A Self-Made Man

“Hello, Mrs. Morgan,” he replied, and Lacy wondered whether anyone else could hear the slow, scathing emphasis on her name. “You're looking particularly…prosperous. Marriage seems to have agreed with you.”

“And traveling has obviously agreed with you, Adam,” she observed pointedly, scanning his well-cut tuxedo in deliberate replication of his earlier perusal of her. “You're polished to a rather high gloss yourself.”

“Apparently, we've both learned the value of wearing the right uniform.”

She narrowed her eyes. “Uniform?”

“Yes. After all, if you don't suit up, they won't let you play, will they?”

She took a moment to breathe past her anger. Perhaps
his
clothing was just a costume to disguise the irreverent rebel he'd always been, but her transformation was deeper, more fundamental. She hadn't “suited up” to play a poised young widow. She had changed far more than her gown. She was no longer naive, desperate or foolish.

“I really wouldn't know,” she said coolly. “Unfortunately, I have very little time to play. Which reminds me, I should be getting back to the other guests. Perhaps you'd like to see some of our more expensive paintings. After all, now that you've gone to the trouble of suiting up as a rich philanthropist, we wouldn't want to deny
you
the chance to get in the game.”

 

Dear Reader,

We've all made more mistakes than we can count. We've stumbled and grumbled. We've misjudged, misbehaved and just generally messed up. The road not taken haunts us, and the road we did take is littered with our mistakes.

But sometimes we get lucky—sometimes life offers us a second chance. And, if we've learned anything, we try to do better, to be kinder, wiser, stronger. We use our new chance to fight our way to happiness.

When Adam Kendall, the hero of
A Self-Made Man
, comes back to Pringle Island, the home he left ten years ago, he isn't looking for a second chance. He's looking for revenge. Lacy Morgan, the childhood sweetheart he abandoned, doesn't want to start over, either. She just wants to be left alone.

But somehow these two wounded people, who thought it was too late for happiness, discover that they learned something very special during those lonely years apart.

They learned how to forgive. And they learned how to love.

I hope you enjoy their story. And I hope that your days, too, will be filled with love and happiness…and all the second chances you need!

Warmly,

Kathleen O'Brien

CHAPTER ONE

CHAPTER TWO

CHAPTER THREE

CHAPTER FOUR

CHAPTER FIVE

CHAPTER SIX

CHAPTER SEVEN

CHAPTER EIGHT

CHAPTER NINE

CHAPTER TEN

CHAPTER ELEVEN

CHAPTER TWELVE

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

EPILOGUE

“O
H
,
MY
L
ORD, WHAT'S THE
matter with the baby?” The horrified bellow could be heard fifty yards away. “Lacy! Where are you? The baby is upside down!”

The chatter in the crowded riding arena skipped a heartbeat. More than a hundred guests had gathered in the cleverly converted Barnhardt stables, expecting to be lavishly feted in return for their financial support of the new Pringle Island General Hospital Neonatal Unit. This development—an upside-down baby—was clearly quite a surprise.

“Lacy! Come here!”

Under the soft light from overhead fixtures, two dozen faces turned toward Lacy Morgan with expressions of well-bred curiosity. Down along the main aisle, which had once housed the eight Barnhardt horses, other guests poked their heads inquisitively out from the individual stalls, where they had been viewing the items placed for auction.

“Lacy, come quick!” The call grew shrill. “Lacy, for heaven's sake, come look at this baby!”

Lacy sighed internally, recognizing Tilly Barnhardt's voice immediately. No one but Tilly could hit that particular note and hold it quite that long. And no one but that eccentric elderly matron would have
dreamed of interrupting this glittering event, the kickoff fund-raiser for the neonatal wing, with such a dreadful caterwauling.

“Excuse me. I believe I'm being paged.” Lacy bestowed an apologetic smile on her companion, a gentleman who, for the past half an hour, had been telling her everything any human could want to know about corn options—and perhaps, if she were truthful, just a little more. Murmuring reassuring noises at the other guests, she plucked a champagne flute deftly from a passing waiter's tray and, lifting her long blue silk skirt slightly with one hand, she glided across the softly polished hardwood floors toward the echoing wail.

She found her elderly friend just inside the tack room, standing in front of a huge oil painting, scowling fiercely.

“Tilly, my love, do hush.” Lacy held the champagne flute out with a smile. “Half the guests think someone is being murdered in here.”

“But look! Look what some fool has done!” Tilly extended one long forefinger toward the painting dramatically. “It's the Verengetti! It was our coup! The highlight of the entire show, and it's been hung
upside down!
”

Lacy patted the older woman's shoulder, her fingers encountering the familiar rough patches of worn velvet. Tilly had worn that same black velvet dress to meet two presidents, bury three husbands, and raise about five million dollars for the hospital. As the wealthy widow of Pringle Island's most beloved obstetrician, she could afford to buy a new evening
gown for every night of the week. But she could also, she always said, afford not to. Her lack of pretension was one of the qualities Lacy valued most.

