A Darkness Strange and Lovely (19 page)

Joseph was going to find out sooner or later anyway. What was the difference in defending myself to Jie than in doing it to the both of them? Let Jie tell him. For now I wanted to be alone to process everything that had happened—that was happening. I didn’t know what I was doing anymore.

So I hauled myself up to my bedroom, sat on the edge of my bed, and stared at the carpet. Thoughts flashed through my mind one after the other—from the letters to animal sacrifices to the
Black Pullet
. Now I knew with almost complete certainty
why
Marcus was seeking my letters—and why Oliver wanted them as well. Yet this knowledge did me little good. I was no closer to stopping Marcus than I had been before, for I had now lost the only people who could help me.

After a few minutes of these agonizing thoughts, I realized that simply
waiting
for the inevitable—for Joseph to find me—was more than my nerves could stand. So I decided to put my brain to work.

I had new information; I should at least try to use it. It was time to dig through my sheaf of confusing letters. I could focus on those without thinking about myself. I would push all my other problems to the back of my mind, and I would go to the library to see what I could learn about the
Black Pullet
.

Of course, it wasn’t as easy to leave the hotel as I had anticipated. As soon as I found Elijah’s letters in my carpetbag and hurried back down the main stairs, a tugging began to tickle in my gut.

At the final step, the hair on my neck stood straight on end. Oliver was near.

Yet I didn’t see him anywhere, so I resumed my trek—carefully, slowly—toward the foyer. It was as I passed the gentlemen’s smoking room, gray smoke billowing through its doorways, that I realized where he was hiding. So I crept to the heavy red curtains that draped the entrance and risked a glance inside. Through the haze, I could make out bulky scarlet sofas and beyond that a gold-and-black bar.

A bar over which hunched a gray-suited young man, no doubt nursing a gin between his long, demon fingers. For several seconds I watched him, yet not once did he turn.

I can sense him, yet he’s not sensing me.
What I couldn’t tell was whether his obliviousness was from the gin or from a lack of desire to find me. But either way, this was my chance to sneak out unnoticed and conduct my research alone. So with my letters in one hand, I gathered up my skirts in the other and twisted around to walk away.

But I instantly stumbled back. A tall figure stood squarely in my path.

“
Excusez-moi
,” he said in stilted French,
“mais je ne
—” The young man broke off, his eyes widening in recognition. “Empress?”

That was when my own recognition kicked in. I choked.

Of
course
I had to run into Daniel Sheridan at that precise moment. He was dressed to the nines in a wheat suit, white tie, and even whiter pair of gloves. As if that wasn’t out of character enough, there was a gleaming gold monocle lodged in his left eye and a book—
the
book on manners, I realized—in his hand.

Despite looking unusually foppish, he also looked rather spectacular—ridiculous monocle and all. The wheat of his suit blended into the sandy blond of his hair so that, in the brightly lit hall, he positively glowed.

I cowered. Had Jie talked to him? And what if Oliver decided to come over
right now
?

“What are you . . . doing here?” Daniel spoke with the same strange pauses he’d used earlier in the day.

I forced my knees into a curtsy. “Mr. Sheridan. I was just, um, taking a peek at the room.” I flourished my letters toward the smoking room. “I thought perhaps . . . Jie . . . was in there?”

“Um, no. It is for men . . .
gentlemen
only.”

“Oh! So you haven’t seen Jie in there? Or . . . at all?”

“Not since this morning.”

My breath shot out. Daniel didn’t know. “Well,” I said, beginning my retreat, “if you see her, please tell her I was looking for her—”

“Wait!”

I paused, my heel midair. “Yes?”

“Um, how are you?”

“What?” My foot dropped with a thud. “I am fine. And . . . you?”

He tugged at his tie. “Fine, fine. Thank you.”

“All right, then.” I let my gaze flit over his shoulder. Oliver was still focused on his drink—thank the merciful heavens. Now if I could somehow slide my conversation a few feet to the right . . .

