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Authors: John Brunner
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Her sandals had come off along with her satin trousers, so now all she
wore was a pair of white panties, also -- as she realized when she noticed
his glare of distaste -- soiled. She whimpered with self-loathing.
"Get in there and clean yourself," he said, pointing at the glass cabinet.
"But . . . !" She stared for a drink-extended moment at the clear glass
walls; the door stood wide. Then she reasoned out that on the one hand
there was no alternative, and on the other she could scarcely be more
humiliated than she was already. Sullen, tears still trickling down
from her red-rimmed eyes, she obeyed: emptied her bowels into the pan,
flushed the mess away, squatted on the bidet and scrubbed as though
trying to punish herself.
"Here," he said, entering the compartment and handing her a glass half
full of cloudy white fluid. "Drink this."
She obeyed as though he were a doctor and she a patient totally committed
to his care. When the glass was empty, he took it back and threw her
a towel.
"Dry yourself."
"Have you -- have you something I can put on?" she dared to whisper.
"Where do you think you're going?"
He turned his back with deliberate contempt and, waiting for her to
follow him out of the glass cage, sipped at a ballon of 1858 Armagnac,
which had lost all its vinosity and tasted -- and smelled -- solely of the
oak casks in which it had been matured prior to bottling. The flavor and
the bouquet were unique; there was no other liquor like this in the world.
Behind him he heard her crying cease. When she stepped back into the main
room, the towel wrapped around her body and tucked in above her breasts,
her eyes were sparkling.
"It's incredible! What was it you gave me? I feel fine again!"
"That's what it's for."
"But it's amazing! I never heard of any medicine that could do that!"
"I'm not surprised," he grunted. And wasn't; it was nowhere on sale.
Nowhere on Earth, at any rate.
Better or not, though, next moment her face fell. Her gaze had lit on
the bundle of cloth he had torn from her.
"That was all I had to wear," she said timidly. "All my other clothes
are at the -- the house where I rent a room. Please lend me something
so I can go home!"
"No."
She stared at him like a child astonished by a promised punishment which
had suddenly turned out to be real. Her lips trembled on the brink of
renewed sobs.
He said harshly, "How much of tonight were you expecting to spend at home,
you little tart?"
"But I -- but I . . . !"
Her last resistance crumbled. She dropped forward on her knees, her head
in her hands, and the storm of sobbing which racked her this time was
cathartic. Easing his way to a chair, he cajoled her gently closer so
that she could rest her forehead on his lap while he stroked her hair,
and piece by piece he assembled her story.
Half of it was, predictably, a tissue of lies.
She was eighteen. Her parents had divorced when she was so small she
could scarcely remember her father, and into the bargain she hated the
name he had bequeathed her -- "Simpkins! I mean honestly, who wants to
be called Simpkins?" -- along with her given name, which was Dora --
"Isn't it the bloody end? Dora Simpkins!"
Gorse was a nickname from school which she felt suited her. Currently
she was looking for an adoptive surname to go with it. School was an
extremely expensive private boarding school near Kenley, in Surrey, not
because her father had been rich -- he was supposedly a ne'er-do-well
and gambler with more charm than persistence -- nor because her mother
had inherited money. On the contrary, although she had brought up her
daughter single-handed, luckily having no other children to worry about,
she came from an out-and-out working-class background and had clawed
her way to financial success by any means to hand.
"I'm following in her footsteps," Gorse said viciously. "And Granny's
as well, though she's dead now."
"Explain." He had let his hand wander from her hair to her nape; in a
little while it would travel to her shoulders. Then he would lift her
into his lap like a tired child, and explore the rest of her body. The
rhythm he was employing was designedly hypnotic; every now and again he
checked it for frequency against her pulse, which he felt on the side
of her neck. It was slowing in a reassuring manner. There was going to
be no trouble with this one. None at all.
"Mum was a call girl," Gorse said sleepily. "She never said so straight
out, but that's the only way she could possibly have met people like the
ones she knows: MPs, company directors, television executives, artists,
actors, poets . . . And she was only taking after Granny, same as me. I'm
not supposed to know about it, but Granny was on the streets. Had to be.
