I Don't Want To Kill You (32 page)
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Authors: Dan Wells
‘John, you’re okay!’ Mom ran across the police station lobby and grabbed me in a hug, crushing me with the force of it. I flailed my arms, patted her on the back, and pulled away just far enough to breathe.
‘I was so worried about you,’ she went on. ‘I can’t believe you’re okay.’
‘I’m fine,’ I said, pulling further away. ‘Just give me some air.’
‘I never should have gone out tonight,’ she said. ‘I’ll never do it again.’
‘Please, no,’ I said. ‘Don’t let one crazy killer justify any more smothering; I’ll go insane.’
‘This is the third crazy killer, as I’m sure you’re well aware.’ She stooped to look straight into my eyes, though she didn’t have to stoop far. ‘Tell me you had nothing to do with this,’ she said. ‘Tell me right now, right here, that this was an unprovoked attack.’
I looked back, my face still blank and innocent. ‘I have never seen that man before tonight. I didn’t even know he existed.’
‘You swear?’
‘I swear.’ I looked past her and saw Lauren beyond, arms folded, face pale and tight; she was scared, but she was angry, too.
She knows I planned this, and she knows I tricked her into getting Mom out of the way. Will she tell the police?
She knows I planned this, and she knows I tricked her into getting Mom out of the way. Will she tell the police?
It was nearly two in the morning when we left the police station, and even later when my mom finally fell asleep. I lay awake all night, turning restlessly in bed. At three in the morning, still wide awake, I crept outside and into the forest, searching in the dark for Max’s gun. It was still there, a good fifty feet into the trees, untouched and unsuspected. I wiped a streak of dirt from it with my hand, hefting it, then bent back down and buried it deeper. Agent Ostler was still too suspicious; I couldn’t let her find me with a gun, even an unfired one.
I walked back to the mortuary, let myself in the back door and spent the next hour putting all the coffins away and imagining a hundred different killers – silent, invisible, unstoppable.
Where is Nobody?
Where is Nobody?
By four thirty I couldn’t stand the waiting and called Marci’s cell on our kitchen phone. It rang seven times before her voicemail picked up; I hung up, counted to three, and dialled the number again. She answered on the sixth ring.
‘John?’
‘Are you okay?’
‘John, it’s four thirty in the morning.’
‘Are you okay?’
‘Yeah, I’m fine. What’s wrong?’
‘Hold very still, and listen very closely. Do you hear anything?’
‘What are you talking about?’
‘Just do it.’
Pause. ‘I can hear the water softener cycling in the basement.’
‘That’s it? Are you sure?’
‘That’s it,’ she said, more awake, ‘now tell me what’s wrong. Is there something in my house?’
‘I don’t know,’ I said. ‘I don’t know if you’d even be able to tell.’
‘John, are you drunk? You’re not making any sense.’
‘I’m worried about you,’ I said. ‘That’s a new thing for me, and I’m not very good at it. Look out your window.’
‘You’re freaking me out, John. Just tell me what’s wrong.’
I took a deep breath. ‘I think she’s coming for you.’
‘The Handyman?’
‘The Handyman died last night; he came to my house, ranted for a while, and shot himself in the head.’
‘Holy crap—’
‘But I think there’s another one,’ I interrupted. ‘One that we haven’t talked about.’
‘You said he came to your house?’
‘I’m fine,’ I told her. ‘Now listen – you’re the one who needs to be worried. Turn on your light, turn on all the lights in the house, and then go into your parents’ room.’
‘How’s that going to help?’
‘This killer won’t touch you if there are any witnesses – or maybe it
can’t
touch you around witnesses – I don’t know. It makes everything look like suicide.’
can’t
touch you around witnesses – I don’t know. It makes everything look like suicide.’
She gasped.
‘And I think . . .’
I’d never told her about the demons – out of everything I’d shared with Marci, that was the one secret I’d kept. Did I dare tell her now?
