Philippa Gregory 3-Book Tudor Collection 1 (187 page)

I am back in my old rooms at Hampton Court and sometimes, when I go from the garden to the queen's rooms, it is as if time has stood still and I am still a bride with everything to hope for, my sister-in-law is on the throne of England, expecting her first child, my husband has just been given the title of Lord Rochford, and my nephew will be the next King of England.

Sometimes, when I pause by one of the wide-paned windows and look down to the garden running down to the river I think I might almost see Anne and George walking down the gravelled paths, her hand tucked in his, their heads close together. I think I might watch them again, as I used constantly to watch them then, and see his little gestures of affection, his hand in the small of her aching back, her head brushing his shoulder. When she was with child she used to cling to him for comfort and he was always tender with her, the sister who might be carrying the next King of England in her belly. But when I was big with my child, it was during our last months together and he never took my hand or felt any sympathy for my fatigue. He never put his hand on my swelling belly to feel the baby move, he never put my hand in his arm and encouraged me to lean on him. There was so much that we never did together that I miss now. If we had been happily married I could not be more filled with regret at the loss of him.
We had so much left unfinished and unsaid between the two of us; and it will never be said or finished now. When he was dead I sent his son away. He is being raised by friends of the Howards and he will enter the church, I have no ambition for him. I lost the great Boleyn inheritance that I was amassing for him, and there is no credit to be had from his family name; only shame. When I lost the two of them, Anne and George, I lost everything.

My lord the Duke of Norfolk is returned from his mission to France and closets himself with the king for hours. He is in the highest of favour, anyone can see that he has brought the king good news from Paris. If I could not see the rise of our family in the swagger of our men, in our ally Archbishop Gardiner's added air of authority, in the appearance of rosaries and crucifixes at belts and throats, I would see it in the decline of the party of reform: Thomas Cromwell's ill-concealed bad temper, the quiet thoughtfulness of Archbishop Cranmer, the way they seek to see the king and cannot get an interview with him. If I read the signs correctly then our party, the Howards and the Papists, are in the ascendant once more. We have our faith, we have our traditions, and we have the girl that is taking the king's eye. Thomas Cromwell has sucked the church dry, he has no more wealth to offer the king, and his girl, the queen, may learn English but cannot learn how to flirt. If I were an undecided courtier I would find a way to befriend the Duke of Norfolk and join his side.

He summons me to his rooms. I go to him down the familiar corridors, the smell of lavender and rosemary around my feet from the strewing herbs, the light from the river falling through the great windows ahead of me, and it is as if their ghosts are running just ahead of me, down the panelled gallery, as if her skirt has just flicked out of sight around the corner, as if I can hear my husband's easy laughter still on the sunlit air. If I went a little faster I would catch them – and so even now, it is just as it always was. I always felt that
if only I could go a little faster I would catch them, and learn the secrets they shared.

I hurry despite myself but when I round the corner the panelled corridor is empty but for the Howard guards at the door and they have seen no ghosts. I have lost the two of them, as I always did. They are too fast for me in death as they were in life. They didn't wait for me, they never wanted me with them. The guards knock and swing open the door for me, and I go in.

‘How is the queen?' the duke asks abruptly from his seat behind a table, and I have to remember that it is a new queen and not our beloved, infuriating Anne.

‘She is in good spirits and good looks,' I say. But she will never be the beauty that our girl was.

‘Has he had her?'

This is crude, but I assume he is tired from his journey and has no time for the courtesies.

‘He has not. As far as I can tell, he is still incapable.'

There is a long pause while he rises from his chair and goes to the window to look out. I think of when we stood here before, when he asked me about Anne and George, when he looked out of the window to see them walking on the gravelled paths down to the river. I wonder if he can see them still, even now, as I can. He asked me then if I envied her, if I would be prepared to act against her. He said I might save my husband by putting her at risk. He asked me if I loved George more than her. He asked me if I would mind very much if she were dead.

His next question breaks into the memories that I wish I could forget. ‘Do you think he might have been …' He pauses. ‘Ill-wished?'

Ill-wished? I can hardly believe what I am hearing. Is the duke seriously suggesting that the king is impotent with his wife as a result of a curse, or a spell, or an ill-wishing? Of course the law of the land says that impotence in a healthy man can only be caused by the
action of a witch; but in real life everyone knows that illness or old age can render a man feeble and the king is grossly fat, almost paralysed with pain and sick as a dog in both body and soul. Ill-wishing? The last time the king claimed to be a victim of ill-wishing, the woman he accused was my sister-in-law Anne, who went to the block, guilty of witchcraft, the evidence being the king's impotence with her and her lust with other men.

‘You cannot think that the queen …' I break off. ‘No-one could think that
this
queen … that yet another queen …' The suggestion is so preposterous and so fraught with danger I cannot even put it into words. ‘The country would not stand … nobody would believe it … not again …' I break off. ‘He can't go on doing this …'

‘I am thinking nothing. But if he is unmanned then someone must be ill-wishing him. Who could it be, if not her?'