Granddad was captured in the war and died in a prison camp, and she had
five children to look after. They were taken into care eventually and
Mummy doesn't know what became of her brother and sisters. All split
up. Scattered. Then Gran died and something happened to the records --
I think a bomb or something fell on the place where they were stored and
they all got burnt. She advertised a few times but nothing happened . . ."
This was of no particular interest. Godwin steered her back to the main
line.
Having led a colorful life, her mother was persuaded by a literary friend
to try her hand at writing. Scornful at first, because she was effectively
uneducated, she finally yielded, and her stories and her books of memoirs
-- suitably censored -- proved financially successful. More and more she
cared about her writing; less and less she had time for her daughter. She
sent her to that expensive boarding school for, she claimed, the child's
own benefit.
"Hers!" Gorse said contemptuously. "Meant she could go gallivanting off
to Hollywood and places and make lots of money and screw lots of handsome
young men!"
Hollywood in fact was where she was at present, and had been for two
months on a scriptwriting assignment. She had left at the end of the
Easter holidays, even though this summer term her daughter was due to
face entrance exams for university.
But there was something Gorse wasn't admitting. Being left wholly on her
own to confront the stress of those exams was less than an adequate excuse
for doing what she'd done. He coaxed her up on his lap and fondled her
breasts, letting her murmur secretly against his ear as the warm breezes
wafted off a nonexistent ocean and the music sank to a level as faint
as its own echoes.
Oh. Acid. He might have guessed.
When she was fourteen, some spoiled upper-class bitch in the top form,
thinking to show off as "clever" and "sophisticated," brought back a few
tabs of LSD and gave them to those of the junior girls she had a crush
on, or vice versa. Gorse had begged one and been given it.
Which through a long and tortuous chain of associated self-justifications
purported to explain why, immediately before her exams, she had run off
to London determined to see some "real life" and wound up being given
a room in a house chiefly occupied by prostitutes under the direction
of a pimp with family connections or at any rate contacts in the Global
Hotel. He had advanced her what felt like an awful lot of money -- to
someone confined for three-quarters of the year in a boarding school,
a thousand pounds must still sound like a small fortune -- and made
it very clear that he expected repayment in full, and shortly. That
was not all he had given her, moreover. Modeling herself, consciously
or unconsciously, on the girl who had brought acid to school, she had
accepted several offers of this and that and the other, not only from
him but also from other girls in the house.
All very typical. Godwin repressed the urge to yawn and turned her around
on his lap so he could caress her clitoris. He made her come almost at
once, and while she was still gazing at him in disbelief as though she
had never before met a man prepared to concentrate on pleasuring instead
of simply using her, he rose to his feet with both arms around her, as
casually as though she weighed nothing, and dumped her into bed. The
lights dimmed automatically as he joined her a moment later, having
discarded his clothes in a few swift movements, and thereafter for half
an hour he concentrated on exploiting her capacity for orgasm. It was
extensive. She was purring when she went to sleep.
As soon as she had dropped off he stole out of bed again and sat for a
while in the chair he had left, pondering his ideal course of action.
It took only a short while to reach his decision. Then he made the
requisite arrangements.
After that he should have felt the warm satisfaction of a job well
done. To a limited extent he did, but it was all the same a trifle
disappointing. He would have preferred a more demanding assignment --
perhaps one which would have lasted days, or better yet weeks, rather
than one which promised to be complete in at most forty-eight hours. It
was frankly boring to have become so good at his work. And what was he to
look forward to as a reward? Half a dozen possibilities flickered through
his mind, but he dismissed almost all of them at once. One did linger,
but because it was overambitious and must involve great suffering he
hesitated to settle on it: who'd want to win World War III?
Well, maybe he would reach a decision when the time came. Several of
his very best memories stemmed from a spur-of-the-moment choice.
Having made sure that the room would be in the correct conformation for
the morning, he sat and waited, sleep not being essential for him in
this mode.
