A Seductive Melody (The Kelly Brothers Book 5) (4 page)

“Or not having to give up open-toed shoes.”

“Open-toed shoes?” It was so ridiculous, a laugh wedged itself between his words. “What the hell does that have to do with staying clean?”

A blush stole up into her cheeks, and she slid her gaze to the side. “It’s kind of embarrassing.”

“You said you were an open book, and that I’d understand you better than most.”

“True.” She bit her lip and squirmed in her seat like he’d just asked her to reveal the color of her underwear. “The first time I went into rehab, it was because my stepmother noticed the track marks on my arms. So when I relapsed, I got more creative with where I shot up. You won’t believe how quickly you can get high from shooting up between your toes.”

He nodded, finally seeing what she meant. “So your parents weren’t suspicious because all they saw were flawless arms.”

She glanced up at him through her lashes. “Yeah, it worked for several months until…”

“Until you OD’d,” he finished almost in a whisper. His throat tightened, choking him as he asked, “How close did you come to dying?”

“I had broken ribs from the CPR that was done to keep me alive until the medics arrived with Narcan.”

Her answer was honest, direct, lacking the coyness from earlier. But it didn’t release the invisible rope of guilt squeezing around his neck and chest. How is it she survived when his best friend didn’t? If he’d managed to find Ty sooner—if he’d acted on the signs that Ty was slipping further and further under the spell of heroin and not caring how much he took as long as he got high—would his best friend still be here today? If he’d just watched him closer, taken away his needles, would it have made a difference?

If he’d accepted Ty’s invitation to go back to his apartment that night to get high with him, would things have turned out differently? Would he have been able to call 911 and save him like the medics had done with Rebecca? Or would he have followed his best friend like he’d always done, even into death?

He squeezed his eyes shut to block out all the scenarios racing through his mind, but the guilt didn’t ease. And the only solution he could find was in the seductive voice inside that beckoned him to relapse into his old habits. One hit was all he’d need to quiet the anguish, the doubt, the pain.

Sweat beaded along his hairline as he battled the familiar demons. Panic raced along his veins like an electrical current, setting every nerve on edge. He balled his hands into fists, fighting the growing urge to give in.

And then a cool hand covered his, pulling him from the whirlpool that threatened to drag him under.

He opened his eyes to find Rebecca watching him with worry etched around the corners of her normally smiling mouth. A sober sense of understanding laced her words as she said, “I know it’s hard, but don’t give in to it, Ethan.”

He yanked his hand back. “What the fuck do you know?”

“I’ve been there, remember?” She retreated to her side of the table. “Tell me what just happened, and maybe I can help you through it.”

It rankled his insides that she thought he needed her help. He alone was the one who’d decided to come clean. He’d made it through detox alone. And he’d be able to overcome the craving alone, too. “I don’t have to tell you anything.”

He fished a few bills out of his wallet and threw them on the table before grabbing his helmet and stomping out the door. He was done with this crap.

“Stop it right there,” a stern female voice called after him.

He drew to a stop a split second before Rebecca grabbed his shoulder and spun him around. “What is your problem?” she asked, her body rigid with anger.

“Maybe you’re my problem.”

“That’s bullshit and you know it.” She rammed her finger into the center of his chest as she drove each point home, backing him into the alley between the café and its neighbor. “You’re so angry at the world that you’re willing to blame everyone for your problems but yourself.”

He’d been brought up to never strike a woman, but she came pretty damned close to pushing enough of his buttons to make him consider shoving her out of his way. Instead, he drew up every inch of his height so he towered over her and dropped his voice to issue a low, sinister warning. “And that’s where you’re wrong.”

But instead of cowering, she held her ground, her face inches from his. “Then prove it.”

Intimidation wasn’t working with her, and for the wildest second, he fought the urge to kiss her. Maybe that would shock her enough to leave him alone. But he kept his arms at his sides, his eyes locked in the staring match they’d entered. “You first.”

“Fine. I don’t know what your story is because you won’t share it with me, but Gary knew enough about you to think I’d be able to help, and I trust his judgment.”

“You want me to open up, and yet you purposely evaded several of my questions in there. How do you expect me to trust you when you obviously don’t trust me?” He turned on his heel and made it three steps before she called out his name. His mind told him to keep walking, but something else made him halt.

“You’re right,” she said, and his defenses cracked. He’d been so ready to say the hell with this, but with two little words, she’d managed to temper the rage boiling inside him.

She approached him slowly, circling around him at arm’s reach like she expected him to take a swing at her if she got too close. Her face remained wary as she studied him. “Can I trust you?”

He drew a breath into his lungs and held it while he weighed the cost of listening to another word from her. So far, she’d managed to get under his skin more than any other woman he’d ever known—in both good ways and bad ways. And if he opened the door to her, she’d keep invading his personal life until she knew all his secrets.

But if he held one of her secrets, he could use it as leverage for when she got too close.

“You can trust me.”

She glanced over her shoulder at the pedestrians on the sidewalk behind them before pushing even further into the alley. The smell of rotting garbage wafted around them, but she seemed oblivious to it. “Have you heard of Shore Hotels?”

“Who hasn’t?” He’d stayed in his fair share of the luxury hotel chain’s rooms when he was touring.

“My great-grandfather started them.”

