Warrior's Song (3 page)

    "God's blood, you fools, don't hurt her! Just hold her." When Graelam was satisfied, he turned slowly back to Mary. "Take off your gown. Your first man will be Graelam de Moreton. Perhaps it is also a good thing for your lady to see what her future husband is about."

    Mary knew, oh yes, she knew what he would do. She whispered, "No, please do not, my lord."

    "Then tell me where the boy is."

    "You know I cannot."

    "Your gown, Mary. Take it off or I will have to rip it from you."

    Chandra yelled at him, cursed him, called him a coward, but he said nothing, merely watched Mary slowly remove her gown.

    "Mary, no, don't!"

    "I must," Mary said, her voice firm now, set. "The heir to Croyland must be protected. Do not, Chandra, plead for me." Then she smiled at her friend, just a bit. "It really doesn't suit you."

    She began to unfasten the soft leather belt at her waist.

    "Graelam, no, you must not, no!"

    He heard the fear in her voice, the impotent rage, but he paid her no more attention.

    Chandra heard the men's breathing catch as Mary slipped off her gown and her linen shift. She stood perfectly still, her eyes on the floor at her feet. Her body was white, newly matured. She was a pretty girl, soft, untouched.

    Graelam stood back from her, deliberately studied the young body, waiting for Chandra to speak. But she didn't. He saw that her eyes were tightly closed. He had been certain that she would break.

    He didn't really wish to do this, but now he had backed himself into a corner. Perhaps yet the maid would tell him. He sighed even as he began to remove his armor. It took him some time without the assistance of his squire. When he leaned over to unfasten his cross garters, he saw that Chandra was now looking at him, all of him. He raised a black brow in silent question.

    She swallowed, but said nothing.

    He stood straight, naked now. She closed her eyes against the sight of him. He moved toward where Mary stood, her head still down.

    "No, damn you, no!" Chandra struggled against the men, struggled until her eyes were dark with pain.

    "You have but to swallow your pride and tell me where your brother is hidden," he said over his shoulder. "I have no wish for this. Nor does your poor friend here. Give over, Chandra, and tell me. Tell me and I won't touch her."

    Chandra shook her head, beyond words. She looked at him now, his body, hard and powerful, so dark he was, the hair black on his head and on his chest, and at his groin, and his sex, thrusting out, ready, just as she had seen her father's sex, full and hard, and she'd hated it, hated the sounds he'd made, hated the sounds the woman had made. Not just one woman— there had been so many over the years, one of them even her own serving maid, only fourteen years old, who had told her later, a stupid smile on her face, just how grand her father was, how very deep he went inside her.

    "No," she whispered, "no, I cannot. You know that I cannot. Leave her be. If you wish to rape someone, then rape me, not Mary."

    "No," he said.

    He wasn't golden like her father. No, he was the devil, black as night, black as a heathen's darkest sins. He was terrifying, overwhelming, and he would hurt Mary.

    Graelam motioned for Mary to lie on her back on Chandra's bed. "I will try not to tear you," he said quietly, as he opened her thighs, pulling her toward him. "Just don't fight me, and it will be over soon. It is your first time, so there will be a bit of pain." He spat on his fingers and Chandra saw his hand going between Mary's legs, and Mary whimpered.

    Chandra closed her eyes. She couldn't bear it.

    His hands were still between Mary's legs even as he turned to look at her one last time. "Chandra, you will learn that you will obey me, in all things. Where is your brother?"

    She opened her mouth, but Mary lurched up and yelled, "No, Chandra! Keep your mouth shut!"

    Graelam went into her. It was over soon, just one anguished cry from Mary, making her arch with pain. Graelam said even as he was moving deep inside her, "It was your maidenhead. There won't be any more pain."

    The pain wasn't as awful now, but Mary hated the feel of him inside her, too big, too big, and she knew she was crying, but she just couldn't stop. Mary wondered if he'd torn her somehow. He had said he would try not to tear her. But if he had, then she would die. She closed her eyes and waited, willing herself to bear the pain, to bear him. She'd held firm. She had saved John. She'd saved Chandra. She hadn't fallen to cowardice. It must be worth it, it must. Yes, it was a small sacrifice.

    Graelam pulled out of her and stood there a moment, breathing hard with his release. There was blood on her legs and on him as well, her virgin's blood. But she hadn't broken.

    Neither had her friend. He turned slowly to face Chandra. She wasn't yelling at him now. Truth be told, he had expected her to be cursing him to the beams of her bedchamber. But no, she was on her knees, her head bowed, and he watched her vomit. His men had released her, jerking back, staring down at her, not knowing what to do. She remained kneeling on the floor, her body heaving until there was nothing more in her belly. Graelam walked to the small table and poured some water from a carafe into a goblet. He came down on his haunches in front of her. "Wash out your mouth."

