The bishop, from the shadowed altar, said, “Well, yes – but in private—”

“Depends. On who you need to confess to.”

She walked back and took Ash’s hands. Ash was astonished at the coldness of the older woman’s skin –
almost in shock,
she thought – and then she made herself concentrate on what Florian was saying:

“I’m a coward, when it matters. I can pull people out of the line-fight. I can hurt them when I need to. Cut them wide open. Don’t ask me to commit to anything else.”

Ash began to speak, to say,
Everyone’s afraid; fight the fear,
and Florian interrupted:

“Let me tell you something.”

About to answer with a casual
sure!,
Ash stopped and looked at her.
She wants to tell me something I don’t want to hear,
she realised, and paused, and then nodded in assent. “Tell me.”

“This is hard.”

Bishop John coughed, artificially, drawing attention to his presence. Ash saw Florian’s gaze flick to him, and away; unclear whether she was giving tacit consent to the man’s presence, or merely so far past caring that she couldn’t be bothered to acknowledge him.

“I’m ashamed of one thing in my life,” Florian said. “You.”

“
Me?
” Ash realised her mouth was dry.

“I fell in love with you, oh … three years back?”