I’d never told her about the demons – out of everything I’d shared with Marci, that was the one secret I’d kept. Did I dare tell her now?
I honestly don’t think I have a choice.
‘This is going to sound weird,’ I said, ‘but you have to trust me. I think this new killer might be supernatural.’ I waited for her to laugh, or scoff, but she was completely silent. I continued, ‘The Clayton Killer and Agent Forman were both . . . something. Creatures, demons, I don’t know. I’m telling you this because I think the new killer is the same thing. I don’t know if it’s coming after you or . . . well, I don’t know. I just want you to be safe.’
There was silence for a long time.
‘Marci?’
‘You were there,’ she said slowly, ‘in his house.’
‘Yeah,’ I said. ‘That’s how I know. I know it sounds insane but you have to trust me.’
‘Brooke was there too.’
That was a weird thing to say.
‘Yeah, she was.’
‘Yeah, she was.’
‘Did she see it?’
‘The demon? I don’t know. I don’t think so.’
‘She wouldn’t be scared now. Not after what she’s gone through, and with you to help her.’
‘Marci, are . . .’ I paused. ‘Are you okay? Did you turn on all the lights like I told you?’
‘I’m sorry,’ she said, ‘I was just thinking. Sometimes I wish I could be . . .’ Pause. ‘Okay, my lights are on.’
‘Go into your parents’ room,’ I said, ‘and stay there until everyone else wakes up; it’s the safest place right now. I’ll be there at seven.’
‘Thanks.’ Pause. ‘I love you, John.’
Love. Somehow it always comes back to love.
Do I love her too?
‘I’ll be there at seven,’ I repeated, and hung up the phone.
When I got to her house at 6.50 a.m. she was already dead.
Chapter 23
Marci’s body was curled up in the corner of the upstairs bathroom, her legs pulled into her chest, her arms draped over the edge of the bathtub. Blood was everywhere – on the walls, the mirror, the floor and ceiling; the tub was filled with a long, thick river of it, and the sink was full of tepid pink water. I stepped in carefully, avoiding the biggest pools and splashes.
‘Hurry!’ Marci’s father shouted into his radio, his voice echoing through the hall. ‘I want every paramedic in town in my house in the next five minutes, or so help me I’ll start—’ His radio crackled. ‘Don’t talk back to me! It’s not your daughter lying in a pool of blood!’
Mrs Jensen was in another part of the house, wailing softly. I assumed the other kids were with her.
I reached across and touched Marci’s arm; it was cold and limp. I turned it slightly, saw the wide red gash, and let go. Her joints had just enough resistance in them to catch my attention. Rigor mortis didn’t begin until three hours after death, at the earliest, and I’d spoken to her barely two and a half hours before; she shouldn’t have started to stiffen yet unless she’d died just minutes after we’d hung up – and even that was pushing it. I straightened up and stepped back, looking around at the blood on the walls; there was a crack on the mirror that hadn’t been there two days ago.
You can’t say there were no signs of a struggle this time.
You can’t say there were no signs of a struggle this time.
Good for you, Marci.
I took another step back and stood in the hall, looking in on the scene silently. I felt like a stone, cold and hard.
Does it affect me? Should it?
I’d never been squeamish around blood or death, but I’d never felt . . .
this
before.
I’m tired, maybe. Or angry.
But it wasn’t that. I was hollow and empty, like I hadn’t been in ages. I was a statue; I was a gargoyle. I was a piece of the wall, a part of the landscape, a clump of dirt. I was dead.
I am nothing.
Does it affect me? Should it?
I’d never been squeamish around blood or death, but I’d never felt . . .
this
before.
I’m tired, maybe. Or angry.
But it wasn’t that. I was hollow and empty, like I hadn’t been in ages. I was a statue; I was a gargoyle. I was a piece of the wall, a part of the landscape, a clump of dirt. I was dead.
I am nothing.