When he woke her, placing a glass of orange juice beside the bed with
a deliberately loud noise, she saw him first as she opened her eyes and
stretched, and gave a sleepy smile. Then she registered the rest of what
was in view.
Two seconds . . . three . . . her face crumpled and she was weeping and
diving for shelter under the coverlet.
" Now what the hell's wrong with you?" he barked, pulling it aside.
She curled into a fetal ball, striving to shut the world out with her
palms. But she had to choose between eyes and ears and preferred eyes,
so he was able to reach her without shouting.
Also she was moaning, and the moaning made a confused kind of sense.
"When will they stop? Won't they ever stop? Oh,
God
!"
"What?" And when, having waited long enough, he had had no answer,
he forced her to sit up and pulled her hands away from her face.
"Are you feeling hung over or something?" he demanded, not because he
didn't know the answer to that one. "Here, drink this! It's fresh!"
The urge to resist departed from her. Dull-faced, slow-moving as a
marionette, she accepted the glass and cradled it in both hands, trying
not to look anywhere except straight at it. She said after sipping it,
"It just goes on and on. I never thought it would last so long. It's
driving me insane."
"What?" he said again.
"The flashes!"
"Sounds as though you could do with coffee and a proper breakfast,"
he said, straightening and turning away. "If you mean an acid flash,
you're not having one right now."
She jerked her head full upright and stared to her left, across the
field-sized expanse of the waterbed. The sun beamed down on sparkling
white coralline sand beyond the window; the air was full of the hushing
of gentle waves.
"It can't be real!" she breathed. "It can't be!"
"Have it your way," he sighed. "I'm putting sugar in your coffee whether
you take it or not. No milk."
"I don't usually -- " She bit the words off. "Thank you," she amended
meekly, as though she had been taking stock of herself and realized that
some quickly assimilable energy was advisable. But her eyes were fixed,
like a hypnotized chicken's, on cloudless blue sky and foaming combers.
The spell did not break until he brought her a mug of coffee and a platter
of scrambled eggs dotted with the sharp green of fresh-cut chives. She took
the former and looked at the latter with regret.
"I never eat breakfast," she said defiantly.
"Tomorrow you can do what you like. For the rest of your life you can do
what you like, same as me. Today you do as you're told. It will be the
last time."
Uncertainly she set aside the empty glass and let him put a fork into
her hand. But she made no attempt to start eating.
"I don't understand. What do you mean, I can do what I like?"
"What did you think you were going to do when you ran away from school?
End up as a drunken floozie sucking off impotent Arabs?"
"You're disgusting!"
"Not half as disgusting as you were when you vomited all over yourself
last night."
She said flatly, "Now I know I am still getting flashes. I remember that.
But either that isn't true or this isn't. I remember the horrible dark
street. I remember the way my feet squelched in muck when I got out of
the taxi. I remember the stink. It can't have been when I was coming here.
Unless you took me somewhere while I was asleep."
"You're here, where I brought you. Eat those eggs before they get cold."
Mechanically she began to ply her fork. The first mouthful reminded her of
the existence of appetite, and she cleared the plate. Her face, though,
remained set in an unhappy frown, and between bites she cast cautious
glances at the sunny view from the window, as though challenging the
scene to go away.
She said finally, "It must cost millions. So why here?"
"Because I want it, and it doesn't." He took away the empty plate.
"Get up, go pee and shit and take a shower, and get dressed."
"What do I put on?" she snapped back. "You ruined the only clothes I had
with me!"
"Look in that wardrobe," he said, gesturing. "Plenty there to fit you.
But hurry up."
Very reluctantly, gathering the bed sheet for covering, she complied.
But instead of heading for the toilet, she could not resist the temptation
to walk to the window and stare out, raising one hand to shield her eyes
against the brilliant sunshine.
"You don't like it?"
"It's beautiful! I just don't understand . . ." Her voice trailed away.
"You wouldn't like to live somewhere like this?"