Daniel swiveled his head into my line of sight. “Are you looking for someone?”

“No!” I squeaked. “I mean, that is to say, of course not—I don’t know anyone in Paris, do I?” I laughed shrilly. “No, I am merely soaking in every detail of this fine room. Lovely example of Parisian decor.”

Oh dear, what was I blathering on about? “Well,” I rushed to add, “good day to you, Mr. Sheridan!” I whirled around to hurry for the street.

But Daniel slung out a long leg and stepped in front of me. “Are you going to the post office?”

“What?” I frowned.

“You’re carrying a stack of letters.”

My gaze dropped to my hand. Sure enough, Elijah’s letters were still grasped tightly in my left fingers. “Ah, right. These
do
look like documents worth mailing, but no . . . no, I’m not going to the post office today.” I made to scoot around him.

He sidestepped, blocking me once more. “Then where are you going?”

I hesitated and wracked my brains for a good response, but all I could conjure was the truth. “Well, I-I’m going to the library. These letters are from Elijah, and I thought there might be a clue in them.”

“A clue?”

I lifted one shoulder. “Something to explain why Marcus wants them. He came all the way to Philadelphia—even approached my mother for them.”

“Oh?” Daniel slid his hands into his pockets, waiting for me to go on.

“I believe Marcus wants the
Black Pullet
, yet no one knows how to raise it—whatever
it
might actually be. All I know is that it’s some creature from the spirit realm that can grant its master immortality and endless wealth, but there’s some critical step in this whole summoning process that remains unknown. It’s possible Elijah figured out what that step is, and maybe”—I held up the letters—“there’s an answer in here.”

Daniel nodded once. “Would you . . . would you like some company?”

“No!” The word shot out before I could stop it.

Bright pink exploded on Daniel’s face. “Oh, uh . . . of course. I just thought you might, um, want a companion. And by companion, I meant you might want
me
to join you . . . to keep you safe, of course. You did say Marcus might show up at any time, and . . .” He trailed off, dabbing at his hairline.

One would think that seeing Daniel—the young man who’d had his fair share of pleasure in discomfiting
me—
at a loss for words would be wholly entertaining for me. Instead, it made my insides squirm.

“I-I know where the library is,” he continued, still stammering. “I could keep a lookout while I guide you there. And I have research to do myself, so . . .” His eyes dropped to his shoes. “Never mind. It was rude of me to . . . to intrude. Forgive me.”

He turned to go.

Maybe it was the way his cheeks burned scarlet or the way his shoulders dropped a few inches. Or maybe it was the way he said “forgive me”—the way he actually seemed to
mean
those two words. Or maybe I was simply desperate to get him away from the hotel before Jie told him the truth. But whatever the reason, the outcome was the same. “Daniel!”

He stopped and looked back.

“I . . . I don’t actually know the way.” I took a step toward him. “So an escort—and bodyguard—would be welcome.”

And with those words, Daniel’s lips cracked wide in a breathtaking smile.

My heart jolted, and a thousand emotions—emotions I didn’t understand, didn’t
want
to understand—exploded in my chest. But biggest of all was a hollow ache that seemed to start in my heart and radiate outward.

I jerked around before he could see the horror no doubt lining my face, and as I scurried for the entrance, all I could think was,
Why did I just agree to let him join me?

And why, why, why did he have to go and smile?

Chapter Fourteen

Much to my chagrin, Daniel insisted on being a
proper escort. Not only did we walk at a painfully slow, ladylike pace, but I was forced to rest my left forearm as lightly as possible in the crook of his elbow.

It was an excruciating walk across the street to the Tuileries, and if he had still been toting that dratted book on etiquette, I’d have commanded that he burn the thing. Thank
goodness
he had dropped it off with a footman on his way from the hotel. As we trailed the sidewalk beside the gardens, I inhaled deeply. The air tasted crisp—like new beginnings—in the way only an autumn afternoon can.