“It's not upside down,” Lacy explained, turning her own attention to the riot of pink and blue splotches that were the Verengetti trademark. In the center the pink and blue formed a baby held in a woman's arms, and the woman was clearly standing on her head. It was probably a statement about the cosmic implications of motherhood, but Lacy knew that Tilly would find any such explanation unacceptable. “It's supposed to look like that, Tilly.”

Tilly snorted. “Nonsense.” She studied the painting, tilting her head at such an extreme angle Lacy began to fear that her stiff white wig might topple. “Really?” She transferred her glare to Lacy. “Like
that?
”

Lacy nodded. “I'm afraid so.” She extended the champagne again, and this time Tilly took it.

“Well.” The older woman drained half the flute in one swallow. “Well.” She flicked a wry glance at Lacy. “I guess you'd know, with your fancy art degree and all. I guess that's the kind of stuff they teach you at graduate school nowadays.”

Lacy smiled. “I'm afraid so.”

It was an old joke between them. Tilly was the only woman in town who hadn't ever been impressed by Lacy's rather extensive academic credentials. Tilly's indifference had driven Lacy's late husband crazy when he'd been alive. Malcolm Morgan had wanted everyone in town to admire what a refined, intellectual trophy wife he'd created out of poor little Lacy
Mayfair—and for the most part everyone had obliged. Everyone except for Tilly. And, of course, Lacy herself.

Lacy cared less than anyone about her own transformation. After all, what did book learning have to do with appreciating art and beauty? She remembered the day ten years ago when, on a high school field trip, she had seen her first real painting. No college could teach you that sense of paralyzed awe, that sudden tingling as genius touched your soul, just as surely as a hand pressing upon your skin.

Ironically, now that Lacy gazed routinely on works of great beauty, she almost never felt that physical thrill anymore. Yes, she really was Malcolm's creation, wasn't she? Lacy Morgan, elegant in blue silk, might have learned a million facts, but she had forgotten something that scruffy little Lacy Mayfair had once known better than anyone. She had forgotten how to feel.

And it wasn't just paintings that had lost their power. After years of Malcolm's tutelage, she could identify any opera from a single musical phrase, but no aria ever sounded quite as poignant as her favorite rock and roll ballad had once sounded on an old cheap radio, while she danced with Adam Kendall in the rain….

Adam Kendall. Perhaps it was being here in these stables tonight that had conjured his name. Once, ten years ago, she and Adam had met here at midnight, searching for a place to be alone. If she let herself, she could even smell the hay again, could imagine that she saw the moonlight reflecting in the horses'
dark, liquid eyes as they blinked curiously at the intruders.

But she wouldn't let herself. She shook herself mentally and took a deep breath, pressing her lips together tightly. She didn't have time to dredge any of that ancient history up right now. Not tonight.

Not ever, for that matter.

Tucking the feel of Adam's arms and the smell of freshly cut hay back into the airtight mental casket in which they'd been locked for the past ten years, Lacy borrowed a sip of Tilly's champagne and studied the Verengetti dispassionately. Did she even like the painting? She wasn't sure. But she liked the money it would bring to the hospital in tonight's silent auction. With a coldhearted objectivity that even Malcolm might have envied, she calculated how much. Fifteen thousand, perhaps? More if it weren't for the upside-down problem.

Tucking her arm through Tilly's, Lacy nudged her friend toward the central reception area. “We'd better get back,” she said. “It's not going to do the neonatal unit any good if people start whispering that we're in here stringing babies upside down. And besides,” she added, completely deadpan, “Howard Whitehead is eager to tell you all about corn options.”

Tilly snorted. “That impossible old windbag,” she said forcefully. “He knows he's going to give us ten thousand dollars tonight, but he'll insist on boring us all to death first.” She glanced over at Lacy. “I swear, I don't know how you stay so calm. It's not human, damn it. Don't you ever lose your temper?”

Lacy laughed. “Not with a man who's planning to donate ten thousand dollars, I don't.”

Companionably arm in arm, they wandered down the main aisle, peeking occasionally into the stalls, exchanging greetings with old friends, answering questions about the artwork. They had almost reached the arena again when Kara Karlin, one of the hospital's board of directors, came rushing toward them.

“Oh, there you are,” she said breathlessly. “Lacy, you won't believe who's here tonight! And he's asking for you!”

Tilly groaned. “If it's Howard Whitehead, tell him you couldn't find us.”

Kara's eyes were big brown discs glistening with excitement. “No, no. It's someone else. Someone new. Well, not really new, but—” She dragged Lacy awkwardly toward the center of the crowd while she talked. “Oh, you'll see. You just won't believe it. He's the most— I mean, talk about glamorous. I mean, he's so completely— Oh, come on, Lacy. Hurry!”