I am silent. If the duke is collecting evidence of the queen ill-wishing her husband, then she is a dead woman.

‘He has no desire for the queen at the moment,' I begin. ‘But surely it is nothing worse than that? Desire may come. After all, he is not a young man, he is not a well man.'

He nods. I am trying to judge what he wants to hear. ‘And he has desire for others,' I go on.

‘Ah, this proves the accusation,' he says slickly. ‘It could be that he has been ill-wished only when he lies with the queen, so that he cannot be a man with her, so he cannot give England a son and heir.'

‘If you say so,' I agree. Pointless to say that it is far more likely that since he is old and often ill, he has not the lust that he used to have; and only a little slut like Katherine Howard with her tricks and her charm can arouse him.

‘So who would ill-wish him?' he persists.

I shrug. Whoever I name should say their farewells, for if charged with witchcraft against the king, then they are dead. There can be
no proof of innocence and no plea of not guilty; under the new laws any treasonous intent, any thought is a crime as grave as the deed itself. King Henry has passed a law against his people thinking, and his people dare not think that he is wrong. ‘I don't know who would do such wickedness,' I say firmly. ‘I cannot imagine.'

‘Does the queen entertain Lutherans?'

‘No, never.' This is true, she is most careful to conform to English ways and takes Mass according to the rules of Archbishop Cranmer, as if she were another Jane Seymour, born to serve.

‘Does she see Papists?'

I am astounded by this question. This is a girl from Cleves, the heartland of reform. She was raised to think of Papists as Satan on earth. ‘Of course not! She was born and bred a Protestant, she was brought here by the Protestant set, how would she entertain Papists?'

‘Is Lady Lisle intimate with her?'

My swift glance to his face tells him of my shock.

‘We have to be ready, we have to be prepared. Our enemies are everywhere,' he cautions me.

‘The king himself appointed Lady Lisle to her household and Anne Bassett, her daughter, is one of his own favourites,' I say. ‘I have no evidence against Lady Lisle.' Because there is none, and there could never be any.

‘Or Lady Southampton?'

‘Lady Southampton?' I repeat incredulously.

‘Yes.'

‘I know of nothing against Lady Southampton either,' I say.

He nods. We both know that evidence, especially of witchcraft and ill-wishing, is not hard to create. It is a whisper, and then an accusation, and then a shower of lies, and then a show trial and then a sentence. It was done before to rid the king of a wife he did not want, a woman who could be sent to the block without her family lifting a finger to save her.

He nods, and I wait for long moments in silent dread, thinking that he may order me to frame evidence that will be the death of an innocent woman, thinking what I can say if he makes such a terrible demand of me. Hoping that I can find the courage to refuse him, knowing that I will not. But he says nothing, so I curtsey to him and move towards the door; perhaps he has finished with me.

‘He will find evidence of a plot,' he predicts as my hand is on the brass latch.

‘He will find evidence against her, you know.'

At once I freeze. ‘God help her.'

‘He will find evidence that either the Papists or the Lutherans have set a witch in his household to unman him.'

I try to keep my face expressionless; but this is such a disaster for the queen, perhaps such danger for me, that I can feel my panic rising at my uncle's calm words.

‘Better for us if he names Lutherans as the traitors,' he reminds me. ‘And not our party.'

‘Yes,' I agree.

‘Or if he does not seek her death he will get a divorce on the grounds that she was pre-contracted, if that fails he will get a divorce on the grounds that he did not desire her and so he did not consent to the wedding.'

‘He said “I do” before witnesses,' I whisper. ‘We were all there.'

‘Inwardly, he did not consent,' he tells me.

‘Oh.' I pause. ‘He says this now?'

‘Yes. But if she denies that she was pre-contracted then he can still claim that he cannot consummate the marriage because witchcraft by his enemies is working against him.'

‘These Papists?' I ask.

‘Papists like her friend Lord Lisle.'

I gasp. ‘He would be accused?'

‘It is possible.'

‘Or Lutherans?' I whisper.

‘Lutherans like Thomas Cromwell.'

My face shows him my shock. ‘He is a Lutheran now?'

He smiles. ‘The king will believe what he wishes,' he says silkily. ‘God will guide him in his wisdom.'

‘But who does he think has unmanned him? Who is the witch?'

It is the most important question to ask, especially for a woman. It is always the most important thing for a woman to know. Who will be named as the witch?

‘Do you have a cat?' he asks, smiling.

I can feel myself grow icy with terror, as if my breath is snow. ‘I?' I repeat. ‘I?'

The duke laughs. ‘Oh, don't look like that, Lady Rochford. No-one will accuse you while you are under my protection. Besides, you don't have a cat, do you? No familiar tucked away? No wax dolls? No midnight Sabbaths?'

‘Don't joke,' I say unsteadily. ‘It is not a laughing matter.'

At once he sobers. ‘You are right, it is not. So who is the witch who is unmanning the king?'

‘I don't know. None of her ladies. None of us.'

‘Perhaps it might be the queen herself?' he suggests quietly.

