As Shadows Fade (28 page)

Sacrifice.

Aunt Eustacia had sacrificed herself, too. She'd made Max do the unthinkable because she knew he would. One life given for the safety of many.

Victoria pushed the thought away. This was different. This was Max. Her Max.

She'd free him, or she'd die trying. She didn't want to live without him.

Coward.

Dying is easier than going on without.

I'm a coward when it comes to loving you.

She pulled away from Sebastian. “Go and get the orb. I'll…” Her voice broke. She felt as though her in-sides were twisting like a rag being wrung out. Harder, tighter, until every bit of feeling leeched away…leaving her empty.

She swallowed, stood upright, and looked straight at him. “I order you to go, as your
Summa
Gardella. Get the orb. Close the Midiverse Portal. God willing, I'll see you after.”

Sebastian looked at her. “Victoria Gardella,” he said, reaching to touch her cheek, brushing away a tear. “You are a magnificent woman. A brave, intelligent leader. Beautiful and strong.” His expression grew intense, and he took her chin to keep her eyes fastened on him. “You are
Summa
Gardella. Never forget that.”

He turned her face up and kissed her…not on the lips, but on the cheeks—one side and then the other. Then he left the room, closing the door behind him.

She realized then that he'd finally accepted her love for Max.

Turning back to her preparations, she felt a wave of fear again. What if she was too late?

What if they didn't get the orb? If something went wrong, and the portal wasn't closed?

You are
Summa
Gardella.

She was.

Victoria's knees gave way and she let herself sink onto the bed.

You are
Summa
Gardella now, Victoria. You have an obligation to the Consilium and the rest of the Venators. You can no longer think only of yourself, of your needs and desires, but of the far-reaching consequences of your actions. Or inactions.

It's time you learned sacrifice.

Max's angry words came roaring back to her, words he fairly shouted at her during their escape from Nedas, months ago.

Sacrifice.

Bloody damn sacrifice.

Summa
Gardella. Last of the line.

Of course. He meant to protect not only her, Victoria, the woman he loved…but also her, the last of the line.

Of
course.

She didn't like it, but she understood better why. Why he'd leave her behind, why he
had
to leave her behind. Why he thought he had to leave her behind.

And she knew she couldn't go after him. At least, not yet.

Not until the task at hand was done.

Duty before desire.

But then. And then she'd do what she vowed to do: She'd find Lilith, and she'd kill her. And Max would be free.

 

+ + +

The five rings fit perfectly, amazingly, from thumb to pinkie. Sebastian had slipped them all on, one by one, and they snugly enclosed his fingers.

The copper bands, half as wide as the length from knuckle to knuckle, felt surprisingly comfortable. They weren't particularly ornate or unusual—five simple rings, made of braided copper strands, each slightly twisted and plaited differently from the one before it.

He looked over at Victoria, her short hair curling around her pale face. She couldn't see the glow that flushed her cheeks, but he recognized it with a deep pang, and felt another halfhearted wave of jealousy. Unless he was wrong, she carried Pesaro's child, the child who would continue the direct Gardella line.

He wondered if Pesaro knew.

He suspected if he had, he would not only have left her behind, but probably imprisoned her safely somewhere.

Not that Sebastian wouldn't do the same, were he in that enviable situation.

And not that it would have done any good, to try to put Victoria out of action.

Thank God she'd decided not to risk herself going after Max, for the loss could be greater than they realized.

Her eyes wandered briefly to the mountain that rose behind them, and he imagined how the need to go there must drive at her.

But she'd abandoned her plan to go after Max. The portal had to be closed first, and difficult as it was, much as the strain showed in her face and around her eyes, he saw she'd made the decision. She'd accepted Pesaro's sacrifice. And perhaps she did realize that her duty as
Summa
Gardella extended beyond anything the men could do.

“The pool is there,” said Mercy, breaking into his thoughts. She pointed with a powerful hand toward a small outcropping of rock.

