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Copyright

Copyright © 2005 by Shelley Bates

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First eBook Edition: June 2009

ISBN: 978-0-446-56214-0

For Joanne

Contents

Copyright

Acknowledgments

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Reading Group Guide

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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Thank you from my heart to those courageous women who shared their stories with me, and in the process gave Dinah a body and
a soul. Marge Reynolds, your ministry is an inspiration. Mum and Dad, your support means everything.

Thanks go to Kati Carthum for connecting me with her cousin, and to Peter J. Kesling, attorney at law, for telling me what
Tamsen’s options were. My thanks, too, to fellow author Margo Maguire, RN, for the information on victims of stroke.

Jennifer Jackson, none of this would have happened without your belief in me. Thank you. Leslie Peterson, your keen eye and
good humor have made this process a pleasure.

I’m indebted to Dr. Dan B. Allender for his book
The Wounded Heart: Hope for Adult Victims of Childhood Sexual Abuse
(NavPress, 1995), which gave me Dinah’s path to healing; and to Stephen Arterburn and Jack Felton for
Toxic Faith: Experiencing Healing from Painful Spiritual Abuse
(WaterBrook Press, 2001), which helped me find mine.

Last but not least, thanks to Jeff, who now schedules his annual fishing trip during the final week of deadline. I love you.

“Neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.”

—MATTHEW 7:6

Chapter 1

T
HE VAGRANT CAME
to the back door the night of Morton Traynell’s funeral, just as Dinah was trying to organize food for the hundred or so
mourners who filled the front rooms of the old farmhouse.

The knock was so soft she would have missed it if the group of women helping her hadn’t left the kitchen just then, loaded
down with plates of rolls, neatly sliced vegetables, and casserole dishes.

She jerked open the door and stared at the man on the steps. He held a knitted cap in both hands, squeezing it as though it
were a washrag. The harsh overhead light gave his skin a yellowish cast under a ragged beard.

A stranger. With a jolt of fear, she stepped back and swung the door nearly closed, its comforting weight between herself
and him.

“I’m sorry to bother you, ma’am,” he said softly. He had some kind of foreign accent, but Dinah was too frightened to take
the time to identify it. “I wonder if you’d have a bite to spare a hungry man.”

There were enough bites in the front room to feed an army of hungry men, but food given to a stray off the street deprived
one of God’s chosen, who could use it for God’s work.

“This is a bad time.” The words came out rushed, almost under her breath. “My father was buried this afternoon, and everyone
is here for the supper. I’m sorry.”

The gentle hope that had filled his eyes drained out of him as though he’d been punctured. “I’m sorry for your loss,” he said.
“Sorry to trouble you.” He bent his head and turned to go.

Her loss? Her heart began to pump painfully as she hesitated between fear and pity. “Wait.”

He had been looking down the road for the lights of the next place, but there was nothing down there except the Hamilton River,
swollen, brown, and rushing with spring runoff. At the thought of what the river had come to mean to her, and what it could
mean to a sad, hungry man who was obviously at the end of his own resources, Dinah felt a chill of apprehension.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. Let me get you a plate.”

He came back up the steps as cautiously as a deer. A starving one, in whom fear had been brutally displaced by hunger. “I
don’t want to be any bother.”

“This house is full of food. You’re no more bother than any of the rest of them.”

Leaving him on the steps, Dinah shut the door and snatched two paper plates off the table. She stacked them one on top of
the other and loaded the reinforced result with vegetables, hamburger casserole, pasta salad, and bread, taking a bite for
herself between every spoonful for him. She filled a plastic bottle with cold water. The man looked dehydrated. Ready to drop.
And Alma Woods’s casseroles were notoriously salty.

She shouldered the door back open and handed him the plate, fork, and bottle. “Don’t let anyone see you.”

“Thanks, ma’am. Bless you.”

Dinah restrained herself from telling him that he had nothing to bless himself with, much less anybody else, as he faded into
the darkened yard. She supposed she’d find the water bottle out there somewhere in the morning.

She turned back to the kitchen and removed the plastic wrap from a tray of sausages, stuffing two into her mouth as she did
so. It wouldn’t be so hard if Tamara were here. She should have been allowed to come back to help during the crisis, to handle
their mother with her particular knack. But instead, at the age of seventeen, her sister was as one dead. Still struggling
to finish high school, she’d been put away for her sins, and Dinah was on her own.

One of the women came back for more food, and took the plate from her. “How are you holding up, Dinah?”

Just for a moment, Dinah thought about telling her the truth, but she was in the service of God, separated unto himself, with
a veil drawn between herself and even his people, the Elect. She had to remember that. It was the only thing that kept her
going on days like today, when fear painted the future in dismal, watery shades of gray and black.

She swallowed the last of the sausage. “Pretty well,” she said. “Better than Mom, I think.”

The woman’s expression teetered between sympathy and disapproval of someone who would admit in public that she wasn’t grieving
her father’s death as much as her mother was.

Then again, Mom had chosen Dad.