    She took the goblet and did as he bade. She spat the water out into the rushes. Then she drank deep. She was shaking, couldn't seem to stop it. She felt a vast emptiness, and it alarmed her because she didn't understand it. But it was deep, so deep inside her, it seemed an integral part of her. What he had done, so passionless it was, so matter-of-fact, with no purpose but to dominate, to gain his way. And the humiliation for Mary, forced to accept him, and she'd let it happen. Because of her, now Mary was no longer a maid. She was used.

    "Chandra."

    She raised her face at the sound of his quiet voice. Gone was the deadening blankness. He was naked, standing right in front of her and she saw Mary's blood on him. She moved faster than he could have imagined, grabbing for his sword that lay beside his clothes and his armor, and the hilt was in her hands before he managed to wrench it from her. She hooked his leg in a wrestler's grip and drove her fist hard into his naked groin.

    Graelam's legs buckled. He heard his men, but yelled for them to stay back. He lurched to the side, managed to grab her thick braid, and jerked her backward to land on top of him. He couldn't believe the pain, knew it would get worse, and it did, and he closed his eyes against it even as he held her so tightly against him that he could feel her ribs pressed into his chest.

    In that instant, he realized that if he were as intelligent as he'd always been told he was, he would drag himself and his men from Croyland and send his blessings to God that he had survived. He was a fool to force this woman to wed him. He had no doubt that she would try to bring him low. He wondered then if he would ever tame her, ever make her accept him. He imagined fighting her in bed, wondered if he would have to tie her down, and knew then that he would indeed have to.

    Why had she vomited? Merely watching him take her friend had sent this proud, arrogant girl to her knees, retching in the flower-scented rushes? His pain slowly receded, almost too slowly for a man to bear, and finally he said, "I will have to think about your payment for that."

    "What will you do? Kill me? Well, then, you savage, do it now."

CHAPTER 3

He didn't kill her, of course. What he did was make his men hold her again while he slowly dressed himself. He left off his armor, saying, "I will go to Lord Richard's bedchamber. I will make use of his clothing." And then he'd smiled, for the pain was gone from his groin and he knew he would live again. Once again, he was filled with optimism and determination. He had worked too hard to get her. He would have her, no matter the cost. He had absolutely no doubt that she would kill him if she had the chance. It didn't worry him. It fascinated him.

    "As for you, Chandra, you will either agree to wed me, whether or not I find your brother, or I will simply take you back with me and you will live as my mistress until you agree to marry me. I know you—"

    He never finished, for just then the bedchamber door burst open and Abaric yelled even before he saw Graelam, "We have them!"

    Lady Dorothy and John came stumbling into the bedchamber, a half dozen of Graelam's men behind them.

    "We have them," Abaric said again, and rubbed his hands together.

    Chandra stared at her mother, then at John. She couldn't believe it, just couldn't, yet here they both were, standing right in front of her, no torn clothing, no signs of any struggle. She said slowly, feeling her heart beat with slow, deadening strokes, so loud they were, "How is this? You were well hidden. How did they find you, Lady Dorothy?"

    Why, Graelam wondered, did she call her mother Lady Dorothy?

    She was a gaunt woman, as tall as her daughter, but the life seemed sucked out of her. Her hair, once a rich black, was streaked with coarse gray strands, her mouth seamed so tightly, it was only a thin, pale line. She looked, he thought, as unforgiving as his own witch of a mother. She looked as though she'd never had an ounce of joy in her life and that she would do her best to see that no one around her had any joy either.

    Lady Dorothy shook off the hands of the men behind her. She looked first at Graelam, then at Mary, who was standing beside Chandra's bed, her face pale, looking blank and stupid. Lady Dorothy sniffed the air. The room smelled of sex. But how could that be? Both Mary and Chandra were fully clothed, as were the men.

    Lady Dorothy turned to Chandra and her face hardened. Filthy she was, boar's blood all over her, her hair matted to her head with sweat. Lady Dorothy said, her chin up, "You look disgusting."

    Graelam stared at her, not believing what had come out of her mouth, but Chandra said only, "I know. It doesn't matter. Who found you?"

    Lady Dorothy shrugged and said, quivering at that smell she still believed was sex, "No one. I did not like it in that small dark room. I never have. I've told your father many times that it is too rude a place for me ever to remain for more than a few minutes. There were rats, the sound of men's boots clattering overhead, yells and cursing. John fretted. I did not wish him to be frightened. I did not wish to dirty my gown."