“Nice day,” Daniel mumbled, guiding me east toward the burned-out palace.

I nodded. It was more than just a nice day. It was a stunning one. I wanted to skip and shout and kick at pebbles and pretend that this moment was nothing more than a September afternoon ripe with opportunity. Pretend there weren’t monsters hiding in the shadows. That there weren’t demons, or binding agreements, or hateful mothers, or best friends I had betrayed . . .

Or Daniel Sheridan holding my arm.

Gritting my teeth, I rammed it all from my mind. I refused to let my roiling emotions for him confuse me right then.
Focus on Paris,
I ordered myself, turning my face toward the gardens. The river’s breeze caressed my cheeks, cooling the sun’s heat, and though the chestnut trees beyond the fence whispered at me, their rusted-red leaves were too distant to offer any relief from the sun.

“Should I . . . buy you a parasol?” Daniel’s voice shattered my calm.

I huffed out a breath. “Well, seeing as you have already given me one parasol I do not carry, a second would be a total waste, don’t you . . .” I trailed off. His lips were crammed so tightly together, they had turned white. I had hurt him.

I gave a second, even heavier exhale. As much as Daniel had upset me,
he
wasn’t the one I was angry with. Nor was he the one who was angry with me. So as we ambled past the charred palace, I said as cheerfully as possible, “I like your monocle.”

Daniel blinked, and the monocle popped from his eye. Then, flushing as purple as a turnip, he shoved it back in place. “Thanks.” His voice was gruff. “It was a gift. From Madame Marineaux.”

“Oh!” I perked up. “She has wonderful taste, no?”

“Er . . . I suppose,” he murmured, and we descended back into silence. Soon we were beyond the charred palace and to the Musée du Louvre. It was as the ruined Tuileries Palace would look if it were intact: all elaborate carvings, elegant archways, and lifelike statues beside each window.

I turned to Daniel. “Have you been inside the museum? To see the art?”

“No.” Regret dragged at the word. “We . . . we haven’t had much time for sightseeing.
But
”—he nodded emphatically, as if promising himself—“I will go in one day. See the art and the architecture that makes Paris, well . . .
Paris
.”

I gawked at him. There was such passion in his voice—even with his affected manner of speech. His cheeks flushed, and he glanced down at me. “Sorry. I ain’t . . . I
haven’t
gotten to see much of the city. Yet.”

“Right. Because you were in Germany?”

He nodded, his eyes brightening. As we crossed into the clamorous Rue de Rivoli and left the Louvre behind, he said—shouting to be heard over the traffic—“I worked with a general there. Von Zeppelin. He’s the one who invented that airship.” We reached the opposite sidewalk, and Daniel added in a normal volume, “Von Zeppelin’s a genius, and it was a brilliant idea of the Marquis’s to send me east.”

His brows knit suddenly, and he looked at me. “But here I am talkin’ . . .
talking
about myself. I should be asking about you. About your mother and Philadelphia.”

With that simple subject change, it felt as if all the white-faced buildings on the street suddenly closed in on me. Their gray roofs blocked out the sun. The rattle and clop of traffic filled every space of my hearing—a drone of meaningless noise to play beneath the single thought running through my brain.

My daughter is now dead to me.

Somehow a response formed in my mouth. “Mama is not well.”

Daniel stopped before an enormous, buzzing intersection and tugged me in front of him. The noise was almost deafening, and it was only the movement of his lips that told me what he said: “Still?”

I looked down and did not answer.

He hunched forward until his mouth was close to my ear. “Do you wish to speak of it?”

I started, suddenly realizing how close he stood. I had managed to avoid all thought of Mama for this long, to avoid all those black memories.

I
refused
to fall into that pit now.

I grabbed Daniel’s arm, saying loudly, “Let’s resume our walk.”