‘It,’ I said softly. The thing on the floor wasn’t Marci any more. Marci was life and energy; Marci was a whirlwind of activity and words and light. She was a smile and a joke, a telling insight or a flash of ingenious logic. This thing on the floor was . . . meat and hair. It was a body no one would ever hold, wrapped in clothing no one would ever wear again. The part of her that had been Marci was gone, and nothing was left but death and silence.
I heard footsteps in the hall; felt a hand rest on my shoulder.
Officer Jensen.
Officer Jensen.
‘They’re on their way.’
‘Is it you?’ I asked.
‘Huh?’
I turned to face him, pulling away from his hand.
‘Just tell me straight out – are you Nobody? Because if you are, we can end this right now.’
‘Hey,’ he said, reaching again for my shoulder. ‘Just calm down, John. I know this is hard, but you gotta calm down. We can get through—’
‘I don’t want to get through this, I want to finish it. Now tell me, because I am not in the mood for any more games: are you Nobody?’
‘You’re not making sense, John; let’s go sit down.’
‘Nothing is making sense.’ I stared at him, studying his face for any sign – any reaction that might tell me what I needed to know. ‘If it’s you, you can just tell me. You can say it right out loud because I already know. I already know everything.’ He was silent. ‘Tell me, dammit!’
‘Easy,’ he said, holding out his other hand. ‘Easy. Just take a deep breath. Nice and deep.’ His eyes were big and open, his mouth straight, the corners just slightly turned down.
Concern. Worry. Sadness. Perfectly normal reactions from a perfectly normal human. He doesn’t know what I’m talking about. He’s not a demon.
I took a deep breath and he nodded, watching me carefully. ‘You say you “already know”. What do you know about Marci?’
Concern. Worry. Sadness. Perfectly normal reactions from a perfectly normal human. He doesn’t know what I’m talking about. He’s not a demon.
I took a deep breath and he nodded, watching me carefully. ‘You say you “already know”. What do you know about Marci?’
‘About Marci?’ I looked at the Marci-shaped thing in the corner, tiny and broken.
What had broken it? Where was it now? And how could I break it back?
‘I don’t know a damn thing. But I’m going to find out.’
What had broken it? Where was it now? And how could I break it back?
‘I don’t know a damn thing. But I’m going to find out.’
I raced towards home, barely slowing the car at each intersection, and turned wildly into our driveway, almost hitting the house before screeching to a halt by the back door. The embalming-room door. I stumbled out of the car, leaving the door hanging open, and shoved my key into the lock on the mortuary. Mom and Margaret looked up as I threw open the door, perfect twins in their blue masks and aprons, setting Rachel’s features like two girls playing with a doll.
‘Out,’ said Mom curtly. ‘You know I said you couldn’t help with girls.’ I ignored her, stepped in and locked the door behind me.
Margaret shook her head. ‘She said no, John. We’ve talked about this.’ I walked straight to the table, Rachel’s body laid out before me like a giant doll, and picked up a scalpel.
‘John,’ said Mom, ‘I just said—’
‘Shut up.’
‘John!’
‘
Shut up!
’ I roared. Then, more quietly: ‘Marci’s dead.’
Shut up!
’ I roared. Then, more quietly: ‘Marci’s dead.’
They froze, speechless.
‘Marci is dead,’ I said again, more forcefully, ‘and whatever killed Rachel killed her the same way. Now you can yell and scream all you want – you can call the cops for all I care – but this body has answers, and I am going to find them.’ I stared at them defiantly, daring them to argue. Mom began to cry.
‘We hadn’t heard about Marci,’ said Margaret, stepping towards me. ‘We’re very sorry. I don’t think any of us are really in the right state to be here now, so let’s just wait.’
‘Step back,’ I said, putting my hand on the table.
‘No,’ said Mom, coming around the table. ‘Please don’t, John, please let’s just go upstairs—’
I caught her wrist, squeezing until my knuckles turned white. ‘Get. Out. Of my way.’ I shoved her to the side.
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