"What a hope!" She gave a harsh laugh and turned her back to the window.
wore was a pair of white panties, also -- as she realized when she noticed
his glare of distaste -- soiled. She whimpered with self-loathing.
"Get in there and clean yourself," he said, pointing at the glass cabinet.
"But . . . !" She stared for a drink-extended moment at the clear glass
walls; the door stood wide. Then she reasoned out that on the one hand
there was no alternative, and on the other she could scarcely be more
humiliated than she was already. Sullen, tears still trickling down
from her red-rimmed eyes, she obeyed: emptied her bowels into the pan,
flushed the mess away, squatted on the bidet and scrubbed as though
trying to punish herself.
"Here," he said, entering the compartment and handing her a glass half
full of cloudy white fluid. "Drink this."
She obeyed as though he were a doctor and she a patient totally committed
to his care. When the glass was empty, he took it back and threw her
a towel.
"Dry yourself."
"Have you -- have you something I can put on?" she dared to whisper.
"Where do you think you're going?"
He turned his back with deliberate contempt and, waiting for her to
follow him out of the glass cage, sipped at a ballon of 1858 Armagnac,
which had lost all its vinosity and tasted -- and smelled -- solely of the
oak casks in which it had been matured prior to bottling. The flavor and
the bouquet were unique; there was no other liquor like this in the world.
Behind him he heard her crying cease. When she stepped back into the main
room, the towel wrapped around her body and tucked in above her breasts,
her eyes were sparkling.
"It's incredible! What was it you gave me? I feel fine again!"
"That's what it's for."
"But it's amazing! I never heard of any medicine that could do that!"
"I'm not surprised," he grunted. And wasn't; it was nowhere on sale.
Nowhere on Earth, at any rate.
Better or not, though, next moment her face fell. Her gaze had lit on
the bundle of cloth he had torn from her.
"That was all I had to wear," she said timidly. "All my other clothes
are at the -- the house where I rent a room. Please lend me something
so I can go home!"
"No."
She stared at him like a child astonished by a promised punishment which
had suddenly turned out to be real. Her lips trembled on the brink of
renewed sobs.
He said harshly, "How much of tonight were you expecting to spend at home,
you little tart?"
"But I -- but I . . . !"
Her last resistance crumbled. She dropped forward on her knees, her head
in her hands, and the storm of sobbing which racked her this time was
cathartic. Easing his way to a chair, he cajoled her gently closer so
that she could rest her forehead on his lap while he stroked her hair,
and piece by piece he assembled her story.
Half of it was, predictably, a tissue of lies.
She was eighteen. Her parents had divorced when she was so small she
could scarcely remember her father, and into the bargain she hated the
name he had bequeathed her -- "Simpkins! I mean honestly, who wants to
be called Simpkins?" -- along with her given name, which was Dora --
"Isn't it the bloody end? Dora Simpkins!"
Gorse was a nickname from school which she felt suited her. Currently
she was looking for an adoptive surname to go with it. School was an
extremely expensive private boarding school near Kenley, in Surrey, not
because her father had been rich -- he was supposedly a ne'er-do-well
and gambler with more charm than persistence -- nor because her mother
had inherited money. On the contrary, although she had brought up her
daughter single-handed, luckily having no other children to worry about,
she came from an out-and-out working-class background and had clawed
her way to financial success by any means to hand.
"I'm following in her footsteps," Gorse said viciously. "And Granny's
as well, though she's dead now."
"Explain." He had let his hand wander from her hair to her nape; in a
little while it would travel to her shoulders. Then he would lift her
into his lap like a tired child, and explore the rest of her body. The
rhythm he was employing was designedly hypnotic; every now and again he
checked it for frequency against her pulse, which he felt on the side
of her neck. It was slowing in a reassuring manner. There was going to
be no trouble with this one. None at all.
"Mum was a call girl," Gorse said sleepily. "She never said so straight
out, but that's the only way she could possibly have met people like the
ones she knows: MPs, company directors, television executives, artists,
actors, poets . . . And she was only taking after Granny, same as me. I'm
not supposed to know about it, but Granny was on the streets. Had to be.