“You’re Becca Shore?” Her confession set off a chain of recognition that unfolded like a clap of thunder. Images of a blond, tanned, partying heiress who frequently graced the tabloids a few years ago flashed before him. They seemed so at odds with the calm woman in front of him, but when he looked closer, he recognized her face. It was a bit fuller, and she’d traded the bronzed glow for a flawless ivory complexion, but the eyes were the same.

She ran her fingers through her dark hair, one side of her mouth quirking up in a half smile. “Would you like to see my driver’s license?”

“No, I believe you.” And more important, he finally understood why Gary had suggested she help him out until he had a sponsor. If anyone knew about trying to stay clean while under the pressures of fame, it would be her. “So what happened to you?”

She flipped her hair over her shoulder, her spine stiffening. “Excuse me?”

“I mean, I couldn’t open up a gossip rag without reading something about you, and then—
bam!
—you disappeared. What happened to the army of paparazzi that used to follow you around and catch you with your underwear missing?”

“After I OD’d, I purposely made sure I disappeared for a while so I could get my shit together. I checked into a treatment center. By the time I left there, I started caring less about what others thought of me and more about what I thought of myself. I changed my appearance, finished school, got a job, all while flying under the radar.” She shrugged. “It’s kind of nice to be normal for a change.”

“But you’re still a Shore.”

“Yeah, but I’m so boring now, the press leaves me alone. Besides, I don’t think they’d recognize me. You didn’t.”

But did she recognize him? He searched for any sign of recognition, but saw nothing. Either she was completely clueless or completely unfazed by his celebrity status. It didn’t matter, judging by the way his shoulders unknotted after learning who she was. Even if she did know, he doubted she’d go blabbing to the press about him.

“So does that help you any?” she asked.

“Loads.”

“Then I’ll see you next week?”

“Maybe.” Time to leave before she started prying into his personal life again.

She caught his arm and stopped him. “Please.”

Such a simple word, and yet it was strange to witness a wealthy heiress say it. “Why?”

“Because I want to help you any way I can. But I can’t unless you let me. Even if the meetings aren’t your thing, I’m still here if you need someone to talk to.” She released his arm and took a step back toward the café. “I’d better go retrieve that slice of Sacher-torte before someone else does.”

Part of him longed to follow her back into the café and spill his guts to her over another slice of cake, but both fear and pride held him back. He wasn’t ready to trust her.

Not yet.

But he would be willing to consider taking her out for coffee again next week, if only to hear more about how she managed to dodge the press all these years and move on with her life.

Chapter Three

Becca drummed her pen on her thigh as she stood against the wall in the conference room. It was Monday, the day when the editor-in-chief of
Moderne
magazine, Elaine Halpern, listened to story ideas from her staff and either approved them or shot them down. As an assistant, Becca was required to take notes and research the articles for the staff writers. She wasn’t allowed to pitch story ideas.

But that didn’t stop her.

“How about a story on how the VA is falling short on women’s health issues?” she asked.

Elaine shook her head. “Too serious for our readers. Next.”

Becca gritted her teeth and zoned out. Everything she suggested was “too dark” or “too serious” for their readers. What kind of demographics were they catering to, anyway? Based on the insipid material she was asked to research each week, she wondered if their readers cared about anything other than fashion and sex.

“That sounds like a great idea, Hilde. Rebecca can look up some info for you.”

Her attention snapped back to the meeting the second she heard Elaine say her name. Too bad she missed what she was supposed to research. She tried to stay focused as the writers tossed out a few more ideas before the meeting ended, her mind growing more numb with each one that was approved.
Why couldn’t I have gotten a job with
Time
or
Newsweek
? Why
Moderne
?

Because it was the only place that offered me a job.

Everyone else still saw her as Becca Shore, the strung-out party girl. Just another obstacle to overcome on the way to becoming a respected journalist.

Her morning latte mingled with her bitterness to form an acid that gnawed at the inside of her stomach. She closed her eyes and focused on the positives before the bitterness erupted into a “fuck it all” scene.

I’ve got one foot in the door, which is better than where I was before.

I’m gaining insight into how the magazine publishing world works.

I’m making contacts and building my resume.

I can use this experience to help me later
.

A Zen-like sensation surrounded her with each positive thought, followed by a calm acceptance. It was only the sound of her name that pulled her back to reality.

Hilde, one of the staff writers, stood in front of her. She was sleek and sophisticated in her late thirties, her hair perfectly highlighted and never out of place, and her face showed the benefits of her regular Botox injections. The meeting had adjourned, and the other writers were filing out the room. “Sleeping on the job?”

“No, just brainstorming ideas.”

“Good, because I’ll need your help.” Hilde beckoned her to follow her out of the conference room. “By the way, you have some balls pitching story ideas as an assistant.”

“I have to start somewhere,” she replied with a shrug. “It’s not like I’m going to get fired for suggesting something.”

“But it’s not scoring you any points with the other writers.”

Becca glanced around the office and caught a couple of disapproving glares that backed Hilde’s warning. “What are they worried about? It’s not like Elaine ever accepts any of my ideas anyway.”

“Just offering you a piece of friendly advice.” Hilde leaned in and lowered her voice. “Between you and me, though, I find your ideas thought provoking, even if they aren’t right for this magazine. You keep searching for good stories like that, maybe you can end up at a place that appreciates your enthusiasm.”

If only…

“You mean you don’t appreciate me now?” she teased back.

“I’ll appreciate you even more if you can help me research these topics.” She flipped open her notebook. “Article one: How to take the perfect selfie.”

Becca bit back a groan and scribbled the topic down. “I’m on it.”