Now that the sun had set, the undead had shed their cloaks and moved about with ease. The two Imperials sported swords at their waists, but kept them sheathed.

For Sebastian, such casual interaction with vampires bothered him little. He'd become used to it while living with Beauregard off and on over the years. Of course, this situation was different, yet he had heard Lilith's orders. She'd given her followers direction in the ancient language, presumably unaware that Sebastian's grandfather had taught it to him long ago.

Her instructions were clear: They weren't to harm the mortals in any way until the portal was safely closed. Then they were to get the rings, take Victoria prisoner, and kill the others.

Of course, Sebastian had passed that information along to his companions, who had agreed with him the undead wouldn't make it to see the Midiverse Portal. They didn't need them as guides for anything but the location of the pool, and here they were.

Now he moved toward the indicated crust of rock formation. The sun had set, but still cast a generous glow from beneath the horizon. That last bit of light would fade fast, and the moon had waned to a generous half circle since they'd left Prague more than a week ago.

He wouldn't be able to see well for much longer.

Victoria and Michalas moved forward with torches to light his way, while Brim lagged behind the trio of vampires to watch for anything unexpected.

Sebastian had insisted on being the one to wear the rings and to dip his hand in the pool, for if he was wrong about the protection of the rings, it was only fitting he bear the results. And aside from that, he
needed
to do it. The desire was just as compelling as the curiosity that had driven him to look at the Gardella Bible, and he saw no reason to fight it.

He still sought whatever path had been set for him.

The vampires agreed with him, although Victoria argued and wanted to don the rings herself. But Sebastian had stood firm.

The torchlight glinted over the glasslike water. Despite the soft breeze that had kept the day from being miserably hot, even though they were in the foothills of a huge mountain, the water didn't move a ripple. Instead, the surface reflected their tall torches and the last streaks of light in the sky behind him as Sebastian knelt next to it.

Victoria and Michalas stood guard between him and the vampires, in the event they felt it was their duty to shove him—or any of them—into the pool. Although that seemed as if it would be a futile effort, for the pool was hardly larger than a carriage, and likely wouldn't be very deep.

The size of a wagon, but perfectly circular, except for a little bulge on its west side, the pool sat surrounded by flat white rocks built up in layers above and, likely, below the waterline.

“The orb is hardly larger than your palm,” Mercy said, moving to stand across the water from Sebastian. “You'll have to feel around for it.”

“The water isn't deep,” Sebastian replied.

But it was lethal, as they soon found when he poked a stick into its perfect mirror. He felt a faint shuddering of the branch, and when he withdrew it moments later, he saw that the part that had been submerged was gone. The edge of the stick smoked, as if it had been burned.

Sebastian drew in a deep breath and moved a bit closer to the edge. He looked down and saw his face reflected in the surface, perfectly detailed as if he looked in a mirror. The tops of Victoria's and Michalas's heads flanked his shoulders, and the flames of their torches flickered near the center of the image.

With a deep breath, he extended the little finger of his ringless left hand, the one that had been cut off at the second knuckle by the bloodthirsty Sara Regalado. Since it was already maimed, it couldn't get much worse, he figured. He touched the blunt tip to the very top of the water and felt such a searing pain that he nearly screamed.

Jerking his hand back, he looked at the edge of his finger and saw that it was black. The flesh had been burned away where he'd touched the water, leaving a gleam of white bone in the center of the blackened skin.

God Almighty.

He looked up at Victoria, whose face had set grimly. “Let me do it,” she said, holding out her hand for the rings.

“No,” he said. “It's not for you to do. The rings will protect me.” He hoped.

Flexing his right hand, the one with all five fingers still intact—and each one now encircled by copper—Sebastian offered up a little prayer. And he plunged his hand in.

The puddle shifted nary a ripple, but his fingers pushed through with no effort.

He felt the bite of the edge of the water's surface against his arm, like a knife brushing against him, and he pulled his hand back, expecting to see blood.