The woman settled on sympathy as being more appropriate to the occasion. “Why don’t you go out front, dear, and be with your
mother. I’ll hold the fort and see that everything gets set out.”

What if the vagrant came back? He looked like he could tuck away three plates of food and still be hungry, but she had sensed
a painful politeness that wouldn’t let him ask for more. Dinah didn’t want this crowd of clean, well-fed people to know she’d
spoken to him. “Touch not the unclean thing,” they’d say, and they’d wonder what on earth she was thinking, to let an outsider—someone
potentially dangerous—anywhere near the door.

She was a vessel filled with love. Or so said Phinehas, the senior Shepherd over God’s flock in the State of Washington. She
had grown up in the one true way, whose people gathered in house churches instead of in worldly temples made with hands, and
whose Shepherds went out in faith and love, caring for the flock unencumbered by a permanent home, belongings, or salary.
But one should demonstrate love by encouraging people to hear the gospel, not by giving them handouts that only made them
dependent on charity instead of on God.

“It’s okay, thanks,” she told the woman who, after all, was just being kind. “I know where everything is.” And if she had
to acknowledge one more expression of sympathy, she wasn’t sure she could hang onto her composure.

The woman nodded and laid the plate of sausages on her inner arm, then picked up a platter of vegetables in one hand and dip
in the other. As soon as the hem of her black dress flicked out of the kitchen, Dinah opened the door and peered out. The
backyard was quiet and utterly dark beyond the circle of familiarity cast by the bare bulb mounted on the wall over the lintel.

“Are you still here?” she asked the dark in a voice that was closer to a whisper than a call.

Something winked near her feet, and she glanced down. The empty water bottle stood on the top step, the fork laid neatly beside
it. The latter was as clean as if it had just come out of the dishwasher. Had he wiped it on his shirt?

“Hello?”

But no one answered.

“Dinah, is someone out there?” Her mother came in with a couple of empty trays. “The boys aren’t parking the cars back there
in the dark, are they? They’ll never get them out of the mud.”

“I was just checking.” It wasn’t quite a lie. She’d been checking the vagrant’s whereabouts, hadn’t she? “Mom, you’re not
supposed to be serving. These people are all here for you.”

Her mother looked so fragile that the trays drooped in her hands. Her hair was beginning to come out of its neat bun, and
she hadn’t bothered to wipe away the tracks of tears on her face. Not tears for her husband’s death, which Dinah was perfectly
aware was God’s will, but tears of gratitude for the kindnesses of others.

“I hope not. They’re here for Morton. Out of respect. And don’t put the sliced roast beef out yet. Save it for when Phinehas
comes.”

“Phinehas is coming?” The blood halted in Dinah’s veins, and then began to crawl, slowly, pumped by a heart that had momentarily
forgotten how to work. “When?”

“He was in Spokane when he called. Missions might be very successful there at the moment, but when he heard of our need, he
practically dropped everything. He should be here anytime.”

Anytime. After two months away from Hamilton Falls, overseeing other congregations, encouraging lost souls to God with his
preaching, he would be coming back. Tonight.

Her knees twinged, their usual ache prodded into urgent life, and she grabbed a handful of carrot sticks, crunching into them
as though someone were about to take them away from her.

She’d thought the waiting bad enough before, when she didn’t know when it would end. The waiting was the worst. But suddenly
she realized that time could be compressed into short, painful bursts when the end was finite, and the waiting could actually,
physically hurt.

PHINEHAS ARRIVED AT
seven o’clock, parting the crowd near the front door like Moses at the Red Sea. At the sound of his voice, sonorous and as
full of authority as Moses’s must have been, Dinah ducked back into the kitchen. The kitchen was women’s territory; the closest
Phinehas got to it was her father’s chair at the head of the dining room table.

Better yet, she thought, as the women who had been washing up the dishes dried their hands and smoothed their hair before
going out into the living room to greet the Shepherd of their souls, she could step outside and check again to see if the
vagrant had gone.

She pulled on a flannel work shirt with a quilted lining—the one she covered her dress with when she fed the chickens.

It wasn’t that she wanted to talk to the homeless man. He could be a prison escapee, or a burglar, or any one of the things
that people became when God wasn’t in control of their lives. But somehow she had the feeling he was too weak to burgle, and
too malnourished to attack.

No, she just wanted to make sure he was no longer on the property. The last thing she needed was another man to deal with,
with his needs and demands and authority laid over her like a suffocating blanket. She’d had twenty-four years of it, of being
taught that women were created to serve God and others first and themselves last, and special women like herself were created
to love. That didn’t mean Dinah needed to take on the responsibility of another needy person. Her mother filled that department
all on her own.

He wasn’t in the yard. The gravel Dad had laid down last year crunched under her shoes. In the barn, the truck stood empty,
too, though it would have made a comfortable place to sleep. What would they do with a practically new work truck now? It
wasn’t likely either she or her mother would be hauling firewood or feed or even the animal trailer, though they could if
they had to. Maybe they could sell it. It might bring enough to pay for her tuition at the college.

College. A dream as far off as the Promised Land. At this rate it would take her forty years to get the rest of her two-year
degree.

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