Granddad was captured in the war and died in a prison camp, and she had
five children to look after. They were taken into care eventually and
Mummy doesn't know what became of her brother and sisters. All split
up. Scattered. Then Gran died and something happened to the records --
I think a bomb or something fell on the place where they were stored and
they all got burnt. She advertised a few times but nothing happened . . ."
This was of no particular interest. Godwin steered her back to the main
line.
Having led a colorful life, her mother was persuaded by a literary friend
to try her hand at writing. Scornful at first, because she was effectively
uneducated, she finally yielded, and her stories and her books of memoirs
-- suitably censored -- proved financially successful. More and more she
cared about her writing; less and less she had time for her daughter. She
sent her to that expensive boarding school for, she claimed, the child's
own benefit.
"Hers!" Gorse said contemptuously. "Meant she could go gallivanting off
to Hollywood and places and make lots of money and screw lots of handsome
young men!"
Hollywood in fact was where she was at present, and had been for two
months on a scriptwriting assignment. She had left at the end of the
Easter holidays, even though this summer term her daughter was due to
face entrance exams for university.
But there was something Gorse wasn't admitting. Being left wholly on her
own to confront the stress of those exams was less than an adequate excuse
for doing what she'd done. He coaxed her up on his lap and fondled her
breasts, letting her murmur secretly against his ear as the warm breezes
wafted off a nonexistent ocean and the music sank to a level as faint
as its own echoes.
Oh. Acid. He might have guessed.
When she was fourteen, some spoiled upper-class bitch in the top form,
thinking to show off as "clever" and "sophisticated," brought back a few
tabs of LSD and gave them to those of the junior girls she had a crush
on, or vice versa. Gorse had begged one and been given it.
Which through a long and tortuous chain of associated self-justifications
purported to explain why, immediately before her exams, she had run off
to London determined to see some "real life" and wound up being given
a room in a house chiefly occupied by prostitutes under the direction
of a pimp with family connections or at any rate contacts in the Global
Hotel. He had advanced her what felt like an awful lot of money -- to
someone confined for three-quarters of the year in a boarding school,
a thousand pounds must still sound like a small fortune -- and made
it very clear that he expected repayment in full, and shortly. That
was not all he had given her, moreover. Modeling herself, consciously
or unconsciously, on the girl who had brought acid to school, she had
accepted several offers of this and that and the other, not only from
him but also from other girls in the house.
All very typical. Godwin repressed the urge to yawn and turned her around
on his lap so he could caress her clitoris. He made her come almost at
once, and while she was still gazing at him in disbelief as though she
had never before met a man prepared to concentrate on pleasuring instead
of simply using her, he rose to his feet with both arms around her, as
casually as though she weighed nothing, and dumped her into bed. The
lights dimmed automatically as he joined her a moment later, having
discarded his clothes in a few swift movements, and thereafter for half
an hour he concentrated on exploiting her capacity for orgasm. It was
extensive. She was purring when she went to sleep.
As soon as she had dropped off he stole out of bed again and sat for a
while in the chair he had left, pondering his ideal course of action.
It took only a short while to reach his decision. Then he made the
requisite arrangements.
After that he should have felt the warm satisfaction of a job well
done. To a limited extent he did, but it was all the same a trifle
disappointing. He would have preferred a more demanding assignment --
perhaps one which would have lasted days, or better yet weeks, rather
than one which promised to be complete in at most forty-eight hours. It
was frankly boring to have become so good at his work. And what was he to
look forward to as a reward? Half a dozen possibilities flickered through
his mind, but he dismissed almost all of them at once. One did linger,
but because it was overambitious and must involve great suffering he
hesitated to settle on it: who'd want to win World War III?
Well, maybe he would reach a decision when the time came. Several of
his very best memories stemmed from a spur-of-the-moment choice.
Having made sure that the room would be in the correct conformation for
the morning, he sat and waited, sleep not being essential for him in
this mode.