“I'm hurrying,” Lacy assured her, amused and more than a little curious. Who could reduce this middle-aged matron to such babbling incoherence? She hoped it wasn't another second-rate entertainer—their quaint small-town New England streets occasionally attracted film productions. Last year a minor soap opera star had nearly brought the town to a standstill by buying condoms at the local gas station. “But, honestly, Kara, unless you want me to trip over my skirt and meet this exciting personage flat on my face, you'd better slow down.”

Kara took a deep breath and squeezed Lacy's hand. “Fine. Be that way. But just look,” she said excitedly, coming to a theatrical standstill and staring straight ahead, “and see for yourself!”

Lacy paused, surveying the crowd slowly, searching for the mysterious new arrival. If this were another celebrity sighting, she hoped she could muster a polite display of excitement. Sadly, she wasn't particularly impressed by actors. But that wasn't really their fault, was it? She wasn't particularly impressed by anything anymore.

She scanned the familiar faces. Howard Whitehead had snagged some other poor soul. The hospital director was lobbying the mayor. The candy stripers were bunched together, flirting with a waiter. A couple of artists whose work had been donated to the auction were happily arguing in the corner.

And then there was that group of women over by the stage, all bleached smiles and winking diamonds, all clustered around a tall, dark-haired…

The man looked up suddenly, as if he sensed her presence. He looked directly toward her, his gaze as unerring as radar. He stared at her boldly, poised, unblinking, unflinching. And her heart stood still.

Oh, dear God. It couldn't be.

But it was. Even from across the arena she could see that his eyes were blue. A deep, rich, melted-sapphire blue. As blue as her dress. And with a disturbing flash of insight she knew why she loved this dress, why she had bought it in the first place, why she wore it whenever she could. She touched her neckline, cool silk under shaking fingers, flushing in
stinctively, as if everyone in the room would suddenly know why, even after ten years, she still draped herself in silk the color of his eyes.

“I—” She knew Kara was waiting for a response, but she discovered that her lungs had flattened to a useless emptiness, and she couldn't speak. Her lips felt swollen, clumsy. “He—”

“Yep.” Kara chuckled triumphantly, apparently interpreting the stammering as confirmation. “See what I mean?”

Yes, Lacy saw, though it hurt her. She couldn't take her gaze from him, couldn't turn away. Not one single muscle in her body seemed to be under her own control.

Her helpless shock seemed to amuse him. He watched her for a long, brazen moment, letting his own gaze wander over the elaborate French twist of her thick brown hair.
He had always preferred it loose….
Then down the low, tight bodice, the full, flowing skirt of her evening dress.
He had vowed he would buy her just such a dress someday….
And then up again, to the hand she had pressed against her breast, to the ugly square diamond she wore there. He hadn't even been able to afford a high school ring,
but…someday, Lacy. Someday.

But someday had never come. And now she wore another man's ring. She saw his eyes harden as he stared at the diamond, and she lowered her hand nervously. She shouldn't have. It was the sign of weakness, the hint of shame he apparently had been waiting for. He watched her hide her trembling hand in the folds of her skirt. And then slowly, with an intense
and private knowing, he smiled. It was a beautiful smile. A cruel and unforgiving, diabolically beautiful smile.

He hated her.

A sudden whirlpool formed in her bloodstream, pulling down, down toward a sinking, sickening vortex. Was she going to faint? She wouldn't allow it, wouldn't give him the satisfaction. How dare
he
hate
her?
She pressed her fingers against the rough wooden wall as she felt herself spinning, drowning in a maelstrom of emotion.

Had she said she no longer knew how to feel? Then what was this wild barrage of sensation? Lips, bonfires, rain, hands, music, magic, tears, pain, blood, pain, pain—the memories came hurtling at her like jagged bolts of lightning. She was almost bent double from the sheer electric power of it.

“Well, I'll be darned. If it isn't Adam Kendall!” Just behind Lacy, Tilly's voice was full of a delighted surprise, and in typical uninhibited fashion it carried across the arena easily. “Come here, young man, and give your old friend a kiss!”

Adam's expression lightened as he recognized Tilly, and, with a few polite murmurs, he obediently began to move toward them. He seemed indifferent to the bevy of disappointed beauties he left behind, but Lacy could tell, from the angle of their collective gaze, which was focused somewhere just below Adam's waist, that they were consoling themselves by admiring the geometrical perfection in the ratio of shoulders to hips.

And it was perfect. Lacy knew, much better than
these women, just how achingly perfect he was, physically. Strong muscles tapered down his long, lean torso, ending in sexy, shadowed hollows just deep enough to accept a kiss. Skin tanned golden from shirtless summers at the concrete factory ran like honey down his back, falling to the paler, tight silken curves of his buttocks….

She heard herself make a small noise, and then she felt Tilly's hand on her elbow, steadying her. Amazing, really, how much welcome strength could be conveyed through those thin, elderly fingers.

“Courage, child,” Tilly whispered, and thankfully Lacy felt her balance returning. She took a deep breath, raised her chin and, with all the equanimity she could summon, forced herself to watch calmly as Adam Kendall, the most desirable, dangerous man she had ever known, walked slowly, arrogantly back into her life.