Daniel frowned but did not argue. He guided me around the carriages and pedestrians until we finally squeezed through the other side of the intersection and into a narrow street. More beige buildings and gray roofs peered down at us. A baker here, a butcher there, and many small hotels. Eventually we reached a grassy square surrounded by great, old chestnuts. A giant fountain of four bronze women pouring water rippled and churned with fallen red leaves.

“Library’s just there,” Daniel said, pointing to a white stone building across the street. Other than the ornate details around the windows and the letters over the door declaring Bibliotèque Nationale, it looked like the rest of Paris.

“Why are
all
the buildings this same beige stone?” I grumbled. “How does anyone know what building is what?”

“You sound annoyed.” Daniel grinned. “They’re all that same beige limestone because that’s what’s most available. Directly under the city.” He stomped his foot. “There are quarries beneath all of Paris. And it’s all built in the same style because it was all conjured up at the same time and led by one man. Georges Haussmann. He wanted to make Paris cleaner and more manageable.”

I held my breath. The passion was back in his voice. He had been talking like the old Daniel. The
real
Daniel, and oh, how I wanted him to stay . . .

“So if we wanna get in the library,” he continued, “we have to go ’round the other—” His words broke off, and he cleared his throat. “That is to say, the entrance is on the other side.”

My stomach sank.

“There . . . is a large reading area that is separated from all the books,” he added. “A capital place for studying.”

Capital
. I winced. Where had he even picked up that word? Well, I refused to give up hope yet. Perhaps if I could get him to talk more about architecture or his inventions, he would go back to himself. “What sort of research are you doing, Mr. Sheridan?”

“I have something that is almost finished. A surprise.” He pulled me back into a walk, and we left the fountain behind. “What about you? What do you intend to research?”

Failure.
I couldn’t contain my sigh. “I guess I will look for any books on the
Black Pullet
. I think Elijah was in Paris when he first learned of the creature, so there must be something.”

“Can you read French?”

My footsteps faltered. “No. I hadn’t even thought of that!”

His eyes bunched up and his lips pressed tight, as if he was trying to fight off a laugh, but at last he gave up. He slapped his thigh. “Well, I can’t read it either, Empress, so it looks like we won’t be gettin’ a whole lot done.”

My lungs swelled, yet I found I couldn’t breathe—was afraid to breathe. He had called me Empress, and he had spoken completely like himself
.
At last I beamed up at him. “I-in that case, we will just have to find what we can and have someone translate later.”

“I reckon so.” Daniel gave me a rakish wink, and I almost melted right there on the cobblestones.

“Maybe we can figure out a few words,” I continued, trying—and failing—to hide the quaver in my voice. My heart was banging like a timpani. “For example, we know Elijah learned something in
Le Dragon Noir
. We can search indexes for it.”

“Good idea.” He nodded approvingly. “We can also cross-reference all mentions of
Le Dragon Noir
with the letters. Look for connections.”

“Yes!” I squeezed his arm. “That’s perfect. Now if we only can make the librarians understand us.”

He doffed his hat playfully. “You just leave that to me, Empress.”

Moments later, we reached the library’s entrance on the other side. “This library is old,” Daniel said as we passed through an archway into a flower-filled courtyard. People milled about, lost in their books, their feet crackling on the gravel. “And as it ages, it keeps getting bigger and bigger. More space and more books.” He grinned and held open an enormous oak door for me. Beyond was a simple marble-floored hall with a winding staircase.

The moment I stepped inside, I eased out a breath I hadn’t even known was trapped. Being in a library was like a gentle balm. No matter the city, no matter the time, you always know what you’ll find. My home was halfway around the globe, yet here was something as familiar to me as myself.

The last time I had been in a library, Marcus had tried to kill me—but not even that could upset me now. I could forget about everything here. Let it fade into a meaningless whir in the back of my brain . . .

Daniel nodded to a dark wood door at my right. “This way, Empress.” He set his heel against the door and turned to face me. “Prepare to be amazed.” Then he rocked back, and the door creaked open.

My heart hitched. I gasped.