    "Because you did not like the room, because you did not want John to whine, because you did not wish to soil your gown, you broke Father's rule? You actually came out by yourselves, of your own free will? You simply chose to disregard my father's orders?"

    "Your father isn't here," Lady Dorothy said. "Even though you like to pretend that you are the one who is important here, you are not. It is my responsibility to see to the castle. Just look at you, a dirty hag, here in your bedchamber with this man, nearly alone with him. Why is there the smell of vomit?"

    "I was ill," Chandra said. "It doesn't matter."

    "No, it doesn't. I hope you weren't ill in front of our guest. Why ever did you bring him to your bedchamber? You should be seeing to his comfort. By all the saints, Chandra, you aren't good for anything, must less protecting your father's precious holdings. John, come here."

    The boy, small and slight, moved to stand beside his mother. He was, Graelam saw, looking over at his sister, and there was a smirk on his small face. He looked very pleased with himself. Graelam wanted to pick him up and throw him out one of the narrow windows. What was going on here?

    "I didn't like that room, just as Mother told you," John said, and he put his hands on his hips, daring his sister to say something. "Who is this man? Is he really a guest and not one of father's enemies?"

    Chandra said, still not wanting to believe what they'd done, "You really came out of hiding because you decided you wanted to?"

    "I am the mistress here, not you," Lady Dorothy said. "I will do as I please. Now, answer your brother. Who is this man?"

    Mary made a very small sound in her throat and slowly fell to the floor.

    "What is wrong with her?" Lady Dorothy asked to no one in particular.

    "She seems to have fainted," Graelam said. He walked to Mary, picked her up and gently put her on Chandra's bed, the bed he would share with Chandra this very night. When he straightened, he said, "I am Lord Graelam de Moreton of Wolffeton in Cornwall, my lady. I am here to wed your daughter."

    Lady Dorothy just looked at him.

    John said, "Chandra doesn't want to marry, ever. Everyone knows that. She won't marry you, will she?"

    Lady Dorothy said slowly, tightening her fingers on the boy's shoulder, making him wince, "Welcome, my lord. I am pleased to give my precious daughter over to you, a great lord, who will see that she becomes what she is meant to become, if it isn't, of course, too late."

    Chandra felt such pain that she wanted to fold in upon herself, but she couldn't. She heard John say, "It's about time she was gone from Croyland. It's mine, Mother, just as you're always telling me, not hers. I'm the important one here, not her. I don't want her here."

    "That's right, my love. Soon you will rule Croyland, as you were always meant to, with no more interference from your sister. Now, Chandra, I will see that the servants prepare a lovely wedding feast. I will see to Lord Graelam's comfort since you have not bothered. Now, bathe the filth off yourself. My lord, I am pleased that you have come."

    Lady Dorothy actually gave him her hand. He bowed low over it, then watched her walk out of the bedchamber, the boy swaggering beside her. He turned to Chandra, his forehead furrowed in thought, his voice calm. "It is just as well that you will soon be gone from here. I should not have liked to have her for my mother, although my own was just as vicious. Ah, Mary is coming around. I will speak to Father Tolbert now. Then I will go to your father's bedchamber. Prepare yourself, Chandra."

    He paused at the doorway, saying over his shoulder, "I hope you will now agree to wed me. I should hate to be forced to take that boy back with us to Cornwall, although several good thrashings just might improve him, something it appears your father hasn't done."

    "My lord, you'll not believe this, but Croyland has been taken."

    Lambert, tall, skinny as a tent pole, nearly fell off his horse, scrambling not to lose his balance as he ran to Jerval. "I didn't believe it myself at first, but one of the villagers told me to keep clear of the castle because Lord Graelam de Moreton and thirty of his men hold it now."

    "This is madness," Jerval de Vernon said slowly, trying to understand. "How is this possible?" He was tired. He and his twenty men had ridden for three days to get to Croyland, and now, Lord Richard had somehow been overcome?

    "Lord Richard isn't there," Lambert said, still panting from his wild ride back to their campsite in a protected inlet by the water. The waves made a gentle, rolling sound, constant and low, and the sun was brilliant overhead. "It was a trick, a ruse. The villager told me that Lord Richard had caught a man skulking about, and the man finally admitted that he was scouting around for Cadwallon, that Welsh bandit. He was planning a surprise attack on Lord Richard when he and his men left Croyland to hunt. Lord Richard took his men to catch the bandit. But Cadwallon is nowhere about. It was Graelam de Moreton who sent the spy there. Another villager said that de Moreton caught Lady Chandra out hunting with some of her men. It was over then. Another villager said that he held a knife to her back and told them that he would slit her throat if they didn't lower the drawbridge. It was quickly done."