When he woke her, placing a glass of orange juice beside the bed with
a deliberately loud noise, she saw him first as she opened her eyes and
stretched, and gave a sleepy smile. Then she registered the rest of what
was in view.
Two seconds . . . three . . . her face crumpled and she was weeping and
diving for shelter under the coverlet.
" Now what the hell's wrong with you?" he barked, pulling it aside.
She curled into a fetal ball, striving to shut the world out with her
palms. But she had to choose between eyes and ears and preferred eyes,
so he was able to reach her without shouting.
Also she was moaning, and the moaning made a confused kind of sense.
"When will they stop? Won't they ever stop? Oh,
God
!"
"What?" And when, having waited long enough, he had had no answer,
he forced her to sit up and pulled her hands away from her face.
"Are you feeling hung over or something?" he demanded, not because he
didn't know the answer to that one. "Here, drink this! It's fresh!"
The urge to resist departed from her. Dull-faced, slow-moving as a
marionette, she accepted the glass and cradled it in both hands, trying
not to look anywhere except straight at it. She said after sipping it,
"It just goes on and on. I never thought it would last so long. It's
driving me insane."
"What?" he said again.
"The flashes!"
"Sounds as though you could do with coffee and a proper breakfast,"
he said, straightening and turning away. "If you mean an acid flash,
you're not having one right now."
She jerked her head full upright and stared to her left, across the
field-sized expanse of the waterbed. The sun beamed down on sparkling
white coralline sand beyond the window; the air was full of the hushing
of gentle waves.
"It can't be real!" she breathed. "It can't be!"
"Have it your way," he sighed. "I'm putting sugar in your coffee whether
you take it or not. No milk."
"I don't usually -- " She bit the words off. "Thank you," she amended
meekly, as though she had been taking stock of herself and realized that
some quickly assimilable energy was advisable. But her eyes were fixed,
like a hypnotized chicken's, on cloudless blue sky and foaming combers.
The spell did not break until he brought her a mug of coffee and a platter
of scrambled eggs dotted with the sharp green of fresh-cut chives. She took
the former and looked at the latter with regret.
"I never eat breakfast," she said defiantly.
"Tomorrow you can do what you like. For the rest of your life you can do
what you like, same as me. Today you do as you're told. It will be the
last time."
Uncertainly she set aside the empty glass and let him put a fork into
her hand. But she made no attempt to start eating.
"I don't understand. What do you mean, I can do what I like?"
"What did you think you were going to do when you ran away from school?
End up as a drunken floozie sucking off impotent Arabs?"
"You're disgusting!"
"Not half as disgusting as you were when you vomited all over yourself
last night."
She said flatly, "Now I know I am still getting flashes. I remember that.
But either that isn't true or this isn't. I remember the horrible dark
street. I remember the way my feet squelched in muck when I got out of
the taxi. I remember the stink. It can't have been when I was coming here.
Unless you took me somewhere while I was asleep."
"You're here, where I brought you. Eat those eggs before they get cold."
Mechanically she began to ply her fork. The first mouthful reminded her of
the existence of appetite, and she cleared the plate. Her face, though,
remained set in an unhappy frown, and between bites she cast cautious
glances at the sunny view from the window, as though challenging the
scene to go away.
She said finally, "It must cost millions. So why here?"
"Because I want it, and it doesn't." He took away the empty plate.
"Get up, go pee and shit and take a shower, and get dressed."
"What do I put on?" she snapped back. "You ruined the only clothes I had
with me!"
"Look in that wardrobe," he said, gesturing. "Plenty there to fit you.
But hurry up."
Very reluctantly, gathering the bed sheet for covering, she complied.
But instead of heading for the toilet, she could not resist the temptation
to walk to the window and stare out, raising one hand to shield her eyes
against the brilliant sunshine.
"You don't like it?"
"It's beautiful! I just don't understand . . ." Her voice trailed away.
"You wouldn't like to live somewhere like this?"
"What a hope!" She gave a harsh laugh and turned her back to the window.
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