Spanning before me was row after row of desks. There was nothing to distract the devoted reader.

Gaping, I scuffed into the room and stared at the ceiling’s domes and circular skylights. Then I caught sight of the walls, and somehow my mouth fell open even farther. From floor to ceiling were shelves—three
floors
of shelves, to be precise.

“That’s not even the beginning,” Daniel whispered. “
Le magasin central
is where most of the books are actually kept.” He pointed straight ahead, to where the floor sank down into a recessed area of endless shelves.

“Sakes alive,” I breathed. “Where do we even begin?”

He flashed his eyebrows and tugged me over to the nearest desk. “You can start by organizin’ all your brother’s letters. I’ll find the reading material.” He pulled out a gold-upholstered chair, helped me sit, and then swept me an easy bow.

This time I
did
melt. The instant he twirled around, I sank back into my seat like butter on a hot skillet. Whatever oddness had been between us, it was gone now. The air was easy. Daniel was simply Daniel, and I was simply Eleanor.

I laid out all my letters, and soon enough, Daniel came marching back with a stack of books teetering in his arms. He eased them onto the desk. “We’ll start with these. The librarian’s going to bring us anything else he finds.”

Snagging the top book—
Étude des Grimoires—
I flipped to the index. Instantly, a giggle broke through my lips. “It’s here!” I tapped the page. “
Le Dragon Noir.
”

“And here’s
La poule noire.”
Daniel leaned over my shoulder and planted a finger on the opposite page. “
The Black Pullet
. Not a bad start, Empress.”

All I could manage was a nod. He was so close—so close that I could see the stubble he had missed shaving. Could see each muscle in his jaw.

But it was the smell of him that almost undid me. Metal and salt and everything he had always smelled of came rushing into my nose, and with it came the memories. Swirling. Intense.

My back to the lamppost. His hands cradling my face. His lips pressed fiercely to mine.

A low moan escaped my mouth.

Daniel flinched, his face jerking toward me.

I clamped a hand over my mouth.
Oh God. Please say I did not make that noise aloud
.

His brow knit with concern. “Are you all right?”

I nodded frantically, my eyes nearly popping from my skull. “Hungry,” I said behind my hand. “Sorry.”

“Well, we can eat after we finish this.” Grinning, he hooked his heel around the chair next to mine, drew it out, and plopped down.

I bowed over my book and avoided meeting his gaze. For several moments I could feel him watching me. It made me hot—miserably, boiling
hot
—and just when I thought I would explode with sweat and flushed cheeks, he turned away.

I drew in a long, shaky breath, and when I finally had the courage to glance at Daniel, it was to find him fully focused on my letters.

“Your brother,” he drawled, “makes about as much sense to me as French politics.”

“It makes no sense to me either.”

“Who’s this Ollie fellow, d’you suppose?”

“Uh . . .” I bit the inside of my mouth. What could I say?

“Or Monsieur Girard in the last one?” Daniel went on, oblivious to my sudden panic. “Or this random hackney driver?”

I sank back in my chair. “I-I don’t know. Perhaps we should focus on the books first.” I grabbed up the letters and shoved them aside with far more force than necessary. But again, Daniel didn’t seem to notice. He simply shrugged, and in a matter of minutes we had sunk into a rhythm. Daniel scanned indexes, I marked pages, and the librarian—a soft-spoken Frenchman—continued to bring us book after book.

Minutes slid into hours, and after examining forty-seven different books and determining that only thirteen were useful, we came to the final text in our stack:
Napoléon et la campagne d’Égypte.

Daniel flipped to the index. “I don’t know what Napoleon would have to do with grimoires, but we might as well . . .” He trailed off.

“What?” I asked.

“It
is
here. One page about
Le Dragon Noir.
Page fifty-seven.” He thumbed through until he found the right page, and then we both read the passage.

“Here.” I tapped the middle paragraph and haltingly tried to translate. “‘Many Egyptians . . . thought Napoleon had a necromancer . . .’”