    "But why would he do that?" Sir Mark asked, slapping his leather gloves against his thigh. "He must know that he could never hold Croyland. Why?"

    Lambert said, "He doesn't want Croyland. He came because he wants Lady Chandra. He plans to wed her this very night, done by Croyland's own priest."

    "By all the saints' buried sins," Jerval said, grinning like a madman, "this is something that will surely invigorate the blood." Then he laughed and rubbed his hands together. "The little princess got her comeuppance, did she?" He laughed again. "My father tells me that she is known for her pride— bred, he claims, into her very bones. Her valor as well, though that makes little sense. Well, I suppose that we must do something about it. It wouldn't do to have Lord Graelam wed her, not when we have ridden three days to get here ourselves so I could marry her."

    "You know you don't have to wed her, Jerval," Sir Mark said. "Your father just asked you to look her over."

    Jerval just smiled. His father, Lord Hugh, was eager for the alliance. Camberley was close enough to Croyland to provide mutual protection, and his father had raved on and on about her beauty after he'd seen his only son back away when he spoke of her fierce pride, her bravery. No woman, he'd said again and again, was as beautiful as Chandra of Croyland.

    Jerval didn't believe that for a moment, but he had agreed to come and see her for himself. This glorious creature, according to his father, had hair golden as a sheaf of wheat ripening under the summer sun, flowing hair spun into minstrel's verses, and ah, her eyes— the color of the sky in early July when it was warm and still and so clear it made you weep. What tripe. There was no female in the known world who looked like that. Of course, his father had seen her only once when he had been visiting Croyland some four years before. He shook his head. His father really wanted the alliance. Jerval had a very bad feeling about her.

    On the other hand, Graelam de Moreton had taken Croyland just to get her. Perhaps his father had somehow spread the same exaggerations to Lord Graelam, and he'd believed them.

    Why had Lord Richard left so few men to guard the castle? Why had she left to go hunting? Her small, dainty falcon was bored? Didn't she have a brain? He didn't want a stupid wife. No matter, he would save her from her own folly. Then he would very likely go home without her, pleased to escape.

    Jerval left his men to their talk and walked down on the beach. He watched the waves, low, gentle, fan out onto the shore, then slowly fold back. He watched the sun lower in the sky. Mark looked after him as he said to Lambert, who was scratching his ear, "Now, he goes to think and plan. What do you say, Lambert? How long will it take him to come back with a strategy?"

    "Ten minutes," Lambert said. "No longer. It's not all that difficult a problem."

    "Nay, I disagree. It's a knotty problem."

    Exactly ten minutes later, Jerval called out as he strode back up from the beach, "Let's go. I have a plan to save the little princess." He looked very pleased with himself.

    Mark dug a coin out of his tunic and tossed it to Lambert, who bit on it out of habit, and chuckled. Soon all the men were laughing.

    Jerval frowned at them as he mounted his horse. "What is the jest?"

    Crecy, wearing his best wine-colored robe, which really required very little precious material since he was so short, walked beside Chandra down the deep stone stairs into the great hall. He saw that Graelam stood in front of her father's huge chair, with its high carved back and its lion's-head posts, waiting for her. On his left sat Lady Dorothy, John next to Graelam's man, Abaric.

    "He is an honorable man," Crecy said in his low, soothing voice, knowing there was no hope for it now. "He will not mistreat you. You will not have to protect yourself from his violence, for there will be none. He will treat you well, if you will but allow him to. He admires you. Give over, mistress." He paused a moment, alarmed by her pallor. "Cornwall is a beautiful land, harsh along its northern coast, but just a few miles to the south there are palm trees and the water is balmy. It will please you. His holding, Wolffeton, is magnificent."

    "I have no wish to go to Cornwall." She shook her head. "I don't understand. Why me, Crecy? A powerful lord like Graelam de Moreton shouldn't select a wife who brings him nothing, a wife who would carve out his heart if she had the chance. He must know that I will always hate him, that I will never bow to him."

    Crecy said, "That you, a girl, would have the skill and the courage to actually fight him, to kill him if you were the more skilled, the more ruthless— it fascinates him. Two years ago when you were but sixteen, a wandering minstrel came to Wolffeton. It was Henri of Agris. Do you remember him? He was a young Frenchman who worshipped you."

    "Yes, I remember him. He was annoying with all his drowsy-eyed looks, but he did sing sweetly."