‘Her brother would defend her,' I gabble. ‘Even if you do not need his alliance, even if you have come home from France with a promise of their friendship, you surely cannot risk her brother's enmity? He could raise the Protestant league against us.'

He shrugs. ‘I think you will find he may not defend her. And I have indeed secured the friendship of France, whatever happens next.'

‘I congratulate you. But the queen is the sister of the Duke of Cleves. She cannot be named as a witch and strangled by a village blacksmith and buried at a crossroads with a stake through her heart.'

He spreads his hands as if he had nothing to do with these decisions. ‘I don't know. I merely serve His Majesty. We will have to see. But you should watch her closely.'

‘I am to watch her for witchcraft?' I can hardly keep the incredulity from my voice.

‘For evidence,' he says. ‘If the king wants evidence, of anything, then we Howards will give it to him.' He pauses. ‘Won't we?'

I am silent.

‘As we always have done.' He waits for my assent. ‘Won't we?'

‘Yes, my lord.'

Thomas Culpepper, my kinsman, in the king's service and high in his favour for no better reason than his pretty face and his deep blue eyes, is a rogue and a promise breaker, and I shall see him no more.

I first saw him years ago, when he came to visit my step-grandmother at Horsham and she would make a fuss over him and swear he would go far. I daresay he didn't even see me then, though now he swears that I was the prettiest maid at Horsham and always his favourite. It's true that I saw him. I was in love with Henry Manox then, the nobody; but I could not help but notice Thomas Culpepper. I think even if I were betrothed to the greatest man in the land I would notice Thomas Culpepper. Anybody would. Half the ladies of the court are driven mad for love of him.

He has dark curly hair and eyes that are very blue, and when he laughs his voice cracks on his laughter in a way which is so funny that it makes me want to laugh, just for hearing it. He is the most handsome man at court, without doubt. The king adores him because he is witty and merry and a wonderful dancer and a great huntsman and as brave as a knight in a jousting tournament. The king has him at his side, night and day, and calls him his pretty boy and his little knight. He sleeps in the king's bedchamber to serve him in the night and he has hands so gentle that the king would rather he dress the wound on his leg than any apothecary or nurse.

All the girls have seen how much I like him and they swear that we should marry, being cousins, but he has no money to his name and I have no dowry and so how would that ever serve us? But if I were to choose one man in the world to marry, it would be him. A naughtier smile I have never seen in my life and when he looks at me, it feels as if he is undressing me and then stroking me all over.

Thank God that now I am one of the queen's ladies and she such a strict and modest queen there will be none of that, though if he had come to the dormitory at Lambeth I swear he could have come to my bed and found a warm welcome there. I should have thrown my handsome Francis back to Joan Bulmer if I had been given a chance at a boy like Tom Culpepper.

He is back at court after resting at his home from his wounding in the joust. He took a bad blow but he says he is young, and young bones mend quickly. It is true, he is young and as filled with life as a hare, leaping for no reason in a spring field. You only have to look at him to see the joy going through his veins. He is like quicksilver, he is like a spring wind blowing. I am glad he has come back to court, even in Lent he makes the place more merry. But just this very morning he has made me wait an hour for him in the queen's garden when I should have been in her rooms and when he came late he said he could not stay but had to run to wait upon the king.

This is not how I am to be treated and I shall teach him so. I shall not wait for him again, I shall not even agree to meet him next time he asks me. He will have to ask me more than once, I swear it. I shall give up flirtation for Lent and it will serve him right. Indeed, perhaps I shall grow thoughtful and serious and never flirt with anyone again.

Lady Rochford asks me why I am in such a temper when we go in to dine and I swear to her that I am as happy as the day is long.

‘Mind your smiles then,' she says as if she doesn't believe me for a moment. ‘For my lord duke is back from France and he will be looking for you.'

I lift my chin at once and I smile at her quite dazzlingly, as if she has just said something very witty. I even give a little laugh, my court laugh, ‘ha ha ha', very light and elegant, as I have heard the other ladies do. She gives a little nod.

‘That's better,' she says.

‘What was the duke doing in France, anyway?' I ask.

‘You are taking an interest in affairs of the world?' she asks quizzically.

‘I am not a complete fool,' I say.

‘Your uncle is a great man in the favour of the king. He went to France to secure the friendship of the French king so that our country is not faced with the danger of the Holy Fa –, I mean the Pope, the emperor and the King of France all in alliance against us.'

I smile that Jane Boleyn herself should nearly say ‘Holy Father', which we can't say any more. ‘Oh, I know about that,' I say cleverly. ‘Because they want to put Cardinal Pole on our own throne, out of wickedness.'

She shakes her head. ‘Don't speak of it,' she warns me.

‘They do,' I insist. ‘And that is why his poor old mother and all the Poles are in the Tower. For the Cardinal would call on the Papists of England to come against the king, just as they did before.'

‘They won't come against the king any more,' she says dryly.

‘Because they know they are wrong now?'

‘Because most of them are dead,' she says shortly. ‘And that was your uncle's doing too.'