Nothing. Not even a scratch.

And, oddly, no droplets of water splattered when he pulled out. Instead, it dripped off in heavy spherical drops, like mercury, sliding back into the pool and fading into invisibility.

He looked down and immersed his hand once again. This time, although he felt the cut of the water, he ignored it and began to gingerly seek the orb, unsure what other surprises he might find.

Beneath the surface, the pool felt just like any other body of water: surging, pressing, and wet. Sebastian moved his fingers around, feeling along for anything spherical. He touched a sandy bottom, smooth and without the slime of seaweed or the random bump of stone.

He inched closer to the edge of the water, and felt Victoria's hands close around his shoulders, holding him steady and safe. That allowed him to seek further, and he stared at the image of his face on the water, with Victoria and her dark, tousled curls and anxious expression above and to the side of his.

He focused on the image of them together while using his hand to feel around, looking at her, and himself, his fingers brushing the soft bottom of the pool. He felt something sharp and pointed, and paused, running his fingers around it, wishing he had another set of five rings so he could use both hands to seek.

The object felt pyramid-shaped, heavy, larger than his hand, definitely not the orb. But he wondered what it might be.

Reluctantly leaving it in place, for the vampire eyes watched him closely, he slid his hand around to the right, sweeping farther and farther. As he searched, he concentrated by keeping his eyes focused on Victoria's gaze in the image reflected below.

Having swept through most of the large section of the pool, he slid this time into the baylike bulge on the side. The water was deeper here, and it reached past his elbow when he brushed the bottom.

Then his bare fingers moved something hard and rough, very different from the sandy bottom or a glass sphere.

Then the rough object…opened, or gave way, or somehow changed under the pressure of his hand, and his arm slid deeper into the water. Sebastian felt a little
zing
of awareness trip through him as he felt something close around his hand and wrist…like sand or the mud of a bog.

He couldn't move for a moment, couldn't pull his hand out, and his breathing caught, his vision spotted.

There was a soft rustle in his ears, deep in his mind, whispering in the back of his head. Sebastian blinked and shook his head, refocusing on the mirrorlike pool where his hand remained immersed. He saw his face on the surface, and Giulia's behind him, her long, dark hair falling over her shoulder and onto his.

Her lips moved. She was speaking, urgently, her eyes big and dark.
Save me.

He cried out, reached out automatically behind him, yanking his hand from the water and twisting to touch her, flinging the ball-like droplets every which way. They bounced back into the pool as he realized no one was there behind him.

No one but Victoria, who, upon his exclamation of surprise, had pulled him back from the pool so he tumbled onto his arse on the ground behind him. The black spots in his vision had gone, his hand was unharmed, and the little
zing
of awareness went away. His breathing rough, Sebastian shook his head and regained his focus.

Was he going mad, or had the pool triggered one of his dreams?

She'd never spoken to him like that before. Pleading, begging.
Save me.

But how. Bloody damn
how
?

“Sebastian.” He looked up to find Victoria bending over him, her face close and definitely not like Giulia's, except for the dark hair and dark eyes. Perhaps it wasn't so far-fetched that his mind had played such a trick. “Are you hurt?”

“No,” he replied shortly. “I was merely startled.”

“What happened? Perhaps I should try—”

“No, damn it. Move out of the way, and let me try again. There's not much more I haven't searched, so if the orb is there, I'll find it.” His hand was fine, and though that had been an odd sensation, he was unharmed. He'd never felt as though the pool was sucking him in or meant to drag him down. It hadn't been…threatening.

Not threatening, but, perhaps…enlightening.

Ignoring the sharp look Victoria gave him, Sebastian moved to the opposite side of the pool and knelt there. The sun had gone completely to bed, and the only light was from the anemic half-moon and the orange cast from the torches. This, along with the position of the mountain behind him now, left the reflection of the pool darker and more indistinct. Just as well. He didn't need to see Giulia crying for help.